~* Singing a "Lighter" Tune!*~ Delly's Journal.

[SingingLass]

Hello Beautiful People! My name is Delaney--or del/ delly for short, and I actually already have over thirty journal entries made on a web blog focused around my journey in shrinking this flesh vehicle otherwise known as my body. ::grin:: I have my journal linked in the bottom signature on my lowcarb friends posts for anyone interested in reading more of what I have been doing ( or not doing...:: cough:: ), but I think from this point out I will post my entries both here, and on the site as well. Sometimes that blog site has some kind of problem where the web pages do not load, so I am glad to have a second, possibly even more visible place to chronicle things. In normal life, I tend to be a bit private about my actual weight and diet, but I have found it really does help to share my experiences with others, and to have a public place to announce those little successes. Of course it feels good to know for yourself you have achieved that new pound of loss, but it just seems to make it more impactful when you have others to tell ( other then my Cat Goblin who just gives me that "great mom, good for you---treat?" look).

A little background information here....I am almost 32 years old, but have a bit of a doll-face so people tend to mistake me for early 20's ( I am hoping this will be all the more emphasized as I lose more weight, lmao). I graduated college a couple years ago, where I studied music/ vocal performance, and theatre arts. The last couple years however, due to illness, I had to put a hold on my performance love, and have been working from home as a consultant....it pays well, but I get a bit stir-crazy sometimes without having a creative outlet, and only my cat to sing to. I guess that brings up the fact that I am also single, and do not have children. ::smile:: I borrow other people's kids instead, lol.

I first discovered and did atkins starting Jan 2001. At the time I had hit the 200 mark and wanted to make a change...I was working in a pharmacy as a clerk and saw lots of customers buying ketone strips and grabbing the atkins book off the rack. I picked up a copy during a break one day, and ended up buying it and started the diet shortly there after. Over the course of four months I lost 40 pounds....and I have to say looked pretty darn cute. I felt good, and loved it...people seemed to treat me different, smile at me a lot, open doors, it is wierd how many areas that were affected. The big thing was that the following two years, I was cast in several lead romantic roles, achieved sooo much vocally etc...and was constantantly almost over-loaded between all my productions, ensembles, lessons etc...Now and then I would go on Atkins for short periods to keep myself on track, but for the most part I kept it off.

Winter 2004, I started having a mysterious sinus problem that turned into an infection, then moved to my chest and gave me pneumonia. At the time I was pushing myself to finish school/ credits, and I think not taking time to rest hurt me greatly, but the end result was that I did not really get better. For the next year and a half or so my sinuses remained over-active and nothing helped, and I developed pretty chronic pneumonia. I became pretty much a lump because just making it outside to the mail box was hard to do with my breathing difficulties. Needless to say, it was a difficult time for me...I had just graduated and should have been out performing, seeking grad school, something, but instead was stuck in a tiny studio apartment sick without an end, unable to sing, and unable to really hold a regular job as well ( I sat through interviews with my nose running, hacking up stuff etc...). As it turned out, my illness was caused by toxic mold that was inside the walls, under the carpet etc..of my apartment. The place had been flooded several times, from various sources ( a bit of a story), and never had been properly cleaned. So, what made me sick was breathing in all those spores, having an allergic response to them, and also having them actually form a little colony resort in my lungs.

I got my online job, moved out of the rot hole in Sept 2005, and then focused on getting better. It took several months...it was really last summer until I started to feel healthy and breathe clear again because even with the removal of the mold, I had a lot of healing to do, especially in my lungs. Not only was my respiratory system hit, but after being physically inactive for so long ( after being someone who used to bike and walk everywhere), and on steroids...I had put on a startling amount of weight. I think, to be honest, at one point I was around the 310 mark, I am not fully positive because I did not have a scale for a while, and put off getting one because I just did not want to see it. Late last spring I started atkins again, and put off maybe 25 pounds or so ( not sure what my start weight was)...then a friend and her young daughter moved in with me, and she kind of stuffed my kitchen to the max with her stuff. I was bad, and went off.....they moved out and went across the country to live with her parents, and it ended up taking me a few months to get off my duff and start again. You all prolly know how it goes, you keep telling yourself you are going to start soon...next week, after this day etc...well, I finally did start again in November. I have to admit I have not been perfect, I went off a couple times over the holidays, and then again for a couple weeks last month when I was really sick.....but despite this I have put off 40 pounds as of yesterday. I now have aprox. another 100 to lose, but it seems less daunting now having almost gone 1/3 of the way.

