Living on a Dime in 2009

[Livywilltim-mom]

Sue Update...see her journal...

[Edwards20]

Thank you Sue ... I've left another message in her journal. My heart is breaking for her and her family.

A heartfelt thank you to you other gals as well for continuing to come by.This is really tough. I've been struggling as usual, but try to get right back on plan. It is not a easy at it seems.

I've gone from a world full of no money and NOTHING to do ... to doing something NON-STOP and just enough money to get something quick/easy every day. There were two days last week that I didn't take a lunch and ate chips/donuts out of the vending machine because I was so hungry.

I've decided that a major key to this WOE is PLANNING ! We usually plan and cook up foods on the weekend so we have things ready to eat and easy to grab during the week. Well, the past two weekends we have not really been home.

Saturday we spent the day in AL with the inlaws. Went to the Collinsville flea market -- wasn't really impressed this trip. Then we spent the rest of the day trying to get the above ground pool going. Much to DD's dismay, I don't think the rip in the seam can be repaired ...

DH and DD were baptized last Sunday -- Praise God for their salvation ! We had many friends and family members attend. We all went out for Sunday afternoon lunch. I managed to eat OK at the restaurant, but it was almost 4PM when we got home and I was so exhausted I went to bed and slept til Monday morning.

This weekend we have my cousin's daughter's (isn't that my 2nd cousin) wedding, which will wind up being an all day event when you factor in travel time. Sunday is promotion day in Sunday school. Perhaps I'll have some time after church then to prepare for next week.

I go from too much time on my hands to no time on my hands ... why oh why can't there be a happy medium ?

[Low Carb Mommy]

Good to see you on here Candy!

I know it's hard my friend! Bottom line though is that you HAVE to make YOURSELF a priority (with all seriousness). Weight loss/being healthy will not happen until you do. You did it before....you were successful with this WOE. I am almost certain you were just as busy then as now. It's not a question of you knowing how to do it. You just have to make up your mind to do it. Tough words I know but it's truth.

I allowed myself to make way too many excuses for many years to myself. Who was it hurting? ME!! It wasn't until I decided that I was worth it and put everything second that it happened for me. I know it's a hard concept to grasp especially being a mother/wife. It's in our nature to put everyone in front of us. It doesn't mean that you have to put everything second forever, but while you are doing this for yourself you have to be number one for it to work. No one will do it for you but you! Just some thoughts to consider....I think you are incredibly worth it!

[Livywilltim-mom]

Originally Posted by Edwards20

DH and DD were baptized last Sunday -- Praise God for their salvation ! We had many friends and family members attend. We all went out for Sunday afternoon lunch. I managed to eat OK at the restaurant, but it was almost 4PM when we got home and I was so exhausted I went to bed and slept til Monday morning.

Praise God!!

I am so happy for your family about this...what a blessing indeed.

I am praying that I can understand Beth's advice in my heart and make myself a priority...she is right you know...we need to do it!!

Love and hugs

[monet0329]

Originally Posted by Livywilltim-mom

Praise God!!

I am so happy for your family about this...what a blessing indeed.

[COLOR="DarkOrchid"]I am praying that I can understand Beth's advice in my heart and make myself a priority...she is right you know...we need to do it!![/COLOR]
Love and hugs

AMEN!!.. now if I could get Beth to come to my house and tell me this daily

I have some info for you Candy... don't know if you'll eat them but here it is..

I was reading Woman's World mag just a few mins ago and it said that of you mix some dandelion leaves in with your salads.. you will flush out 30 % of excess water within 30 days.. they said if you don't use pesticides on them you can eat the ones in your own yard.. if so.. you can buy them at a greengrocer.
.. I read this and thought of YOU.. love ya

[Edwards20]

I love you guys ! Beth, thank you for getting in touch with me about Sue ... my heart is breaking.

