Becoming Wonder Woman After Spinning In Circles Half My Life

[Bejewelme]

I know you are in mean girl status Ang, I will be there the voices in my head are getting me ready, keep in mind i have another big thing hanging over my head, the smoking, by 1/30 I gotta be done with that, that is a biggie and the thing that has eluded and eluded me for years, I must overcome that, and that is going to be a tough one, but if I want that surgery which I do desperatly I must be done smoking, so I am going to have to suck it up, sucking up the eating isnt that hard, but the smoking is. I am hopeful that I will see results and get under 200 and that will keep me going with that, ughgh!

WOW how nice this morning being off, Day 4/10 ugh I think we are going to return some lego sets he got duplicates of and make a Costco run, so the kids can eat, LOL They love eating their way through costco! I see my trainer at 4 so a fun day of running, I can see all the house things I wanted to get accomplished will be passing by, something about painting the ceiling, getting all our paperwork for the mortgage together that's all boring crap, LOL

[ceecee08]

Good MOrning Amber!!!

Have a great day!!

[DesertGurl]

Have a great day Amber!

Gearing up for mean girl status I NEED IT!!!!

[Seabreezes]

Good Morning, Amber and all of my other friends on her journal. It is still pitch black here, but have a very busy day so up and about.

Lunch and dinner out today - but at least I get to choose what I eat. I will have a Cobb salad for lunch. I just have to avoid the carrot muffins that are served with it. They are like carrot cake and super yummy. I will probably be able to have fish for dinner. We will have that with friends on their cruise ship. I just watched the ship come by our place all lit up - quite pretty.

I think the January Challenge with have to have something to do with MEAN GIRLS AND ONE GUY in it's title!

Have fun with the kids, Amber. Enjoy your time off - it will go by to fast!

Hugs to ALL

[glamazon]

Amber, if you really want to quit smoking, and keep your family sane, I hope you will be getting professional help (as in a doctor) or at the very least get the step-down patches to make it a little easier for you! You've tried cold turkey a few times and I remember it was a disaster. You have a powerful addiction, and it won't let go without a violent and ugly fight. Try and find a method to make it less horrible! I worry about you!

[Izzysdream]

Wow, took a while to find your journal! I'm back, have lots to catch up on.

[janetsbreeze]

K uses the gum. Keep in mind she is now addicted to the gum but it is better than smoking.

[Bejewelme]

I know I was going to go cold turkey again, maybe I should try the chantix and see if it still makes me suicidal, LOL The last time it did, but maybe since I lost weight or something it would work, I might get that, I know a lot of people that quit with that, I got those weird dreams and thoughts so I quit taking it and then started smoking, but it did work, you totally didnt want to smoke! I dont want to do the patch or gum since its the nicotine I have to have out of my system and like with K, it just keeps you hooked on that, even though she is getting far less chemicals by not smoking, but it is the nicotine which inhibits the healing and what he tests for, so if that is in me, I cant have the surgery, I am cutting everything very close now to the wire as far as time lines- it started me freaking out today! At least I got to the gym, Ang I thought of you, dark chocolate covered acai and bluberries at Costco, I thought about punching the woman in the face and stealing her samples, that was some good stuff, I was so good and then ate my way through Costco, Autumn kept handing me stuff and I was shoving it in, totally out of control, ughggh man I need all this junk and vacation over so I can get back to business, there is going to be a serious lockdown on the kids and their candy they better hide it I want nothing in my view come 1/2! At least the trainer kicked my ass royally and my new weight lifting gloves were great that Tony got me, LOL

[glamazon]

Big Hugs, Amber! You have a rough month coming your way. I'll be here for you. Are you sure you don't want to revisit the patch? It's a step down program, and very slowly lessens and lessens your dependancy on nicotine. THAT'S WHAT IT'S FOR. Does your doctor have a weaning progam available to you? Nothing wrong with weaning, Amber! WEAN!

[Bejewelme]

LOL I know for everyone's safety maybe I should ween, LOL I know Tony is very scared as is Bobby, they know what a bear I am, but I think I want it more now, like before I thought oh well I don't have to do quit why bother, I know I can do this, if I could lose this weight I can do this, I always said I wish food was like alcohol or drugs that you didn't need it to live, my cigars I don't need and they certainly are not helping me, in so many ways! I am going to have a really bad month of white knuckling many things the eating the increased exercise and the smoking, I do this to myself!!! Now its time to pay up and its going to be ugly!!!

