Debbie's Doings

[BeepBeep]

Deb, i totally saw that fuel belt! I know what you're talking about.

Awesome on the purchases!!! how fun!

As for the weight ... I have some idears...

[debbiedo]

Yesterday was busy. I was up at 4:40 and off to the Marine Corp Marathon. If I was running it I now know I would have had to leave even earlier. There are so many people. I went to cheer on my husband who did the 10K. It was his first and he did it and ran the whole thing. He moves at his pace but he does it and he will get faster or not. Does it really matter?? No. Unless you have a competive spirit like I do. I watched the start of the marathon and was there to see the fastest runners finish. I then came home and had to go to work for8 hours.

Today is the 3 rd day after my epidural. I still have pain in right side and down right leg but I think it is less. I will see as I move around and I am on my feet all day. I am working 12 hours. I am going to try and run and if I can't I am going to walk. I walked a number of miles yesterday at the race. I walked from the start to the finish and that was around 2 miles there plus all the other walking.

Tomorrow we have a 7:45 am flight to Syracuse where we grew up. My MIL is moving into a senior apt and we are going to help for three days. I will get to see my dad too. He is picking us up at the airport. We will be driving her 1992 car. Hope she finally gets rid of it.

I got on the scale today and it finally went down. I ate very little yesterday. I weigh 119.8 today. I really just want all my clothes to fit so I don't have to spend a fortune on new winter clothes. Right now I only have 2 pairs of jeans and nothing else. I squeeze into the too small clothes and have to unhook the too tight waist.

I am happy to see the scale go down. I guess I do need to eat less then I have been. Yesterday I had three meals and no snacks.

Yesterday's Food:
Breakfast was 1 cup cooked oats with 1/2 c 1% cottage cheese
Lunch large salad with low fat sesame ginger dressing and left over flank steak and a banana
dinner was ground turkey, brown rice and spinach
when I got home last night I had a handful of Kashi Go Lean because I was munchy.

The day before wasn't much different in amounts. Friday was even less. No wonder I lost over 1.5 pounds it just happened over night. Now if it would just continue till I get to 114-115 I would be pleased and perhaps my clothes will fit again. I was 112-113 a year ago and was running and weight training. I had some say I was too thin. If my weight seems to stay where it is I guess I will be buying some new clothes.

[Jackielbrown04]

Deb- you are relying WAY to much on the scale. Just like it takes an additional 3500 calories to gain a pound, it takes the same to lose it. I hate to see you eating so little just to see the # on the scale move faster, IMO, it isnt worth it. I totally understand about your clothes, I have been there. Just remember the lower you keep your calories the more in jeopardy you are of slowing your metabolism, and in the long run making it harder to even maintain that lower weight.

I am all for you losing those last 5lbs, but I think you need to look at it a little differently than you have been.

[debbiedo]

Yes, Jackie I am too stuck on those numbers. Mostly I want my clothes to fit. Being short 5 lbs is alot. I know you understand this.

Did you have a good weekend??

I just ran 2 miles at 12 minute plus pace.I decided not to push it and just to check how I feel. I am not 100% and don't want to stir anything up at this point. No race Sunday and maybe I can do the one the following week.

[Jackielbrown04]

I TOTALLY understand. 5 pounds on me is like 20 on someone who is average height. It also makes it that much harder to lose. Have faith in yourself, the weight will come off, it just may take longer than you want.
What I did was went to Goodwill and got a few pairs of pants to hold me over until I losty the weight I needed. You can get pants there for $5. I know a lot of people are against bargain shopping, but I think it is a better idea than killing yourself (and your metabolism) trying to lose.

Nice work on the run today, take it easy

[debbiedo]

you can find things in your size at Goodwill?? I don't shorten my own clothes. Not that handy.

Good idea though. I tend to wear the 2's and open up the waist band and cover it up with a shirt.

[Jackielbrown04]

Originally Posted by debbiedo

you can find things in your size at Goodwill?? I don't shorten my own clothes. Not that handy.

Good idea though. I tend to wear the 2's and open up the waist band and cover it up with a shirt.

