Bad pics from Texas, I'm fat again! I think that I'm in the 220 range, so before it gets worse and before I have to buy new clothes for a bigger me, I'm grabbing the reigns.
Yesterday, I went to the Long Center with May and Aiden. They went swimming (where Aiden learned how to dive!) and I hit the eliptical for 10 minutes, then lifted weights (my arm skin is sad... I have my mother's arms... oy vey) and then I did the bike for 30 minutes. not a bad 1st day.
I ran to Target today and bought a new scale. I haven't weighed yet bc I'm funny about that. Only in the am, naked, after peeing, before the shower, no eating or drinking first. I also bought the Biggest Loser 2 workout video. I figured that those guys aren't skinny minnies, I'll be more comfortable with them. You can customize your workout, so Stinky and I worked out together. He was sweating like a hog too!!! And it's the first video I've seen where the instructors are actually sweating and breathing hard! amazing. I'm beat. lol I also got the dancing with the stars video to try.... what the hell?
May and I are actually going to do this together. She has gained a few pounds as well. We just don't know how much, the scale broke a while back and I think that subconciously, we just didn't get it fixed or get a new one bc we were in denial. Of course, she looks completely different than I do, I'm a little jealous actually. The last time we went to the doc, we weighed exactly the same! 198, both of us. To me the doc says that I need to work on it and get lower than 180, to May she says that she looks awesome and should just do some sit ups for the skin on her belly (May's lost over 100 lbs as well).
This weekend after we get paid we're going to the Long Center and paying for a family membership. It's 250 for a year and you get unlimited use of all facilities in the city (there are 7) and all of them have a gym and three or four have a pool. I think that's a better deal than a gym wherein you pay 35 or 40 a month.
I'm day two of induction. I'm also want to quit smoking and no more drinking. We both drink too much and give excuses that it was a rough day at work... well everyday is a rough day, I just need to learn to deal with it without food or wine (which is probably also a factor into the gaining of 20 lbs). Tomorrow morning, we weigh. Our first week, we want to lose 5 lbs. Whomever loses, takes the other out for a non-food reward. I think that if May wins, I'll take her to get a new video game. I wouldn't mind a pedicure!
And to keep myself accountable... on with the bad pics! I need to remember why I'm doing this.
That's at the wedding for May's sister, my in-laws on the end. blech (to me, not the in-laws, I'm actually very lucky to have them- and Doesn't May's dad look like Darwin?)
Got to love the behind shot!
Evidence of the returning double chin
And this was me at about 180.... I like the pic because when I see it, I think "OMG, I'm small" but I also see things that I don't like. For instance, I can tell that my skin is loose. I never worked out, ever. I need to remember that working out is THE ONLY way to get through this and to look good.
and this is another at about 185 or 190, again, I NEED to workout, or my clothes will never look good. Those jeans are sooo snug right now, and there they looked good... oy
i started dinner (Turkey Chili) and when I went to open the tomatoes and the chili seasoning, I looked at the ingredients... these are tiny things that I stopped doing. I always read teh label for sugars, but I stopped looking at what's in it. Yup, second ingredient in both was sugar... the tomatoes even had corn syrup, and the seasoning also had MSG. On my way to teh store to get non sugared tomatoes and I'll be doing my own seasoning, like I had when I was obnoxious about LC. I have a lot of retraining myself to do.
I found this one too....
on this morning, I stepped on the scale and weighed 171. I only weighed that for a day, and pretty much hovered between 175 and 182 for about a year.
I'll get there again.
I got up at 6.. to workout... I can hardly believe it. That's a definite first. my thighs are on fire... it hurts to sit on the pot, but I will just keep stretching and endure. I think that tomorrow I will be doing pilates to keep the muscles going and then the 10 minutes of intense cardio.
Food was good and a gallon of water was ingested!
eating really well now... an automatic thing actually. I'm chocked at how much I was eating before thinking that it was LC and really, it was LC, but crap... so much cheese! lol
This is day # 5 working out, I feel awesome! And lighter, but I'm only weighing once a week. We'll see
Hey Lynn, how have you been?
You can do this, I have faith I you!:high5:
P.S.-I think you look very pretty in the wedding pic.
