To Be Where I've Never Been Before....

[Maryposa]

maybe you can try some L-glutamine for cravings?

If I tried to fix my cravings with carbs, boy would I be in trouble everyone is different though.

Maybe you can try 30 grams carbs but more from veggies vs.. treats

[sourpeach]

Originally Posted by MissG

I really am getting irritated with my lack of will power lately! It needs a smack of reality in its face!

couldn't resist!! morning luv!!

[RonnyJohnson]

Im going to go live with green eyes Ill have her thin in no time......

wait that sounded really naughty....

[lawmom]

Originally Posted by sourpeach

couldn't resist!! morning luv!!

Olivia I am right there with you ... I cannot get motivated right now and keep sabotaging myself. The mindset just isnt' there. I know I can do this, but tonight we ordered pizza (and I had two slices) then followed that with a candy bar. Why do I do this???? I was good for two days and then I fall again.

[sourpeach]

Originally Posted by lawmom

Olivia I am right there with you ... I cannot get motivated right now and keep sabotaging myself. The mindset just isnt' there. I know I can do this, but tonight we ordered pizza (and I had two slices) then followed that with a candy bar. Why do I do this???? I was good for two days and then I fall again.

**crawling in with head hung low** me too!!


I am thinking right now.. and am going to come up with a new plan, I cannot continue to sabotage myself and my happiness!! love you guys..

Liv - sorry for jacking your journal.. carry on luv!!

[misslatte]

I've previously sabotaged myself too. We all need to figure out how to stop ourselves from doing this. Hmm.

[tempted_by_food]

Girls it isnt easy I was on plan off plan on plan for 3 months and gained 12lbs! Sheesh so please try and get a plan that works and dont gain like I did, am only back in the game 2 weeks now and back down 8 of the 12! But it is a constant struggle trying to jump back on! seen a nice post I will try and paste it here it might help lol it took my mind of chinese lol

[tempted_by_food]

Here it is check this thread if you havent already lol Talk Me Down...

[easwann]

Miss Olivia, my grandmother always said to be wary of anyone with only one solution to a problem. I think your rethinking and replanning is so wise and strong, and I completely get what you mean about instead of deny , deny,deny, splurge, just spread a little more out consistently. Sounds sound!! lol

Hope you and Ammie and Lawmom have a great day tomorrow. I wish I knew what makes some weeks good and then a week like you gals are having now. God know 2 weeks ago I was where you are and you all pulled me back in . So for what its worth, Im thinking of you all.. Lizzie

[MissG]

Thank you Lizzie! Food issues are kinda at the bottom of my real issues at this time. Of course the issues are all the reasons I continue to sabatoge myself.

I'm having financial, emotional and all kinds of stressful situations going on right now. We just moved here in January and we are now moving out of this place again over the weekend. Very Suddenly I might add. I thought we'd at least have another few weeks. The owner luckily let us out of our agreement and we are now in the middle of selling what is left of our belongings to make due in the mean time. Not only that we have no where to go as of bieng booted out of here on Sat. I know this is alot to put out there but its whats literally eating at me for the last 3 days. lol...sad part about all of this. I tallied up what we had left of our belongings and if we sold what we have left to sell and for what we can be able to get for the things...we are only worth about $800.

That hurts even thinking about too!

Anyways......Don't know what else to say....that's the jest of whats going on right now!

[misslatte]

[lawmom]

Olivia: I am so sorry things are not going well for you right now. Things will get better. The power of prayer is an amazing thing. Also, there is a reason why we go through these types of times (even if we don't understand it right now). I am praying for you and your family. xoxoxo!

[sourpeach]

aww.. dayum!! that sucks!! and I am so sorry!! hey.. I might be like 7 hours away.. but you always have somewhere to go.. here

I am truly sorry Liv, I know all the things that life can throw at us, and sometimes things will just be all dandy.. and then wham!! from nowhere you are hit with stuff!

You are truly an amazing woman, and I am confident things will work out for you.. hopefully sooner than later..

But really, you can always drive 7 hours north if you need too! that offer stands!

[MissG]

lol.....Ammie..your so funny! He's got people up in oregon border cali/oregon. Don't know if I'm up to "wandering"...but that was an option too.

I have 1 more day to really figure this out. I have been so overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions the last few days, that I cannot even begin to think of the last thing that came into my mind as its just being pushed out by the next fleeting thought. I feel so overly consumed and blank at the same time if that makes sense.

