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Old 12-15-2012, 09:23 PM   #151
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Old 12-16-2012, 10:33 AM   #152
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Yay! that's terrific Rayne! Keep it up. Oh and I tried some Pomegranate black tea with half n half & a little Splenda. It was actually really good! My fave for now.
Thank you!! I still have to pinch myself that JUDDD actually works!

And I'm so glad you've found a tea that you like!


Sunday Weigh-In

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
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Old 12-17-2012, 09:54 AM   #153
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Monday Weigh-In

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
12/17: 235.8 UD

Still in a bit of a funk, but not as bad as the strange 'sadness attack' that hit me two days ago out of the blue. One minute I was fine, the next I was in crushing emotional pain and crying. It lasted about 3 hrs. I miss my son (still behind bars, apparently) and kept flashing on his childhood. I miss what my mother used to be like (or maybe just the veneer of 'normal, loving mother' that was never really there). But most of all, I miss my grandparents (with whom I spent a great deal of time as a child). When they were both alive, our family on my father's side was intact, and we socialized constantly. I miss that, especially this time of year. My grandfather passed away in 1993 on Easter Sunday just a few months before DD was born. My son had been very close to him. My grandmother then passed the day after Christmas in 1995. The family evaporated within months.

So, here I am 2000 miles away...and in a marriage that has become a chore, with a new extended family I cannot stand to be around. My only source of joy right now is DD, and for that I am grateful and blessed.

But I still feel stranded, isolated, and out of place here, with no change in sight.

December seems to magnify it all.

The bright spot is that DH and DD actually get excited about this time of year and are jazzed about Christmas...which is helping my apathy a little. Still wondering what the heck to make for Xmas dinner, though. Thanksgiving was exhausting, and I am just not willing to repeat that this year. DH wants lasagna...but DD despises pasta. Aarrgghh. Off to search recipes...

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Old 12-17-2012, 04:03 PM   #154
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I am sorry that you feel isolated, and for the loss of your traditional familial affiliations. This really is a terrible time of year.

I won't throw any lame platitudes at you about bucking up or how it'll all get better. It never really gets better, but it does sometimes grow dull and distant, and you can distract yourself from it for a while.
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Old 12-17-2012, 06:53 PM   #155
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So sorry you're going through if Rayne. I know that low feeling and the deep dark place it take you. The holidays can be especially hard. I hope things will start to brighten for you as we usher in the new year. I'm so glad you have your beautiful daughter in your life and to support you with the rough times. Sending you a huge hug! (((((HUG))))))
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Old 12-17-2012, 06:59 PM   #156
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I am sorry that you feel isolated, and for the loss of your traditional familial affiliations. This really is a terrible time of year.
Thank you...I know you're in sort of the same boat (being far away from your family). Some years are better during this season, but for whatever reason, this one bites the big one.

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I won't throw any lame platitudes at you about bucking up or how it'll all get better. It never really gets better, but it does sometimes grow dull and distant, and you can distract yourself from it for a while.
Very true. This year had a few extra stressors added to the mix, and I'm pretty sure it helped exacerbate things. Next year may be radically different. I certainly hope it is.

If not, I may need to take a vacation from my life during the holidays. Travel. Far away.
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Old 12-17-2012, 08:17 PM   #157
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So sorry you're going through if Rayne. I know that low feeling and the deep dark place it take you. The holidays can be especially hard. I hope things will start to brighten for you as we usher in the new year. I'm so glad you have your beautiful daughter in your life and to support you with the rough times. Sending you a huge hug! (((((HUG))))))
Idk how I missed your post...thank you, Rayne. I know you've had some trying times yourself lately. (((((hugs))))

I hope things are better for you, me, Z, and everyone else who is dealing with pain, loss, sadness, loneliness, illness, or other issues this time of year. It can be very difficult to wear a smile that you do not feel inside. I know it will pass eventually (as it always does)...I'm still learning patience when it comes to depression. I used to joke that the light at the end of the tunnel was nothing more than an oncoming Burlington Northern Express at full steam.

Here's hoping things begin to brighten -- literally and figuratively -- after Solstice/Yule on the 21st.
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Old 12-18-2012, 10:51 AM   #158
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12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
12/17: 235.8 UD
12/18: 234.0 DD <<How the heck did this happen? The scale is supposed to go UP after an UD.
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Old 12-18-2012, 12:14 PM   #159
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30 Days In...