I weighed in this morning and was rewarded with 217.6 down from 224.0! I'm so excited... but May is a little crestfallen. She started at 206.6 and this morning weighed 207.2... she's not doing LC and she hasn't worked out as much, but I am hoping her body will catch on. She's been eating salads and lean protein and her one snack that's a treat is animal crackers and a glass of milk. WE'll see hwo it goes. I just can't wait until I can start to feel it in my clothes again, though I Suspect it will be a while, these suckers have been snug for a while and I was just in denial
We got paid today. After the bills, we are joining the Long Center! It has a gym and a pool and we can go to any rec center in the city to work out. I'm also going to Target to get some workout pants and hand weights... I could use another sports bra, but I think that can wait, I'd have to get a really expensive one with a clasp in the back bc my chest is so big.
I have some 3 lbers, but I think that May wants 10 lbs...
Off to have breakfast and then work.
Did pilates again with may and tomorrow, off to the gym! TodayI'm taking a couple of hb eggs to work and then we'll see from there. They have salad at work, so that will probably be what I eat. I love how now a meal is a meal, whereas before, I was really snacking all day in between meals.... just too much cheese!
Have to hit the shower now.
You're doing great, and your lucky to have a partner in your journey!! Hopefully things will work for her too, if she doesn't have much luck she'll be looking to you for advice i bet!!
Food is good, water is good. May and I went to have Mexican last night at this new restaurant that I've been waiting to open for 3 months. Iv'e always thought that Mexican was the easiest to LC with, bc if all else fails, get fajitas.
We waited over 45 minutes just for the food! The waitress was unattentive, and we were watching as people were leaving po'd. We get the food and it was cold! God I was mad! lol
We're going to work out right now and then gather Stinky (he had a sleepover at gamma's) and then we're off to pride to wander and see the sights. There are supposed to be a lot of street artists there today.
213.6!!!! Since I weighed at the Long Center last Saturday, that's 15 lbs... since our official weigh in , that's 11 lbs... and I get a massage!!! Wee! May hasn't weighed yet... she's a little discouraged. She is eating better and working out, which she has never done, but when she weighed before, she was up a couple of lbs. I think it's from her period. She is also craving to work out... I'm so proud of her. And myself. I've never iked working out, and now, I LOVE it. I feel that urge that people talk about to move around and get sweating. In my workouts, I've even been opting for the more challenging route, or adding in weights.
We'll see tomorrow what her weight is. I think that she started out @ 206.0.
I took my measurements on 06/28/2007
Chest- Expanded - 41"
Relaxed - 38 3/4"
Neck- 13 1/4 "
Biceps- Left - 13 1/2"
Right - 14
Forearm- Left - 9 1/2
Rt - 8 3/4
Hips- 50 1/2 :blush:
Quads- Left - 25 1/2
Rt - 25 1/2
Calves- Left - 16
Rt - 15 3/4
I'll remeasure on 08/01/2007
still working out. Did the biggest loser 2 workout last night and then pilates just now. I have obliques!!!! I was talking to someone with my hand on my hip and then i felt it! OBLIQUES! wow. I have never kept up with working out bc I never really saw or felt a major difference, but this time I really do. I drag my happy arse out of bed every morning even when I want to sleep more bc it's the only time I have.
Off to work. Packed a good lunch and tonight is shrimp kebobs
WAY TO GO LYNN!!!!!!!!
Your hard work is definitely paying off....KUTGW
I've have worked out everyday since we got back on the 23rd. not every workout is high intensity... in fact, we do more pilates than anything, which doesn't get my heartrate through the roof, but it is definitely building lean muscle.
I had to check my hip measurements bc my pants are so loose. I went from 50 1/2 to 49 since last Thursday. I'm trying to put off weighing bc I am a definite daily weigher and one bad number will set my mood for the whole day to just negative nancy, and I can't be like that at work.
I'm surprised at the amt of energy that I have. I'm sleepy a lot bc I know that I don't sleep enough, I'm busy. BUt before working out, I was sooo exhausted, mentally and physically when I got home from work, that I just sat on the sofa, drank a glass of wine or two and crawled to bed. Now I've come home and cleaned or cooked a real meal. I love it. I love feeling this way. Makes me wonder why people stop and fall? I'm one of them, but I've never really worked out before either, so I never felt this high.
And a small private woo hoo for me. In the workout, we do a basic lumbar stretch, reaching to the ground. My first time doing it, I coudn't get to my toes.... and today, I can easily rest my hands on the ground. :up:
I wasn't going to measure until the 1st, but I got curious, so I just measured.
