200 Lbs. Gone, A Lifetime To Go!

[pcaltman]

Hi,

Menu:
B - coffee,hwc,splenda, 2 eggs, cheese
L - 2 hard boiled eggs, 1 oz cheese
D - spinach lasagna
S - 2 cheese stixs

Think I had too much cheese

Weigh-in:
Sept 1 = 157
Sept 2 = 157
Sept 3 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 4 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 5 = 158.5 (tom)

[Jennifer]

Originally Posted by NWLoser

Good job on reining in the eating. That is something I still struggle with at times. Especially this last week.

It's hard isn't it? Sometimes I just want to dive face first into a bag of Reeses

Originally Posted by pcaltman

Think I had too much cheese

Looks like you ate some at every meal & snack. It's sooo good and better than the candy I ate!

[Jennifer]

b - l/c cherry yogurt, coffee w/cream & splenda
l - none
d - 7 Tequila lime wings w/blue cheese, caesar salad
s - Gouda cheese, 2 snack size candy bars
74.8 oz water, can of diet Dr Pepper
1,094 calories, 80 fat, 43.9 carbs, 55.9 protein

I got back into the candy but I think I'm over it now.

I'm going to take a break from dieting for a little while. I'm not going to go crazy & I will be l/c the vast majority of the time, but I'm not going to drive myself crazy or deprive myself.

[pcaltman]

Hi,

Menu:
B - coffee,hwc,splenda, 2 eggs, cheese
L - 2 Nathan's hot dogs
D - girls night out but I was good
S - almonds

Weigh-in:
Sept 1 = 157
Sept 2 = 157
Sept 3 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 4 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 5 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 6 = 158 (tom)

[Jennifer]

Hi Pam,

Hope you enjoyed girls' night out & were able to take a break from all the housing stress. WTG being good!

Have a great day & talk to you later!

[Jennifer]

b - 4 slices bacon, coffee w/cream & splenda
l - none
d - grande Starbucks coffee w/cream & splenda
91.8 oz water, 1 can of Fresca
273 calories, 27.2 fat, 9 carbs, 1.8 protein
Too busy at work to eat lunch, and DH is out of town & I did not feel like cooking for myself.

I stayed out of the candy!

[Jennifer]

b - 3 eggs scrambled in butter topped w/pepper jack cheese; coffee w/cream & davinci's
l - herb cheese stuffed chicken breast, creamed spinach
d - tall coffee from Starbucks w/cream & sugar
80.9 oz water
858 calories, 53.9 fat, 12.9 carbs, 59.7 protein
DH is still out of town & again I didn't feel like cooking. Finally ate the lunch that had been sitting in the fridge at work since Tuesday

No candy and 90 days binge free! On to 100!

[ellgee]

Jennifer, just wanted to pop in and say I your post on Nikki's journal, backtracked to your weight loss story and think you are amazing. Truly a great example of what never giving up can do! Your story was so inspiring and motivating to me. Thanks for sharing it.

[Jennifer]

Hi Laura, I'm glad you stopped in! I'm definitely not a role model of the perfect low-carber, but I hope I can inspire others to never give up.

Thank you so much for the kind words!

[pcaltman]

Good morning

Laura I know isn't she great

Doing well. Tweaking things, like I always do Waiting for tom to go

Menu:
B - coffee,hwc,splenda, 4 buffalo wings
L - side salad, cheese, ranch
S - 11 almonds
D - 1 rosemary chicken thigh , 1 cup side salad, ranch
S - 1 oz cheese, 1 glass of wine

Weigh-in:
Sept 1 = 157
Sept 2 = 157
Sept 3 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 4 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 5 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 6 = 158 (tom)
Sept 7 = 158 (tom)

[nikkiluvslowcarb]

Hi Jen, you are such an inspiration!

[ellgee]

She is great! And Jennifer you ARE a role model of someone who is winning this battle! Perfect or not. And you ARE inspiring me to definitely keep going.

[Bejewelme]

Jennifer your story is amazing and again you are so real, it is hard to be 100% perfect at all times we can never live up to that, it is the day to day getting by!!!

