Amber's Journal - Journey to Onderland (and good health) - Page 8

ellgee · 04-27-2012, 07:35 AM

OMG!!!!! Please come rub some of that on me! Congrats!! You are getting so close to being in the 220s!!!

Happy2be · 05-02-2012, 10:54 PM

Hello my friend.... Where are you?

AsmallerME · 05-03-2012, 05:05 AM

I'm back. I was out of town until yesterday. Ate well at first and then ate poorly. I've been off plan essentially for five days.

back at it today. Prob won't weigh until Sunday.

ellgee · 05-04-2012, 10:21 AM

I have faith in you, Amber. You will be down in no time at all! Hope you at least had fun!!

AsmallerME · 05-07-2012, 01:12 PM

Too much fun probably. I'm struggling to get back on track. I know it's one day at a time but I'm having a hard time doing one good day. Ugh. Will try to report in tomorrow with a menu and stick with it...

Gracie514 · 05-07-2012, 01:32 PM

Don't worry Amber! We all go through times where we struggle. The important thing is to keep going!!! You'll figure it out

ellgee · 05-07-2012, 04:36 PM

And it warms my heart that you are human! You must know that! Seriously. You are a weight loss machine and have done so flipping well. But you also inspire me because even after you have had some not so good days, you keep coming back. That says so much about you, Amber!

I'm having a not so good UD today. PMS and M&Ms. Need I say more? And it wasn't the little single serve bag either. Today I was the M&M terminator. Hopefully I can pull myself together. I think I can because I've seen you do it!

Happy2be · 05-08-2012, 08:05 AM

SHHH, I did the same thing. Went off plan for about 3-4 days. I didn't eat a lot of junk, but took a couple day break from low carb. Yesterday I wanted to wait one more day.... but I just did it. You can do it!!!! This next jaunt we will both get out of the 200's!!!

We can do it!!!!

Potaty · 05-08-2012, 08:23 PM

misery loves company, right? I suck.

AsmallerME · 05-09-2012, 11:47 AM

Okay, there is no better time to update my journal than now. I'm already crying alone in my home office.

Might as well pour out some of this emotional craziness.

So, I've shared on this site but not this journal (at least I don't think so), that I lost my job. It wasn't my perfect job but it was amazing in a lot of ways. The firing or asking for my resignation was 100 percent political. It happened last month. These past few weeks have been full of stress and job hunting. I found a job and I hope it will be great but I haven't started it yet - I start Friday.

This afternoon I was calling some people I worked with at my old job to thank them and it turned on the waterworks again. I'm really, really going to miss these people. It sucks to leave a place you aren't ready to leave, no matter how great the next opportunity may seem

I'm also not sure if I posted here that we sold our house. It was all so much change so fast that I still feel so displaced.

Tonight is a going away party in my honor. I kept telling myself to get back on track with LC and JUDDD and kept failing. I told DH that after tonight's party (drinks - carby food) that I need to be 100 percent good again tomorrow. I need it. He's behind me and I promise myself, this journal, my friends here, that I'll be back tomorrow with some good stuff to report.

I'm over my sadness and pitty. I'm also ready to get skinny. Not sure what the scale says but I know I can erase the damage and get into the 20s in a few weeks if I buckle down...

Thanks for listening. I needed to vent.

AsmallerME · 05-09-2012, 11:51 AM

Katy -

I

you. You do not suck. Ever.

Melanie -

Thank you. You are doing so great!! I cannot wait to celebrate onderland with you lady!!!!

Laura -

Thank you!!! I'm glad that I can help.

You inspire me with JUDDD more than any other Judder. I'm really proud of you for sticking to it and overcoming the plateau. Now you are almost at your May goal!!!

Gracie -

Thank you for always supporting me. I know I'll figure it out, especially with so much wonderful support. Thanks!

Happy2be · 05-09-2012, 11:52 AM

Aww honey, I completely understand. I had no idea about your job. I can see how you would be an emotional mess with everything going on. Take it one day at a time and tomorrow I will be here ready to cheer you on 100%!!!!!

Have fun having some yummy drinks and food tonight. Live it up!!!

