Tori's Final Slimdown

[tori_lk]

OMG...it's been so long since I've even THOUGHT about losing weight or exercising. My weight has gotten out of control and I am bigger now than I have ever been. I don't even want to reveal my weight yet. But I have finally decided to do something about it. I have lost 1 lb so far. So, that is good. I completely abandoned the whole Atkins thing and stopped drinking diet and went back to regular. I don't eat healthy. I eat like crap and my body has really shown me that. I feel like I am fat everywhere. I think I even look different. My goal is to lose 40 lbs....So....when I feel more comfortable...maybe in 10 lbs...I will reveal my horrible horrible weight.
Today, instead of driving to get my daughter from school...I have decided to yank out the stroller and stroll me and my son to pick her up. It's quite a walk...but I need the exercise....I will report back when I am done. The thing I want most in my life is exercise and to be in shape....I think that is just as critical as what you eat. So.....Day 1 of exercise....
And...I will look at my speedometer later today when i pick up my 2nd daughter around 3 and then I can tell you how far it was.
Tori

[Tylar_Connar]

Cool, Tori. Don't abandon us again

YOU WILL GET THERE!!!

[tori_lk]

Thanks Tonia...but don't for one second think I'm leaving your butt behind!!!
Tori

[Tylar_Connar]

[tori_lk]

Okay...so that was like a 30 min walk. I swear it looks longer than what it really is!! It was so beautiful too! I live in a pretty neighborhood. I really love Colorado. I can't wait until I have another little Shih Tzu to take for walks!
Some of you might not know. But I lost my little Shih Tzu, Gizmo on April 30th. He was attacked by two pitbulls that broke through my fence.
We tried to rush him to the Animal ER, but he needed all kinds of surgery that was just unaffordable. Just to begin would have been over three thousand. And they weren't even sure if anything else was wrong...I miss him so much. We ended up having to put him to sleep because he was in pain and there was nothing anyone could do. And the surgery wasn't guaranteed. So, we did the right thing for him. I really can't wait to have me another one. I miss having little paws around me. He was like my child.
Okay...anyways...The point is...I would LOVE to have another to take for walks!
When I pick up my 2nd daughter later from school, I will record how far of a walk it is. It's probably like 1 mile...but it's 1 mile more than I use to walk. So, I'm off to a good start.
Tori

[JHudson04]

Tori,

I am so sorry to hear about what happened to your dog!! That is horrible! I would be devastated too. Did anything happen to the owners of the pit bulls?

My sympathies to you and your family. I just can't imagine...

J.

[tori_lk]

Thank you, J. Well, actually, the officer on the case just called me yesterday. He said he only gets a chance to come out here like once a week. He said that he had 2 callbacks and I asked him what that meant and he said that two of the witnesses called him back reporting of seeing the dogs again. I haven't seen them....but he also said he would be stopping by their houses to show them more pictures. Hopefully they find them. He said they will keep searching for them and the case will be open for up to a year. but hopefully he said they should find them soon. Thank you so much for your thinking of me and my family.

As for working out, dieting. I'm doing good. I didn't get a chance to weigh this morning. I had to take my husband to work....wait till he got out of a fast meeting, then head to my kids school with my husband and son. It was field day at my daughters' school and for two hours, we did nothing but walk around this big field. I went back to my diet drinks again. Justin, my husband, says he thinks that might be a big part of it. Cause when I stopped and started drinking regular...and that's when the pounds started coming on.
He has also agreed to walk with me all weekend....It is soooo beautiful today. Gizmo would have loved to run around that big field. Well, I love you all....whoever is actually reading this, I mean...lol.
Tori
P.S. Will weigh in tomorrow...hoping for a loss!!!

[Tylar_Connar]

hey, sry...i have not had a chance to call you back yet.

[tori_lk]

Uh...you could IM me, hoochie mama! I just buzzed you.
Tori

[Tylar_Connar]

oh, i am not on there...let me get on there.

duh~im didnt think about it.