June 28th July 4th
Chest- Expanded - 41" - 40" -1
Relaxed - 38 3/4" - 38 1/4" -.5
Neck- 13 1/4 " - 13" -.25
Waist- 40" - 39" -1
Biceps- Left - 13 1/2" - 12 1/2 -1
Right - 14 - 13 - 1
Forearm- Left - 9 1/2 - 9 1/2 0
Rt - 8 3/4 - 8 3/4 0
Hips- 50 1/2 - 48 -2.5
Quads- Left - 25 1/2 - 24 1/4 -1.25
Rt - 25 1/2 - 24 1/4 -1.25
Calves- Left - 16 - 15 1/4 -.75
Rt - 15 3/4 - 15 -.75
Total loss of 17.25 inches. :D
Are you feeling better? :hugs:
well... I got the stuff out. And I'm going to do it tonight when I get home from work. Last night I had practice, which is a 2 hour workout. And on Sunday I'll scrimmage. Regular practice schedule will now be Monday, Wednesday, Saturday (3 hours) and Sunday (scrimmage). So it really doesn't leave a lot of opportunities for outside work outs, but I'm gonna. Lets say, once a week, for now, then maybe increase it? The FIRM are workouts that combine cardio and weights (with dumbbells), generally, but some are targeted to all cardio or all weights. It's the weights I want to get back into. Lord knows I get my cardio in at practice. The FIRM is also big on squats and lunges, which is important for my skating, and if I'm honest about it, I need to work on. (When I dropped the 17 lbs, I think the vast majority of it was my quad muscles, because my squats are suffering...)
Hi, this thread is supposed to be about YOU! What's your work out schedule, are you going to keep up w/ something every day? Are you only doing pilates, or other workouts too?
p.s: here's something weird. Dolly left Boston tuesday night and won't be back for more than two weeks now, and last night I was getting something out of the freezer and noticed that she had opened a carton of LC ice cream that was in there and eaten a bunch of it! She also ate some other food I had in the fridge, leftovers from a restaurant and stuff -- that is so unfair, she's not allowed to dump me and then eat my groceries, is she??!?
She's going to spend a week in Baltimore with the girl she cheated on me with and dumped me for. And then she's coming back to our apartment. That's next wednesday to the following wednesday. Right now she's at her parents house in NY, and then the scumbag Baltimore girl is going to come up and visit with her in Providence. While they're in providence there's some chance that they might go to our Boston apartment one day while I'm at work. I really don't want her to, but at the same time I kinda want that scumbag girl to see how awesome our place is, what I give to Dolly. I don't know.
I swear, this thread is about you, not me.
It's about anyone that wants to talk, actually! lol I'm open.
First, workout... Ok, so I do the pilates, which is a 50 minute workout, 3 days a week. The other three, boot camp workout from the Biggest loser and whatever else is on the disc for 50 minutes, that has weights... and I have guns now!!!! well... maybe those little lady pistols with the pearl handle, but I definitely have arms! And then the other day, something, whatever, to get moving. I know that videos are cheesy, but I got promoted recently and have been working 10-12 hours a day, and I really don't have the time to devote to a gym, which is what I would love... but I can't, so I do cheesy videos. :)
You do rugby? Is that scrimmage? I have never done any kind of sport except when I was with the ex, I did some jiu jitsu, but I didn't keep it up bc she kept crapping out on me with the practices and it was uncomfortable to be with all these sweaty guys that I didn't know...
I wouldn't be too thrilled with Baltimore coming to see my apartment. Is she moving after this month? It is craptacular that she's eating your groceries.... gah, lesbians.... I'm so glad that I'm not dating! I mean, I knwo I sound like all of them when I say that May is the one, but I really think that she is... I will go celibate if anything should happen between us! lol Just focus on you... and be single, start going out with friends!
Oh no, part of the problem is I hate all of my friends right now. There is NOBODY I want to talk to or spend time with. It's this whole other crap going on in my league. Practices are really uncomfortable, and tomorrow we have this awful day-long retreat which I really really don't want to attend, but unfortunately, I run the show.
I don't play rugby, by the way, what do you take me for, some lesbian? I play roller derby.
Dolly says she's not going to live here after July, but it's hard to really know, she doesn't have any plans or anywhere else to live. She's going to have a booty call in Providence w/ scumbag at... somebody else's apartment? I guess. In fact, scumbag lives with her DAD in Baltimore, so when Dolly booty calls there they go to someone else's apartment. Trash.
I have no negative feelings about workout vids, that's what the FIRM is. rah rah work out videos!
I've been working 9.5 hour days. I'd work more. 10, 12 if they'd give me the hours, because I want the money, and there's nothing else I want to do.