...and I'm finally 'feeling' it. JUDDD, that is. After seeing that WOE listed on so many posters' stats, and a fortuitous visit by Lyric's Mom (Rayne), I took the plunge - and I am SO happy that I did.

I began a 4th attempt at Atkins this year, fully expecting to mirror my previous losses; namely, about 30 lbs in 3 mos.

Uhh, NO.

A bit of a loss at first, and then a lot of recycling, bouncing, and futility.

My last 30 days of Atkins:

10/19 - 241.6
11/18 - 240.8 (- 0.8 lb)



My first 30 days of JUDDD:

11/18 - 240.8
12/18 - 234.0 (- 6.8 lbs)

Per my calorie tracker (below), my calories on Atkins were low...and almost the average of my current UDs and DDs.

While I do eat carbs now, I'm consider myself LC half the time. DDs are my LC days, and I'm beginning to truly appreciate them. They're a cleansing, mentally and physically.

The only explanation is the extremes of calories from day to day, finally waking up my metabolism (which had apparently been comatose before). And, of course, the SIRT-1 gene thingy that I don't understand.

I don't expect to lose at the same rate as this first month on JUDDD, but I am happy that I've found a WOE that is livable for me and my family and, as it happens, is much more affordable than LC was the month prior.

So...thank you, Lyric's Mom (Rayne)!! Your suggestion has made for one VERY happy and grateful JUDDDer!!
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Old 12-18-2012, 01:49 PM   #160
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You are SO welcome! We "Rayne's" have to look out for each other! I am so happy that you really committed to giving this WOE a chance. It really is a matter of learning to trust the process. It also is so unconventional that it takes some getting used to. I can't tell the number of times I've lost after an up day and sometimes showed a minor gain after a DD. It really doesn't always follow the "pattern" we have set in our heads and isn't at all linear but it works. Like others have posted previously, it really is like the ball bouncing down the stairs...it goes up at times but still progressively is going downward.

It took me a bit to trust and relax with this WOE but when I got there, it was fabulous! I no longer freaked out if one day the scale was up a few lbs because I knew that after one or two DD's, it would be gone--and it usually always took an extra pound or two with it! :-) From reading the other posts, I also realized that the body would take occasional breaks/stalls and not to stress out about it. Even though I had two stalls totaling of 5-6 weeks total, I still averaged a loss of 5lbs a month. It seems to catch up with itself in the end.

And lastly, (because I don't want to bore you here), I love that you can never truly mess up this WOE. If you have an UUAD or several of them in a row even (cuz we all need the occasional break or have unexpected trips, etc), you just get back on rotation the next day. You can always start back up "tomorrow". And unlike low carb where you have to be uber-careful not to get out of ketosis, there's no foods that are off-limits. You get to pick the terms and not feel guilt over it. So yah, lots of reasons to love this WOE and I am happily and easily maintaining on it.

Congrats to your awesome success over the past month. I'm so excited to share your journey into a happy, healthy and 'calm' 2013.
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Old 12-18-2012, 05:56 PM   #161
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Tea all day (11)
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Old 12-18-2012, 07:09 PM   #162
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You are SO welcome! We "Rayne's" have to look out for each other!
Agreed!

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I am so happy that you really committed to giving this WOE a chance. It really is a matter of learning to trust the process. It also is so unconventional that it takes some getting used to. I can't tell the number of times I've lost after an up day and sometimes showed a minor gain after a DD. It really doesn't always follow the "pattern" we have set in our heads and isn't at all linear but it works. Like others have posted previously, it really is like the ball bouncing down the stairs...it goes up at times but still progressively is going downward.
You hit the nail on the head...that is precisely what my weight chart looks like. Follow the bouncing ball...

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It took me a bit to trust and relax with this WOE but when I got there, it was fabulous! I no longer freaked out if one day the scale was up a few lbs because I knew that after one or two DD's, it would be gone--and it usually always took an extra pound or two with it! :-) From reading the other posts, I also realized that the body would take occasional breaks/stalls and not to stress out about it. Even though I had two stalls totaling of 5-6 weeks total, I still averaged a loss of 5lbs a month. It seems to catch up with itself in the end.

And lastly, (because I don't want to bore you here), I love that you can never truly mess up this WOE. If you have an UUAD or several of them in a row even (cuz we all need the occasional break or have unexpected trips, etc), you just get back on rotation the next day. You can always start back up "tomorrow". And unlike low carb where you have to be uber-careful not to get out of ketosis, there's no foods that are off-limits. You get to pick the terms and not feel guilt over it. So yah, lots of reasons to love this WOE and I am happily and easily maintaining on it.
Ah, yes, UUADs. I know them well lmao! So far, I seem to be doing 'ok' by really pushing down my cals on the next DD.

