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[Luca]

Today I woke up and weighed in at 172.
This is great...
I am going to keep on moving along and try to stay focused.
Hoping for good day.

[Psmileyf]

You are on a roll lately! Yay for you!

[Luca]

Thanks Psmiley-I hope I am.
I went on the scale tonight (I know I'm obsessing) because I couldn't believe the # I saw this morning.
I just checked and it was at 173.5.
Although rationally I know I shouldn't be bummed-I am.

Sounds irrational I know but I couldn't help it.
I guess I will see how it goes tomorrow morning. Thanks for the encouragement-I can't wait to be 50 lbs lighter like yourself.

[Luca]

I knew it was fluke. I weighed in at 173.5 again this morning.

I have to train myself to never get that excited about weight drop-it has to go for more than a week.
I'm still ok with it because at least it's 1/2 a pound less than the beginning of the week.

I am staying strong. One thing I have noticed about this journey is that no one else will be able to care about ME the way I can. A husband, a mother, father, your kids, friends, etc. all have their own thing going own and I really need to be responsible and give myself time and energy. It's hard to do that with little kids and a husband but I need to get healthy....and if it means being selfish sometimes,that's ok.
On a practical note, my weekend is approaching, I have to keep truckin' along. I need to go food shopping and plan meals. Making that spinach lasagna was great. It lasted me all week for lunch this week. I was full at lunch and did not feel the need to snack-so it worked.
Going to try that again-even though the grocery bill can get pretty high.
Hoping for a good day----

[Luca]

hard day today-feeling tired, so much to do, work related stress....
anxious about losing weight.
On a good note-I feel like I am looking less to food as a remedy for my emotions.
I am also getting full faster and having less cravings for carbs. Still want a sugar fix at times which I can usually find an easily solution for.

[Luca]

Ugh-today I weighed in at 173.5-then stepped on the scale again and it read 174. I am so disappointed. I feel like the day I was 172 it was because I didn't eat much the night before-I can't eat like so sparingly everyday.
I want to be out of the 170's so bad now. I am tired of being here.

[Luca]

Today I woke up and was 175.5.

I am so annoyed-because I stayed on plan. I may have eaten more than usual but it was all LC. Maybe not enough water? I feel very angry because this makes not like this way if eating. If I have to scrutinize every single food item I put in my mouth-I could do that with any other eating plan......
The whole reason I loved this way of eating was the delicious food and the sense of freedom I never had with the other ways.

I am not giving up-but I am very frustrated.

[Luca]

Today I weighed in at 174.
Have no idea what happened during the weekend.
Frustrated but determined.

[Luca]

Today I ate a cup of french onion soup(no croutons) w/a salad for lunch.
I feel bad because I know onions are not a great option.

I feel more stressed today as I am behind at work, grad school and there's always something I could be doing at home.
I guess this is how it will always be-there will always be some stress in my life and I need to manage it correctly not like I have done in the past. Food is not a stress reliever, a good friend, or a solution to a problem. I refuse to let my emotions get the best of me. My decisions have to be conscious choices. I want to start living and dealing with problems, large or small, the right way.

[Psmileyf]

Luca - good for identifying that you need to deal with the stress.
Any ideas on what you can do to deal with it?

[Luca]

I weighed in at 173.5 today-I think the weekends, when there is less structure to my day, I tend to eat more-still low carb, but too much.
Psmiley-identifying stress is a big step for me. Instead of eating now, I try to change my scenery and do ANYTHING else (watch tv, call a friend, cry, have a cup of coffee, take a shower, go to bed) anything to try and NOT eat.
This past weekend and even yesterday,knowing everything I had to do, I wanted to eat. I did, but it was all low carb. I have given in to temptation and have "eaten my stress" but I guess I am a work in progress.

Hoping for a good day-VERY busy day-things will calm down by Friday....

[Psmileyf]

Coffee is my go to when I am stressed. And taking a shower. At least when I am in the shower I can't eat

We're all works in progress. You are doing so fantastic!

[Luca]

Today I weighed 174.
ugh..is all I have to say. I am not sure why the scale is not moving...
But not giving up-feeling a bit tired and sluggish.
Hoping for a good day.

[Luca]

Today I weighed in at 174...again.

I went for a walk last night with a friend and I feel good.
I want to try to incorporate walking on my treadmill again-it's just been so hard to find energy and time.

There will be a party at work today and I am nervous about it. I brought my lunch and I plan to only have dips and veggies.

No sweets or chips. I just hate the looks of curiosity and the questions and/or comments from not eating.

Hoping for a good day....

[Luca]

I am 174 again today.

I am trying to have patience with myself but I can say that seeing the scale drop would be great right about now. It provides so much incentive too.
Work party was fine-had some dip with veggies. Didn't go near the desserts but I have to say, I was oddly not even tempted.

