Need to Stay Focused-Cangirl's Journey

cangirl · 03-27-2007, 06:30 PM

Never been good at keeping journals, so here I go again.

Recap of my weightloss journey. In 2004 i lost 80lbs in 7 months. It wasn't easy and a total emotional roller coaster. Some weeks I would do really well and then for no apparent reason I would get stuck. This went on for 7 long months. But by golly I looked so good at the end. I also exercised almost everyday and my body was very toned. This was good till xmas then I had a total binge and gained 30lbs of fluid retention, I went on induction and lost it within a couple of weeks. This started a cycle of major yoyoing. I would binge and then lose the weight. Things started to slip in 2006. I stopped exercising and started eating and that led to me feeling bad and not wanting to do anything. I would not get on the scale because I didn't want to work at losing it again. I let it go too long and then another xmas of binging and then this January I quit smoking. Tried to stay on Atkins during this time but was eating too much so I didn't lose any weight. I have to buy bigger clothes because I cannot fit into anything I own. The joke is on me this time I thought it was so easy to lose it like before but not anymore so here I go. I need to lose 30 lbs. I start my days eating Atkins but by 3pm I end up eating carbs because I'm just craving, can't stay on track. I need to figure out what eating plan I want and stick with it. I enjoy Atkins but miss the carbs after about 3weeks. I also have a few drinks on the weekends and that holds me back about 3-4 days. It seems I'm always starting on day 1, day after day, after day. Last 2 days I have been doing Atkins and exercised. Feeling pretty good today. I leave for Florida in 26 days and need to lose some of this weight

I will get on the scale tomorrow, need to face the music.

cangirl · 03-28-2007, 06:02 PM

March 28/07

Well the day started good. Got up felt a little hungry which is a good sign. Did well until about noon. after lunch started wanting more food and that kept up till supper having a coffee did help. It's been a heck of a day, minute to minute I wanted to get into the junk and just eat. I managed to keep on plan so far but its been an emotional nightmare. I just want to get into everything and eat. Been craving chocolate like crazy.

Today's food

b: slice of ham, thin slice of cheese, coffee black with sweetener
l: loose hamburger fried with sprinkle of parmesan cheese
s: 3 slices of ham 1tbs cream cheese, coffee, blk, swtner
d: 2 chinken breasts with salsa and cheese, coffee
s: 4 slices of ham, 4 thin cheese slcs, 7 olives, d. coke

aprx 12 glasses of water
exercised 30 min on eliptical

cangirl · 03-29-2007, 06:34 PM

March 29/07 165

Down 3lbs from yesterday but its only the water weight from the drinking last weekend. Started out feeling good, got up hungry, good sign. Kept busy at work not very hungry. 3pm hit and of course the desire hit. Craved food right till 7pm, then kept busy by exercising and working on my mp3 downloads. Had snack at 9pm while watching survivor and posting. Once again I felt like getting into the food and especially peanut butter. I know that I can hold on till bedtime but the desire is very strong and if I do I know the scale will be good to me. No reason to be craving because I'm keeping it under 20 carbs, so I can't explain it.

todays food

b: piece of cheese
l: chkn breast with salsa, 2 slices of ham, coffee,cream and sweetener
sn: egg, piece of cheese, slice of ham, coffee (craving like crazy)
s 2 c cauliflower mashed with can of tuna and shredded cheese
sn 3 slice of ham with 2 tsp cream cheese, 10 olives, slice of cheese

lots of water, 2c of d.coke

40 min exercise

cangirl · 04-01-2007, 06:10 PM

April 1

Well, here it is sunday haven't posted since thursday. Went out friday and had lots of drinks and fun. The rest of the weekend was a big binge fest. Ate non stop. No reason for it I just wanted to eat. Just carbs all weekend. Feel like crap. now monday i'm thinking on doing very low cal to make up for this.
not much to say about this, screwed up again as usual.
good night

cangirl · 04-02-2007, 05:26 PM

April 2

Well, trying to do lf, small amount of carbs. The other way is not working and I can't seem to stick with lc. I eat carbs feel bad and keep going because I think I already screwed up anyway. Did fairly well today kept cals ok and exercised. I'm trying to be "normal" when it comes to eating. Eat 3 meals a day, have a snack. Stay away from junk. Keep satisfied, this is the goal. Stick with veggies, fruit, protein. I am so sick of dieting.