I am pretty darn determined at this point. I am singing again and sounding decent/ strong enough to perform...but I know my weight at this point would really hold me back. There is an audition mid-june that I really would like to get below the 200 mark for, so that is a good motivation. I also just...want to feel good about myself again, to have a lighter step, to not have to worry that the table is too close to my restaurant booth and my boobs are going to rest on the table...( yes, you are allowed to laugh)....and also to feel more confident in regards to the opposite sex and my singular status, lol. It is so true though, that people treat you differently...I have seen the full scope of it. When I was at my lowest weight, complete strangers were always so quick to smile, chat, be helpfull, compliment etc...both male and female. Now, despite having almost doubled my size, it is like I have become invisible in comparison. I am sure some of you will know what I mean, it is like people shift their eyes off or around you, shove past you for things like you are not there without bothering to say anything, doors are rarely held open, sales clerks practically ignore you. The only time I get decent service and response anymore is when I am out and about with my pretty blonde sister...and even then, we will go to a department store, and they will only look at, and talk to her, show HER the products etc...as if I am some stray dog behind her. We were at Nordstroms a couple weeks ago looking over the make-up counters, and this happened by several of the sales people, the last one...started to offer my sister a slot for a free make-over by some famous make-up artist that would be coming in, and THEN it was like she finally noticed me and stammered out, and your friend too if she would like. The funny thing is, that I have much more money to spend on that kind of stuff then my sister...but they go so much by appearances. Needless to say, I have my little appointment card for this Friday for that make-over....I kind of am debating whether I even want to do it, shall see.

Anyway, I am sure I have babbled on enough for now, and done an ample introduction, lol. Please feel free to post any responses, comments, suggestions etc...I love feedback and feeling like I am not alone in a box with the struggle to shrink-a-fy myself here. This is actually another reason why i am duplicating my blog here...I think my other one sometimes is hard to access and comment on. I think from now on that web blog will just serve as a place to store it all/ a back up etc....

Thank you to anyone who actually took the time to read all of my dribble!

~ Del

[SingingLass]

I am not sure if html works on this board...in particular to create media players, but I thought I would try to share a midi or two of me singing, since it is kind of a large part of my motivation and goal. So bare with me if this does not work. The first one "should" be a clip of "Glitter and Be Gay" from Candide, and the second " Somebody Somewhere" from The Most Happy Fella.


Okay, html for media players did NOT work, so instead I will just link to the files...they are just stored on aol fttp space, no hidden creepies or viruses or anything. You should get an " open or save" file prompt, and then a media player will open and play. The pages themselves are blank.

Glitter and Be Gay

Somebody Somewhere

( okay, I am bored, cannot sleep...so am going to post more, lol)

Sul Aria duet--Marriage of Figaro

Gondoliers--"In a Contemplative Fashion"

Queen of the Night V Aria

Shubert Art Song


Blue Willow

ici bas

Laughing Song

Okay okay, I will stop now, lol.

[SJN02]

Del - You have great motivation. I so know what you mean by how people treat you. I HATE THAT!!! I would love to hear your clips, but I can't get them to work. Maybe when DH gets home he can help me figure it out...LOL
I work from home too, and know what temptations can come...meaning food in the house, always getting the munchines, something is always calling out...LOL WE CAN DO THIS!!!! My first goal it to get under 200 also, so LET'S DO IT!!!
I enjoyed reading your entry for today

[SingingLass]

Awww, thank you SJ! I actually am not too bad about eating at home, since it is just me, I literally do not have ANYTHING I am not allowed to eat in my house--my fridge and feezer are just meat, vegies, eggs and some cheese etc....and I think it at least makes it easier to down the water too...not to mention dealing with all the resulting potty runs! lol. And goodness....you look close to the under 200 goal there, congrats!