Staying strong and hoping for a drop soon...

[Luca]

Monday. Monday...
I weighed in at 174 this morning.
My computer was acting funny all weekend so I couldn't get on for longer than 6 minutes at a time...
I noticed that Saturday morning I was down ..like 172.5 then Sunday morning I was up again...I am pretty frustrated with it.
Then I saw old videos of myself when my oldest was about 3 & 4 and I was looking pretty horrible and depressed. I am glad I am looking better but I really want to be so much better than this.
Hoping for a good day ....

[Luca]

174 today.
I am definitely upset about being 174 ...again.
I thought I dropped a little because I went to bed a bit hungry and "felt" lighter.
I am not sure what to do? I was so hungry this morning.
I want to listen to my body but it seems like I am doing something wrong...
bad mood-

[Psmileyf]

I hear ya! I read something yesterday about stalls...I'll try to dig it up for you.

[Luca]

My scale was "moody" this morning and was not reading my weight-oh well.
Might be a good thing since I have been getting discouraged.

Thanks Psmiley-I think I read that thread (may have commented too) about stalling. The person suggested JUDD-which I do not think I can do.
I need (at this point) more structure and I think having "up" days could be dangerous for a binger like me.

I just read your thread about being tempted-if you ate half of that doughnut, do you feel that would make you overeat or crave more? or do you think you could eat half and go right back to LC w/out cravings?

[Psmileyf]

Originally Posted by Luca

My scale was "moody" this morning and was not reading my weight-oh well.
Might be a good thing since I have been getting discouraged.

Thanks Psmiley-I think I read that thread (may have commented too) about stalling. The person suggested JUDD-which I do not think I can do.
I need (at this point) more structure and I think having "up" days could be dangerous for a binger like me.

I just read your thread about being tempted-if you ate half of that doughnut, do you feel that would make you overeat or crave more? or do you think you could eat half and go right back to LC w/out cravings?

It was a blog on Facebook that I read. I will try to find it. I don't think JUDDD would work for me either.

As far as being tempted, I know I could eat half and be right back on plan. It is just how I am. I don't know if it would be worth it though. Someone pointed out how I would probably feel if I ate it...donuts made me ill when I ate them on a regular basis...I bet after not eating one for over 6 months I would feel very sick. I'll let you know what I do.

[Luca]

Scale has been not working-might need a new one-
It may have been a blessing in disguise because I was getting so frustrated and a bit obsessed. Two out of my 3 kids are sick-one is pretty bad. It's been a rough week -hate when my kids are not well. All, in all, I have been good about staying on plan and not overeating. This weekend will be very busy-2 parties-one baby shower. I will try my best to stick with my plan-I also want to exercise-hopefully tomorrow. Sunday will be too busy.
I also want to go food shopping (not sure with what $) and have my fridge LC ready.

Hoping for a good day....

[Luca]

Still did not get a new scale-not sure how much I weigh. I have been sticking to plan. Today I was at a party and did really well. Tomorrow I have another party. I hope I can do the same and make good choices. I have no clue what will be there and I cannot bring food with me. Sooo, I am hoping for some good options. Very tired. Did a lot of running around today-some more tomorrow and again no official exercise.
I may have to go buy another scale tomorrow-although its nice to not be obsessed, I need to track what I am doing....

[Luca]

Need to get a scale-maybe wednesday.

I ate a few bites of pasta at the party I was at last night-too much pressure from the table-everyone looking at what I was eating. BUT I did well the rest of the day and weekend.

So many events coming up this spring and summer-I want to enjoy them by wearing something cute and by feeling good about myself.

I also want to be able to afford them too-that's a whole other stressful issue.
Hoping for another good week-want to stay focused and driven.

So many success stories on these boards-I want to be like them...

[Luca]

STRESS!!
BUT funny thing is I do not want to eat-I actually like to write (or type) about it and do other things...

Hoping for another day of good choices...

[Luca]

Today, I feel better that my assignments for school were handed in .

I want to pick up a scale tonight-still have a broken one.
I am very curious to what my weight is at.

I am crossing my fingers for some results--I could use the good news....

[Psmileyf]

Oh Luca, I hope the number is good for you!

[Luca]

Me too Psmiley! How are you doing? You are focused on maintaining right? Did you ever eat that doughnut?
BTW-Thank you for checking in on me...I appreciate it.

[Psmileyf]

Hi Luca,
I did not eat the donut!
I am up 3 unexpected pounds. Kinda sucks. I am going to buckle down and lose 5 lbs.

[Luca]

I never picked up a scale-too much to do and had an event after school.

I am going to make a point to do it today.

I have been sticking to plan and I hope that it has made a difference.

[Luca]

I am at 172.2
I am happy about that (secretly wished to be 169).

Keep trudging along....