Honestly, I am much busier than I was before as we were not attending church, I was home from work by 5pm. DH was working a 2nd/3rd shift combination, so I would sit here on the computer in the evenings. I visited journals, etc for my support and to support the others friends (all of you) I've made. Now, I honestly could probably find time to post in my journal but just struggle visiting other journals and feel guilty about posting in mine and not visiting others. I very rarely post in my blog, and I check Facebook in the evenings and sometimes on my phone during my lunch.

Now, I work all day and am lucky to be home by 7. The good thing is that I only opted for a 30 min lunch at work (instead of an hour) so that I would purposely have to bring my lunch and not be tempted to go out at lunch (that was the hardest struggle last time). Since I don't have time to go out now, and haven't had time to cook, etc. I've literally been eating out of the vending machines at work ... this is NOT GOOD !

I am miserable ladies ! Beth, I know you are right. But, I have never been one to put myself first and I struggle with that fine line between loving myself and being selfish. I was absolutely SICK when I stepped on the scales this morning ....

How can we start this (induction) so many times and then just totally blow it in a week or more sometimes. WHY ? WHY? can't I get back in gear and just stick to this. I know in the past I was in good ketosis for the most part before I was tempted to go off plan, and I was doing so well that it was much easier to resist certain foods. There are two events that I will attend this weekend (one being a sit down wedding dinner/reception) that will not offer much of a LC option. In the past, I would have just said I'll eat the chicken and leave the rest and I would have had lots of LC options in a cooler in the car to eat on the way home ....

If I can just make myself take a salad for lunch (Monet, if I can ever get back in gear I need to get more info on those dandelion leaves) that will get me started I think .... I am lacking all motivation and am very bummed out about this.

I have friends struggling with life threatening diseases, and Sue has gone to be with Jesus ... my heart is breaking for all of them and here I sit whining about my weight. I try to put it into perspective and think it really doesn't matter than I am fat ... but I know deep down inside it does and I am hurting terribly.

Pray for me .....

[Livywilltim-mom]

Originally Posted by Edwards20

I love you guys ! Beth, thank you for getting in touch with me about Sue ... my heart is breaking.


I have friends struggling with life threatening diseases, and Sue has gone to be with Jesus ... my heart is breaking for all of them and here I sit whining about my weight. I try to put it into perspective and think it really doesn't matter than I am fat ... but I know deep down inside it does and I am hurting terribly.

Pray for me .....

Candy,

You have my prayers! I understand your struggle. You can turn the lunch thing around THIS WEEK! Spend some time today making some salads and bag them up...make some Chicken and/or Tuna salad that you can put on your salads each day...get some deli meat to make roll ups...Hmmmm, now you've got me thinking too!

Beautiful Sunday my friend

[Edwards20]

Highest Weight: 264 (12/07)
Lowest Weight: 228 (5/08)

Start Weight: 242 (5/3/09)
Current Weight: 242 (6/8/09)

Current Loss: 0
Total Loss: -22 (since 12/07)

I make no promises on when I can post or what my goals are. All I can do is take this one day at a time.

I did fairly well over the weekend, depsite a couple of carb foods from the wedding on Saturday. I only had what was placed on my plate by the servers. I skipped grabbing a roll which may seem like nothing since I had mashed potatoes on my plate, but it was a milestone for me as I made a concious choice.

Sunday was completely on plan, although I thought I'd starve. I really struggled yesterday. I am so thankful there was nothing in my home to tempt me last night because I feel certain I would have eaten it.

I bought a head of lettuce. I cooked a pork roast/bbq in the crock pot and DH cooked some hamburger patties on the grill. Those will be my staples for our lunches this week.

I had a boiled egg, sausage patty and 3 slices of cheddar cheese for breakfast. I am sipping on my coffee, getting ready for the shower.

Today I have to take DD to a urologist. Keep us in your prayers. I honestly thought she had a kidney stone a few weeks ago. She hasn't had any trouble since the last "episode" at school. The school nurse seemed to think passing a kidney stone would have been the only thing to make sense. Sadly I could not get an appointment with the specialist for 3 weeks. Now suddenly yesterday afternoon she has the same symptoms again. I don't want to see her hurt, etc. but I guess it is not a bad thing that the symptoms will be present when we see this doctor.

