I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP!!!!!

wanttobethinagain · 09-23-2009, 08:03 AM

I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP!!!!!

So I called yesterday to see where we are in all of the getting approved stuff. When I talked to my advocate she said that she had not received all of the stuff back form the doctors she said that they will not count 2009 and I have to have 5 years worth of weight history. I do not have that because when I did not have insurance I went to the ER and they do not do weight or I just did not go see a dr. She suggests trying the hospital again to see if they had anything. If not she wants me to write a letter stating the reason I do not have the 5 years. I did giver her pictures showing the last 5 years as well as now I have been diagnosed with the sleep apnea. So I am hoping that will help. I cried a lot yesterday and even asked her should I just give up she said no. So I am going to keep at it.

Here is how I feel! Last year they did not cover it al all ok so I moved on now they do cover it I have done everything I was told to do every doctor appt and the diet. I feel like it is in my reach but just far enough I can not grasp it. I told my husband how I have prayed for this and how it was like God said here you can have this you can have the desire of your heart oh wait no you can not. It is very hard not to lose faith. I need to have this done I do not want anymore leg pain or having to sleep with that machine. I want to enjoy my life and be active in it. I know that I am coming under attack with this but man it still hurts. I even was going to cancel going to a women’s conference that I had paid for because I just feel so bad but I am not I am going to go and pray hard and get refilled. I need that. My husband has been very supportive and was wonderful yesterday. He can be a real negative person sometimes but he was telling me do not give up. So I am not going to and I am going to beat this. I can see this. I can see the hospital stay and the day that I can step on the scale and see goal. I see that day I do not have to use the machine and can walk more then a few steps and not get winded. To play and be there for my grand baby, to be attractive to my husband again, intimacy is not real easy for me right now.

So here I am asking for a covering of prayer and good thoughts as well as encouragement. I want to one day be able to say I made it through and be there to help other make it through. Thank you all very much.

I will not give up no matter what!!!!!

amidala64 · 09-27-2009, 04:17 PM

What did Winston Churchill say? Never, never, never, never give up!

pattysparkle · 09-29-2009, 11:05 PM

Ronda,

Trust you are better today,...stop being so intense, it says the "government is on His shoulders", not yours....look through old pictures and write the letter, you will get through, God does not say you can have it and then take it away....."We wrestle not against flesh and blood, but principalities and powers".

Thank God for your supportive husband.......

You Go Girl !!!!

Patty Ann

09-23-2009, 08:03 AM	#1
wanttobethinagain Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Texas Posts: 242 Blog Entries: 3 Gallery: wanttobethinagain Stats: 285/267/125 WOE: Atkins	I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP!!!!! I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP!!!!! So I called yesterday to see where we are in all of the getting approved stuff. When I talked to my advocate she said that she had not received all of the stuff back form the doctors she said that they will not count 2009 and I have to have 5 years worth of weight history. I do not have that because when I did not have insurance I went to the ER and they do not do weight or I just did not go see a dr. She suggests trying the hospital again to see if they had anything. If not she wants me to write a letter stating the reason I do not have the 5 years. I did giver her pictures showing the last 5 years as well as now I have been diagnosed with the sleep apnea. So I am hoping that will help. I cried a lot yesterday and even asked her should I just give up she said no. So I am going to keep at it. Here is how I feel! Last year they did not cover it al all ok so I moved on now they do cover it I have done everything I was told to do every doctor appt and the diet. I feel like it is in my reach but just far enough I can not grasp it. I told my husband how I have prayed for this and how it was like God said here you can have this you can have the desire of your heart oh wait no you can not. It is very hard not to lose faith. I need to have this done I do not want anymore leg pain or having to sleep with that machine. I want to enjoy my life and be active in it. I know that I am coming under attack with this but man it still hurts. I even was going to cancel going to a women’s conference that I had paid for because I just feel so bad but I am not I am going to go and pray hard and get refilled. I need that. My husband has been very supportive and was wonderful yesterday. He can be a real negative person sometimes but he was telling me do not give up. So I am not going to and I am going to beat this. I can see this. I can see the hospital stay and the day that I can step on the scale and see goal. I see that day I do not have to use the machine and can walk more then a few steps and not get winded. To play and be there for my grand baby, to be attractive to my husband again, intimacy is not real easy for me right now. So here I am asking for a covering of prayer and good thoughts as well as encouragement. I want to one day be able to say I made it through and be there to help other make it through. Thank you all very much. I will not give up no matter what!!!!! __________________ Ronda I can do all things through him that strengths me Live, laugh,Love Facebook: Ronda Kay Kupfernagel Dudley

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09-27-2009, 04:17 PM	#2
amidala64 Junior LCF Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Clifton, NJ Posts: 46 Gallery: amidala64 Stats: 420/270/137 WOE: RNY '06/Weston A. Price Start Date: January 2009	What did Winston Churchill say? Never, never, never, never give up!

09-29-2009, 11:05 PM	#3
pattysparkle Drama Queen Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: 3-2-1......Blastoff !!! Posts: 3,343 Gallery: pattysparkle Stats: 425 estimate/375/ "281" / 140 WOE: Low Carb, RNY 3/11/09 90gm Protein Daily/ Bariatri Start Date: January 2002-Atkins/ June 2006-Low Carb 2007-8	Ronda, Trust you are better today,...stop being so intense, it says the "government is on His shoulders", not yours....look through old pictures and write the letter, you will get through, God does not say you can have it and then take it away....."We wrestle not against flesh and blood, but principalities and powers". Thank God for your supportive husband....... You Go Girl !!!! Patty Ann