Laura's Journal: 150lbs by Jan 27th

[Sugardemon]

I'm starting blogging today... b'cuz I'm just sick to death of my inability to stick to my guns. How many times can I go back & forth on my decision to do low-carb and lose weight. Apparently 2 years worth. It's infinitely frustrating. So frustrating. And such a waste of time & energy. I guess the good thing is I never gave up.. but its ridiculous to do something for so long and not get there. It's stupid actually. Am I stupid?? Apparently.

Let's go back two years ago. Weighing in at 160 and the lowest weight I've ever been. So happy and relieved... but loosening up on my stringent plan got me to where I'm at now, hovering above 170. Yes, 10lbs don't seem like that much.. but those are a significant 10lbs on ME. Those measly lil pounds take me from just over-weight to nice looking. Crazy.

For me.. the pounds break down like so:
160 = size 8
165 = size 10
170 = size 12

I have lotsa size 10's, a couple size 8's and NO size 12's in my closet! I refuse to buy them.. so right now, I have NOTHING to wear. I'm so pathetic I've been struggling with these 5 lbs for the past 6 mos to get down to a size 10 to wear what's in my closet. It's so frustrating to not be able to button your jeans.

I stayed 165 for a whole year struggling on and off with this WOE and I was extremely happy about that... and then just this summer, I popped over 170 mark. Unacceptable. I hate it.

Anyways... I think sometimes I need to RANT. I don't want to do it on the Main Board and look like a crybaby! Here I have a degree of solitude but I can get support by those so inclined. (I hope!).

[LoCarbLita]

Originally Posted by Sugardemon

I'm starting blogging today... b'cuz I'm just sick to death of my inability to stick to my guns. How many times can I go back & forth on my decision to do low-carb and lose weight. Apparently 2 years worth. It's infinitely frustrating. So frustrating. And such a waste of time & energy. I guess the good thing is I never gave up.. but its ridiculous to do something for so long and not get there. It's stupid actually. Am I stupid?? Apparently.

Let's go back two years ago. Weighing in at 160 and the lowest weight I've ever been. So happy and relieved... but loosening up on my stringent plan got me to where I'm at now, hovering above 170. Yes, 10lbs don't seem like that much.. but those are a significant 10lbs on ME. Those measly lil pounds take me from just over-weight to nice looking. Crazy.

For me.. the pounds break down like so:
160 = size 8
165 = size 10
170 = size 12

I have lotsa size 10's, a couple size 8's and NO size 12's in my closet! I refuse to buy them.. so right now, I have NOTHING to wear. I'm so pathetic I've been struggling with these 5 lbs for the past 6 mos to get down to a size 10 to wear what's in my closet. It's so frustrating to not be able to button your jeans.

I stayed 165 for a whole year struggling on and off with this WOE and I was extremely happy about that... and then just this summer, I popped over 170 mark. Unacceptable. I hate it.

Anyways... I think sometimes I need to RANT. I don't want to do it on the Main Board and look like a crybaby! Here I have a degree of solitude but I can get support by those so inclined. (I hope!).

I hear ya sister, I am a 12, and I HATE it. My "weight gain" came from the shot. It feels like hormone weight is IMPOSSIBLE to take off. I would be happy @ a 10 or lower too. Don't lose sight of your goal girl.

[Sugardemon]

Thank you LowCarbLita! I hear ya about hormones... I guess you have to work even harder (which sux)... but we will get out of the size 12s this month! It's a promise. =P

Monday
Today felt very very good. Not like the emotional rollercoaster of yesterday.
I was on plan today and super strict to compensate. My weight bumped up to 172.. I know it's water weight b'cuz I'd been hovering just below 170 for a couple weeks now. But it's a start and I am not discouraged.

Eats so Far...
8a. Coffee w/ HWC
10a. Jay Robb Protein Shake
1p. Jay Robb Protein Shake
6p. Dinner.. I'm not sure. Something deliciously L/C yummy.

Yes.. it is a SHAKE day. The Eades 6-wk Belly Fat Cure has sparked my interest. I will have a low-carb dinner and see where this takes me. I'm just glad that I feel strong and on-plan today. It's totally all "mental"!!! And of course, patience is key.

[LoCarbLita]

Maybe you need to up your fat intake a bit. Those restrictions can slow down your weightloss, and liquids leave you feeling not very full. Also, I would eat the heaviest midday. Just to balance out the morning/night cravings. I am glad you're feeling better though. If you need an ear or something, or weight loss buddy just let me know. :]

Oh, you are from Seattle! I want to move there or FL when this economy picks up. I went there for about a month in '07, and I couldn't get enough of your town. Currently, I am in MI. Stuck, and I am looking to go back to college again for a C.N.A. Because there are NO jobs here. :/

[Sugardemon]

Thank you LoCarbLita... I will do that. Swing by anytime... while I rant!! lol. Y'know..if it's something you want to do. You should do it. Why are you stuck in MI? No jobs there, right? Might as well start applying everywhere else! =P

Wednesday's Rant
I jumped off the shake plan... I really like to EAT, so that only works one day.. and then I feel deprived and then all this mental/emotional issues and cravings come into play. Why do I want to do that to myself. To lose weight faster, of course. Stupid.. slow & steady wins the race Laura... not racing to the finish line and then lying like a dead turkey on the road b'cuz I'm too tired to go on!

So a couple things I realized this week.

(1) EAT... eat all the legal high-fat, low carb yummies you can. It will help control hunger and cravings and temptation. If you're full, you cannot be tempted with donuts!

(2) Prepare these foods to be available in your fridge. I am a lazy, grab n' go kinda girl. I think one of the temptation of high-carb foods is how readily available they are!!! So I must make my legal treats equally available. I just stocked my fridge with fancy cheese: gruyere (so good!), salami, tuna salad, hwc for my coffees, and made a batch of the sausage egg muffins, and mini pumpkin cheesecake snacks. Perfect and it will last me all week.

(3) Patience. Patience. Patience! I've read that we only easily lose 2lbs a week max... anything other then that is serious hard work. So why do we stress about losing weight so fast?? 2 lbs a week is great. It's 8 lbs a month. That's 24 lbs in 3 mos. Exactly what I want to lose. What's the rush, huh? Keep to the plan, and be patient.

[LoCarbLita]

Originally Posted by Sugardemon

The Eades 6-wk Belly Fat Cure has sparked my interest.

I am curious to see how that works for you then! I eat low carb organic for the past 6 months, but I really need to crack the whip in the exercise dept. I am going back to college again in a little over a week for CNA. I just need to start an actual routine. I am looking into getting Callenetics dvd after I pay for all of my books/supplies first.

I would apply everywhere, but it takes money to move far! How is WA economy doing right now? MI unemployment is 10% right now.

It sounds like you're doing really well so far.