Discipline. Still getting the hang of it at age 48.

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Congrats to your awesome success over the past month. I'm so excited to share your journey into a happy, healthy and 'calm' 2013.
Thanks, and you too!
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Old 12-19-2012, 10:12 AM   #163
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Drive-By Weigh-In

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
12/17: 235.8 UD
12/18: 234.0 DD <<How the heck did this happen? The scale is supposed to go UP after an UD.
12/19: 232.4 UD

Almost passed out when I saw the scale! I'm losing TOM bloat (I may have a bit of denial any of this is actually fat) so rapidly it's causing leg and foot cramps.......just like the first weeks of Induction. I cannot keep up with my body's demands for fluids, salt, potassium, magnesium, whatevertheheck it is that I'm leeching out this week. Left calf got it so bad 2 days ago, I think I strained the muscle. No pain, no gain, right?
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Old 12-19-2012, 09:37 PM   #164
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A few things on and off the board got me to thinking today (at the expense of work).

Here goes...



Does self-improvement begin with self-loathing...or self-respect?

Some people believe we should loathe ourselves (or at least feel apologetic) for being fat, saggy, wrinkled, scarred, or otherwise damaged. They believe we 'deserve' to feel badly about ourselves, and how dare we accept or love ourselves during the process of change. The very nerve.

I believe we can accept that we are indeed imperfect while working to improve those aspects of ourselves that are within our power to change. For everything else, we can learn, at last, to make peace with our imperfection. It does not need to define us. Self-worth is not dependent on perfection.

We can pursue weight loss and better health while keeping our spirit and self-respect intact. We can do this without succumbing to inner dialogue that is self-abusive and demeaning. We do not need to keep our 'fat' self in its place for being bad. For many people, this is a Herculean task and goes against every single message they have ever known.

It was inner pain, despair, and a measure of self-hatred that drove me to morbid obesity. It is absurd that I should cling to them as my due punishment until and unless I reach my goal. The only master they serve is defeat.

I choose to not hate myself during my journey.

I choose to stop the self-destruction.

I also choose to not hate my obesity, for without it I wouldn't have finally reached the realization that I was worth fighting for all along. While it is an outward sign of the pain I have lived through in the past, I do not need to hate it in order to let it go.


Good night, everyone.

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Old 12-20-2012, 12:19 PM   #165
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12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
12/17: 235.8 UD
12/18: 234.0 DD <<How the heck did this happen? The scale is supposed to go UP after an UD.
12/19: 232.4 UD
12/20: 232.8 DD
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Old 12-20-2012, 09:53 PM   #166
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Tea all day (11)
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Old 12-20-2012, 11:13 PM   #167
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Downward we go! Well done chica!
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Downward we go! Well done chica!
Thanks! And then I totally freaking blew it last night!

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12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
12/17: 235.8 UD
12/18: 234.0 DD <<How the heck did this happen? The scale is supposed to go UP after an UD.
12/19: 232.4 UD
12/20: 232.8 DD >> major UD (a bit of late-night cheese, a lot of Xmas candy)
12/21: 234.4 UD



ETA: I finally added up my indiscretions on my online nutrition tracker -- at 1362, it was just slightly over a MD. Still disappointed in myself, though.

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Beating yourself is NOT allowed! Lol Nothing's ruined. Plus the little creep up is no big deal...it'll come back down after a rotation or two. You're doing just fine!
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Beating yourself is NOT allowed! Lol Nothing's ruined. Plus the little creep up is no big deal...it'll come back down after a rotation or two. You're doing just fine!
I'm so used to self-recrimination when I stray -- I promise to do better and be easier on myself.

Drive-By Weigh-In

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
12/17: 235.8 UD
12/18: 234.0 DD <<How the heck did this happen? The scale is supposed to go UP after an UD.
12/19: 232.4 UD
12/20: 232.8 DD >> major UD (a bit of late-night cheese, a lot of Xmas candy)
12/21: 234.4 UD
12/22: 233.4 DD


Just found out last night that the little mom-n-pop coding firm I've worked for since '08 has decided to merge with a larger outsourcing/offshoring company. HUGE dealings with India. Meeting this morning showed us just how cheap they are (still no increase in our paltry 8 PTO days per year, pathetic health insurance, and new weekly auditing!! Oh lovely, just what I wanted).

