HHCG and Me

[ColleenMA66]

209.8 this morning..yay....I was worried about yesterday I did end up eating more than I should have so I was afraid to get on the scale this morning...now I just need to hold on till Saturday!

[Deb294evr]

Go girl!! you are whittling it off!

[ColleenMA66]

Stayed the same....boo. I'm pleased with this week so far though. I'm not expecting to lose 5lbs a week so anything over 2 is really great as long as I can keep it up. I'd like to get 10 off a month...I don't think that's impossible with the hcg.

I'm still doing the IF and have pretty much come to terms with not eating till noon and making sure I don't eat after 6pm.

One more pound and I'll be where I was when I finished my first round.

I put on a pair of pants this morning that I haven't worn in a long time and it feels good to know I'm not getting bigger...I'm getting smaller...it may take awhile but the direction is the most important thing. My body is not broken and I can lose this weight. I may have ups and downs but I will not quit.

[ColleenMA66]

210.2 up .4 I was naughty yesterday.....just can't seem to make an entire week without getting into something...that's why I can't seem to do strict protocol....but I am trying to keep it as close as possible.

Official weigh in tomorrow..I'd like to keep strict today and see if I can pull out a good loss for this week...anything over 2lbs is good for me.

[ColleenMA66]

208.8 this morning....off to get weighed... .2 away from my original LDW....finally...took forever to get back here. I'm hoping next week will be as good and I'll see the 205s!

[ColleenMA66]

This morning I weighed in at 208.6! That by the way was my LDW for my first round. I went on to lose 1 more pound the 2 days with no drops which is why my sig is 207.6.

Saturday I ate a ton of food...way more than I had anticipated and it was mostly a carb fest. I did not weigh Sunday morning but was VERY strict with my protocol and drank my water. Monday I was only 1lb over my Sat weight....woot!

I was out shopping around noon yesterday and for some reason got it into my head to have a quarter pounder with cheese and a med fry from Mcdonalds and a snickers bar....I know right!

I ate pretty much nothing the rest of the day...put my food into fit day and it came in around 1200 calories. I picked at the roast chicken I made for the family so I might have come in around 1300.

I was surprised to see a loss this morning...go hcg! I will not be doing this experiment every day..lol but I was out and the mood struck so I had it and moved on.

I don't know to be honest what the hcg allows us to do....I do plan on doing some sort of strict protocol and proper phases 3 and 4 at the end...I'd love to be able to stabilize and be somewhat normal..whatever that means but right now I'm in serious weight loss mode.

[Deb294evr]

excellent Colleen!! I love to experiment, especially when it all goes right..

[ColleenMA66]

207.8 I want 200 sooooooooooooooooo bad....199 really but I can almost taste it. I've still got 2 weeks realistically before I get there and even then that's if nothing goes wrong lol

I know I'll get there but geez..now that I'm motivated completely I want my body to get in gear and it is...it truly is.

I'm basically eating one meal per day ..which is so amazingly odd and not easy but if I eat a good lunch I'm really not hungry for a dinner and I manage to pick a little here or there and be ok. I don't want to live the rest of my life like this don't get me wrong but for the duration of what I'm mentally able to do I'm sticking with it.

[ColleenMA66]

208 grrrrr up .2

Here is my advice..if you order a quarter pounder with cheese and they mistakenly give you a double quarter pounder instead...give it back! lol

I don't know what my deal is but it feels like on Wed I need to do something I'm not supposed to be doing. I went to Mcdonalds yesterday not out of craving or even being hungry but just because I wanted to push the envelope...I had a double quarter pounder with cheese a medium fry and a cinnamon melt. That is the only food I ate yesterday....came to around 1500 calories...I was full the rest of the day and most of the night...but felt bloated.

I want to see 206 this saturday so I have to get with the program for today and tomorrow.

On the plus side I'm able to fit into more clothes that I haven't been able to in a long time..that's always fun...the boyfriend is getting excited lol

[ColleenMA66]

207 I would not count this week as a total success even though I managed a 2lb loss! I ate things I shouldn't have a cpl of times and had to really work hard to get the loss I did.

I'm now at my lowest since I started hcg. I'm giving the boyfriend the scale on Monday I think.....I asked him to take it but he may have to pry it out of my hands before I let it go but I have to stop obsessing. I'm hoping with no scale I'll be too afraid to deviate too far from protocol.