I changed from trying to insert actual files to the board, to just linking to the web urls the files are stored on through aol fttp storage. Basically when you click on them a blank looking web page should open, and then a windows alert/prompt box asking if you want to open, or save the file. Clicking open will allow to listen without having to save it the computer...and then whatever media player you use as default on your computer should open and load/ play the file. At least that is how it should work, and what happens when I click on the links.

You all should be glad I only have a few clips saved on my computer/ the web. I litterally have hundreds of tapes sitting in boxes waiting for me to figure out what exactly is on them, lol.

[SingingLass]

Random Thought of the Day:

Does snot have carbs? Because I definately have been swallowing the stuff.......

[SingingLass]

::Rubs eyes and yawns.:: Not fully sure the why of it, but I have been sleeping, and sleeping....My sleep schedule lately has been sleeping in afternoon through early evening, then I get up, put around, work etc...through am hours etc..I have always been a night owl, and though I do manage to get into night-time sleeping sometimes, it never holds. Well, I did not get up until almost 9 pm last night, and around 11 pm I laid back down, slept for several more hours, got up early morning, then two hours later, bam, was sleeping again for about another three hours. If any of that makes sense, lol. I think it must be from the cold I have, the cold meds etc...and could be a touch of induction flu in the mix as well. It sure made my eating over the last 24 hours a bit wierd too, lol.

I am not sure at this point if I have lost anything, I woke-up really thirsty and downed a bunch of water, then did a forehead slap of sorts for having not weighed myself first. Oh well. Last I checked last night, I have been holding...but that does not surprise me all that much because I have been sucking on SF cough drops, took cold meds, and also have had several cups of splenda-sweetened tea lately. It beats going the nyquil and sugar route though. I am hoping doing the m/e thing for a while will help give my scale a kick though. I can definately tell I have been losing wieght....it may sound really wierd, but you get to know the feel and look of your own body, in my case, the feel of my lower belly roll, lmao. I can totally tell that it has shrunken down and is shaped different. This is encouraging, but also brings out those fears of lurking loose skin possibilities. So far with a 40 lb drop I am doing okay, but I still have a lot more to go. I need to be good and remember to use my salt and oil scrub every day...its this stuff I use in the shower that has several kinds of oils ( E,grape, soy etc..) and salt in it...so it helps to rub off the dead skin, then moisturizes. It leaves my skin with a bit of an oily residue, but I figure that means some is staying on for extra oomf. ::giggle:: I put it on my boobs too...they could um, use the help.

I am officially on meat and egg, though technically I started that last night at the start of my " day". Yesterday my last green-meal in the morning was a small salad with romaine, green onion, celery, cilantro, a lil shredded cheese, and some dilly dip dressing. I figured I should eat the last of my salad, lol. I have these small plastic bowls that are perfect for low-carb sized salads, I know in the past I was guilty of perhaps adding too many salad carbs in with my soup-sized bowls.
I never got around to eating when I got up last night. I am not a breakfast eater, and usually am not hungry until I have been up and about for a couple hours. My sister is the same way...one of the aspects of our icky childhood was that we never had anything available to eat for breakfast, so even in our adult lives we have not been able to get into that habit---not good, I know. Anyhoo, I fell asleep right when I had been starting to consider cooking something.
When I got up again, I did make and eat chicken wings--I can tell you that was an experience since I usually need sour cream with them, but am cutting most fat-extras like that out. Oh well, it made me drink a lot of water, lol. I watched Borat while eating them, lol.

I have not eaten yet since getting up an hour ago, not quite hungry enough, but when i do, It will be a couple hard boiled eggs. During my awake time early this morning, I boiled up several. My thought is that I will make myself like two meat-meals a day, and eat eggs in some form around that if I need a snack or anything. I will most likely make my last non-frozen flank steak at some point later today. I am actually kind of hoping I can switch my sleep schedule around a bit since I slept quite a bit through the night.

