Starting RIGHT NOW-my journey

[Psmileyf]

You are on a roll.

I've had people ask me if I am being unhealthy...as they shove donuts in their mouths

[Luca]

Today I weighed in at 162.4. I am still feeling sick. I will be going to the doctor. 2 out of 3 of my kids are also sick so I things are a bit disorganized this week. I want to stay focused more than ever.
Psmiley-it's funny people say things like that when they know they are being unhealthy themselves. I think there is a jealousy component to it. I also have people around me who constantly offer me bad food and say ,"C'mon, one won;t hurt. You look so good." That to me is someone trying to sabotage my success. It's unfortunate but true.

[Luca]

164.4 this morning. I think it is because I had way too many wings and dressing and not enough water last night. Trying to eat clean and simply today. I am on a antibiotic as well for a sinus and ear infection. Trying to stay very low key and get organized since this week was kind of chaotic. It's so hard for moms to be sick!

[Luca]

164.4 this morning.
It's ok- haven't been great the past 2 days.
I will try to step it up.
I really want to get a as close to goal as I can by the summer...

[Psmileyf]

I guess we are getting more used to the fluctuations in our weight...it doesn't seem to throw us off like it did a few months ago!

You are doing so awesome!

[Luca]

Today I weighed in at 164.
I am happy I am not more than that. While I was at a party last night, I tried to stay as LC as possible but I can tell some things were made with some salt or sugar.
I am feeling better already w. being on an antibiotic. I hope to be prepared as much as possible this week...

Thanks Psmiley. I feel like I am doing better w. my fluctuations just like you and I attribute that to feeling like I am in control of what I eat more than I have ever been in my whole life. (not perfect-but getting there)

[Luca]

Weighed in at 163.4 today.
Prepared a great salad for myself for lunch...hoping to see more results.

[Luca]

Admittedly screwed up yesterday, so I weighed in at 165 this morning.

[Luca]

164.4.
trying to get back on track-busy weekend ahead. i am throwing my kids a b-day party and lots of food and non lc yummy treats will be around.

Trying to stay strong!

[Luca]

Well-I messed up big time. BUT I refuse to dwell on it. I think many people (maybe even myself) predict I will fail and gain all my weight again OR that I will not lose any more weight. I will be different this time. I slipped up and enjoyed my kids birthday w. a Smores' but that's it. This will not determine how this day or the next week goes..... (167 today)

[Psmileyf]

Luca- I did the same thing last week and paid greatly for it.
But, one big gain will not break our determination to lose this weight and keep it off, right?

[Maximoon]

Hi Luca,

I am new to LCF and have been enjoying your journal very much, especially as you deal with the ups and downs of the scale. I deal with the same thing everyday, and it feels good to read that I am not alone with this.

I just wanted to encourage you and say GO FOR IT!

Have a great day,

Maxi

[Luca]

Thanks for the encouragement friends...But you are right Paula, this will not break our determination. The benefits I have felt so far have far outweighed the short lived feeling I get when I eat carby foods.
Woke up at 167 today-back to the grind. Need to stay focused.

[Luca]

164.4 today-surprised I went down? I won't ask any questions-I'll take it and keep working!

[Luca]

166- Ugh...can;t ever get that excited. I knew there was a bigger price to pay for last weekend's mess-up.

[Luca]

165.4....

[Luca]

165.6...I hate that I chose to ate badly. A week of getting back on track is a costly price to pay and a waste of precious time. ANd when I think of it, I barely even enjoyed the "cheating" I did.

[Luca]

165 exactly today. Ugh...it feels like each ounce is taking forever just getting to where I was last week....This beautiful weather is making me realize how near summer is & how cute all the clothes are. I realllly want to finally wear CUTE clothes. I want to lose 20 lbs by July before a wedding I am going to but I am pretty sure that will be too difficult. If I can get close to that it will be great. My other incentive is to wear a bathing suit w. out a shirt on the beach w. my kiddos and just enjoy myself and my family. Tugging at and pulling at my clothes, being overly conscious about the way I look on the beach and everywhere else is not fun and takes away from just having fun & living in the moment. I want this summer to be different....hoping for a good day today and a good week ahead.

[Luca]

Ughhhh-back to 165.6 today. There is really nothing I would of ate differently yesterday. I really tried my best. I am definitely frustrated this morning.

I reeally want to get into the 150's. I just weeded thru some of my clothes again. I am putting stuff away from the fall and hoping I will be getting rid of most of it come next fall. My current clothes spring/summer is mixed. Some stuff is too big and baggy but I can't get rid of them just yet. I think every ten pounds you lose you go down a size...So I am waiting for that. In the meantime, I will be clearing out some of the old, bigger stuff, little by little, including shoes. I have such old shoes! It's amazing how I felt when I was so heavier & how lousy I felt about myself. I would never buy myself shoes or a dress and all I would wear was oversized, plain, clothes-just capri pants. I notice a gradual change in me and I like it-it feels better even if it does take getting used to. Standing proud and wearing in fashion clothes that fit properly feels good and others have been noticing. I like it & that is why no matter how frustrated I get or how slow the weight comes off, I have to stay the course.

[Luca]

166 today----UGH!

[Luca]

164.4 this morning? Not sure if this is water weight bouncing around, but nevertheless I am going to be super strict. I have been pretty stressed out but I am doing my best to stay on plan. I know the worst thing I can do right now is not take care of myself w. eating. I would love to start exercising again. I was doing so well w. that last summer and early fall. I have some "nervous" energy that I feel would benefit from exercise as well. Maybe during this long holiday weekend I can get out and start walking.

[Luca]

165.4 this morning. I hate this up a pound down a pound thing. It is really annoying,,,,
It's been so hard to get back in the swing.

[Luca]

165.4 again this morning.
I'll take it but I have to step it up. I feel very disorganized and stressed at work and at home. This definitely impacts my eating habits so I have to be very careful. Interestingly enough, my mother makes comments like, "How long do you think you can eat like that?" SO, I have a long weekend home -hopefully I will be on it like I want to be.

[Luca]

165.4 this morning. I feel like I should of lost some because I did not eat so much yesterday but then again I did not drink much water. So, I am trying to get it together for this long weekend and I am relieved I will not be at work. I wish the weather was going to be better because I wanted to go out for some walks.

[Luca]

166 today. I'm ok w. that. I am going to keep at. I won't give up.
I know this works best for me and I know I can see results.

[Psmileyf]

I hear ya, Luca!
I am feeling the same way.
We both know this works...

[Luca]

165.4 this morning.

[Luca]

166 today. I am not going to lie and say I am not frustrated because I am. I have been sticking to plan. I have been hungrier at night and I think my LC snacking has been adding up calories. AND PLEASe skip this if its TMI but I do not feel like I have been going to the bathroom regularly (bm).


Well, I will continue to try. Sometimes it can be so easy to get down in the dumps about losing weight. The successes are great but the stalling and working so very hard to just lose 1-2 pounds at a time can be so discouraging.

[kare30bear]

Hey Luca!

Thanks for visiting my journal and sending kind words my way.

I have only read the last 2 pgs of your journal but will catch up on your journey, it looks like you have come really far and I know you have mentioned being in a sort of funk lately...just hang in there and it'll work itself out eventually.

I tend to let the scale and little changes get to me but I'm trying to focus on how I feel while eating. I am bouncing all over the place on the scale too, but I feel great (besides the bathroom issues too) . We'll get through this one day at a time.

You can do this, you've been doing awesome!!

[Luca]

Thanks Karen. I am going to check in on your journey when I can. I definitely find motivation from so many people like you on this site. It has been my lifeline...You are right...WE can do this.