Janet's Second Wind

[janetsbreeze]

Thanks Tini

[janetsbreeze]

So, last night, I fell off the wagon and then was run over by it.
Pizza, Coke, and cheesecake.
I feel miserable today - you would think this would be a lesson about binging but my brain is all ready to eat all that again. My tummy might say no on that though.

Back on the wagon today.
Somedays I hate this rollercoaster thing I do to myself.

[writermom]

Originally Posted by Martini72

This is not some kind of menageethreeway. You guys need alone time!!! U and K should be free to run bucketnaked!!!

[writermom]

Cheesecake is the devil. Seriously. Whenever you look at it, just picture horns and glowing red eyes. The devil IS in the cheesecake!!

[Martini72]

Yea aint lyin Laura!!! Pizza and Coke and cheeeesecake!!!! Yess the Debil's supper!!! I just hope the pizza was loaded with cheeeeese and pork!!!! You can come on back aboard!!! The stress is getting to ya hun. U can dooooooitttttttt! I've been on the wagon 2.5 days. I lost 3 pounds. Big Whoop. Lost these same pounds a million times over. Going on vacation soon and need the wiggle room. Hopefully I do well while Im away but I wont make any promises. Its a process. People who have been successful mess up to. We shall get er dun!!!!

[janetsbreeze]

The pizza did have cheese and pork ... the debil for sure!!!

So, today, I am doing a modified fast, eating as low carb/cal as I can possibly stand.
Have to jumpstart this fat body to losing!

[tiggy_oz]

Hope youre having a great day, and pizza free

[janetsbreeze]

Tiggy, you are back!!

Yes, my day was pizza free
Kept it low carb and right about 1000 cals. My weight was down to 178 - down 3 pounds after the carbopalooza!

[pooticus]

Oh man but what a way to go! Pizza, coke-sub-wine-for-me!, cheesecake. Dang! I've been dreaming of cheesecake lately!!!

Yay on being down 3pounds after carbopalooza! Sometimes you just gotta do that stuff hon!!!

You rock!!!

[Martini72]

WELCOME BACK TO THE WAGON TRAIN!!! U can do this. R-read the post where u were focused just a few weeks ago. If u stress, take a walk. This is what I have been telling myself. I think if I'm on plan I should lose everyday..LMAOOO!!! I have to get it in my mind when I won't lose everyday...lol I lost but now its a few ounces a day. I'm preparing for a bounce up too. WE can doooooooooooit!!! Pooti spells it funnier...lol

[janetsbreeze]

Well, I just got into a huge fight with K. It's been building for a while, the whole thing with P, and it finally all came out.
I feel miserable now, but glad it's off my chest.
I also have a splitting headache and want to go home.

[DesertGurl]

Sending you lots of love and hugs, honey! I'm sorry that everything exploded. I guess at least now that everything's out in the open the line of communication is wide open and maybe now she can see what it's doing to you guys. Love you sweetie, and hang in there!

[writermom]

I'm so sorry but you know, keeping this stuff inside is never good. It has to come out and sometimes it's for the best to just lay the cards on the table and try to come to some kind of resolution that works for everyone.

[pooticus]

[janetsbreeze]

So, after everything expoded out of my head, K and I had a long talk. I got all my "stuff" out, how I was feeling, why I was feeling the way I was, etc.
It felt good just to get it OUT, you know? And I realized that I had forgotten something very important - K is my partner and is on my side. I was feeling very alone and I actually wasn't. So that part was good.
Bad part was eating a huge amount of crap food, going home early with a migraine, and going to bed at 6pm. I guess I needed all that - I feel purged and better than I have in a long time.

And you know what? I haven't thought about P one time today where she was occupying my thoughts for most of my day.

[kittycitygirl]

Hugs Hun. Yep, sometimes you have to purge. I need to...but, no one's listening that can help I need a long car ride by my self with the tunes at full blast and a good screamathon where no one will know......

Ok, enough about me...hugs again! Glad you have a great partner

[writermom]

Good morning, Janet!

[janetsbreeze]

Kitty, I'm sorry you need a screamathon

Hi Laura!

I had a very bad eating weekend, but am not beating myself up about it.
Just climbing back up on that wagon

[Martini72]

ALLLL ABOARD!!! Soooooooo glad u got all that off your chest!!! So what u ate bad. I didn't eat that great and got a Poo Fairy pass. I have a verrry challenging week coming up and hope I can stay on the ole wagon with only one foot draggin off to the side...lol

[janetsbreeze]

Tini, you can do it!
That one foot will keep you in the straight and narrow!

[Martini72]

How goes it with K? Didu dee the steak and cheese stuffed peppers in Food Porn? WOW. I must have themmmmm!!!

[janetsbreeze]

K is wonderful, thanks for asking

I need to go find these peppers NOW!!!

[Martini72]

They are in Atkins Food Porn

Atkins Food Porn

[pooticus]

Janet, so glad you and K had a good long talk. So sorry you went through the angst and eating! I soooo understand!!!! MUAH hon!!!

Love you!

[janetsbreeze]

Tini, thanks for the link.

Pooti, I am so bad about keeping things in till I explode. I need to get better at communicating before the resentment builds.
and you!

[pooticus]

Yep, girl, holding it in helps no one and only hurts you. It makes you ill inside. Much better to take a step back and calmly communicate your needs.

(Ahem, but easier to say than to do!)

[Frenchie'sGirl]

Really glad you were able to dump that stress ball! It's always better to have it out in the open. I hope things improve for you. and the food? fogetaboutit! Just keep truckin on, you can do it!

[writermom]

Hi Janet!

[kittycitygirl]

I implode and explode.

I need to work on it too.

[writermom]

Hey Janet, hope you had a nice weekend!