I dont shorten my own clothes either. I buy short length pants, or if they arent ridiculously ling I roll them. I actually got a pair of Old Navy jeans there a few weeks ago, my size, short. You gotta go through stuff but they do have everything there

[debbiedo]

I have been away all week. No time to post now. Off to volunteer for packet pickup for tomorrow's race.

More about my week later. Things have been crazy with 90 year old MIL, work and now the painter is at my house. Have to go.

Hi to all who drop in here!!!!!!

[debbiedo]

My last week has been crazy. One week ago Friday I had the epidural for my back pain. It led to increased pain for about 2-3 days. I went to Marine Corp Marathon Expo Saturday and the race Sunday and then worked 3-11 Sunday and 11-11 Monday. Tuesday Morning I was up and on a plane bright and early and we were off to Syracuse. My 90 year old MIL has deteriorated mentally and moved into her new apartment Monday. It is a senior building and there is alot of support for her there and lots of her friends are there but the move really made her worse. She is so anxious and can't remember that there is nothing left at her house and where things are in new place. Her house is the only house she lived in her whole marriage. She has been there over 53 years. We have been cleaning out all the things and getting her set up. While there we also visited the ER and her doctor and saw my dad a few times. It was a stressfull three days. We took a very late flight home Thursday and got home around 1am. I worked 11-7 Friday. Add to all this the painter started at my house yesterday and we had to move furnature and clean out rooms upstairs. Yesterday I ran errands and volunteered for the race I was supposed to do today. I was up and volunteering at 6:20 this morning then I cheered for my husband and lots of friends. This was fun but I am so sad I can't run right now. I will try again Tuesday night. There is a race next Saturday I so want to do even really slowly. First I must see how the runs go this week.

I need to schedule another epidural. I am told one really doesn't do much. I am still having pain but it isn't as severe but there and not comfortable.

Tomorrow I have a class from 8-4:30 so no busy Monday working in the ER. I also picked up and extra shift Wednesday.

There is so much going on this week. I have major PMS too.

My weight was down to 118 yesterday and up to 119.8 yesterday but we had Chinese for dinner so I hope it is just water weight. I did fit back into my size 2 petite jeans yesterday which makes my husband happy.

I am really not worried about the numbers on the scale. I just want my clothes to fit. I am barely exercising which doesn't help my waistline at all.

I leave for work at 2:15. Glad we got an hour more sleep last night. Wish I wasn't working.

[Jackielbrown04]

Wow Deb! Your week makes me I have family in Syrcause, my dad was actually born there.

I am glad your pain is at least a little less, that is a good thing

Nice deal with your weight too. Chinese has a lot of sodium so I would be that is why your weight is up today from yesterday. Just keep reminding yourself that you need to eat an additional 3500 calories to gain fat

Hope work goes fast for you

[debbiedo]

Thanks Jackie. My whole family was born in Syracuse but not me. My dad was in the Army so I was born in Queens.

It is amazing how quickly we could get everywhere in Syracuse and people are so nice an helpful. I kind of miss that here. They have Wegmans there too!!! The closest one here is almost 60 plus minutes away.

[Jackielbrown04]

I miss Wegmans SO much!!! There isnt one any where near us...I think you are probably about as south as they go. They need to branch out more!

[debbiedo]

I went through Wegmans withdrawal 13 and a half years ago. There is now one in Hunt Valley which is North of Towson and a few in Virginia. They are opening one in Frederick but that will be a good 50 minute ride but worth it every once in a while. You lived in Maryland Jackie so maybe you can relate to the places I mentioned.

[debbiedo]

I have had some rough few weeks.I am fine but the sadness I feel is hard.

First I have the back problems and I am not getting my running or exercise. Then there is the MIL issues and her deterioration. Now I have our dog being put to sleep for safety reasons. he was a sweety and generally good but couldn't be trusted with anyone at the door and had chronic problems with anxiety and itching. he was abandoned as a baby and very protective of his territory. He had bitten and then over the weekend went aggresively to the painter in my house. He was called back by me and listened but when he would attack and bite was always there. I hated that we had to make this decision but intellectually know it was needed. I still feel sad. He is gone. He didn't suffer but it is hard to see a basically healthy dog be put to sleep. He cost my son a ton of money and would cost more. We feared being sued if he bit someone. I fear ever getting another dog right now because it is so sad when they die however it happens.

