HERE I GO AGAIN......

[nicoleky30]

Well, here I go again. Seems like the story of my adult life. Not my childhood, not teenage years but from about 20 yrs old on. Geez.....I have officially been overweight about 15 years now???? Where has the time gone? This isnt supposed to be me and I dont want it to be. Or do I? Why do I always sabatoge myself? What is wrong with me that I do this to myself. I get depressed about being fat, ***** about being fat, but then everytime I lose weight I never keep it off. I lost 50 lbs lbs taking Phen/Phen about 11 yrs ago, got pregnant and then gained it all back and more. Lost about 40 lbs with Atkins 4 yrs ago, gained it all back and about 5 more, lost 24 lbs last year with Atkins and gained it all back. So....here I am again.
Started April 26th on this journey again as I have a mini goal and a longer goal. July 11th we take the kids to Myrtle Beach and November 15th is a cruise with hubby's work. Isnt that peachy?
So....my mini goal is to be 199 by July 11th and to be 175 by November.

My hard part is to cut out the alcohol. We grill out alot, so hubby and I will have drinks and once a week is "girls night out".

Will start my food from yesterday as that is when I started tracking:
bfast 2 strips of bacon and 2 pieces of canadian bacon/ham
L: low carb grilled chicken sandwich from hardees
S: about 7 baby carrots
D: prime rib and salad with ranch...screwed up and had 3 Smirnoff Ices while we were grilling steaks.
Had about 40 ounces of water and 1 Diet Big Red

Today:
B: 2 hard boiled eggs
S: 7 baby carrots
L: LC grilled chick from Hardees
S: Hot Slim Jim
D: Chicken breast and salad with ranch(will have)
50 ounces of water & 1 diet coke