I am debating on whether or not I want to go shopping today or tomorrow. Because of M/e all I really need groccerie wise is some eggs, bottled water, and like some lean lunch meats that I can snack on or something. What i really need and am dreading right now..is jeans. I hate shopping for jeans, and I do not understand why they make plus size jeans with the low around-the-hips waist bands...hello, like people think that looks good? LOL. Lately almost every pair I have tried have had that condition, but I am at a point where I cannot put it off any longer...jeans are getting dangerously big and wearing out both. I am not fully sure what size I am yet either.

Anyhoo, I need to go and get some work done since I was a lazy butt and slept so much.....then catch my duel morning dose of ER. ::nod nod::

::waves::

[SingingLass]

Well...I did shift my sleep schedule a bit, lol. I slept like 6 pm- 1 am, lol.
So what I ate for "yesterday"...

*8-9 chicken hot wings.
* 2 hard boiled eggs
*chicken breast and a half.
* Starbucks iced americano...with SF cinnamon syrup and a couple tbs worth of half and half. yeah yeah, my bad.
* About a gallon of water.

Well, I did go out shopping yesterday, at least it meant walking around. Shopping for jeans was unpleasent like I suspected...the two places I looked though did not have much of a selection in plus-sized jeans, and what they did have had wierd glitter and stuff on them, way too long, and the hip-waist-bands. I did buy a pair that are a bit too long, just wanting to have something at least...also depressed because I thought they would be a smaller size. They were a 24, and I was hoping to be a 22...considering my other jeans that are now hanging on me are 24's. Hmm, could be brands or whatever. I am going to go out again later today and try Fashion bug to see if they have anything better. I did at least buy some kitchen gadgetry while out...a food scale, a chopper thingy, new silverware, oven mits, and a little baking pan the perfect size for singular chicken meals etc...

I noticed that difference in service again yesterday....sales lady at the changing rooms all smiles and helpfull chatter to the teenage girls, then whenever I went up she would like disapear in the racks and leave me standing, and come out and not even look at me as she would shove me my number card....then I would see her flip and be nice for the next people etc...Like, yeash, yes...they may be cuter and smaller, but I bet I have a bigger wallet as well as a bigger butt, lol. Oh well.
I was a little bad and went into starbucks, i was just...randomly craving it soooo bad, I think perhaps due to the heavy ketosis metal mouth thing I have going on. I guess it was not too bad, just some sf syrup and a little half and half, totally acceptable for most people on low carb...just sweetners sometimes do not agree the most with me, and I am doing m/ e now. I can't drink coffee black. I used to only drink coffee when it was basically half sugar and milk, so for me, cutting back to just a couple splashes worth of cream is a big accomplishment. I had it iced too, so that watered it down a bit. And boy, did I suck that puppy down...by the time I walked down to Ross, that thing was almost gone, lol.
I have been up, updating my client files and doing some grunt work this morning. My first meal of the day was a rolled flank steak....just popped it in the oven with a little olive oil and minced garlic. Nummy. I also made a fitday account this morning after seeing several people mention it, and will be plugging in my food intake so I can have a better idea of where I am at. I hope that helps.

I also have decided it is very crucial that I start back up with exercise. I am soo bad about keeping up with it. I go through periods...and with having two colds in a month's span, it just has left me not feeling exactly motivated, especially since my bodyflex requires a clear nose to do the aerobic breathing exercises. I am still a bit stuff as of yet. I also, okay, don't laugh...bought a belly dancing work-out dvd yesterday. I saw it on the wrack while waiting in the check-out line of all things. They actually had several different belly dancing dvds by different people...got the one that seemed more geared as a work-out. I thought it would not hurt to try, and it might hold my attention and be more fun then bouncing around in traditional aerobics...and hey, might learn some useful moves. ::wink::

[SingingLass]

Weeeee! I am down 2 pounds!

I literally let out a little squeal when I saw that, lol. I guess it was bothering more then I thought not to see movement this week.....I got on and off a couple times to be sure.

I went back to bed around 6 am and slept several hours, watched my er, then got nakey to take my shower...and ...bing! It is alwasy an extra bonus to see pounds drop in multiples. So it's a happy day.