So I get very sad and teary and manage to be OK when I am busy but when I see his face and think about what they had to do to him I get teary and feel horrible.

I just want my life back to normal. My MIL has issues but is doing somewhat better. At least she is in a safer place out of her home. My back hurts but I can deal with it. I just hate not being able to run. Mostly the dog is what is getting me down right now. Add major PMS to this.

I hate feeling sad but at least it isn't someone like my mom or dad or another family member dying. I need to put it all in perspective but I am an emotional person.

I have to get another epidural Friday and lose 8 hours pay and have to deal with the post epidural pain for a few days. I just hope it works. I get to try a third time and then surgery is my next option. At least I don't have nonstop pain.

[BeepBeep]

Awww Deb,

I'm so sorry that these days have been trying for you. Channukkah is around the corner and so is Thanksgiving and before you know it we will be gathered together for family time and enjoyment. I am so sorry for your doggie. You are wise to point out that you might get sued. Well... the good news is that your baby went out peacefully. My dog passed on a few years back due to stomach cancer and I watched her die painfully. So just know that your baby is in a happy doggie dream and is in doggie heaven.

I am sorry about your epidural. You are wise to stop running now because it's come this far. You know my mom stopped running a while ago and she really loves walking. I am considering walking soon too. I actually can power walk a 14 min mile! It's awesome trimming for the legs and thighs. My mom really reshaped her body power walking and I did too a few years ago. I guess I am just saying that don't think of running as the only exercise! Be creative! Do you like to swim Deb? it's such therapy, even if you use it to supplement your exercise... not as your main exercise.

I have a horrible UTI that has been bothering me and I need to go the next step here.... ugh. Friday morning is the only time I can get off. It's quite uncomfortable.

I am sorry about your PMS. It will pass...

Keep journaling Deb. I find the more I post the happier I am. I need to post more often and be more honest about myself. It really does help!

[debbiedo]

Jen, get that UTI treated or you can get a Kidney infection. Won't your doctor just call in a prescription??? Can you take an hour or two off and make it up later in the day?? There is also the walking clinic or the fast track of the ER like where I spend most of my work days. I hate seeing you sick!!! UTIs can make you. You are in the bathroom all the time. You can take the over the counter urinary analgesic but it won't treat it and you need to be treated.

So much for my maternal/nurse talk!!!

I will be fine. I just have moods. Probably the PMS.

My mom always walked for the last 10 or more years but her back has been bad so she isn't walking right now. Yet she can play tennis and golf. I guess I will be walking tonight. It is cold and running warms me up. I will need a hat tonight 'cause it will be in the 20s and I hate hats!!!

I am better. My back is some what better( unless I sit for any length of time) but I am trying to give it the break it needs. Very hard for me. I fear I am getting out of my routine. I need routine. I think I might go to Pilates today and just take it easy. I need to get to the gym. I need to be with people during my days off.

Breakfast time. It is cold. Definitely an oat meal day. Need to go weigh myself first. I can't believe how tied I am to that scale again.

[BeepBeep]

Deb, the UTI has been happening for about 6 days now. I need the scolding! It hurts badly and disrupts my concentration at work. I always feel like I could go more. You know the drill. Yes is the perfect way to explain it.

Enjoy your walk Deb! Maybe you and I could meet up and do a power walk for a cause. I bet we could power walk a 10 mile race or half-marathon together! We should start planning...

I hope the scale is in your favor. It's surely not in my favor! Hopefully that's related to the UTI.

vent away Deb

[debbiedo]

weight is down to 118.4. I want to be 114 so I have a way to go.

I just did a Pilates class. I did it very tentatively. I feel a bit sore but I am OK.
I really concentrated on using my abs and not my back but the right leg has some soreness now so I guess I have to watch what I do and how much. Hopefully this next epidural will make it better.

My house is so quiet. No doggy barking at the mail man who is on his way up the street and at my neighbors.

I did mop the hardwoods today and there are scratches from Zeus's nails and all the little paw prints now are gone. See now I am sad all over again. He was a pain but like your kid you love him just the same. It will take me a while but I dealt with the first dog's death and I will deal with his. I want a puppy that I know won't have the same issues. But I don't want the mess, the expense and the need to train a new dog. That takes a lot of time.