[nikkiluvslowcarb]

Amber, I'll be here cheering you on! Look at all the weight you have lost... You can do anything that you set your mind to!!

[glamazon]

Wean. Wean. Wean. For the love of all that is Tony and Bobby, WEAN.

[kittycitygirl]

Agree with Ang!!!

[Bejewelme]

OK Ang I might call the docotr tomorrow and ask about weaning I think Chantix is the answer!That really made you not want to smoke you start it for 2 weeks and smoke like you do and by even the 3rd day I had cut back tremendously! It really makes them taste like the crap they are, I must stop this,

[glamazon]

I'm behind you all the way! Every time you light up imagine my little face at the end of the cig doing this:

[nikkiluvslowcarb]

Originally Posted by glamazon

I'm behind you all the way! Every time you light up imagine my little face at the end of the cig doing this:

LOL!

[Jayce]

My sister just started using an e-cigarette...it's an electronic cigarette used to help wean oneself from smoking the real thing. You may want to check it out...she seems to like hers. Just to throw that out there.

BTW, I am SO ready for all of us to kick serious a** in January! I am completely confident that our group can do it.

[Bejewelme]

LOL OK Ang, I need Ang in her wonderwoman shirt with her mean girl face plastered everywhere, you are the queen of mean, and getting us going, I am gearing up although I am not acting like it, but I am, I need some time to gear up, LOL I know this week is wasted with too much crap, so come New Years I am ready! Feeling the way I do is a real eye opener, I dont want to weight but I will if I gained 17 pounds like last year I am going to shoot myself, LOL

[Bejewelme]

I do have the ecig with the zero nicotine flavors, in fact I have like 50 flavored vapors spent a fortune on them, but that thing just wasnt cutting it, but that was my plan to puff on that and I will use it!!! You can get varying grams of nicotine I thought getting the zero would be best, but maybe like Ang said that could be a wean, just keep getting less and less until I can get by with the zero!

[nikkiluvslowcarb]

So whats thing about getting mean I keep reading about?

[Bejewelme]

Our challenge thread we are on Nikki, I am starting a new one in Jan and it is going to be mean, if you join you are going to be accountable with food and exercise logs, weigh ins, its going to be tough, you dont report you are booted off the island! No prisoners, its do it or sink, I gotta get mean with myself, and too many of us have been eating with wild abandon and not making our goals, I wasted the entire last quarter eating here and there and everywhere, so now its mean girl come Jan! Ang started it with herself, getting tough on herself, and now all that positive action rubbed off! So join Nikki you are determined I know it you gotta get to 100 pounds lost you are so close!!!!

[Jayce]

@ Amber: Yea, my sister uses some w/ some nicotine...she's trying to take the levels down gradually b/c she said she couldn't deal with nothing all at once.

[nikkiluvslowcarb]

Originally Posted by Bejewelme

Our challenge thread we are on Nikki, I am starting a new one in Jan and it is going to be mean, if you join you are going to be accountable with food and exercise logs, weigh ins, its going to be tough, you dont report you are booted off the island! No prisoners, its do it or sink, I gotta get mean with myself, and too many of us have been eating with wild abandon and not making our goals, I wasted the entire last quarter eating here and there and everywhere, so now its mean girl come Jan! Ang started it with herself, getting tough on herself, and now all that positive action rubbed off! So join Nikki you are determined I know it you gotta get to 100 pounds lost you are so close!!!!

Count me in! To lose 100 lbs and see onederville I am gonna have to get mean! Exercise will be the hardest for me. But I have a few days to figure it out.

[Bejewelme]

Yep you have til next Tuesday to get it figured out, and then you WILL have an exercise goal to meet, if exercise is your struggle you are going to add something, at least 3 days a week, I don't care what plan people follow, you do WW, some JUDDD that doesn't matter but we can all do something to get strict and mean! You have been really strict so it won't be that hard for you, but if you are not exercising you will be For some like yours truly who has been complacent and reluctant to shut her trap in the face of social situations it will be tougher!