I am still struggling over Sue's death and my heart is still broken. I know that she is in a better place.

I also would like for you all to pray for the family of one of our soldiers that was killed this week. Although I never met him, we attend church with his cousin. The family is struggling and none of them know Christ.

Hope everyone has a good day today. One day at a time .....
I can do ALL things through Christ .... I cannot do this alone.

[mycattaz]

Candy I too am struggling over Sue death... I know now she has the ultimate healing,but it so hard to think of never seeing her on here again.... She uplifted me everytime she spoke to me and I will always be grateful for the time that I knew her... We all believe that God was going to heal Sue right here on this earth... and its hard to understand why He would take such a wonderful person that did so much good to all that she came into contact with.... In times like this I try to remember that God see the bigger picture, I can only see what is behind me and what is in front of me..but He knows the future and we can only trust Him and believe that He is still in control..... And even though I did not get to meet her in person, so day I will meet her in glory...

Know you are in my prayers that God will bring your strength in times of need... I thank God for your dh and dd salvations.... God is good... Please pray for my family, alot of them are not saved and this saddens me....

hang in there, I promise to start posting more..

[Edwards20]

Thank you Lisa for your uplifting words .... I will add your family members to my prayer list. I do miss you .

Yesterday was rough.

DD had her follow up appointment with the urologist. The doctor really didn't discuss much of anything with me. I am not sure if that should make me angry or alarm me. It was a weird conversation. There was blood showing back up in her urine and bottom line, this is not "normal". I suppose he was just being cautious and would rather speak to me about his thoughts after an exam and testing, etc. But his words to me were "The first thing I need to do is rule out the bad stuff". I posted on FB that I wasn't sure if that was supposed to be comforting or not. So next week, she will be put to sleep for a cystogram/cystoscope, etc. Maybe this will give us some answers or at least lead them in the right direction.

I didn't "cheat" yesterday but did have a LC treat last night. I had some LC ice cream. Probably not the best choice, but it was a much better choice than driving through DQ and getting a Blizzard or going to Wendy's and getting a Twisted Coffee Frosty. I bought the Bryer's Carb Smart bars which have 5 net grams each and yes, I ate two of them through the course of the evening. I guess it was comforting to some extent, although I've never considered that I might be eating for comforting. I just eat to be eating or eat cause I am constantly hungry.

Today is a new day and breakfast and lunch are on track. Eating breakfast now and my salad is packed.

[mycattaz]

Candy so sorry you dd is going thur this... I will keep her in my thoughts and prayers, let me know when she goes thur her testing, so I can be praying that day for her...

WTG on staying on plan yesterday, I know I need to do better, I had watermelon this morning for breakfast, not low carb, but still good for me

have a great day at work...

[monet0329]

WOW.. I can't believe hannah is going though all this again .. my prayers are with her..

[Edwards20]

Thanks Lisa and Monet ... you both probably remember all the troubles we had before. Why do I feel as though I am having to convince these medical doctors that blood in a 7 year old's urine is NOT normal ?? I feel like I just constantly fighthing ....

The test is next Wed. the 17th.

I stayed on plan for the most part yesterday, with the exception of ONE Carb Smart bar instead of two. That's progress in my opinion. Still stayed under 20 carbs ,so we'll see how it affects me. Maybe it won't stall me, but this IS me ... ha !

So, now DH says next week we'll probably be back to eating potted meat sammiches and pinto beans. We have to pay a hefty co-pay for this procedure for DD. I am not convinced that my head of lettuce won't be just as cheap -- I've had a salad at lunch with it now for the 3rd day. That's not bad for $1.40. Of course even if you add the dressing, cheese, etc. it still may not be more expensive than bread, mayo, etc .... ugh. My frustration level is like a roller coaster.

Oh well, better run and shower or I'll be late for work.