Gracie514 · 05-09-2012, 12:05 PM

Oh boy Amber, you've had a rough couple weeks! I'm so sorry about your job but God and the universe work in wondrous ways. I have a feeling that in a few weeks you will realize why this all happened and be a happier person for it. Politics at work SUCK and sometimes people suck too. Don't let them get you down or ruin all the progress you've made. ITA with Melanie, live it up tonight and enjoy yourself! Life's too short

AsmallerME · 05-10-2012, 05:41 AM

Thanks ladies.

I had a great time last night. Had a few drinks and a few apps and really enjoyed the company. Today is my last day off and I start my new job tomorrow so I'm going to try to enjoy today as much as possible. I want to veg and veg some more.

I'll be making today an UD to transition back off carbs and back to atkins. I figure it will be less cruel. Plus with my first day of work being a DD, I'll probably be so nervous and busy I'll forget to eat in the first place and it will make the DD easy peasy.

Today's menu plan is:
B: eggs, cheese, lc tortilla
L: chicken salad salad
S: if needed, almonds
D: double bacon burger w/o a bun
S: if needed, lc icecream

Happy2be · 05-10-2012, 07:48 AM

"Back in the saddle again,"

WOO HOO!!! Good luck on the job tomorrow. Great menu today, we are so going to "Get this done for summer!!"

Vilya · 05-10-2012, 08:22 AM

Sucks about your job, but so great that you got a new one so quickly!

*hugs*

Meg2039 · 05-10-2012, 12:16 PM

Good Luck with the new job! I hope it is everything you want and more!
I am sorry you had all this stress on you...You have done remarkably well in spite ot that and that in itself is a HUGE accomplishment!
M

Meg2039 · 05-10-2012, 12:16 PM

Good Luck with the new job! I hope it is everything you want and more!
I am sorry you had all this stress on you...You have done remarkably well in spite ot that and that in itself is a HUGE accomplishment!

M

ellgee · 05-10-2012, 04:06 PM

So sorry about the job. I can totally understand about not being ready to leave. I feel the same way about my job. It's great in a thousand ways, not so great in a million ways but if they asked for my resignation, I'd be devastated. I hope the new job turns into something marvelous for you!

And selling your house? How much can one woman take! LOL!

You are going to be just fine.

Happy2be · 05-10-2012, 09:27 PM

WOO HOO, way to go on your first day back at low carb!!!

AsmallerME · 05-11-2012, 05:11 PM

Thanks ladies times a billion!!

my first day at the new job was today. Lots to learn. Today was day two on plan and I feel so much better already. Dieting is so mental.

Happy2be · 05-11-2012, 06:01 PM

Yes it is!!!! I agree 100%. So how are things going?

ellgee · 05-16-2012, 03:49 PM

Hope all is well with you Amber!

Happy2be · 05-16-2012, 08:52 PM

Miss you. Don't let the stress get to you.

ellgee · 05-21-2012, 05:13 PM

Hey friend - you got this! Be kind to yourself.

I had my first off JUDDD weekend and have pulled it together and started anew today. Won't mention going out of town NEXT weekend........

Just keep pressing in. We will NOT give up! This road will not be perfect and we will have times we are tired and want to to give up; and times where we throw caution to the wind and not give a care about what we are eating. That's called life. But we will not allow ourselves to stop trying. Remember where that got us? I know I gained 55 pounds when I quit trying. Not going back to that. And neither are you!

Check in and let us know what's going on!

AsmallerME · 05-23-2012, 03:45 AM

Okay, I'm here. This journal is a place where I mark down my weight and update my weight loss journey, I've been avoiding it in part because I've been avoiding the scale and trying desperately to ignore the tightening of my waistband of my pants.

It's been hard for me to stay on plan and I know it's stress and denial. I also get complacent with myself at certain weights. So I forced myself on the scale today and saw 241. 8 pounds gained in about a month. I honestly expected more so this alone made me happy that the number is fairly easily reversible. It also made me happy in that I feel in control again. Knowledge of my number is power for me and when I start avoiding it, I start gaining.

So here goes attempt one billion and seven.

Meg2039 · 05-23-2012, 04:55 AM

I am right there with you except I think it is 1 gazillion billion and seven for me.

We can do this! It's just a windy road!
Meg

Vilya · 05-23-2012, 07:55 AM

Good for you for getting on the scale and taking responsibility for it! I know you'll get it off again.