And the icing on the cake: going from bi-weekly pay to once a month. Oh, stop. I think I'm gonna pass out from elation.



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Just found out last night that the little mom-n-pop coding firm I've worked for since '08 has decided to merge with a larger outsourcing/offshoring company. HUGE dealings with India. Meeting this morning showed us just how cheap they are (still no increase in our paltry 8 PTO days per year, pathetic health insurance, and new weekly auditing!! Oh lovely, just what I wanted).

And the icing on the cake: going from bi-weekly pay to once a month. Oh, stop. I think I'm gonna pass out from elation.
I'm sorry to hear that - but your description of it is hilarious, so I'm not sorry about that part.

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I'm sorry to hear that - but your description of it is hilarious, so I'm not sorry about that part.

Thanks, Z...as soon as the meeting adjourned, I fell into a fit of angry hysterical laughing; you know, the kind of near-dissociative state that often precedes fists through walls, ear-shattering torrents of profanity, and sounds of shattered glass, stoneware, and possibly shrieking cats (sorry PETA -- just venting here).

Gah. Nearly 5 years with these peeps. Their greed won out at last.

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How does the ICD-10 switchover next year impact you? What is it, a jump from something like 12000 to 64000 codified (and billable!) diagnoses? I guess a lot of it is the same work, so there's bound to be a great deal of carryover - but I can't help but think that a data expansion of that magnitude must bring some procedural changes.

I am very fortunate now to be involved in an organization that is actively building a culture that doesn't make its employees want to enjoy a soothing rampage - it's not perfect, but it's better than anywhere else I've been.

As someone in the computer industry - doubly so as someone in the support and services industry - My job has been shipped to India or the Philippines more times than I can count. 3 times, to be exact.

What I'm trying to say is that I'm not very good at counting.

I feel your pain on this one. I've been been outsourced by businesses ranging from meat-grinder, high-turnover call centers, to Fortune 500 corporations. When a company goes through a merger like this, things frequently get ugly fast.

There's a cycle to it. The C-level determines that they could cut the cost of delivering support & services in half by running out of Chennai. What the spreadsheet doesn't tell them, is that customer service is a culturally specific concept. A few years later, the C-level determines that they can cut their chargeback and refund rate in half - not to mention bringing down their average handle time and dissatisfaction rate, and greatly improve their satisfaction rate and first call resolution - simply by 'onshoring' support & services.

I understand that you haven't been outsourced in this case, but with new ownership, and new procedures (inevitably more draconian than whatever you were doing before), you'll probably start to see a "rats leaving the sinking ship" effect as your organization goes through its transitional pains. From the sounds of it, it wouldn't take much to deliver a competitive offer - and these are the times when people become conducive to such dealings.

Either way, I wish you the best of luck.
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How does the ICD-10 switchover next year impact you? What is it, a jump from something like 12000 to 64000 codified (and billable!) diagnoses? I guess a lot of it is the same work, so there's bound to be a great deal of carryover - but I can't help but think that a data expansion of that magnitude must bring some procedural changes.
Glad you asked. If I stick it out with the new Of-Course-We-Won't-Ship-Your-Job-to-Asia folks, I get to train with their learning modules on my own time in addition to a 40-hr work week.

Yeah. That'll happen.

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I am very fortunate now to be involved in an organization that is actively building a culture that doesn't make its employees want to enjoy a soothing rampage - it's not perfect, but it's better than anywhere else I've been.

As someone in the computer industry - doubly so as someone in the support and services industry - My job has been shipped to India or the Philippines more times than I can count. 3 times, to be exact.

What I'm trying to say is that I'm not very good at counting.

I feel your pain on this one. I've been been outsourced by businesses ranging from meat-grinder, high-turnover call centers, to Fortune 500 corporations. When a company goes through a merger like this, things frequently get ugly fast.

There's a cycle to it. The C-level determines that they could cut the cost of delivering support & services in half by running out of Chennai. What the spreadsheet doesn't tell them, is that customer service is a culturally specific concept. A few years later, the C-level determines that they can cut their chargeback and refund rate in half - not to mention bringing down their average handle time and dissatisfaction rate, and greatly improve their satisfaction rate and first call resolution - simply by 'onshoring' support & services.

I understand that you haven't been outsourced in this case, but with new ownership, and new procedures (inevitably more draconian than whatever you were doing before), you'll probably start to see a "rats leaving the sinking ship" effect as your organization goes through its transitional pains. From the sounds of it, it wouldn't take much to deliver a competitive offer - and these are the times when people become conducive to such dealings.