[Livywilltim-mom]

Sweet Candy,

I am praying that your DH will see the value of LC and you can stay on-plan. Doesn't it feel horrible to be working all you can and still not have all your needs met? I feel for you sweetie, that's the place I am in as well.

Praying for sweet Hannah too

Hugs

[mycattaz]

goodmorning Candy, hope you are having a wonderful day.... Candy I know you like salmon patties and your dh doesn't... I make them up and put in the refrigerator and eat them till they are gone, just warm alittle in the microwave... and a can of salmon is not real expensive.... will check in later

[Edwards20]

Thanks Jaimie - you are precious ! He hasn't said anything else about it .... so we shall see what next week brings. He is on vacation and DD will be home all week, so who knows what kind of junk they will get into . Of course it is their vacation afterall. I will have a hard time going to work next week (I'll be off on Wed. for her procedure). But, I had a LONG vacation with this last layoff ... so I can't complain.

Lisa, that is a great idea !! Ok, tell me how you make yours ... please !

I've done well with my food choices all week. I need to increase my water, and probably decrease the ice cream bars ... but hey, they've filled a need and I've still lost. I think I could have lost more, and these are the same pounds I've lost a million times over.

TGIF !

[mycattaz]

Candy so sorry I didn't get back to tell you how to make salmon patties... I use a can of salmon, 1 egg, 1 tsp of flour, 1 tsp of cornmeal mix, can add alittle milk or water to help it mix better... salt and pepper to taste.... then cook either in Pam, or alittle oil..

I am going out of town for a few days... I will check in with you when I get back home, have a great weekend

[Edwards20]

Lisa, it's no problem - I wasn't going to get a chance to buy it this week, so no worries. I will be checking out the sale papers and keeping my eye open for a good bargain. I know a tsp of flour/corn meal isn't much but there are carbs ... do they bother you ? Do you use the milk ? If so, how many carbs do you count per patty (on average) ? Sorry for all the questions. Hope you are having a wonderful trip.

Yesterday was a reality check for me. I had to go get DD an outfit. As I sat in the dressing room with her, I glanced over and saw myself in the mirror ... oh my ! I don't think I've ever seen my self sitting down ... at least not this big ! The weight I gained back from my previous loss is all in my stomach and hips. I was absolutely disgusted. I suppose I "think" I had it rather well when I walk around. I cried ....

Needless today, I suppose DH felt my "pain" as he never mentioned sandwiches again for this week. He came home with all kinds of goodies for us to cook on the grill. We even had steaks on the grill last night .... yummy !

We cooked up 9 huge BBQ chicken breasts, and our brats as well. I just put my beef roast in the crock-pot so it will be ready after church. Lastly, there is a huge pork tenderloin in the fridge to be cooked sometime this week as well. He found some excellent deals on the meats, so we should be set for dinner/lunches next week.

I had great deal of trouble with my back yesterday. I honestly felt like I couldn't get out of the bed. But, this Mommy didn't have time for that so I finally got out. Today it is a bit better, but I dread the climb up the stairs for Sunday School this morning. We'll need to leave 15 minutes early ... please pray for some relief in my back. With DD having all her troubles, she needs me and I don't have time for this !!

I am sitting here drinking coffee ... good coffee. We made a breakfast quiche yesterday morning and we used heavy cream (I have had any in many months). I had some left over and I put it in my coffee .... yum, I had forgotten just how good this was. I also think that used to help me curb my appetite before.

We were so busy, and I was hurting so bad yesterday, I never did post my weigh-in yesterday:

WEEKLY WEIGH-IN
Highest Weight: 264 (12/07)
Lowest Weight: 228 (5/08)

Start Weight: 242 (5/3/09)
Current Start Weight: 242(6/8/09)
Today's Weight: 237 (6/14/09)

Current Loss: -5
Total Loss: -27 (since 12/07)

I suppose I can't complain about losing 5lbs this week. Although, I think I could have lost more without the ice cream treats ... but they were good and helped me. If I can lose 5lbs a week, I'll be skinny in no time ... ha ! If only it worked that way.