[SingingLass]

Well, I am still slowly tweaking my sleep schedule to try to get it into more humane hours. I held out on going to sleep until 10 pm, but then was up at 3 am, thinking it was much later, lol. Anyhoo...here is what my consumption was yesterday.:

* One Flank steak
* one hard boiled egg
* two chicken breasts
~ lil oil for cooking, garlic, splenda in medicinal tea, cold pills and vitamins
* One mug of throat coat tea, 32 oz unweetened iced-tea, and almost a gallon of water.

I have not weighed myself yet today---I took some fiber pills and am, um, kinda waiting for them to go into affect since it has been a couple days. I tried m/e once before like two months ago and did not stay on it long for this reason, thus why I am adding some fiber capsules. I may eventually just add a little daily spinach leaf or something.

I have been really feeling held back by this cold..it's wierd, I will start to feel almost normal, then it creeper hits me. Last night I coughed up a bunch of stuff that had been rattling around in me...and my sinuses just have continued to be a bit over-active. I just cringe every time I take those cold capsules because for some reason the coating on them tastes gross-sweet ( and no carb counts anywhere on packaging) and I have also had to suck on the sf halls and suck down tea to thin things out and counter the itchy throat irritation. Those things cannot be helping me, not to mention making it so I can't do my body flex yet. I would just break out in coughs. Ugh. I think I MAYBE had one healthy week in the last 5 or 6. I have almost been wondering if I have a bit of induction flu, like detox, contributing to my current gunk....though I have never had it really before that I am aware of.

I did have a good moment yesterday in discovering that a brown cardigan sweater that I bought a couple months ago now fits. It would not close, and the sleeves were way to tight previously. I appear to be shrinking size-wise more on the top then the bottom, lol. I did go shopping again yesterday, and I used to be a size 24/3x in shirts, and size 24 in pants...and I did manage to find a pair of 22 jeans I could get into, but they were way too long, so ended up with another pair of 24's simply because i need new ones. That bummed me again a bit, over 40 pounds, you would think I would go down a size in jeans. Shirts though--I bought a couple 18/20's...which I think is also considered 1 x. I stopped and reminded myself only to get a couple of things because I don't want to stay in them long, lol.

Tomorrow is my sister day. Every friday, for years now...my sister and I get together. In college it was just usually for a quick lunch or something, but the last couple years we spend most of the day together. She gets off work around noon, we go out and have a nice lunch --usually my treat, then we go and run errands, do shopping together etc...then after that, sometimes we go out to dinner as well with her hubby. Mandi is supportive of me doing atkins--she did it herself a couple years ago, but she gets really nervous about anything extreme. She weighs about what I would like to ultimately weigh, and considers herself fat, so sometimes I think it is hard for her to fully understand....she also is someone who will not take a vitamin or supplement if there is something in it she doesn't recognize, gets really anxiety prone that something will affect her bad when she tries new things etc...So, she doesn't mind me doing atkins, but I know if she finds out I am doing m/e or anything stricter she will get all worried and protective, lecture me a lot. It is just because she loves me is all, her intentions are in the right place....but really at this point I have to weigh what is worse and more dangerous, staying this obese, or being a bit agressive in getting it off--at least I am taking my vitamins. Once the weight is down, my goal is to have a healthy whole foods diet/ atkins matinence. I really would rather not get her all worried for nothing, so I may not tell her about the m/e and just maybe have a little vegies and salad when we are out. I am still not sure how long I will do m/e, but for now I could have fridays be my vegies allowed day or something. I hope that is okay. I can take carb blocking pills with me to maybe help take the edge off.

I really need to get off my duff today. With the two colds back to back, this last month I have slacked off in housework, work etc...in general. Hmmm...maybe I can count cleaning a bit as exercise? LOL. Okay, I will post again later if I see any scale sucess. Here is hoping!

[SingingLass]

Before I go off to bed, ( and at a humane hour might I add--yay!)....thought I would list off what I consumed today.

* Tuna and egg salad.
~ can of tuna, one hard boiled egg, two spoons mayo, mooseterd, lil fresh dill, pepper.
* Thin-sliced lunch meat, turkey and roast beef ( neither sugar-cured), dipped in a lil mooseterd.
*hard boiled egg.
* Angus beef steak strips, one spoon of 1-carb hienz ketchup for dipping.