I struggle losing weight anymore, I got to about 150 pounds lost and I don't know what I have to do to keep losing, I struggle cause VLC seems to be the only thing that produces weight loss but then I cant work out like I do, I have no strength to lift, exercising is important to me, so any suggestions would be welcome!!!

I look forward to following your success!!!!!

Do you have excess skin issues?

I had my arms done and my tummy skin removed, I was so glad to have had those surgeries, that was a disgusting reminder of the weight loss!!!

Amber

[pcaltman]

Morning,

Sort of adjusting my WOEing to weight watchers/Atkins. I know they are opposites but will work it out. I need to eat less meat and more veggies. This just allows me to stay within points better so I will lose the weight. It's a lot of work, but can be done.....

Menu:
B - coffee,hwc,splenda
S - 1 hard boiled egg, 6 baby carrots(2)
L - 1 roasemary chicken thigh
D - 1 rosemary chicken thigh
S - 5 cinamon crackers, wine Took one nibble and 5 crackers later

Weigh-in:
Sept 1 = 157
Sept 2 = 157
Sept 3 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 4 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 5 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 6 = 158 (tom)
Sept 7 = 158 (tom)
Sept 8 = 156

[Jennifer]

Hi everyone! Glad to see you, and hope y'all are enjoying the weekend!

I definitely wasn't perfect yesterday - the snack size candy bars called my name & I ate 4 But once I ate that 4th one I somehow knew I was done, so I stopped. In the past I was always going to get back on plan after the binge so it all had to be gone. But now that I'm giving myself permission to "non-diet" for a little while, that compulsion seems to be gone. I'm sure there's some psychological explanation, but I'll just take it as it comes and hope I can keep it up! I'm hoping that soon I can be satisfied with 1 little candy bar rather than 4!

Having said that, the diet mentality did creep up a couple of times Friday. Once of my employees offered me some grapes. I ate two, and felt guilty! There is no need whatsoever to feel guilty over 2 grapes. I think I was feeling guilty out of habit, but It also made me think that maybe I'm liking my reputation around the office of never eating, because I kept having the thought that I shouldn't have eaten at all, not just that it was grapes (formerly a "forbidden" food). And I have an appointment for my well woman exam Tuesday, and I'm stressing over the scale, so I keep having the thoughts of having to diet because I have to weigh at the doctor. I'm trying to convince myself that this is normal and that most people have those thoughts before a medical appointment, food/weight issues aside.

I'm rambling as usual Just wish that I could eat what I want/what my body is telling me I need, without all the internal drama!

[ellgee]

Pam - I bet you will do great adjusting to your new WOE. Weight Watchers always worked for me as long as I stuck to it which I never could! I am currently doing JUDDD which is kind of an IF calorie cycling. I try to stay lower carb (and I use TRY loosely) but when I restrict myself from any particular food group, I go binge-y bananas. So I eat a little of everything. That's why I appreciate Jennifer saying she isn't perfect. She's showing me perfection isn't necessary to be a success.

[Jennifer]

Amber & Pam!

Ya'll snuck in during my ramble!

I have to run a quick errand but will be back.

[Jennifer]

Originally Posted by Bejewelme

Jennifer your story is amazing and again you are so real, it is hard to be 100% perfect at all times we can never live up to that, it is the day to day getting by!!!

I struggle losing weight anymore, I got to about 150 pounds lost and I don't know what I have to do to keep losing, I struggle cause VLC seems to be the only thing that produces weight loss but then I cant work out like I do, I have no strength to lift, exercising is important to me, so any suggestions would be welcome!!!

I look forward to following your success!!!!!

Do you have excess skin issues?

I had my arms done and my tummy skin removed, I was so glad to have had those surgeries, that was a disgusting reminder of the weight loss!!!

Amber

Congrats on your weight loss!!! You are a blonde bombshell! WOW!

