Rayne's Circle of Calm

[Rayne_W]

Damage for the day:

4 mugs of tea (11)
2 oz FF half-n-half (33)
2 oz 2% milk (28)
12 slices pickled cucumber (13)

Total Cals: 85 Net Carbs: 12.2

[Lyric's Mom]

Wow! That's a great DD! Yesterday the stress & anxiety had my tummy so twisted, all I was able to manage was a 60 calorie cappuccino & Mio for the day--and I didn't even keep that down! So I guess that put me at a negative 0? lol Thank goodness it was a DD do it worked out. I actually never did a liquid only DD but I managed & felt refreshingly cleansed. Still, I'd rather not deal with the "depression diet"...that parts not fun.
Oh, and sorry for all the crap you've had to deal with from your fam. You and I both have had to distance ourselves from toxic people. Its sad it has to be that way but it makes us wiser and stronger as we move on with our own lives. ((HUGS))

[Rayne_W]

Originally Posted by Lyric's Mom

Wow! That's a great DD! Yesterday the stress & anxiety had my tummy so twisted, all I was able to manage was a 60 calorie cappuccino & Mio for the day--and I didn't even keep that down! So I guess that put me at a negative 0? lol Thank goodness it was a DD do it worked out. I actually never did a liquid only DD but I managed & felt refreshingly cleansed. Still, I'd rather not deal with the "depression diet"...that parts not fun.

I am profoundly sorry you're going through such a horrible time. Hang in there...be kind to yourself...and give yourself time.

Oh, and sorry for all the crap you've had to deal with from your fam. You and I both have had to distance ourselves from toxic people. Its sad it has to be that way but it makes us wiser and stronger as we move on with our own lives. ((HUGS))

It sure does, and I'm sorry you've had to deal with them, too. For a long time I thought it was my duty to stick it out and 'cope' with them...finally figured out that my test was actually to see if I had it in me to stand my ground and then walk away.

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Goal for December: 233

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush
12/6: 236.6 UD

[Rayne_W]

A musical meditation for the day:

Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism - YouTube

Sigur Rós - Ára Bátur (HD) (at Abbey Road Studios) - YouTube

Tool- Disposition - YouTube

Time for more tea...still don't have much of an appetite (strange), but I'm going to try to eat some eggs and toast to get my calories in for the day.

[Rayne_W]

By the time dinner rolled around, no one wanted to cook lol. Steak can wait til Saturday.

Today's Damage:

B: 1 oz macadamia nuts (233), 1 fat bomb (95)
L: 3 eggs scrambled in butter w/1 shallot and a handful of shredded cheddar, 2 slices toast w/butter and vegemite (877)
D: Arby's french dip (430), 5-pc jalapeno poppers (280), Speedway 16 oz french vanilla iced latté (180)
S: 1 mug of tea with FF half-n-half (23)

Total Cals: 2118 I didn't go over!!

[Lyric's Mom]

Good job but u have to ask about the Vegemite--maybe i missed it in an earlier post--are you Australian or do you just happen to like it?

[Rayne_W]

I just happen to like it.

I probably owe my weird palate to the early years I spent with my grandparents (German/English/Scottish)...which led to a love of pretty bold flavors. And Vegemite (and Marmite) are, if nothing else, bold.

[Lyric's Mom]

Ah, funny! When I was a teen we had a lady that stayed with us from Australia. She had tons of it shipped over and had to have it every.single.day. Lol I recall I thought it smelled/tasted so awful and she said it was an "Australian thing" and that that it was basically one of the first solids babies every ate so that's why they loved it so much. Anyways that always fascinated and stuck with me so when you mentioned Vegamite, I thought "Australia!" Lol

[Rayne_W]

DH (before he tried it) asked me wth it was. I told him "salty beer jam".

Yeah, I still don't understand why I like it so much


Weigh-In:

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD

No real eating plan today...if I end up with liquids-only, Cool! If not, will try to keep below 426.

Super, ridiculously exhausted today.

[Rayne_W]

Today's Damage:

2 mugs tea, one w/FF half-n-half (41)
pickled cucumbers (22)
4 Wasa breads w/4 light laughing cows (300)
piece of teriyaki beef jerky (49)

Total: 412
Net Carbs 41.1

[Librarygirl]

Love your signature! Don't wear panty hose, lol. Then your quest will be for rash-free thighs! My thighs rubbed together so badly one summer day under my dress, I had to come home and take Benedril and go to bed.