I was hoping for 200 by the end of March but that seems like a steep goal. I'll try my hardest but as of today since I started back I've lost 15.6!

[Deb294evr]

Congrats Colleen!! I would call it success!!! ditch the scale.. it is a liar sometimes....

[ColleenMA66]

Thanks Deb!

I'm ditching the scale till Saturday. I intentionally have been off plan the last 3 days....today (tues) I'm getting back to it...I just needed a break...I did weigh yesterday afternoon (not a good time) and thought...well crap lol

My goal for this week is to just get back to 207 before my Sat weigh in....I just needed a few mental health days off plan that and I bought this huge back of potato chips of the kind I like and practically ate the entire thing over 2 days. What it is about a brand new bag of chips when you open it....<sigh> lol one of my favorite things....anywhoo..I've been off since Saturday so nothing good is coming of it ..trust me.

But...I think honesty is the best policy and being truthful about our struggles is what helps others so....here are mine for everyone to see. I am not going to be perfect on this journey...trust me....I'm not even trying to be...just trying to do it in a way I can live with it.

I think the most important thing for me is to not let a little setback send me to the feeding trough and gain it all back...this was a blip in the overall big picture so onward and downward.

[Deb294evr]

That is exactly right Colleen!!! I think talking about our struggles will help others a lot!!! I know I am struggling right now too, and no matter what I do, I am not giving up!!!! Nobody makes it to goal in a straight line... I don't care who you are, when you have over 20 pounds or so to lose, it takes patience, and experiments and time.... so knowing all this.. .we will succeed!!...

Have a wonderful week girl!!

[ColleenMA66]

205.2 this morning....I was MIA for a few days by choice....sometimes you just need to step away from the boards and the diet....that was last week...cravings...tom came yesterday so I should be good for a few weeks....just needed a break...I've accepted that is going to happen. The weight WILL come off that is the bigger picture for me so I just want to stay focused on that and keep chugging along.

HCG makes it easier for the most part....sometimes I find I'm just BORED with not eating much.

Does hcg work.....last saturday I was 211.6 btw so...yah...hcg WORKS. I ate last week and ate...I realize I'm only having to redo and that's frustrating....but in that moment...sometimes it feels like it's worth it.

Off to my ww weigh in to make it official.

[ColleenMA66]

204.2 getting closer to 200...yay...I'm really hoping by next weekend if I don't go off track too much this Saturday.

[ColleenMA66]

203.8 this morning...last night I had a tiny binge before bed....I didn't have dinner so I was hungry but not overly starving...I just wanted to EAT something...I had a cpl of crackers with some butter...few chips...little bit of sf chocolate and a little pbutter...nothing huge but it was at 10pm so I'm sure that didn't help my loss in the morning...but still managed a small one...I'll take it.

2 days till my weigh in and I'm really going to try to be strict so I can get the maximum loss for this week....crossing fingers I don't lose my mind by Saturday.

Otherwise just chugging along.

[ColleenMA66]

203.4 for the week......happy with my progress so far.

[Deb294evr]

Awesome job Colleen!!!

[MagieDen]

Originally Posted by ColleenMA66

203.4 for the week......happy with my progress so far.

You are soooooo close to ONEderland!!!! Excited for you!

[ColleenMA66]

200.6 ugh...seriously...lol how close can I get to 199 and not be there.

I'm hoping tomorrow. I've been up and down the last month or so.....I knew my motivation would take a vacation for a little while and it did. It's difficult to stick to this plan 24/7 at least for me it is.

I'm getting ready to get back into the mind set of protocol as strict as I can do it. I just want it done already.

Anyone who was wondering about me I'm doing good and have not put any weight back on just not losing it that fast either. Hoping that changes SOON!

[Deb294evr]

Originally Posted by ColleenMA66

200.6 ugh...seriously...lol how close can I get to 199 and not be there.

I'm hoping tomorrow. I've been up and down the last month or so.....I knew my motivation would take a vacation for a little while and it did. It's difficult to stick to this plan 24/7 at least for me it is.

I'm getting ready to get back into the mind set of protocol as strict as I can do it. I just want it done already.

Anyone who was wondering about me I'm doing good and have not put any weight back on just not losing it that fast either. Hoping that changes SOON!

HIYA COLLEEN! Well you sound like ME... I have not gained anything back, but losing is SLOWWWWWWWWWWW going!... so I would say we are kinda successful! It sure could be worse! I could be 282 again at any point if I don't watch it!!