[Bejewelme]

Alright I did it, I stepped on that damn scale 212.4 OMG I want to cry but there is no crying only me to blame! In some ways I am glad it is not the 17 pounds it was last year, but still its bad and disturbing, so my butt is going to slug some coffee and then go run! I think I need one of Nan's water pills that might help get some of the bloat off, LOL The kids are coming tonight for the sleep over, it will be crazy here! But I love having them, I need to go find some colored bath foam, my niece loves it and I forgot about it which means back to Target again, LOL It was a mad house there yesterday! So busy day and night ahead, but looking forward to it!

[ceecee08]

Yes the bloat will come off... We all know this.

YAY for the niece and nephew coming over. DD is gone for a week at James Mom's in Nashville!! IT'S PARTY TIME!!!!!!! NY and My Bday... OH YEA BABY!! I can't wait!! I am going to take a pic of a few dresses I am looking at so yall can help me decide on what to wear. I never find any cute dresses at the dots here!

[glamazon]

Brave woman! You did it! Faced it like a champ and now time for the beat down! You'll be back in no time. I am thinking and thinking about what I need to accomplish in 2012, it's fun and exciting! Got the ol' excel spreadsheet going and I'm looking forward to lots of progress!

[DesertGurl]

Ugh, I weighed too and the scale was sooooo mean to me! So glad that it's not gonna stick or go up that is for sure!

Enjoy those kiddos tonight! My girls used to love that colored bath foam and the bath crayons... awwww I miss them being little anymore!

[writermom]

Good for you Amber! That scale is a wicked *****. But you are Wonder Woman and you will conquer the scale and the cigarettes and everything else that gets in your way.

Have fun with the kids sleeping over tonight. Are you going to Target in your invisible plane?

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[Bejewelme]

Laura- LOL @ the invisible plane, I wish, except then they would see my fat ass through the plane and call NASA for a UFO sighting, blackening the sky with its shadow!< LOL

So Target had no bath foam, WTH? I found one tiny can in some Toy Story gift set that I ended up paying $8 for, but my niece talks about this bath foam and my tub for years so I had to get it, I could'nt disappoint her, she is an elephant I swear she remembers everything she has really long hair and she would fuss about having it washed and dried I gave her a duck to hold when she was like 3 she still says I am not blowing unless she has the duck!

Angela- I got the nicorette lozengers, I always bite my cheek chewing gum so I thought these might help, all 144 of them, I will be ready I must smoke up what I have and none in the the house then I am quitting it should be around the second week of Jan, which will be good, then I will have had a clean week of dieting and hopefully see a loss and I will have one week of C25k in, and then be ready! Ecig will be fired up and all the little vapors are ready I am going to do this for freaking real!

I didn't run outside I went to the gym did legs, and ran/walked 2 miles on the treadmill, my stupid knee is still acting up. They opened a new Goodwill and I stopped there, man it is a mess, just piles of clothes, not sorted at all but everything is $1.29 a pound, I got a pile of stuff for $7 got some justice clothes for Autumn, and even a pink under armour shirt, talbots shirt, got a bunch of Fitness mags and the new Biggest Loser workout with Bob, Anna and Dolvett, anxious to try that, cardio sculpt or something it is called.

Went to this new grocery store that is seedy but the produce is nice, you have to bring your own bags and bag stuff, they sent some coupon for $10 off, so I was good and washed and chopped everything so it is ready to grab! Gotta say I put a hurtin on Tony's cello cherries, LOL I love them!!!!!

So dear husband now decides to get out the ladder and paint the ceiling when the kids are coming in a n hour and a half not that I am complaining, OMG do they think????

He finished my silver piece while I was gone, it is pretty I will have to take a pic of it for you, morado opal, I got the rock for a steal, and he cabbed a piece and set it in silver, very pretty!

OK best get off and get this house ready for more people!

I am exicted, Nancy from the challenge, might be coming to my town tomorrow so might be a lc meet up! That will be fun!

Cee Cee- OMG enjoy your alone time, work that man over!!!!

Ang- I am loving the honey badger avi!!!!

D- dont fret the scale it will all come off next week, find some sneaks cause you are going to be moving!!!!