[debbiedo]

my clothes are fitting better and I probably don't need to lose and more but I like a buffer. I have not been eating totally clean. I ate all kinds of things I normally wouldn't when I was in Syracuse. I even had a steak and sauce sub with mushrooms and onions. Just no cheese. I knew I would eat the Italian bread on the table so I had it on the sandwich instead. I am trying to make good choices with my eating and not to nibble all the time and no cookies.

[Jackielbrown04]

Originally Posted by debbiedo

my clothes are fitting better and I probably don't need to lose and more but I like a buffer. I have not been eating totally clean. I ate all kinds of things I normally wouldn't when I was in Syracuse. I even had a steak and sauce sub with mushrooms and onions. Just no cheese. I knew I would eat the Italian bread on the table so I had it on the sandwich instead. I am trying to make good choices with my eating and not to nibble all the time and no cookies.

How great that your clothes are fitting! And you are eating what you like instead of what you feel you should..thats great

[debbiedo]

even better I ran 4 miles yesterday and it hurt but it was not much different then the past few months. Hopefully epidural #2 will work. I had that today.

I am so missing our dog but he was a giant problems and a disaster waiting to happen. He never should have been adopted. I want another dog but not all the responsibilty right now. That may change quickly.

Volunteering at race tomorrow. It will be cold but it is a 5K so not a long morning.

[Jackielbrown04]

I'll never forget when my mom had to put down our first dog. It was so hard. I can imagine your house is different

Have fun at the race tomorrow

[BeepBeep]

Deb, take your time before your new responsibility of the next dog! My mom rushed to get the next dog and before you know it she was bitter about having to walk the dog all of the time with no one to help her. oh well. I'm so sorry you are grieving.... at least you know that your pup didn't have physical suffering... I watched my dog die of stomach cancer and I tell you it was the hardest thing I've ever seen.

Any Channukah plans?

[debbiedo]

Zeus suffered in his own way. He had chronic itching. He was hypervigilant(?sp)about protecting his territory and this had to cause a level of stress. The itching and licking was probably also anxiety. He had to be on steroids and antibiotics alot and when off it all started again. The expenses were very high and we needed to go see the behavioral vet and the dermatologist if we were to keep him. My son probably spent $4000 on the dog. He cost me curtains and my hard woods need refinishing but I could deal with all that. I hated seeing my son keep spending money on this dog when his behavior was dangerous.

[debbiedo]

I was up bright and early. Had some cereal and Motrin and went to volunteer. It was nice to see a bunch of my running buddies because I haven't been running with them every Wed and Sat. I worked the finish line. It was a low tech race. We get a bib in the beginning of the year and use it all year. Some one calls out numbers as they come through the shoot and I wrote on the sheet and they get a card to fill out with their time and all. Someone else works the clock and punches in each finished by order of finish and that should match up with my list. It is not an important race. The top finisher are clear it gets sketchy later because people leave the finish shoot or don't stay in order. A few stopped to puke today.

After the volunteer stint I went to "Bagels". I had soup and a piece of whole wheat baguette. Then we went to Talbots where I had 25% off and a $25 coupon and I spent too much. I did get a nice coat and a pair of siz3 2 jeans and 4 pants. I am still a bit in between sizes depending on the cut.

DH bought some things at Lord and Taylor on sale and we ran more errands.

I have a party for 2 quirky running club friends. These two are from my T/Th night run group and also Sat morning weekly bagels after running group. They are in their 60s. It is his birthday and her anniversary and they are having the party. She is a gourmet cook so I am saving up calories for later. It is gag gifts of things around the house that cause you to say Holy Cow! what the h*** were you thinking or Holy Cow! You gave them that piece of s***! Should be funny. Couples have to bring two things and if we come in cow motif but not happening here. I will where new jeans and the little jacket I also bought today from the sale rack.

Don't understand why but I ate less yesterday. I fasted even and I gained weight. I know there are always going to be daily fluctuations.

Off to cook some food for work and have a snack so I am not totally starving at party tonight.