Most of you know I have a hard time exercising with my back issues. I am determined to get some more tennis matches or something in on the Wii. I know that will get me some cardio in (at least that is what I think it is). I have my gazelle too.

What I need is to work on this stomach and hip area. I just don't' see myself doing crunches or sit-ups in my present condition. What can I do for starters ? A long time ago I think I remember someone telling me to get an exercise ball to sit on at the computer, etc. Any tips (that will not stress my back/knees) are greatly appreciated.

Ok, I suppose this is long enough .... back to my coffee now. Hope everyone has a blessed day !

[mycattaz]

Candy hope your back is feeling better, and WTG on being 5 lbs down...

I just got back into town, we had a great time, was good to see my family... its amazing how much it has grown...

will check back in later

[twinkerbell]

Hi Candy!
I found your journal! I will come back soon and catch up!!! Have a great day!

[Low Carb Mommy]

Candy I am so proud of you for getting going on your plan!!!! Five pounds is totally awesome!!!!!

I wouldn't worry so much with the ice cream bars. In the beginning I would eat an Atkins bar every afternoon. It helped me get through that tough transitional phase. Soon, you will get away from needing them. Do right now whatever you need to do to stay LC. How sweet of DH to sense you needed support. You made my mouth water for BBQ.

Great to have you back! KUTGW!!!

[Livywilltim-mom]

WOW, wow, wow! 5 pounds in one week!! Yippee

I am so happy that DH is on board with all the yummy meats, answered prayers?? I think so!

Praying for DD in a special way this week, and for your back too!

Hugs

[Edwards20]

Good Morning Friends & Neighbors !

I had a horrible day yesterday at work. I guess everyone has those, but this one was a first for me at this job. I've had these types of days other places, but because of my "position" I could either fix the issue or get it fixed. I woke up late, back was hurting and I had some serious sinus issues going on. I pulled in the parking lot with one minute to spare.

By 10AM by computer had totally frozen. Tech support is at my desk telling me they know my computer is slow and they do realize it. They have some more computers but they are "reserved" ... what the heck for ??!!! Hello, if you have someone who processes for your company and the processing equipment is defective ... hmmmm, my first thought is get them a system that actually works ! Can you tell I was beginning to get really frustrated ?

The issues went on all day and I think they might be finally convinced I need another system. Of course it won't be new or anything. I'm better they are trying to manipulate how they are going to handle those reserved ones. Hopefully we can get something done today.

Needless to say, as I sat there unable to fully do my job the work load didn't get any lighter. Toward the end of the day, after I mentioned 3 times that my deadline would probably not be met, they gave me some help ..... at 4:45 ! Now, mind you the day typically ends for most folks at 5 and they had just sent and email out stating no one could get anymore overtime. So, guess what ? Everyone got up and left at 5 ... there I sat.

They have a couple of late folks for phone coverage until 6 and then they usually stay a little bit later than that to wrap up their paperwork etc. At 5:45 I was still there. The evening supervisor had me leave the remaining three tasks with a phone rep ...

I cannot believe I let a computer and a deadline get the best of me. I was so very stressed and frustrated. One of my other co-workers noticed it and began to give me a lecture on it ... which made me want to cry ... but I didn't (until I got in the car).

So, you see I was stressed because my computer would not keep up with me. I was stressed because I am trying to make an "impression" on these folks so hopefully when a position is available I will get the first shot at it. I didn't want to just not do the work. I was stressed because I don't like to leave a job incomplete.

I am perfectionist when it comes to work matters. I wish I were that way in other areas of my life - or perhaps I wish I would have my "oh well" attitude with work sometimes. Honestly, I've tried that and I just cannot do it. It is not within me.

In the midst of all this I decided I'd go take my lunch break. Now, I had planned on eating at my desk and working through to make up the time I'll miss being out with the daughter on Wednesday. But, at this point ... I decided a break was a MUST. I get to the fridge and realize my salad dressing was gone ! Evidently they clean the fridge out each Friday and all of us temps were not aware of this. So, the salad for lunch didn't go over so well.