[tori_lk]

Okay...well, still doing good. I'm getting that feeling in my legs like when it feels like you will be down the next day. So yeah for me! I hope, I hope, I hope!
Sigh...I have been researching Shih Tzu stuff all day...Man, I miss having little paws. I think here in a few months, I will be looking for a new little furball. Of course, this one would never ever replace the love I hold for Gizmo in my heart. I just cannot get past this feeling of emptiness. Ever since this has happened to my poor little baby...I have just had a different outlook on things...including things for myself. Like how I should be more aware of my fitness and health. So, that is why I am here.

Anyways...we have to go to this picnic for the kids school at 3:30...it's a picnic with free hotdogs, chips and soda....I'll bring my diet with me just in case. And as I have not fully went back to Atkins yet...I will enjoy me a hotdog. I can tell things I am doing is working. I just do not believe I have enough discipline in me to go to the full extreme of Atkins.
So...right now...I am just trying to make healthier decisions while adding exercise to my life. Hopefully with in a months time, i can sit there and say.....man, I did this sooooo right!
Well, gotta go. My 4 year old son found his water gun and is squirting me with it and I have to go retaliate...lol
Tori

[tori_lk]

Well, I didn't do too bad at the little school picnic. I had 2 hotdogs....without the buns....didn't need the extra calories.....I didn't get the lemonade...I had like 5 cheetos and that's it. So, overall, it wasn't that bad.
Anyhoo...just checking in...I'm going to be chugging some water tonight...I'm considering what I just had as my dinner. When it cools off a little here, I am going to try to workout on my elliptical for awhile. I will report that as well. I have to hold myself accountable.
Tori

[tori_lk]

Okay...so, I am down another lb today. That is 2 lbs so far in....2days. Not bad. I have already been working around my house today doing somehouse cleaning...will go for a walk later.
Tori

[Tylar_Connar]

good job!!!

[tori_lk]

Okay...was down another lb today. Went for the same walk yesterday. Justin said his legs were sore last night after the walk. It doesn't seem like that long of a walk, but boy, it sure works you out! I'm wondering if I am losing weight do to lack of food. Just fed my kids the last of what we have for dinner. Thank goodness I am getting money tomorrow!
Tori

[Tylar_Connar]

Happy you had a Happy Mothers Day!!

Glad you are getting money today.

[tori_lk]

Thank you. Tomorrow is when Justin gets paid. My mom actually sent me some money today. It was a long process though cause the people that helped her send it accidently sent it International....it was sent to Mexico! So, they had to return her money so that she could resend it to me. So, thankfully, it was all straightened out. It's still not alot. I'm trying not to overeat. I will get me some healthy stuff tomorrow. Weighed in the same today!!!
Tori

[Tylar_Connar]

Hey you!

[tori_lk]

hey you! It's on......call me tomorrow.
Tori

[Tylar_Connar]

all right!! its on!! Call me!!

[tori_lk]

Well...can you tell that my MIA means I haven't been doing what I shoulda been doing? Well, I'm so upset right now. I'm not going to list my weight cause I am so embarrassed and ashamed, I can't bring myself to say it.
So...believe me..I have pics...Justin brought home a camera today from work...it's like a 2 thousand dollar camera...Well, anyways...he was taking pics of everyone and when I saw the pictures of myself...I was horrified...believe me...I have them saved. Maybe 30 lbs down the road I will show them....Sigh...Anyways...It was a big wakeup call....Then I was like...Okay...I'm going to go on a diet. Went to slimfast.com to enter my weight in...cause I really do okay on there...and they have a lowcarb plan...Well...anyhoo...I did my info and my BMI and it said that I was obese...ME...OBESE! Wow...maybe their BMI is somewhat different than other sites...I think I might go check on a different one cause I swear I checked it a few weeks ago and it said I was just overweight...I think it was the Biggest Loser site....Anyhoo...I'm on...it's 10pm and I just got back from the store getting me the items I need to start Atkins...I might incorporate some slimfast locarb shakes...just not sure yet. Sigh...I feel so disgusted with myself. I made a list of exercises yesterday and Justin helped me decide what my daily goal of each would be. I did them yesterday and I am soooo sore today. Well, not as sore as I have felt before...Going to work out again tonight and then tomorrow in the morning... I need to switch my time of workouts.....Well...expect me on here alot.
Tori

[AllieCat0817]

Originally Posted by tori_lk

It was a big wakeup call....Then I was like...Okay...I'm going to go on a diet.