You will get there!! keep on keepin on and do the best you can!

[ColleenMA66]

Thanks Deb and you are right.....usually when I'm not losing it's because I'm gaining so this IS progress! And we will get there...I'm determined to get there this year. I still have more than half a year...but I don't want to take that long!

[ColleenMA66]

198.4!! Now I'm off to weight watchers to see what my official weigh in will be....when I hit under 200 on that scale I'll be thrilled.

[ColleenMA66]

I've made my 25lb goal....I weighed in at ww this morning at 199.4! I haven't been under 200lbs since 2007!!!

I hit wonderland! YAYYYYYYYY..there were days when I didn't know if this was ever going to happen.

Lots more to do but what a great feeling.

[Deb294evr]

so happy for you !!!

[ColleenMA66]

197 this morning......been awhile since I've posted but I'm still at it...slowly...but I am moving downward.

[Doing It Right]

Way to go Colleen! I've been reading thru your journey all weekend... trying to find my own motivation again. Glad to see your still at it! KUTGW!!!

Tonya

[ColleenMA66]

Good morning everyone!

I've been MIA and a bit wobbly with my motivation lately. Up a little bit from my lowest 199.8 this morning but anticipate it gone this week hopefully with another lb or so.

I am feeling refocused. I have a vacation in about 4 weeks and I'd like to be at 185 for my vacation. I have been struggling with my motivation. I have made a bet with the boyfriend.....I do not want to lose this bet!!! I will reach my goal of 180 by Labor Day.....OR ELSE! So...I am focused on protocol to avoid doing the thing I said I would do lol Sad that giving me something I really want wouldn't motivate me like this but that's me I guess. Whatever works!

He's coming down Friday so I'd like to get weighed Friday morning instead of Saturday so I'm under the gun to make this week successful with one day less.

Also....I have been listening to Why we get fat from Gary Taubes......CARBS ARE EVILLLLLLLL...SUGAR IS THE DEVIL!!! I know this....I knoooow this..so what the heck. I'm going to allow myself some extra food on Saturday but keep it low carb. I'm interested in seeing if the low carb extra food will have the same effect as the non low carb food does. Anyway....I'm rogue with my plan anyway so don't follow me. When I stay close to protocol (like now) I'm pretty good but still not completely on protocol.

Have a great day...I'll try to post more regularly. I think I was avoiding posting because I've been "bad"

[ColleenMA66]

198.4 I'm hoping to be at my low tomorrow and then on to some new territory for Friday's weigh in.

I had a doozy of a day yesterday. I have 2 jobs. I work as a bookkeeper for my brother's business and I also have a small massage therapy business of my own. I'm able to fluctuate between the two because A. it's family and B. I'm only a couple houses down from the store so I can go back and forth when I need to.

Anywhoo.....my mother called me yesterday morning and told me I had a client.....what?! lol I spaced out my 10am client. Monday's are busy day for me because of the weekend and the depoist that needs to be done..ect, ect. I ran home and did the massage...rushed back to work....but I never made it back home to make my lunch.

I grabbed some willow tree chicken salad....soooooooooo good.....but my god I looked up the nutritional info...420 calories for HALF A CUP! Small amount of carbs (4g) because there is some sugar in their chicken salad. I had 3/4cp at least....so then to make it worse I had a cinnamon bun..did I mention we have a bakery in the store....yah...aren't I the lucky one. I was pretty good the rest of the day but trying not to let the slip up get the better of me and did have a loss this morning so I'm pleased.

I'd like to see 197 in the morning and all will be well.

[ColleenMA66]

197.2.....YAY and ARGH all at the same time..lol I was sooo hoping for 197 which was my low from a couple of weeks ago. I'm still happy with 197.2 because barring a total melt down today I should be in new territory tomorrow and hoping for 195 something for Friday.

I will share a tip that seems to be helping me. I am consciously holding the drops under my tongue for 3 mins. I was reading on the boards and someone posted something about the hhcg being absorbed through the membrane and if you swallow it you're not getting all the benefits so I've started doing it and I think it's helping. I have little to no hunger. I get head hunger don't get me wrong...usually in the afternoon and after dinner....I just want to munch on something...I'm trying hard not to but sometimes I'll have a few nuts or a tsp of peanut butter just to satisfy that little urge but I am working towards not doing it.