Over a gallon of water--vitamins--multi, vit c, calcium_magnesium_zinc, chromium, hair vitamin with biotin, and fiber capsules

[SJN02]

Del - I am just now trying to hear you sing. The links will not open. Nothing happens... Have a wonderful day with your sister

[SingingLass]

Hmmm...they still open for me when i click on them. Maybe you have setting on your computer inhibiting or something? Has just copy/ pasting url worked?

Has anyone else been able to access the links and files? Just curious. It is not too big of a deal--just short clips of me singing some arias and show tunes, but I put them up since it is a large part of who I am and what I want to regain when I get the extra baggage off.

[SingingLass]

I am having yet another frustrating morning. I cannot seem to shake this cold, and thus woke up yet again coughing stuff up and having to consume mass amounts of tissues----I am sleeping at night again, which is good, but only for like four hours due to being sick. I KNOW this cold and the cold meds have held me back on weight loss, which sucks with how good I was trying to be with m/e. They do not include carb counts on the cold pill boxes, and that sweet taste to the coating, on both kinds I tried, has me suspicious. The other upsetter is that I really really really want to get going back with body flex and other exercise but can't really until this cold is gone. Just walking around right now makes me cough.

Some of this may seem a bit of a repeat of my whines on the m/e board, so sorry about that for anyone who reads both....I just wanted to document it down here as part of my journey.

I need to try to loose 50-60 pounds in three months, which means being really aggressive...my plan is to do m/e but with an addition of daily spinach....and to execise at least an hour a day---I am thinking right now a combo of body flex and my bike, thigh master for chest toning exercises actually ( my girls have taken a hit from the weight gain), and possibly do some kind of aerobics a few times a week----I need to try out that belly dancing work out dvd still, heehee.

Oh, the reasoning for trying to get it off fast? Firstly an audition in June, and now it is very possible that a male friend of mine who I have been talking with over internet/ phone for three years may be moving here around that same time. I just...would feel much better about that situation if i could get below 200 and look more like me again.

Anyhoo....yesterday was my sister friday---I splurged on lunch, and it felt like a cheat, but really everything was induction approoved foods. I had a salad with spinach and spring mix...with egg, ham, cucumbers etc....and then a chicken breast with mushrooms, a lil parm sauce, and some mashed cauliflower. I also had a regular coffee at starbucks with sf syrup again---my bad. Breakfast yesterday though was a hard boiled egg and a few slices of lunch meat, and dinner was about 8-10 chicken wings.

I am thinking I may start trying to eat like in smaller meals through-out the day, especially once i start the exercising. I have made a chart that is taped to the wall next to my desk, listing off a daily check-list of things i need to do...such as the various exercises, vitamins, water intake, and even a reminder to use firming lotions etc...on my skin. I am hoping that may help me a bit, but kind of doubt I will be getting the exercise started for a couple days yet...here is hoping I shake this cold over the weekend. I just want to wave my fists in frustration because I want to start NOW.

[SJN02]

Well today I got the link to open, but nothing happend...maybe my computer is just too slow

You can be strict with your eating now and then just add the exercise in as you get to feeling better. Which I do hope is soon. I am fighting a cold too and had to laugh about snot having carbs...I have that going on too...LOL

Did you know this guy from before or is he someone you met online? I hope everything works out for you and just remember that if he is upset with how you look, he was not worth your time.

[SingingLass]

Here is a secondary option I have made for the sound files---I made a crude/simple little web page, and plugged them in as little media boxes you can click play on opposed to having to download in any way. heehee, one of the two pictures is me weighing like 100 pounds less there. Anyhoo...here is the link and addy.

http://members.aol.com/princkeric/singing.html

[SingingLass]

Really sorry to hear you are sick too hun. It sucks. I went and bought some musinex today, and that actually seems to be helping----thins up the gunk so it can drain and be coughed up easier.