03-27-2007, 06:30 PM	#1
cangirl Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada Posts: 664 Gallery: cangirl Stats: 196/196/135 WOE: Atkins, exercise Start Date: 1st time 2004, Restarted Jan. 2008	Need to Stay Focused-Cangirl's Journey Never been good at keeping journals, so here I go again. Recap of my weightloss journey. In 2004 i lost 80lbs in 7 months. It wasn't easy and a total emotional roller coaster. Some weeks I would do really well and then for no apparent reason I would get stuck. This went on for 7 long months. But by golly I looked so good at the end. I also exercised almost everyday and my body was very toned. This was good till xmas then I had a total binge and gained 30lbs of fluid retention, I went on induction and lost it within a couple of weeks. This started a cycle of major yoyoing. I would binge and then lose the weight. Things started to slip in 2006. I stopped exercising and started eating and that led to me feeling bad and not wanting to do anything. I would not get on the scale because I didn't want to work at losing it again. I let it go too long and then another xmas of binging and then this January I quit smoking. Tried to stay on Atkins during this time but was eating too much so I didn't lose any weight. I have to buy bigger clothes because I cannot fit into anything I own. The joke is on me this time I thought it was so easy to lose it like before but not anymore so here I go. I need to lose 30 lbs. I start my days eating Atkins but by 3pm I end up eating carbs because I'm just craving, can't stay on track. I need to figure out what eating plan I want and stick with it. I enjoy Atkins but miss the carbs after about 3weeks. I also have a few drinks on the weekends and that holds me back about 3-4 days. It seems I'm always starting on day 1, day after day, after day. Last 2 days I have been doing Atkins and exercised. Feeling pretty good today. I leave for Florida in 26 days and need to lose some of this weight I will get on the scale tomorrow, need to face the music. __________________ Sue "I know that you want to lose weight but are you willing to do what it takes to lose it?" (Dr. Phil, I think) "If you are not exercising , you are not doing Atkins." Dr. Atkins, DANDR

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03-28-2007, 06:02 PM	#2
cangirl Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada Posts: 664 Gallery: cangirl Stats: 196/196/135 WOE: Atkins, exercise Start Date: 1st time 2004, Restarted Jan. 2008	March 28/07 Well the day started good. Got up felt a little hungry which is a good sign. Did well until about noon. after lunch started wanting more food and that kept up till supper having a coffee did help. It's been a heck of a day, minute to minute I wanted to get into the junk and just eat. I managed to keep on plan so far but its been an emotional nightmare. I just want to get into everything and eat. Been craving chocolate like crazy. Today's food b: slice of ham, thin slice of cheese, coffee black with sweetener l: loose hamburger fried with sprinkle of parmesan cheese s: 3 slices of ham 1tbs cream cheese, coffee, blk, swtner d: 2 chinken breasts with salsa and cheese, coffee s: 4 slices of ham, 4 thin cheese slcs, 7 olives, d. coke aprx 12 glasses of water exercised 30 min on eliptical

03-29-2007, 06:34 PM	#3
cangirl Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada Posts: 664 Gallery: cangirl Stats: 196/196/135 WOE: Atkins, exercise Start Date: 1st time 2004, Restarted Jan. 2008	March 29/07 165 Down 3lbs from yesterday but its only the water weight from the drinking last weekend. Started out feeling good, got up hungry, good sign. Kept busy at work not very hungry. 3pm hit and of course the desire hit. Craved food right till 7pm, then kept busy by exercising and working on my mp3 downloads. Had snack at 9pm while watching survivor and posting. Once again I felt like getting into the food and especially peanut butter. I know that I can hold on till bedtime but the desire is very strong and if I do I know the scale will be good to me. No reason to be craving because I'm keeping it under 20 carbs, so I can't explain it. todays food b: piece of cheese l: chkn breast with salsa, 2 slices of ham, coffee,cream and sweetener sn: egg, piece of cheese, slice of ham, coffee (craving like crazy) s 2 c cauliflower mashed with can of tuna and shredded cheese sn 3 slice of ham with 2 tsp cream cheese, 10 olives, slice of cheese lots of water, 2c of d.coke 40 min exercise

04-01-2007, 06:10 PM	#4
cangirl Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada Posts: 664 Gallery: cangirl Stats: 196/196/135 WOE: Atkins, exercise Start Date: 1st time 2004, Restarted Jan. 2008	April 1 Well, here it is sunday haven't posted since thursday. Went out friday and had lots of drinks and fun. The rest of the weekend was a big binge fest. Ate non stop. No reason for it I just wanted to eat. Just carbs all weekend. Feel like crap. now monday i'm thinking on doing very low cal to make up for this. not much to say about this, screwed up again as usual. good night

04-02-2007, 05:26 PM	#5
cangirl Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada Posts: 664 Gallery: cangirl Stats: 196/196/135 WOE: Atkins, exercise Start Date: 1st time 2004, Restarted Jan. 2008	April 2 Well, trying to do lf, small amount of carbs. The other way is not working and I can't seem to stick with lc. I eat carbs feel bad and keep going because I think I already screwed up anyway. Did fairly well today kept cals ok and exercised. I'm trying to be "normal" when it comes to eating. Eat 3 meals a day, have a snack. Stay away from junk. Keep satisfied, this is the goal. Stick with veggies, fruit, protein. I am so sick of dieting.