I do not exercise at all so I can't offer any advice from experience, but since exercise is important to you, maybe take a little time to eat like you need to in order to fuel your workouts without giving so much thought to weight loss. I'm doing that right now, not with exercise, but sort of putting weight loss on the back burner for a bit to try to establish as normal a relationship as possible with food. It's hard, because we're so programmed to be concerned about the number on the scale. But I'm sure you will find a balance that gets you to your weight loss goal (you are so close!) while still giving you the energy to reach your fitness goals.

I have horrible skin issues! I have at least 3" of hanging skin on each arm, and my thighs and stomach are all wrinkled, hanging skin. I look like a deflated balloon It is truly gross. Did you post about your surgeries? I'm very interested in your experiences. How did you find your surgeon? I live in the same city as the doctor from the show "My 600 lb Life", so I will probably try to schedule a consult with him, and I was also thinking about getting recommendations from bariatric surgeons. I know I will not be satisfied until at least my arms and legs are done, and until then I'm afraid I'm going to drive myself nuts trying to lose more and more weight, when that is not necessarily the issue.

I have to ask - did you get the girls done? I would kill for your cleavage! (Sorry if too personal)

[Jennifer]

Originally Posted by ellgee

I go binge-y bananas.

This made me literally laugh out loud. And now I want a banana - chocolate dipped of course!

I've had a few unintentional JUDDD days, but it would be hard for me to stick to it as a WOE, as much as I would love to be able to.

If you don't mind posting it on the internet, where in TX are you? I'm in Houston.

[Jennifer]

Originally Posted by pcaltman

Took one nibble and 5 crackers later

I would know nothing about that

I'm glad TOM took a few pounds with him. Always a good thing.

I can't wait to hear all about your Atkins/WW plan and how it works for you. No doubt you will be a huge success!!

[Jennifer]

b - 2 sausage patties, coffee w/cream & davinci's
s - 2 grapes
l - steak
s - 4 snack size candy bars
d - chicken breast sauteed in butter, salad (lettuce, tomato, blue cheese crumbles, bacon, blue cheese dressing)
2 l water, 1 bottle crystal light iced tea

[ellgee]

Originally Posted by Jennifer

This made me literally laugh out loud. And now I want a banana - chocolate dipped of course!

I've had a few unintentional JUDDD days, but it would be hard for me to stick to it as a WOE, as much as I would love to be able to.

If you don't mind posting it on the internet, where in TX are you? I'm in Houston.

Mmmmm, chocolate dipped banana. Maybe on my high day tomorrow. And you know, I've tried every diet known to man and while the low days are tough at times, I like being able to eat my "evil" foods if I choose on the next day. I just watched a documentary on BBC about how some fasting is protective against cancer risk so I remind myself of that when I feel like I might starve to death.

You are in HOUSTON????? Get out. I am actually in the Dallas/Fort Worth area but Houston is home. That's where my mom lives and the plan is to return in the next couple of years. I do miss it. My daughter graduated from UH in December and my son is sophomore there now. I live about 30 minutes south of Dallas and have to start stocking up on iron underwear to drive in Houston again! They be crazy! And I used to tell people, I learned to drive in Houston so I can drive anywhere. Well that was true back in 1980! Have you always lived in Houston?

[Jennifer]

Laura - I can't believe you're from Houston - small world! I am originally from New Orleans, but have lived here since 1993 when I got married (now DH, then DF, moved here for a job in 1992). Driving here is still crazy. Someone cut me off today, and when I honked at him he flipped me off!

Enjoy your up day tomorrow!

[Jennifer]

b (at The Egg & I) - 1 scrambled egg w/cheese, 1 sausage patty, 1/2 cup of fruit, 2 cups of coffee w/cream & splenda
l - none
d - bunless cheeseburger w/mayo, caesar salad
s - chocolate covered almonds, Hershey's cookies & cream drops
2 l water, 1 bottle crystal light lemonade, grande Starbucks coffee w/cream & splenda

Got into the chocolate again. This time it was chocolate covered almonds & Hershey's cookies & cream drops. I could feel myself becoming bingey, so I threw them away. I'm pretty sure that throwing chocolate away is against the fat girl's code, but I did it anyway. I could honestly picture myself eating it all at 2:00 this morning, and I do not want to break my binge free streak.

