Bejewelme's Journey to Skinny Bride

[Bejewelme]

Reva- yes we are a crazy bunch here! I want your stuff to make it in the snow before the wedding, I hope it gets there in time.

Deb you should come to the wedding too tell hubby you want to celebrate your anniversary, did you say you got married in Oct? My wedding will turn into a big LCF meet up which would be fine with me, LOL

[Reva72]

Amber did you happen to get a tracking number and if its in the regular mail we still have 4 days. I think it will be fine. Thank you again!!!!!

[Bejewelme]

I got a delivery confirmation, I have it at home I will give it to you, I dont know if you can track with that or not, but lets keep our fingers crossed, Tony mailed it yesterday early in the day so it should have gotten out last night.

[pooticus]

Waving Hi! We're supposed to get snow here! LOL! Really? That's a laugh in a half. Hey maybe I can get a snow day!!!!

[tiggy_oz]

You know, I could probably swing an october USA trip although my family would kick my arse if they found I was on that landmass and not coming to see them. There would be tears, and passive aggressive bullcrap. The cost is rather prohibitive but you never know hey .

a snow day in texas? ya that makes sence y'all

[glenda1962]

Hello Girls!!!!!!

Amber, that would be awesome for us to all meet up at your wedding!!!!!! I'm sure I wont have the money but it's an awesome thought!!!!!! Id love to meet all you ladies in person!!!!!!!
That is crazy about not talking about regular food!!!!! I think its ok to go off track occasionally!.....I do!!!!!!!! Amber, thats what I love about you (one of the many things!!!!) You allow yourself to cheat occasionally and have fun!!!!!!! As long as you are able to go back on track, which I can also do!
You girls are all just awesome! We would have such a great time together!!!!!
Love ya girls!!!!!

[Lisa Darby]

Oh my gosh Glenda - I totally agree with you. Why would someone get mad about talking about regular food? That's rediculous. That is my problem is that I will plan a "splurge" and I don't go back to eating OP right away then I always gain and keep eating bad. This year, when I have a splurge (like my bday), I am only going to have that one meal, or maybe even a whole day, but then I am going to go right back OP. I can do this....Just like all you wonderful people!!

[Lisa Darby]

I keep forgetting to tell Amber....I could be in Vegas in 5 hours driving time!!! Plane is only a little over an hour. Good deals too. Hehehehe

[hifromdeb]

Amber, I planted the idea with hubby about a trip to Vegas in October. If we can't make it for the wedding I still want to see all the pictures and hear about every wonderful detail! I am so excited for you and Tony!

I have always been someone that can't cheat and keep it to one treat, one meal, one day, or even one week LOL! Usually one cheat turns into a six months of denial where I avoid the scale and my pants just keep getting tighter. Typically my wake up moment is when I need to go somewhere important and have literally nothing in my closet that fits and I make a mad last minute dash to Macy's to find a new outfit...and then the depressing hours of trying on stuff in a bigger size that can't hide the fact that I am bigger than I want to be...is usually the moment where I realize the binge has to end!

So Lisa D and Glenda, I am with you. Cheats are OK every once in a while as long as they are just ONE. One treat, one meal, or even one day. But never longer than one week, and always straight back on plan. No avoiding the scales and denial allowed. I think once I get to goal, I might allow myself a planned cheat, but very limited and controlled - I am thinking maybe once a month? I had a great moment this week where I cheated once and then the next day had no desire to eat anything carby and was actually excited to get back on plan. What a revelation! But I am not ready to claim victory over unhealth eating patterns just yet, so my short term plan is to stay focused on eating LC every day and just deal with the unplanned cheats as they come. My life seems to be full of unavoidable unplanned cheats so if I start to add planned ones too it could be a slippery slope :-) LOL!

I am really missing exercise right now and I'm jealous of your gym trips and trainer Amber! And your pole dancing lessons! Tell us some more exercise stories! I think you should make a reality show out of your life because it's awesome and hilarious and real and so many women would relate and be inspired. "Journey to Skinny Bride" sounds like a reality show I would totally watch!

[pooticus]

Amber where are you gonna put your pole up in the new house? Now you have to look for a house that has a good pole view area! New complication! Hello!