Hi Tori,
The last thing you should do is go on a diet. Because all that means is you can go 'off the diet' whenever life gets too hard. It is all about your mindset and how you think about what you are doing. Use your 'disgust' to your benefit, and be MAD! Mad enough to make a permanent lifetime change that you can do forever (realizing that your weight loss phases isn't the same way you have to eat for life-- just realizing that crap food has no place in your life anymore).

Good luck!

[tori_lk]

lol...bad choice of words, eh? Yeah...It's just ...how do you say...habit. You hear soooo many people referring it to that. Actually, when I said the word...I was thinking...no more sitting on my butt....no more junk...and I soooo mean it. I'm making me a nice healthy omelet for breakfast....I have salad stuff for lunch. I'm doing it right this time.
Sorry for using the word diet...just like you...I hate the word. I would hate to tell anyone I'm on a diet. I would rather say...no, I have changed my way of being...including eating and working out.
Thanks for the tip, Allie. I knew I could count on you after all these years!
Tori

[AllieCat0817]

We know it doesn't really matter what you CALL it. What REALLY matters is how you are living it!!

[tori_lk]

Okay...so, I worked out last night again, doing the exercises my husband has giving me or helped me with. It looks so easy on paper. I'm starting to think Justin is going a little to hard on my legs. Or maybe I'm just that out of shape.
Here is what I have been doing. It's not alot...but it's ALOT more than what I have been doing:
#1-STRETCH FIRST...for 10 min...(I never stretch that long..is that bad?)
exercises:
1. 20 situps
2. 3 sets of 10 squats(can you say OMG??)
3. 8 sets of stairs....okay, let me explain this one...I moved into a tri level house and this is hard...I have to go down stairs, turn and continue down and turn around and come back up all the way to be counted as one...my butt will thank me later.
4. Butterfly strech andtouch your toes streches
5. 25 pushups
6. 20 crunches
7. 10 jumping jacks
8. 8 min on the elliptical...which I cannot do yet cause my legs are just to worn out by the time I get down with everything else...

Anyways...I'm sore today...it feels good...
Breakfast was...made an omelet using 3 eggs and some bell peppers...and a pinch of cheese
Well...more laters....need to eat my breakfast now.
Tori

[tori_lk]

Thanks Allie! You have always motivated me, girl! I remember watching you grow all little from the size you were!
Tori

[tori_lk]

OH! Wanted to fill anyone in who might actually read this...but one of the things that got me off course...emotions.
I just lost my Gizmo dog. Then out of the blue...my Dad calls me. I haven't spoken to my dad in 4 1/2 years and haven't seen him in over 6 years. Nobody has. He kindof just disappeared. Well, that was kind of hard for me...especially when he came into Denver and asked me and my family to come in and see him. Which we did. I have alot of mixed feelings about my dad cause he has done horrible things in my past.
Then after that...I got me a new little Shih Tzu! His name is Charlie and he is just so cute. He turned 11 weeks old today! I will have to post his picture laters.
I did keep up walking though. I went to this place here called Seven Falls and there were 224 stairs on this one section...I did it...but barely...Thought I was going to die.
Tori

[tori_lk]

Okay...just joined a challenge....The new challenge starts tomorrow! I know I can do this....I have to do this.
Tori

[KimmerJ]

Welcome to our group tori!!!!

And thanks for letting us know about miss tonia. I have sent her several PM's.