Yes Tara....All things happen for reasons that really are beyond any of our control. I just feel helpless when I abso. have no ways or means of a solution to this. There always is a solution to a problem. Unfortunatley, this one is proving to not show one as of yet! I'm very hopeful though!

[easwann]

OMG!! Miss G , of course this is the last thing you need to be concerned wiith...and for what it is worth, my thoughts are with you..It doesnt change anything, but 20 years ago my husband and I were down to 78 cents..no lie. My husband got a job driving truck so wed have a place to sleep! I know the blank yet consumed feeling, and as hard as it is to imagine, this too will pass.

Hoping you find your new place soon, Lizzie

[tempted_by_food]

MissG...Thats awful am sorry you guys are going through so much stress right now, I hope it is short lived and you sort something out soon

[sourpeach]

Liv -Just.. and

[tempted_by_food]

Just showing you am thinking of you, hope things work out for you guys!! I have my fingers, toes and everything else crossed for you!

[mom2crzyboyz]

Hope everything is going ok

[misslatte]

Happy Tuesday!

[sourpeach]

and

-you know where to find me if you need anything!!

[JSmooth619]

Hey 'Liv!!!

Wanted to say Hi! and I for you and your family.

[MissG]

Hi guys!

Thank you so much for stopping by and supporting me! I'm looking into some alternate resources right now so hopefully it will help us out. If not, then at least I tried.

....................

We had all our things packed on Sat ready to move out from here. The owner came by and said he felt bad for rushing us out and knowing we had no where to go with the kids. so He gave us til the 11th. Next friday. Although that was a blessing to us, I could deeply feel the bitterness he had behind doing so.

Even though he has let us out of our agreement, If we had the money to pay June's rent he would have to take since we are legally bound by agreement til July. However, he has already posted the ad for the place to be rented by June 13th So he really wants us out. He legally cannot refuse the rent if it is paid but at the same time since we cannot afford the rent right now we have no choice but to go. It's just a very confusing situation and highly problematic.


.....ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!

lol.....Stayed op somewhat this last week finally got on the scale this morning. 3lbs down for this last week. Cool...seeing that things have been ugly and tom is here.

[misslatte]

I hope all works out for you lady, I have an empty room out here in CO if needed.

Congrats on -3, especially with TOM, wow!!

[sourpeach]

[tempted_by_food]

Go you, on the loss and TOM on the scene, am glad that nasty landlord give you guys a little leeway I hope you figure something out soon, keep your chin up

[MissG]

Thank you Missy! I really appreciate all your guys support, honestly!!!! It does help getting through all this and keeping me on track!

[MissG]

I went through my own lil personal store of remaing items I have left from selling on ebay last year. I have tons of crap I need to sell off. clothing,makeup and beauty supplies and all kinds of other things. We had powerseller status and due to 1 bad batch of items we ordered and did not recieve caused us to lose tons of revenue and our reputation. So I'm sitting on lots of items which I cannot turn over since I have no avenues of doing so. Craigslist just does not work.

Anyways....I was rummaging through my makeup supplies and totally forgot about this big lot of mac products I invested in from another seller on ebay to resale and I have tons of goodies.

All this in looking for my haircolor boxes I had stored away...lol.

Oh how I loved the times I was a seller on ebay. I miss those days. I kept me busy and well profits were good!

~Rant finished~

[MissG]

today has been good. It's been kinda Looooooooong...but good!

Eats for today:

B: 2 fried eggs in butter and 1 hamburger patty w/cheese

water........coffee......more water............water.........did I mention WATER!!! lol.....

No Lunch

D: Will be same as Breakfast

It tastes so good topping the burger with the eggs..lol


tom's beating me up today..ugh and I'm tired!


Gonna go and make dinner. Hoping to see another stellar loss on the scale tomorrow. I havent measured myself in probably over a month now. I always foget. Probably wont do so til tom is gone.

Here's hoping the whoosh fairy stops and sprinkles everyone with love tomorrow!

[easwann]

Oh, Olivia, nice job perservering!! Glad you got the apt for a few more days, wish I could help somehow. Amazing job on the weight loss TOM has me crazy right now, but I know a whoosh is waiting for me if I can keep on the wagon!! ( I am sitting next to Ammie, she made me last week when I was having a bad day!! lol)

Have a great day and my prayers are with you. Lizzie