Happy2be · 05-23-2012, 07:57 AM

You can do it Amber!!!!!

I just saw there is a new challenge starting for July 4th. I am going to check it out. I could use a challenge, how about you? Have a great day!!!! I'm here for you!!!

ellgee · 05-23-2012, 09:05 AM

Go Amber!!!!

Personally I don't think 8 pounds is bad at all either! I gained 5.4 in TWO days!!!!

And it doesn't matter the number of attempts - only that you keep attempting!

You only fail when you stop trying.

Man, I'm full of cliches today! LOL!

05-07-2012, 04:36 PM	#217
ellgee Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 864 Gallery: ellgee Stats: 309.4/254.4/199 WOE: WW Points Plus Start Date: 12/29/12 @ 259.8	And it warms my heart that you are human! You must know that! Seriously. You are a weight loss machine and have done so flipping well. But you also inspire me because even after you have had some not so good days, you keep coming back. That says so much about you, Amber! I'm having a not so good UD today. PMS and M&Ms. Need I say more? And it wasn't the little single serve bag either. Today I was the M&M terminator. Hopefully I can pull myself together. I think I can because I've seen you do it! __________________ Laura Let me tell you the secret that has led me to my goal. My strength lies solely in my tenacity. - Louis Pasteur

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04-27-2012, 07:35 AM	#211
ellgee Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 864 Gallery: ellgee Stats: 309.4/254.4/199 WOE: WW Points Plus Start Date: 12/29/12 @ 259.8	OMG!!!!! Please come rub some of that on me! Congrats!! You are getting so close to being in the 220s!!!

05-02-2012, 10:54 PM	#212
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	Hello my friend.... Where are you?

05-03-2012, 05:05 AM	#213
AsmallerME Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 5,406 Gallery: AsmallerME WOE: Atkins Start Date: 2012	I'm back. I was out of town until yesterday. Ate well at first and then ate poorly. I've been off plan essentially for five days. back at it today. Prob won't weigh until Sunday.

05-04-2012, 10:21 AM	#214
ellgee Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 864 Gallery: ellgee Stats: 309.4/254.4/199 WOE: WW Points Plus Start Date: 12/29/12 @ 259.8	I have faith in you, Amber. You will be down in no time at all! Hope you at least had fun!!

05-07-2012, 01:12 PM	#215
AsmallerME Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 5,406 Gallery: AsmallerME WOE: Atkins Start Date: 2012	Too much fun probably. I'm struggling to get back on track. I know it's one day at a time but I'm having a hard time doing one good day. Ugh. Will try to report in tomorrow with a menu and stick with it...

05-07-2012, 01:32 PM	#216
Gracie514 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: May 2007 Location: Pittsburgh, PA Posts: 10,204 Gallery: Gracie514 Stats: 203.2/190/160 WOE: HCG- highest wt 250 lbs!!! Start Date: 1/4/2013 JUDD	Don't worry Amber! We all go through times where we struggle. The important thing is to keep going!!! You'll figure it out

05-08-2012, 08:05 AM	#218
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	SHHH, I did the same thing. Went off plan for about 3-4 days. I didn't eat a lot of junk, but took a couple day break from low carb. Yesterday I wanted to wait one more day.... but I just did it. You can do it!!!! This next jaunt we will both get out of the 200's!!! We can do it!!!!

05-08-2012, 08:23 PM	#219
Potaty Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Feb 2004 Posts: 7,037 Gallery: Potaty Stats: 219 highest/193 now/135 goal WOE: hhcg + exercise Start Date: R1: 19.4 lost	misery loves company, right? I suck.

05-09-2012, 11:47 AM	#220
AsmallerME Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 5,406 Gallery: AsmallerME WOE: Atkins Start Date: 2012	Okay, there is no better time to update my journal than now. I'm already crying alone in my home office. Might as well pour out some of this emotional craziness. So, I've shared on this site but not this journal (at least I don't think so), that I lost my job. It wasn't my perfect job but it was amazing in a lot of ways. The firing or asking for my resignation was 100 percent political. It happened last month. These past few weeks have been full of stress and job hunting. I found a job and I hope it will be great but I haven't started it yet - I start Friday. This afternoon I was calling some people I worked with at my old job to thank them and it turned on the waterworks again. I'm really, really going to miss these people. It sucks to leave a place you aren't ready to leave, no matter how great the next opportunity may seem I'm also not sure if I posted here that we sold our house. It was all so much change so fast that I still feel so displaced. Tonight is a going away party in my honor. I kept telling myself to get back on track with LC and JUDDD and kept failing. I told DH that after tonight's party (drinks - carby food) that I need to be 100 percent good again tomorrow. I need it. He's behind me and I promise myself, this journal, my friends here, that I'll be back tomorrow with some good stuff to report. I'm over my sadness and pitty. I'm also ready to get skinny. Not sure what the scale says but I know I can erase the damage and get into the 20s in a few weeks if I buckle down... Thanks for listening. I needed to vent.