[Bejewelme]

Oh girls I would love if any/all of you can come to Vegas! My word I have gotten so close to all of you since this weight loss is like all consuming and mind bending! LOL

SO I was totally miffed today no power for 12 hours, do you know how hard it is to entertain an 89 year old grandmother and a 10 year old in the dark with nothing electronic? Good grief finally when the lights came back on I thought might as well go the gym I had to get outta here! So tonight was the machines and cardio, and for whatever reason my arms are so sore I could not get through the whole second set of reps that never happened before, maybe I am pushing myself too hard but I could not believe I could not do it tonight. I get myself in this situation because like Vegas, again I wasted 2 weeks eating and having fun and now feel like I have to punish myself to catch up, rather than just let it happen.

Pole dancing isn't until 3/6 Poot, TOny is a structural engineer so he will have to rig a pole sturdy enough for my fat butt!!!!

Lap dance lesson on FridayLOL

Deb, my life is boring, I just have other crazy friends that drag me along, Honestly if you think about it I have spent my whole hiding my fat, hiding my body, hiding myself and this darn fat, so now I am looking to try new things, and I am about half nuts!!

Amber

[glamazon]

Originally Posted by Bejewelme

my life is boring

LIAR!

[glenda1962]

Amber, you are nuts, but in a totally fun way!!!!! We can't imagine you being any other way!!!!
Deb, I am committed to this woe but not to the point where I would never eat anything that isnt on this plan. But as long as we can get right back on then I do think it is ok. I agree with you about avoiding the scales!!!! Thats how I got to this weight!!!! For a while when I was between the 270-280 I was kinda monitoring and stayed there for several years. I stopped weighing and said the heck with it and one day I got on the scale and I weighed 306!!!!! I was like WTH!!!!!!! So that Thurs morning on 9/23/2010 I weighed in at 304 and Ive been doing pretty well. This is the most committed that I have ever been with trying to lose the weight. I do cheat occasionally but I get back on track. The key I think, is to never give up!!!!!!
Amber, my elec went out for about an hour a couple days ago. I cant imagine for 12 hours!!!!!! Especially with your son and your Gram!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!
Have a great evening girls!!!!!Love ya!!!!!

[Martini72]

Gooosh Glam!! Wish I had a granny to entertain. All I can think of is Uno...LOL And if Your boring I must be ready for a nursing home...LOL No GrounDHog Day Weight today for me. Another pound beats the dust! I guess I should keep weighing daily. I'm sure it helps keep me on plan. Had a few drinks last night that may show up in the morning. We shall see.

[glamazon]

Good morning, Amber! Hope your power stays on and you guys stay nice and warm! Miss you!

[Bejewelme]

So girls geez I gotta catch you up here.

Yesterday in the boredom, my Gram takes like 20 pills for her heart and pacemaker and crap, and she has a prescription water pill so I am like let me take one of those and maybe I can flush some more water off, so all day I peed like every 20 minutes, and I drank tons of water and took my vitamins and went to the gym.

Last night at midnight, I woke up with the most excruciating leg cramp I have ever had, it was at the top of my left foot, ankle and shin, OMG I was crying, I never felt anything like it, so Tony wakes up and he is like holy ****, you are crying it must be bad! LOL I am pretty tough with pain, so he rubbed it, got me some more potassium, and then every hour, on the hour, I was up each time worse than the last, I am exhausted, he is exhausted he is like if you ever do that again I will shoot you, LOL. But guess what I weighed this morning after all that 246, 246, 246!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I said OMG finally below 250, I am guessing I weighed in the 240's around about my sophomore or junior year of college, so that was 23 years ago!

So I came out of the bathroom after my shower and I was bawling, and he is like now what another leg cramp, I said no, I finally passed 100 pounds, and saw a number I never thought I would see, and in my sleep deprived, crying state I told him what I weighed! Then we had this big love fest, and I am like I never told another man in my life what I weighed, but honestly with my sharp math skills it is getting too hard reporting the pounds lost, especially with the VWL and GHWL, LOL

He said he was so proud of me, and all the determination I have shown. He said he really suspected that around Thanksgiving I would give up. He said he wants to spend all the years we can growing old together, and that this is improving my life span. He said Amber, I fell in love with you at 300 pounds, and never thought you weighed that much, I want to see you do this for you. You know I love you and will always love you no matter what. He is so dear! So we had yet another big blubber fest, and how liberating to finally have said it, and not have to keep hiding it. So tomorrow is official weigh in day, we will see if I gain any back, but I was flabbergasted to see 246, honestly when I was over 350 I never thought I could lose 150 pounds, but I guess it shows it can be done with a little determination and GREAT FRIENDS!!!!