I pulled into VBS on 2 wheels at 6:10 (I was supposed to be there prior to 6 to see if they needed my help). By 7, they had decided everyone had showed up so they didn't me. I came home and we went back at got DD at 8:30.

DH is on vacation and DD wanted ice cream. They drove through DQ - and I just ordered a blizzard like it wasn't loaded with sugar, etc. I started eating it and my heart just sunk ... what am I doing ?? Oh my !! But, then I really didn't care as it was so good. So, no LC ice cream last night ... I had the real stuff.

Which means I had a my quiche for breakfast, dry meat w/out lettuce for lunch and a blizzard for supper.

I was asleep by 9:30.

I am determined to have a better day today. I know our choices reflect the outcome of our day but I also realize that I have no power of my own to make it a good day. I can only cling to God. I am more than certain the devil was after me yesterday in more ways than one.

I almost gave in to the temptation to show my anger at work, yet I held it inside and probably made it worse. My thoughts were so far away from where they needed to be that I ate a blizzard .... wow !

"THIS is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be GLAD".

[mycattaz]

Candy so sorry you had such a bad day yesterday, I know you will not read this till you get back home tonight or in the morning... but I am praying that everything goes right for you today, that you have a wonderful blessed day... Don't worry about yesterday, its gone time to look forward.... have a wonderful day my friend

[Low Carb Mommy]

I responded to you in my journal. You have the right attitude....get right back on with LC!! You can do this!!!! Don't let one mistake discourage you. We all do it!

[Livywilltim-mom]

Today is a brand new day, honey Take psalm 118 to heart !!

You can do this!

I know how important your reputation is and being serious about your work is a good thing...but take a moment to step back when you get frustrated. I said a stupid thing yesterday to a parent at the dance studio...I should have taken my own advice and taken a moment to relax before lashing out!

Love you

[Edwards20]

You all are so wonderful to me ... I truly don't deserve your kindness.

It is funny how one mistake just seems to spiral downward. I did OK at work on Tuesday at work and with my food. Then back to VBS that night. The day was just non-stop.

I don't function well on LC during weeks like this. DD wanted McDs for her last meal, so I just ordered a BigMac like nobody's business. I have not had a BigMac in 5 or 6 years ...

Yesterday we spent most of the day at the hospital for DDs procedure. They found NOTHING wrong. This is a good thing that they are able to rule out all the bad stuff. But a bad thing (in my opinion) that I still have no answers as to where the blood came from. He could not rule out a kidney stone or cystistis - since they wouldn't show up after the fact. I still don't understand why they would not have ruled out the kidney stone while she bleeding/hurting. As for the cystitis he said that would be like an infection (which never showed on the test) that gave a fasle negative. I am still frustrated, but at ease that nothing bad was there. I wanted to demand further testings such as MRI's etc. but DH pointed out to me that would be crazy. The view the surgeon had yesterday was the best test anyone could have done. Basically if it happens again, I am to skip the Pediatrician's office and head straight to the Urologist's office (no appointment needed). I suppose only time will tell ...

We were up at 5AM yesterday. I was doing very well with my coffee (only after they took her back to the OR). I didn't even eat breakfast (another mistake, but I refused to eat in front of DD nor was I going to eat as long as she wasn't allowed to - it was my promise to her). On the way home, my groggy child talked to her Granny (an unbeknowst to me had asked for a DQ blizzard from them when they came). We got in the bed at noon. I think I crashed hard at about 12:30. Then ... at 1 my phone rang. The grandparents were at DQ and wanted our orders ???!!??? So, we ordered ... hello ....hello !! What was I thinking ???!???? Yep, I had another blizzard. Thank goodness they bought the small ones.

They stayed until about 5:15. At 5:30 we had to get ready to leave for VBS. DD was going no matter what ... geeze, I was so tired. I still do not know how she was functioning. I felt like a zombie. She did OK, but I didn't allow her to participate in the recreation, etc. she was just allowed to sit there. She wasn't too happy with me, but that was the only was I would let her go.