Normally I am someone who would shake head against internet-dating, but this is someone I met through a gaming/ writing forum online almost three years ago, and we have been talking both online and phone over the course of that time. Basically the mother he was caring for passed last year, and nothing really for him there any more---where here he could get a fresh start, can go to school etc...so even if we end up just being platonic (trying not to put too much in way of expectations on it), it would most likely be a good move for him. He knows I am plump, and about what the prednisone did to me etc....gave me support while I was at the hieght of being sick. So, he says of course none of that matters, but just for my personal confidence etc..I would prefer to get as much off as I can before the move. It still is all up in the air as of yet though, and I have that audition right around the same time, so kind of two birds with one stone as well.

[SingingLass]

I have been on the verge of tears for a while, and am doing my best to "buck-up".

I have been doing the scale-hopping game with my scale for some while, where you get on and off several times and try to see what number comes up the most and call that the winner---I figured since it typically showed within a five pound range even though it was bouncing that I was in the ball-park. Well, this was getting old and frustrating, and I started getting concerns if it was accurate, what if this skipping around means the scale is off in some other way? Soo....i went out and bought a new digital scale today. The Following is just copied from the post I just made on the m/e thread ::

Well, I broke temptation and decided to try out that new scale....and it showed me almost exactly a 20 pound difference...in the positive. At first I was like, no way, that is waaaaay too off, this new scale has to be wrong....well, I double checked on a different scale, and got the same reading as on my new one. I just...am crushed. That is a huge difference and error. i now do not even know what my starting weight was in November, because I based it off of this scale. How much have I really lost? I mean...I have gone from a size 24/3x shirt to an 18/20/1x....and there is a noticible difference...so have I still lost the 40, and the whole time the scale was 20 pounds off, or did it disinigrate over time? I have no clue.

I am looking at my signature and stats here on the board not knowing what to do, I guess I can go in and tweek the numbers, including my starting weight by 20 pounds...what would you all do?

I am really upset, but I needed to know this. I knew something was off with that scale, just I did not think it was THAT off, I was thinking maybe like five pounds or something.

Now I really need to bust butt.

[SingingLass]

Today's food intake:

* 3 scrambled eggs, spoon butter
* Carb options shake. ( from powdered---3 carbs, has a lot of vitamins)
*Sliced turkey lunch meat.
* 2 HB eggs.
* Cup of scrambled egg beaters.
~ mug of mint tea with lemon. water. snot.

It was obviously an egg day. My stomach is upset because I took a musinex and it made me cough and cough all this stuff up, so between the coughing and that stuff prolly also thinning and going to my stomach, it has left me a bit queasy. I just made myself eat some scrambled egg beaters---seemed soft food was best option. My sister told me to get/try egg beaters, but they definately are not as good as real eggs. So forget that idea. :P

[SingingLass]

Well, down 1.8 pounds from yesterday's new scale weight, so at least I am seeing progress. It had given me the same 272.2 reading around five am this morning, but after going back to bed and getting up---bing. Like I mentioned on the m/E thread earlier...it is nice to get on and off and to see the same number come back at you each time. It also makes it so I can rely on the pointage drops as well, which is the whole reason I went for a digital scale to begin with. Sooo, still bummed about the whole situation and weight more then I thought, but at least I have a better way to guage my progress now. All of this also explains why I was not in the jean size I thought I should have been....c'est la vie.
I seem to be doing a bit better on the cold front, drastic drop in drippy stuff since I cleared so much out last night...but now my chest and throat are sore. If after some hydration and a few hours I feel better, I may try to my bodyflex later today. My plan is to do start doing it while I watch ER every morning...make it a rule, that I can't watch ER unless I am excersising, lmao!

[SingingLass]

:: Squeals::
:: squeals again::
:: and again::

Okay...so I did manage to do my bodyflex work out, been puttering around etc...and decided what the heck, to weigh myself again...269....so that is a 3 pound loss in the last 24 hours!

Other then the mucinex pill yesterday, I have not taken any cold pills in a day and a half, so maybe that is helping?

[SingingLass]

:: Rubs eyes, yawns, scratches butt and the like.::

Okay....Yesterday's fuel intake :

*3 scrambled eggs, butter
*Tuna "salad"--lil may0, mooseterd, dill...and...
* Cup Raw Spinach
*8 Chicken wings

vitamins, water, iced-tea, more snot.....