Kaymac's 150 lb Journey

[kaymac]

My journey began shortly after my 43rd birthday. My age and illness were screaming in my ears that it was Now or Never to take care of me. I am listening.

I made the initial appointment with my doctor to inquire about the LAP BAND surgery. He referred me a surgeon but I know this takes time. Often months for insurance to approve, if they do that at all. So as I wait, I might as well begin myself to eat better, live better, feel better.

I've been on many diets. Been dieting since I was 16 in fact. This has to be different. It has to be a change, a permanent change. A new way of life. A journey to the NEW ME. I'm doing this for me so I can live to be around my grandchildren I hope and pray I have someday. At this rate, my health will fail me and I will not live a long life. I'm also doing this to help Kevin, my husband, who is a diabetic and overweight too. Together we do this. We can change our ways so we both can be around hopefully for our future grandchildren and adult children.

I'm so weary of my weight and illness holding me hostage. I want to feel better and yes, look better. I am a pretty woman, but I know there is even a more beautiful woman hiding under my fat that I've hidden from the world for years!

My weight has even increased the past 4 months, over 30 pounds. It will continue to till I am completely disable if I allow it. This has to stop now.

My change of eating will be low carb, low fat. Only because I know I eat way too many bad carbs. I want to eat healthier carbs and lower fats, or bad fats, and when I loose a few pounds, maybe my illness will allow me to move my body enough to exercise some. After that, it will become a habit, to eat better, leaving off sugar and breads and potatoes, and doing some form of exercise. My mind will clear from the sugar and lack of exercise and I will begin to feel better.

The only way I can do this is to take one day at a time and to trust in the Lord for his strength to carry me through. Second is to lean on others who have been there or are going there. This journey is hard, difficult and sometimes people don't make it, they give up and grow weary. So it is a must I stick with the course and lean on those who will help me see me through.

Almost one week on my journey. My spirits are still high. My motivation is still here. 5 days, no sugar and I've begun to wean myself off diet coke and I crave water! Amazing!