It's not a diet it's a WOE!!!

[Texoma]

I'm starting this because I just had my first big carby meal that I decided to eat but didn't plan on. It has been a stressful week with some remodeling we are doing and our kitchen has been torn up.
No cooking for me

I am so sick of eating out for dinner. It's just not even fun anymore. Every morning I have woken up to swollen fingers and just not feeling motivated to eat healthy in the evenings. Yesterday it was baby back ribs. Today it was chips & queso, enchilada, flatus, tamale, 2 sangria swirl margaritas and ice cream. It has been hours and I still feel awful. I just really want to remember how horrible I feel.

I decided to post here and start a journal. Some days are great and some days are bad. I don't want another post in the main lobby about falling off the wagon. They really irk me because it makes me feel fragile. Like if so many people are eating off plan then it is just a matter of time until I do too. Well, today was my day and I am going to go back to OWL. I hate going back to induction because that just sets me up for failure especially when I am so weak after a cheat.

Cheats are called cheats for a reason and that is because they taste sooo good they are bad. I have never tasted a better enchilada than I did tonight. I'm going to recommend the place to all my non-LC friends because it was that good. So was my husbands chili rellano. I really debated on ordering fajitas and didn't even eat a chip until I had ordered my humongous combo meal. Gracious it was huge.

My stomach hurts. I am soooo thirsty and food is the last thing I ever want to think about. I don't want to feel this way again. I will muster the will power to pass on such temptations in the future. If will eat off plan but it will be a part of my plan. Not like tonight. Tonight I just felt hungry and tired and depressed so I threw my 30lb weight loss accomplishment out the window. What I have done is an accomplishment and it is not to be undone by a tasty enchilada.

Tomorrow is a new day and I choose to eat healthy.