[Rayne_W]

Originally Posted by Librarygirl

Love your signature!

Ty!

Don't wear panty hose, lol. Then your quest will be for rash-free thighs! My thighs rubbed together so badly one summer day under my dress, I had to come home and take Benedril and go to bed.

That sucks about the rash! Why can't they make hose that doesn't irritate?

The last time I wore pantyhose was also the last time I wore a spanx/control doohickey -- at my wedding! I wasn't a bride, I was a human kielbasa

[Librarygirl]

Hahahahaha! My thighs were bare, that's why they rubbed together and caused massive friction and a terrible heat rash, lol! I quit wearing dresses about 7 years ago.

[DesertGurl]

Pantyhose should be outlawed. Rayne, like you, I believe the last time I wore those were for my wedding!

Hope the weekend is going well!

[Rayne_W]

I agree!

It's been a weird weekend...totally caught off-guard with PMS cravings from hell and a TOM visit that is a week or two early. Glad I was planning to do two UDs in a row to change rotations for Xmas -- woke up craving steak. Rare, bloody, primal STEAK.

[Rayne_W]

Slight change of plans.........

I'm giving the Potato Hack a go, if for no other reason than to help with the damage caused by my recent overeating and TOM. I won't be following JUDDD rotations, just eating to satiety.

I also may be adding a few items that aren't standard to the hack, namely 1 tsp fat per potato and/or low fat buttermilk...but neither for the first day, and I'll remove them if they seem to be working against me.

No idea if this will last beyond the first day, since there have been times in the past that potatoes and my IBS have not mixed.


12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)

"Weird Al" Yankovic - Addicted to Spuds -...

[Lyric's Mom]

Definitely keep us posted with that. I tried it and lost on it which was ironic because after 200-300 cals of potato, my appetite spiked! I ended up craving sugar & carbs & the end of my DD potato days I had upwards of 800 cals! Lol BUT, I still lost! Actually my weight dropped temporarily to the lowest it has ever been so go figure! I personally don't think I would do it again tho because I'm someone who really enjoys variety but I still enjoy hearing about other people's experiences since they're all so different. I hope it works for you!

[Rayne_W]

Kudos on your drop with the hack!

I'm not sure I'm one of the ones who will actually lose with it...but I'm not gaining, either. I'm having a Super TOM (last month's didn't really happen) to make up for November's, which means I'm retaining massive amounts of fluid (I can feel it). So far no extra cravings, which is a good thing.

I also crave variety, so I'll be going back to JUDDD rotations once TOM has left town.

[Rayne_W]

About that variety thing? It got the better of me. No mono-dieting for this carnivore (or at least not during TOM). Saw my daughter noshing on beef jerky, and I swore I growled a little.

MUST. HAVE. MEAT!!


Shared half the small bag with her and finally feel 'normal' (if that's remotely possible lol). Today just became a regular JUDDD Up Day, and I'm fine with it.

[Lyric's Mom]

Hahaha--laughing because when I broke down, I dove into my bag of turkey-jerky bites. Lol SO good! Yah no worries, there's no right or wrong when it comes to DD's...just whatever works for you. I could never go past 2:00 on potato only and I've tried it three times. Makes me wonder how some are going for days at a time!

[Rayne_W]

Originally Posted by Lyric's Mom

Hahaha--laughing because when I broke down, I dove into my bag of turkey-jerky bites. Lol SO good! Yah no worries, there's no right or wrong when it comes to DD's...just whatever works for you. I could never go past 2:00 on potato only and I've tried it three times. Makes me wonder how some are going for days at a time!

HA! We both attacked the jerky!!

My first day yesterday was fine, then again it was a DD--holy cow, does that mean my system is getting used to the ebb and flow of UD/DD? Sweet!

I'm also wondering if the thought of 'just potatoes' was bringing up old (read: ancient) memories of being a starving 19-yr-old subsisting on sacks of potatoes and a few frozen veggies. Those were some rough and scary days.

Weird that I don't feel the same way on <500 calorie DDs.