Either way, I wish you the best of luck.
There were coders blinking out of the GoToMeeting session well before it was finished. Not sure if they noticed, doesn't seem to me we'll be missed if all of us skedaddle before the 31st.

I updated my resumé within 30 minutes.

Applied for 4 positions thus far.

Will keep searching til I find something. I've waited to get new positions before, and it was always a bad decision. I hate leaving them (the way it was), very upset that this wicked computer set-up (including big-screen monitor and huge desk and printer/fax) will be leaving. Mine? Sad. I'll need to wear my Mr Magoo spex to read the screen. Still on Vista, too.

And thanks...I'm gonna need it (all the help I can muster, that is).

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Glad you asked. If I stick it out with the new Of-Course-We-Won't-Ship-Your-Job-to-Asia folks, I get to train with their learning modules on my own time in addition to a 40-hr work week.

Yeah. That'll happen.
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The well-worn portion of my vocabulary that I reserve for this kind of thing sits well outside the vernacular of polite discourse.

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There were coders blinking out of the GoToMeeting session well before it was finished. Not sure if they noticed, doesn't seem to me we'll be missed if all of us skedaddle before the 31st.

I updated my resumé within 30 minutes.

Applied for 4 positions thus far.

Will keep searching til I find something. I've waited to get new positions before, and it was always a bad decision. I hate leaving them (the way it was), very upset that this wicked computer set-up (including big-screen monitor and huge desk and printer/fax) will be leaving. Mine? Sad. I'll need to wear my Mr Magoo spex to read the screen. Still on Vista, too.
Hahaha - I'm still on XP at work, but we mostly use it as a dumb terminal to log into AIX and VMS systems at hospital and reference laboratories (If it helps, try to imagine the way computer screens looked in 1984)...

I've been in that meeting, where there's nothing left to lose, and disengagement runs so high that everyone is reduced to speculating amongst themselves exactly what animal produced the subject at hand. 'Bull' is the most commonly speculated variety, followed by 'horse' - though I find that 'dog' is making a comeback.

It's never fun, and it's a bit scary to realize that you might soon be facing the unemployment. I don't know about your experiences with unemployment, but I spent the last two years unemployed. Not unemployed and not looking, but unemployed and kicking out 10-20 resumes per week, across the entire United States, with additional applications in the Czech Republic, England, Australia, and India. About 700-800 applications between November-2011, and August 2012: Unanimously rejected. The fact that I did eventually get a job isn't disproof of that unanimity, it's a statistical aberration - and I had to move a great distance to find it.

For you, the good news is that your work history is quite solid - at least for the last few years. You have experience in a field that isn't going anywhere, and there's bound to be a few companies left in the US who are still keeping the work onshore.

Again, I wish you the best of luck. Please keep us posted.
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The opportunity to work for free - Where do I sign!?!
B-b-but it's freeeeee!!! said my boss.

Yeah? Not MY tiiiiiiime!! said this disgruntled employee. [well, I was thinking it.]

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Likewise. My father taught me well (my bedroom was directly above the garage as a kid...I learned a wealth of colorful language through the heating vent when he would [attempt lamely to] work on cars). Favorite takeaway with the initials GDFMFSOB.

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Oooooooh, VMS? Is the AIX any distant relation to the old VAX systems? I worked for DEC (Digital Equip Corp) as a temp many, many moons ago. Good people.

Hehehehe I crashed one single-handedly from my lil ol' dumb terminal at an engineering firm where I was a specifications processor (read: glorified typist/editor). Got a call from the head SA in Oregon: [chuckling] "Lorraine -- was that you? You're the only one who gets creative."

He wanted me to get out of specs and work IT. Should've jumped at it.

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I've been in that meeting, where there's nothing left to lose, and disengagement runs so high that everyone is reduced to speculating amongst themselves exactly what animal produced the subject at hand. 'Bull' is the most commonly speculated variety, followed by 'horse' - though I find that 'dog' is making a comeback.
I searched madly for the mute button on my phone. Had I found it, I would have spewed forth a veritable menagerie.

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It's never fun, and it's a bit scary to realize that you might soon be facing the unemployment. I don't know about your experiences with unemployment, but I spent the last two years unemployed. Not unemployed and not looking, but unemployed and kicking out 10-20 resumes per week, across the entire United States, with additional applications in the Czech Republic, England, Australia, and India. About 700-800 applications between November-2011, and August 2012: Unanimously rejected. The fact that I did eventually get a job isn't disproof of that unanimity, it's a statistical aberration - and I had to move a great distance to find it.