Amber

[glamazon]

[Lisa Darby]

That's wonderful Amber - so proud of you!!! You can and will do this. You are so strong and determined. You are my idol!!!

[Casey1983]

Amber YOU LOST 100 POUNDS!!!!!!! I am soooo proud of you! You deserve this! ANd Tony, he is such a sweetheart! It must be so freeing to have him finally know your weight. It is such a task keeping it from my DH. One of these days, you will have everything you ever wanted! You will know what it is like to be really truly happy!I am so happy for you my friend!

[Bejewelme]

I know it is so hard hiding it, like if I leave the computer up I am afraid he will see my icon with my weight, I think him knowing too will help keep me on track, like another person to make sure I dont cheat, I am all about the accountability! LOL

Work sucks today, if you tell someone to F*** off and get fired can you get unemployment? Cause I am about this close today!

[pooticus]

Fireworks and happy dances over here for you my friend!!!!!!! 100lbs loss and no more hiding it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And you are almost the smallest you have been in 23years! Did I read that right? That is so phenomenal girl!!! I'm so proud of you and happy for you!!!!!!!! Amber you are the bomb! And I Tony! It sure sounds like you've found a keeper! You deserve it!!!!!!!!

[Bejewelme]

Yes Poot I weighed 265 when I graduated College, so 250 or under was probably 1987 or 88, LOL It has been a long time carrying this blubber around!

Tonight I have to take the camera upstairs to take a pic,and see what it says tomorrow I probably gained some of that back today but by drinking so much to try to replenish my system, LOL

[pooticus]

I should spank you though. That was very naughty and dangerous! But yes, we want piccys! You are doing fabulously girl!!!!!!

[Reva72]

AMBER CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!! 100 POUNDS DOWN!!!!!! You are one hot mama and should be so darn proud of yourself!!

My dh recently found out how much I weigh and it is a relief for me. I am now alittle over 40 pounds heavier than him. When I get below 250 it is going to be competition!!! I just know it. He likes me heavier and always has. Most black men don't like skinny women or so I have been told.

[glenda1962]

I need to get me a black man!!!!!!!!!!

[tiggy_oz]

What an amazing day!! Big big hugs and grats on the 100lbs down!!! You're a bloody superstar my dear!!!

Doesn't it feel nice to not hide the number from Tony. I have been in the exact situation more or less in the past with my ex. It was such a relief to get it off my chest and fully share. It's funny how we hide this number yet your (or my) partner has seen you at your biggest and still loved you no matter. Tony is made of win. I adore him.

Now, I hope you did kinda learn the lesson of don't take medication that doesn't have your name on it ! I've done it myself a few times though :blush: so no big spanks from me. Your legs spanked you enough.

[glenda1962]

AMBER!!!!!!! WTG Girl!!!!!!!!!!! That is awesome!!!!!!!! Im soooooo proud of you!!!!!! Is that since Sept?????? Tony is a doll for sure. Im glad that you have him in your life. You are a lucky girl!!!!! Hes a lucky guy to.....and he knows it!!!!!! Keep going sweetie!!!!! Love ya!

[Bejewelme]

I weighed over 350 in 2005 when I first did Atkins, I got to 280 and never lower and would hover between 280-310, gaining anfd losing the same 20 pounds over and over and over and over! When I started on here AGAIN, I weighed 300.5 on 9/27 my son's B-day, so over 50 in 4 months, another 50 in 4 more months would be super!

[glenda1962]

WOW! Amber, that is great. I am really proud and it makes me think that maybe I can do this. I love ya hun! You will be a beautiful bride!!!!

[pooticus]

Glenda you can totally do this! We won't let you have any other options!

Amber 50lbs in 4 months is AMAZING!!!!! I can't wait for another 4 months for you!!!!