So........still haven't had dinner, but I'll be up late working. Still contemplating potato pierogies (idk why lol) or maybe whipping up some sandwiches.

I'll have to ask DD if she's got a secret jerky stash somewhere in the house.

[Rayne_W]

Drive-By Weigh-In

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD

[Rayne_W]

Total Damage for the day:

B - Nope
L - pickled cucumbers (10)
D - spaghetti squash, shrimp scampi (460)

Total Cals: 470
Net Carbs: 20.1

Not a bad food day, but getting a little stressed about work. Our coding workload was next to nil today (and yesterday...and the day before...), and I'm sitting at a 10.75-hr deficit for the week so far. Yikes. Trying not to freak out, hoping it's a problem on the hospital end (behind in scanning medical records, maybe?) that will normalize soon.

Anything but a repeat of 2010..........we had almost no work for five (5) months.

[Z]

Originally Posted by Rayne_W

&quot;Weird Al&quot; Yankovic - Addicted to Spuds - YouTube

Between the Weird Al reference, and the Lily Tomlin quote, and a few other intangibles, I'm rapidly becoming quite the fan.

[Rayne_W]

Originally Posted by Z

Between the Weird Al reference, and the Lily Tomlin quote, and a few other intangibles, I'm rapidly becoming quite the fan.

Aw, thanks Z! All I can say in my defense is that I've always been a little 'off'.

Ha! "A little..."

Originally Posted by Rayne_W

Stressing about work, my DD, and the family of raccoons that has chosen our home as their nightly shelter.

^^That was back on Nov 9th. THEY'RE STILL HERE.

Two updates: 1) It's SQUIRRELS, not raccoons, and apparently the larger one is preparing for a career in sumo wrestling. OMG. Saw him during the day in the yard, and I think it could take on a grown man. If I wasn't so pissed, I'd enter it in a cage fight. 2) Worthless Landlord did NOT find the entrance to its secret squirrel lair...if anything, it probably gave the beasts a belly laugh.

And if I disappear from the board after the holidays, you can probably bet I've been hauled in after cracking at last and taking a chainsaw and TNT to my own house in desperation...and sheer insanity.


Yesterday's DD was interrupted at 2am by a squirrel-induced nut binge. From the sound of it in the ceiling above my head, it's either gorged on an entire side of beef or is wearing lead boots. What the ??!!?

Today's 'musical meditation' cannot be linked to Youtube without breaking TOS for profanity (and good taste lol).

Mudvayne - Determined
Deftones - 7 Words
System of a Down - ATWA
...and more of which I can't even enter the song titles


It's gonna be one of those days...

[Rayne_W]

Damage for the day:


2am: Nuts! (1100.....yes, you read that right)

L: leftover scampi, cream cheese and Rye krisp (286)

D: chicken soup w/pate a choux dumplings (~300)

S: TBD (need to come up with about 300-400 cals)

[Rayne_W]

Drive-By Weigh-In

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4

[Rayne_W]

Today's Damage:

Tea all day (11)
2 white cheddar rice cakes (90)
2 RF laughing cow wedges (70)
leftover chicken soup (~242)

Total Cals: 413 (with room for SF jello if the need arises...I'm working til the wee hours)
Net Carbs: 34.9

[Rayne_W]

Drive-By Weigh-In

12/1: 237.4 DD Yesterday's UD dinner didn't sit well or stay long. ugh.
12/2: 237.0 UD
12/3: 238.4 DD
12/4: 238.4 UD Didn't drink enough water yesterday
12/5: 238.4 DD (UD yesterday, which I mistook for All-You-Can-Eat-Falafel-Fest-2012, saved by last-minute water flush)
12/6: 236.6 UD
12/7: 238.2 DD
12/8: 238.2 UD (make that an emotional UUAD with macadamia nut pig-out)
12/9: 239.4 UD TOM -- surprise!
12/10: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #1)
12/11: 239.4 TOM (SPUDDD #2 [1/2 day]) >>UD
12/12: 238.6 TOM DD
12/13: 237.2 TOM UD
12/14: 236.4
12/15: 234.8

[Lyric's Mom]

Yay! that's terrific Rayne! Keep it up. Oh and I tried done Pomegranate black tea with half n half & a little Splenda. It was actually really good! My fave for now.