05-09-2012, 11:51 AM	#221
AsmallerME Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 5,406 Gallery: AsmallerME WOE: Atkins Start Date: 2012	Katy - I you. You do not suck. Ever. Melanie - Thank you. You are doing so great!! I cannot wait to celebrate onderland with you lady!!!! Laura - Thank you!!! I'm glad that I can help. You inspire me with JUDDD more than any other Judder. I'm really proud of you for sticking to it and overcoming the plateau. Now you are almost at your May goal!!! Gracie - Thank you for always supporting me. I know I'll figure it out, especially with so much wonderful support. Thanks!

05-09-2012, 11:52 AM	#222
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	Aww honey, I completely understand. I had no idea about your job. I can see how you would be an emotional mess with everything going on. Take it one day at a time and tomorrow I will be here ready to cheer you on 100%!!!!! Have fun having some yummy drinks and food tonight. Live it up!!!

05-09-2012, 12:05 PM	#223
Gracie514 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: May 2007 Location: Pittsburgh, PA Posts: 10,204 Gallery: Gracie514 Stats: 203.2/190/160 WOE: HCG- highest wt 250 lbs!!! Start Date: 1/4/2013 JUDD	Oh boy Amber, you've had a rough couple weeks! I'm so sorry about your job but God and the universe work in wondrous ways. I have a feeling that in a few weeks you will realize why this all happened and be a happier person for it. Politics at work SUCK and sometimes people suck too. Don't let them get you down or ruin all the progress you've made. ITA with Melanie, live it up tonight and enjoy yourself! Life's too short

05-10-2012, 05:41 AM	#224
AsmallerME Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 5,406 Gallery: AsmallerME WOE: Atkins Start Date: 2012	Thanks ladies. I had a great time last night. Had a few drinks and a few apps and really enjoyed the company. Today is my last day off and I start my new job tomorrow so I'm going to try to enjoy today as much as possible. I want to veg and veg some more. I'll be making today an UD to transition back off carbs and back to atkins. I figure it will be less cruel. Plus with my first day of work being a DD, I'll probably be so nervous and busy I'll forget to eat in the first place and it will make the DD easy peasy. Today's menu plan is: B: eggs, cheese, lc tortilla L: chicken salad salad S: if needed, almonds D: double bacon burger w/o a bun S: if needed, lc icecream

05-10-2012, 07:48 AM	#225
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	"Back in the saddle again," WOO HOO!!! Good luck on the job tomorrow. Great menu today, we are so going to "Get this done for summer!!"

05-10-2012, 08:22 AM	#226
Vilya Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Texas Posts: 1,688 Gallery: Vilya Stats: 285/184/170 WOE: LC/HF for T2 diabetes Start Date: Sept. 2011	Sucks about your job, but so great that you got a new one so quickly! hugs

05-10-2012, 12:16 PM	#227
Meg2039 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Western NY Posts: 946 Gallery: Meg2039 Stats: 218/213.2 /150 WOE: WW PP with a lower carb slant Start Date: 05/28/2012	Good Luck with the new job! I hope it is everything you want and more! I am sorry you had all this stress on you...You have done remarkably well in spite ot that and that in itself is a HUGE accomplishment! M

05-10-2012, 12:16 PM	#228
Meg2039 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Western NY Posts: 946 Gallery: Meg2039 Stats: 218/213.2 /150 WOE: WW PP with a lower carb slant Start Date: 05/28/2012	Good Luck with the new job! I hope it is everything you want and more! I am sorry you had all this stress on you...You have done remarkably well in spite ot that and that in itself is a HUGE accomplishment! M

05-10-2012, 04:06 PM	#229
ellgee Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 864 Gallery: ellgee Stats: 309.4/254.4/199 WOE: WW Points Plus Start Date: 12/29/12 @ 259.8	So sorry about the job. I can totally understand about not being ready to leave. I feel the same way about my job. It's great in a thousand ways, not so great in a million ways but if they asked for my resignation, I'd be devastated. I hope the new job turns into something marvelous for you! And selling your house? How much can one woman take! LOL! You are going to be just fine.