I picked up 5-htp today, I hope it's going to make me feel better and weigh less, wouldn't that be nice?
Where do you live?
WIll 5 htp make you weigh less?!?!? I have a bottle at home, but I've only been taking multi, b12 and calcium... I'll do anything to weigh less... oy vey
I live in Clearwater, FL, right outside of Tampa... Work in St. Pete...
I don't mind working what I do, actually, I like it, I've always worked like this. I just got a lap top and MAy is worried that I'll be in bed clickety clickety click all night... which I probably will, so I made sure to get a lap top lock so that I can just leave it here.
Dolly can make it on her own... she's a big girl that made a really big decision for herself and you, she can worry about her own digs. :D
What do you do?
This is the thread that sold me on 5-htp.
also, Pauline suggested it. I don't know, it's kinda an impulse thing, but until I get myself into some actual therapy, I figured it can't hurt to try something, even if I don't really believe in this kind of stuff. There are worse ideas than taking a supplement.
I'm a nanny, I care for one infant, he's 9 months old. We actually had a really great day together, we started a baby swim class. I was nervous that my swimsuit was not demure, it's a halter, but I think it was okay. I was popping out a little. My old "nanny bathing suit" is way too big now. Nothing worse than a baggy swimsuit. We also do baby yoga and kindermusik and all this other ridiculous overscheduled baby stuff that I can't get enough of, ha ha ha. In most of the classes it's all rich moms and I'm the only nanny, and there can be tension! Especially with these young moms who all have a ton of baby weight and I'm there in my sexy swimsuit saying "I'm G's nanny!" Maybe I project some of this drama, but some of it's real! Some moms stop talking to me when I tell them I'm not G's mom! When I was caring for E & C (twins) moms at the playground would turn and walk away from me the moment I mentioned I was their nanny. Can you believe that? I have a sense of humor about all this. I mean, come on.
Since my personal drama has been going on for the past several weeks I haven't been enjoying work the way I generally do, but today was awesome, I really felt like I was a great nanny today. But as soon as I left a wave of awful emotion swept over me. I went to the naturals store to get the 5-htp and then I went into the independent bookstore next door. I bought myself a knitting book that was on sale. I felt like I just wanted a present, you know? That's so not me. I hate to spend money. I never do. I don't buy things.
There's stuff I want to get done, I want to clean the apartment and I want to do that FIRM tape, but I think I'm going to just go to sleep. Tomorrow is that retreat which I'd rather die than attend. This is supposed to be my hobby. One of these days if you don't get totally burnt out on all my drama I'll tell you how my friends all turned on me. Really. It's awful.
I ate real food today, I think I'm doing better on the anorexia front. I took baby G out to Panera Bread after swim class and had a chicken salad sandwich on their "lower-carb" bread. Ugh, it's really unlike me to have eat a fakey bread product, but I'm not me anymore. It seems like everything I type I follow with "that's so not me!" -- You know what? Good. I don't like me, and I don't want to be me anymore. The therapy is so necessary! ack! Did I tell you that I have a $1K deductible for psychiatry on my insurance? I also am putting off $1200 in dental work that I need. And now I can't count on sharing my rent! Somebody cut me a break already!
Oh, I was saying what I ate. I also went to Starbucks w/ G in the afternoon and had a venti breve latte. I think those are about 400 calories, pure fat. And when I got home I ate some of that LC ice cream (rocky road!) that Dolly opened. (I sprinkle instant coffee on it as a toping, it's so good!) So that's a real amount of food for the day. Easily over 1K calories, probably 1500? I don't know the info on the sandwich. Yesterday I ate too. I had some sausage & peppers w/ turnips that I had in the freezer, and coffee with half & half.
Thanks for letting me vent to you. I really appreciate it. I think things are getting better. xoxo
well... I read that it helps with weight loss, so guess who just busted out the 5 HTP? We've actually had it for a while bc work was making us cranky. :laugh:
I never would have guessed that you nannied... did you go to school for an ED degree?
Everyone has friend drama. I just try to laugh it off if it's necessary that I interact... if not, then I'm a big pansy and I run. Other people call that "cutting toxic people" out of their lives, I just call it putting them on ignore. And I don't mind hearing about it... it's always good to see that you're not alone with the crazy friends.
I don't really even have that many anymore.... I used to hang with this crowd of gay guys, and I got pregnant and a bunch of them were there when I had Aiden, but then later they were still partying and I was trying to catch up on sleep, so those friendships have drifted. I guess I just know people from work.
