Steps toward a better life - Poochie

Poochie · 08-08-2007, 08:28 AM

I read a lot of the online journals on here and they have really been an inspiration to me. I have never shared my thoughts about weight loss or anything in my life with many people. I just keep them to myself because I don't want people to think that I am a failure like I have made myself believe that I am.

My weight problems starts many years ago in college. I was a majorette and we had what they called a cattle weighing every Saturday before the game. We would have to weigh in full uniform including boots in front of the band. If you weight 2lbs over you did not march --- so there you go. Eating on Sunday, starving Monday through Saturday. What torment we create in young girls minds at an early age.

Anyway, moving on from that I have been married for 21 years, I have two beautiful daughters age 18 and 16. The oldest started to college this summer. The youngest is driving. I have yo yoed for 21 years and have not been a good example to my girls, espically my oldest daughter. She has a weight problem just like me and will not even talk to me about it.

I have recently found out I have high blood pressure 188/116 and it desperately needs to come down it if I want to continue to life a healthy, and happy life. Let's just skip the healthy part right now and go on to happy. I am so miserable. I have gotten so withdrawn in the last year. I would love to be happy and feel good. I would love to smile and enjoy life without it seeming to be such a struggle. I would love to make it through a day with a smile on my face.

Well, how's that for a pitty party. Believe me if you could see the tears as I was typing you would think I was crazy.

Sometimes it is hard when you get down to be able to pick yourself up by the bootstraps and move on. BUT STARTING NOW---TODAY, August 8, 2008 at 9:20 am I am giving my struggle to God and with his help and this journal which has seemed to help so many -- I am on my way to a better life.

If anyone reads, this - don't feel sorry for me - offer prayers of thanksgiving that I can hopefully see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Starting weight today 231.

Breakfast - 2 bacon and coffee with coconut oil.

Poochie · 08-08-2007, 12:50 PM

Wanted to add that I had some smoked chicken for lunch. I have drank 60 oz of water and 2 Green Diet Lipton Tea.

I have been struggling with changing churches and today, I am going to a new church for a service. I really feel that some healing is about to take place.

Poochie · 08-09-2007, 08:53 AM

Well my pity party is over!!!!!!! I layed it all on the alter last night and God knows just what I need. He didn't say it would be easy, but he knows what I need. My scales are still the same, but my mind is set, I have a good feeling that this is it. Today is the first day of the rest of my life of many changes that I am going to make.

Breakfast: coffee

Poochie · 08-21-2007, 07:17 AM

Well, I am back, I let someone talk me into joining WW. It was a terriable week. I believe I am a sugarholic. One bite and it sends me into holy terror. One day, I eat 6 choc. cover donuts krispy kreme.

I have been induction again for one day. I am going to keep on trying to make it through day two and not listen to people. I do believe in money was spend in advertising for Low Carb the way it is for WW - there would be more Low carbers.

08-08-2007, 08:28 AM	#1
Poochie Senior LCF Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Alabama Posts: 356 Gallery: Poochie Stats: 240/238/145 WOE: Atkins Start Date: Start over 9/15/08	Steps toward a better life - Poochie I read a lot of the online journals on here and they have really been an inspiration to me. I have never shared my thoughts about weight loss or anything in my life with many people. I just keep them to myself because I don't want people to think that I am a failure like I have made myself believe that I am. My weight problems starts many years ago in college. I was a majorette and we had what they called a cattle weighing every Saturday before the game. We would have to weigh in full uniform including boots in front of the band. If you weight 2lbs over you did not march --- so there you go. Eating on Sunday, starving Monday through Saturday. What torment we create in young girls minds at an early age. Anyway, moving on from that I have been married for 21 years, I have two beautiful daughters age 18 and 16. The oldest started to college this summer. The youngest is driving. I have yo yoed for 21 years and have not been a good example to my girls, espically my oldest daughter. She has a weight problem just like me and will not even talk to me about it. I have recently found out I have high blood pressure 188/116 and it desperately needs to come down it if I want to continue to life a healthy, and happy life. Let's just skip the healthy part right now and go on to happy. I am so miserable. I have gotten so withdrawn in the last year. I would love to be happy and feel good. I would love to smile and enjoy life without it seeming to be such a struggle. I would love to make it through a day with a smile on my face. Well, how's that for a pitty party. Believe me if you could see the tears as I was typing you would think I was crazy. Sometimes it is hard when you get down to be able to pick yourself up by the bootstraps and move on. BUT STARTING NOW---TODAY, August 8, 2008 at 9:20 am I am giving my struggle to God and with his help and this journal which has seemed to help so many -- I am on my way to a better life. If anyone reads, this - don't feel sorry for me - offer prayers of thanksgiving that I can hopefully see the light at the end of the tunnel. Starting weight today 231. Breakfast - 2 bacon and coffee with coconut oil.

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08-08-2007, 12:50 PM	#2
Poochie Senior LCF Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Alabama Posts: 356 Gallery: Poochie Stats: 240/238/145 WOE: Atkins Start Date: Start over 9/15/08	Wanted to add that I had some smoked chicken for lunch. I have drank 60 oz of water and 2 Green Diet Lipton Tea. I have been struggling with changing churches and today, I am going to a new church for a service. I really feel that some healing is about to take place.

08-09-2007, 08:53 AM	#3
Poochie Senior LCF Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Alabama Posts: 356 Gallery: Poochie Stats: 240/238/145 WOE: Atkins Start Date: Start over 9/15/08	Well my pity party is over!!!!!!! I layed it all on the alter last night and God knows just what I need. He didn't say it would be easy, but he knows what I need. My scales are still the same, but my mind is set, I have a good feeling that this is it. Today is the first day of the rest of my life of many changes that I am going to make. Breakfast: coffee

08-21-2007, 07:17 AM	#4
Poochie Senior LCF Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Alabama Posts: 356 Gallery: Poochie Stats: 240/238/145 WOE: Atkins Start Date: Start over 9/15/08	Well, I am back, I let someone talk me into joining WW. It was a terriable week. I believe I am a sugarholic. One bite and it sends me into holy terror. One day, I eat 6 choc. cover donuts krispy kreme. I have been induction again for one day. I am going to keep on trying to make it through day two and not listen to people. I do believe in money was spend in advertising for Low Carb the way it is for WW - there would be more Low carbers.