05-10-2012, 09:27 PM	#230
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	WOO HOO, way to go on your first day back at low carb!!!

05-11-2012, 05:11 PM	#231
AsmallerME Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 5,406 Gallery: AsmallerME WOE: Atkins Start Date: 2012	Thanks ladies times a billion!! my first day at the new job was today. Lots to learn. Today was day two on plan and I feel so much better already. Dieting is so mental.

05-11-2012, 06:01 PM	#232
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	Yes it is!!!! I agree 100%. So how are things going?

05-16-2012, 03:49 PM	#233
ellgee Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 864 Gallery: ellgee Stats: 309.4/254.4/199 WOE: WW Points Plus Start Date: 12/29/12 @ 259.8	Hope all is well with you Amber!

05-16-2012, 08:52 PM	#234
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	Miss you. Don't let the stress get to you.

05-21-2012, 05:13 PM	#235
ellgee Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 864 Gallery: ellgee Stats: 309.4/254.4/199 WOE: WW Points Plus Start Date: 12/29/12 @ 259.8	Hey friend - you got this! Be kind to yourself. I had my first off JUDDD weekend and have pulled it together and started anew today. Won't mention going out of town NEXT weekend........ Just keep pressing in. We will NOT give up! This road will not be perfect and we will have times we are tired and want to to give up; and times where we throw caution to the wind and not give a care about what we are eating. That's called life. But we will not allow ourselves to stop trying. Remember where that got us? I know I gained 55 pounds when I quit trying. Not going back to that. And neither are you! Check in and let us know what's going on!

05-23-2012, 03:45 AM	#236
AsmallerME Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 5,406 Gallery: AsmallerME WOE: Atkins Start Date: 2012	Okay, I'm here. This journal is a place where I mark down my weight and update my weight loss journey, I've been avoiding it in part because I've been avoiding the scale and trying desperately to ignore the tightening of my waistband of my pants. It's been hard for me to stay on plan and I know it's stress and denial. I also get complacent with myself at certain weights. So I forced myself on the scale today and saw 241. 8 pounds gained in about a month. I honestly expected more so this alone made me happy that the number is fairly easily reversible. It also made me happy in that I feel in control again. Knowledge of my number is power for me and when I start avoiding it, I start gaining. So here goes attempt one billion and seven.

05-23-2012, 04:55 AM	#237
Meg2039 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Western NY Posts: 946 Gallery: Meg2039 Stats: 218/213.2 /150 WOE: WW PP with a lower carb slant Start Date: 05/28/2012	I am right there with you except I think it is 1 gazillion billion and seven for me. We can do this! It's just a windy road! Meg

05-23-2012, 07:55 AM	#238
Vilya Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Texas Posts: 1,688 Gallery: Vilya Stats: 285/184/170 WOE: LC/HF for T2 diabetes Start Date: Sept. 2011	Good for you for getting on the scale and taking responsibility for it! I know you'll get it off again.

05-23-2012, 07:57 AM	#239
Happy2be Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,942 Gallery: Happy2be Stats: 261 (220.8 re)/205.2/150 WOE: Atkins Start Date: March 2, 2009 Restart: 1-3-12	You can do it Amber!!!!! I just saw there is a new challenge starting for July 4th. I am going to check it out. I could use a challenge, how about you? Have a great day!!!! I'm here for you!!!

05-23-2012, 09:05 AM	#240
ellgee Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 864 Gallery: ellgee Stats: 309.4/254.4/199 WOE: WW Points Plus Start Date: 12/29/12 @ 259.8	Go Amber!!!! Personally I don't think 8 pounds is bad at all either! I gained 5.4 in TWO days!!!! And it doesn't matter the number of attempts - only that you keep attempting! You only fail when you stop trying. Man, I'm full of cliches today! LOL!