At 9:00 last night I was eating a chicken sandwich from Checkers ... this is crazy !!??

The chicken we cooked on the grill last week evidently didn't get done and is all ruined. There was nothing left that was cooked up for me to take to work ..... so I have a roastbeef sandwich in my lunch bag for today. Ugh !!

All I can do is increase my water intake and get myself back on track. This is so crazy. I don't know what is wrong with me. I am not giving up and if I can slow down long enough ... I will figure this out and get myself back on track.

Thanks for listening to me vent and just keep praying for me.

[monet0329]

HIya .. glad they found nothing.. but keep praying for your answer.. ..

only thing we can do with the low carbing is to NOT give up.. I need to get back on the wagon myself.. SOON..

I have been cleaning out the freezers lol.. trying to save money.. so I have only been buying milk and bread and stuff.. not including the grad party foods.. as a matter of fact I am having the left over taco meat on a salad for lunch.. its the last of it so.. that's good..lol..

I should be able to get to the store of Monday.. so cross your fingers for me.. ..

stay true to YOU.. love ya

[Edwards20]

WEEKLY WEIGH-IN
Highest Weight: 264 (12/07)
Lowest Weight: 228 (5/08)

Start Weight: 242 (5/3/09)
Current Start Weight: 242(6/8/09)
Today's Weight: 242 (6/20/09)

Current Loss: 0
Total Loss: -22 (since 12/07)

Well, I've managed to gain back my 5lbs of water weight from last week. I honestly didn't even care if I came and posted my weigh-in. But, you know what ? It is what it is and I have to come to grips with it. I believe accountability is important so there it is.

VBS, work and no time at all this week --I started to say "got the best of me" -- but I LET it get the best of me. It wasn't so bad when I was eating correctly at lunch and only something I shoudn't have at dinner. Then it just progressively got worse !

Beth, I am with you here ... I am a carb addict. I lose all control and the binge just starts. I was NEVER a big sugar eater. Starches were my thing. NOW, it was whatever I could get my hands on.

Last night was family night at Church. They had the best grilled hotdogs and some homemade relish/kraut that was out of this world. It probably had sugar in it, but very little (I'm trying to get the recipe). They had cookies and chips, etc. Now mind you that the hotdogs most likely had a high carb count and that I could have just eaten them with the relish .. nope I ate them with buns, relish, ketcup, cookies and chips. I have never in my life ... I couldn't quit eating. I think I had starved myself all day. It was crazy !

I have learned something very important (I always knew it) but have seen it more clearly than ever this week. I MUST PLAN MY MEALS and I MUST HAVE LC SNACKS ON HAND. That is going to be one of the biggest factors in me getting back on track.

Next week, DH has already said that is sandwiches, etc. as funds are low. It is crazy. I would have done better eating sandwiches this week than all my blizzards, etc.

Well, it is time to get this Saturday started. I hoped to sleep late, but that never happens. I woke up at 5:30. I made myself come here first in hopes that my typing in my journal will keep me accountable and make me realize just how horrible I have been this week.

If you get a chance, read some of the principals in this link I came across: Christian Weight Loss Program ... the first part is pretty tough. And it never hit me until I read it this time. I AM A GLUTTON, and I need God to help me and take control of this portion of my life just as any other area of my life. I will be praying about this in the coming week.

[monet0329]

Originally Posted by Edwards20

[B][U]If you get a chance, read some of the principals in this link I came across: Christian Weight Loss Program ... the first part is pretty tough. And it never hit me until I read it this time. I AM A GLUTTON, and I need God to help me and take control of this portion of my life just as any other area of my life. I will be praying about this in the coming week.

wow.. I didn't look at it like this.. my dad is a drunkard.. I guess I am too huh..how is it that I like to have control in every other aspect in my life.. except eating?

thanks Candy.. you gave me something to think about..