For you, the good news is that your work history is quite solid - at least for the last few years. You have experience in a field that isn't going anywhere, and there's bound to be a few companies left in the US who are still keeping the work onshore.

Again, I wish you the best of luck. Please keep us posted.
My hat is off to anyone who has had to struggle and muck through unemployment, especially extended unemployment. BTDT, but you never forget that terror, that never-ending sense of urgency competing with despair. I may not find something right away, but I'm prepared to cope (in silent protest) with this newest obstacle while I collect a paycheck.

Yes, my recent work history is very solid. But the elephant in the room (that I was desperately wishing to avoid) is that I've been in the middle of a garnishment for the last year. Lovely reminder of the not-so-distant past where I was indeed out of work and unable to get my finances squared away. I have no bank account...can't wait for that fun conversation where I have to explain why I'm not interested in direct deposit.

I feel like a pariah. Somewhat talented as a coder...but still a pariah.

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You worked for DEC? I'm going to nerd swoon for a moment.

..

OK I'm back.

AIX is an IBM proprietary flavor of Unix. I don't get to play with it much, because I spend most of my time inside a transactional database known as MUMPS, or Caché. And wrapped inside of that database is our product. So, it is a bit like learning an alien language wrapped in another alien language.

As for the last bit - I can totally relate. "I can see you've got product management experience, and counter-malware experience, and a deeply technical background - But what have you been doing for the last two years?"

Evidently, the economy is only bad for me, specifically. In which case I really should thank CNN and all the other news networks for investing so much effort into a topic of such narrow import...

I certainly don't see why it's any of their business what my credit score looks like.

Even once I've somehow found a company willing to hire me, the pariah effect extends to the workplace as well. There's always a sense that there is an inner circle, which I am perpetually outside of. It's not that I'm not friendly to people, I just don't fit the mold, I guess. I'd like to think it's a kind of paranoia, but when the entire office is talking about the sweet shindig that they all went to together, time and again, you start to catch the drift...

I suppose I should stop hijacking your thread now I've enjoyed talking with you. I love your sense of humor, and I am constantly amazed by how much your experience seems to overlap with mine.

Enjoy your day.
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..

OK I'm back.
Now, now, it was nothing to shout about. They needed a receptionist/scheduler (for technical issues), and I was in need. I remember the scheduling aspect fondly, but the switchboard (almost 3 feet wide) was surreal. Something like 3000 extensions, and the process was beyond complicated. Never much cared for front-of-office, feels too exposed.

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'MUMPS' <<love it

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As for the last bit - I can totally relate. "I can see you've got product management experience, and counter-malware experience, and a deeply technical background - But what have you been doing for the last two years?"

Evidently, the economy is only bad for me, specifically. In which case I really should thank CNN and all the other news networks for investing so much effort into a topic of such narrow import...

I certainly don't see why it's any of their business what my credit score looks like.

Even once I've somehow found a company willing to hire me, the pariah effect extends to the workplace as well. There's always a sense that there is an inner circle, which I am perpetually outside of. It's not that I'm not friendly to people, I just don't fit the mold, I guess. I'd like to think it's a kind of paranoia, but when the entire office is talking about the sweet shindig that they all went to together, time and again, you start to catch the drift...
Thank goodness I'm not the only one.

I resist assimilation.

I'm not a joiner.

I'm incapable of arse kissing (heard it was illegal in several states).

I don't 'blend'.

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Enjoy your day.
Hijack anytime, Z. This conversation has greatly helped keep me from raging (I benefit from redirection much like precocious puppies and 2-year-olds).



Update: 7 jobs applied for. Several old recruiters whom I took for granted 6 mos ago are finally getting the attention they've wanted all this time.

Food: Just 2 SF jello cups. One mug of tea (blueberry black). Half of a semi-flat diet Mtn Dew. Need more fluids. Must tear self away from computer, all relevant jobs have already been pursued for the day. Soup on the horizon. Need DH to physically remove trigger foods from my reach for the evening.

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12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4 DD
12/15: 234.8 UD
12/16: 236.2 DD
12/17: 235.8 UD
12/18: 234.0 DD <<How the heck did this happen? The scale is supposed to go UP after an UD.
12/19: 232.4 UD
12/20: 232.8 DD >> major UD (a bit of late-night cheese, a lot of Xmas candy)
12/21: 234.4 UD
12/22: 233.4 DD
12/23: 231.2 UD
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