I'm just not going to be able to restrict myself right now, doctor's appointment or not. All of this started because I wanted a gourmet cake ball at the grocery store, but didn't get it. If I had just had one of those, I would not have felt deprived this evening. On the other hand, why am I so weak willed that I can't go for 3 days without a treat??? I somehow have to find the middle ground, but for now though no middle ground. I have to convince myself that a high number on the scale Tuesday will more detrimental to me than restricting what I eat.

I just love how I did a complete 180 in the space of one paragraph

[Jennifer]

I just ate more chocolate (Dove Promises)...UGH!

I'm putting it in writing - one more thing to eat tonight, and I will have to consider my binge free streak over

[Jennifer]

Going to bed now. Made it through binge free...whew! I was thisclose to blowing it, but prevailed. I ate more than I should have, but not to binge level, and I was able to stop when I gave myself an ultimatum, which I cannot do when I am binging. When binging I eat until my binge food is either all gone or I'm too physically full to continue, and even then I have purged so that I can continue to eat.

I am so tempted to cancel my dr's appointment for Tuesday because I feel that it is the cause of my current eating dilemma. Damned if I eat with no restrictions (higher weight on scale), and damned if I restrict myself (overeating, risk of bingeing). I think it is going to have to be restriction - 2 days to undo any damage done.

[ellgee]

Just want you to know I COMPLETELY understand where you are coming from.

Can you tell them not to weigh you at the doctor's office? I work for a group of OB-GYNs and we have several patients who do not weigh and we always respect their wishes. Maybe that will ease your anxiety?

I don't think you are weak willed at all! You had insight into the fact that what you wanted was that dang cake ball. Then your inner child got mad. But at least that inner child listened to the ultimatum!

Hopefully you won't have to worry about weighing and that will ease your mind. And yeah, you broke the fat girl code. Gonna have to issue you a citation!

I'm headed to Trader Joe's in Fort Worth today and am soooo excited. I went with my DH a few weeks ago for the first time and kind of fell in love.

Hope you have a relaxing day, Jennifer.

[pcaltman]

Hi all,

Oh chocolate covered bananas, yum.......

Doing great. wasn't hungry at all yesterday which isn't me, but I don't mind because I didn't eat much. I am going on a long walk today with the dogs and work in the yard. So some good exercise.

Menu:
B - coffee,hwc,splenda
L - side salad, ranch
D - 1 rosemary chicken thigh
S - wine

Weigh-in:
Sept 1 = 157
Sept 2 = 157
Sept 3 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 4 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 5 = 158.5 (tom)
Sept 6 = 158 (tom)
Sept 7 = 158 (tom)
Sept 8 = 156 (tom)
Sept 9 = 155

[Jennifer]

Originally Posted by ellgee

Just want you to know I COMPLETELY understand where you are coming from.

Can you tell them not to weigh you at the doctor's office? I work for a group of OB-GYNs and we have several patients who do not weigh and we always respect their wishes. Maybe that will ease your anxiety?

I don't think you are weak willed at all! You had insight into the fact that what you wanted was that dang cake ball. Then your inner child got mad. But at least that inner child listened to the ultimatum!

Hopefully you won't have to worry about weighing and that will ease your mind. And yeah, you broke the fat girl code. Gonna have to issue you a citation!

I'm headed to Trader Joe's in Fort Worth today and am soooo excited. I went with my DH a few weeks ago for the first time and kind of fell in love.

Hope you have a relaxing day, Jennifer.

Thanks Laura

I considered asking not to be weighed at my appointment Tuesday, but it is my first visit with this practice and I didn't know if that would appropriate, since I figured they would want a baseline weight. But I am not going to be afraid of the scale, I am going to own the number and deal with it.

Enjoy TJ'S! One opened in The Woodlands in July I believe, and one will be opening on S. Shepherd 9/21/12! That is only a few miles from my house (I am in Meyerland/Med Center area), and I cannot wait.

[Jennifer]

Hi Pam,

I love not hungry days

Hope you have a great day today.

Oh yeah...

GEAUX SAINTS!!!!