I LOVE that LC bread from Panera, and I'm not one to do the LC fake food thing, I'm a purist, but I've tried it and it's really good. Which is precisely why I don't eat it! I'm glad that you ate though... and why did you go and tell me about instant coffee on ice cream?!?! you are the fru-its of the dev-il!
Well....I'm a granny and I'm going to bed. That's awful, isn't it? I'm young, it's Friday, I should boo-gy, but I'm headed to bed.
Godo luck on the retreat... if it gets too terrible, leave. that's what I woudl do. ;)
Actually, my major in college was African-American and African studies. I'm toying with the idea of doing grad school for occupational therapy now, though. This fact sheet from the dept of labor is really, really selling me on it, too. http://www.bls.gov/oco/ocos078.htm -- actually, it's the one thing I can think of to do with my life right now, and I want to scheme to get my employers to pay for my courses. (I would specialize in infant & child OT. The twins I used to care for were preemies and they had an OT, and I worshiped her. I keep thinking I should call her up and take her to lunch & discuss the idea. I should do that.)
I really think I may have to give up roller derby. It's not just the Dolly situation, it's the team situation I mentioned earlier. I don't feel comfortable anymore at practice. I would love to use grad school as the excuse to quit derby. Maybe. It seems like a promising idea, and it's one I've been toying with for months.
I had no idea that you had a kid! How old is he? Is that him in the wedding photo? I have sort-of a tentative plan with a gayboy friend to have children together. Not to raise together, just to help each other produce the kids and go our separate ways with them. He asked me quite seriously over Christmas, and I agreed I would. But we'll see. I was honored that he would choose me, and had secretly always sort of hoped he'd be the bio-father of my kids someday... Its a good match, I think, but I don't know anymore if I want to be a mom. I'd like to experience pregnancy though, so maybe making a kid for my friend would be perfect. Who knows.
What has your experience w/ the 5 htp been? Is it helpful? Do you need to build it up, taking it every day, or do you feel effects just from taking it here and there, when you're down?
Yeah, I'm going to sleep now too. I always do, b/c I get up at 6 am every day for work, so I try to get to bed by 10. That reeeeeeeally irritated Dolly, because she's a kid and likes to stay up until 2 am and then sleep half the day. Did I tell you we have a 7 year age gap? Today I read something about how some relationships are right person, wrong time and I realized that Dolly was really the wrong person at the wrong time. I would have stayed with her forever. Do you know the difference between 21 and 28? It's big. You know. Wow I miss her.
My brother, who lives in CO, is coming to visit this weekend! I'm so happy about that, and extremely resentful that I have to spend all day Saturday at this retreat. Seriously, roller derby is not worth it. One of my skaters said that she'd leave early & drive me home if I needed to skip out. If I leave the retreat early though, I will be quitting the league. I'm starting to get insecure about writing all this stuff on a public message board though, so I'm going to leave it at that.
sweet dreams. Say hi to May for me. :) xoxo
You should do the grad school! It's my dream, I've been toying with an idea now for a while, I just have to get a few things lined up and then I will definitely do it.... I need 2 classes to graduate with a Spanish degree and my internship for a separate BA in Foreign Language Ed... and a lot like weight loss, I just can't seem to get there... I think this says a lot about my psychologically. :laugh:
Well... now I have to pic ho, I have Aiden, aka Stinky. He's 7. Back in college, right before my senior year, I was tired of the lez seen and all the drama, and the dating so I figured I would try to be straight. I got pregnant and here we are now.
I had no idea that was the age difference... how long were you all together? May and I are 5 years apart and for the most part it doesn't seem like a difference, except with maybe professional stuff. I've had to work a lot longer and in a different capacity, but she's holding her own really well.
Ditch the derby. IT's supposed to be fun, isn't it? How long is your brother staying? That's really good timing for him to visit.
You're probably there now.
I got up and jogged/walked 2 miles at the park across from my house. I'm an idiot, I've lived here for over a year and have never gone over there to walk and it's literally a block away. and man, after the first lap (it's 1 square mile) you come back to the beginning and you can go straight, to go back home, or turn left...I really wanted to go straight, but I didn't and then jogged a lot of that 2nd mile.
Talk to you later... and if it bothers you to write in a forum, you can pm me
I'm up 2 lbs.. not sure why? But, I did measure bc I feel so different that I thought I had lost, and I've lost another 1/2" off of my waist.
May's sick... she has an ulcer that's pretty bad and work is stressing her out, so the rest of the day is going to be pretty low key.
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