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lowcarb0rbustmypants · 02-13-2007, 09:37 AM

I've been on this weightloss rollercoaster it seems like all my life. I've hit rock bottom or thought I had on numerous occasions. I've had my lightbulb moments when I thought I had gotten it. I've fallen off the wagon, jumped off the wagon, and gotten run flat ass over by the wagon. I think...no actually I know that it is epiphany time for me. This will be the very last time I post a start date. I stepped on the scale this morning naked as a jaybird in all my glory and it registered 389 pounds. The very idea that I am only 11 pounds away from 400 pounds and that I am now 2 pounds over what I ever knew was my highest weight has me so disgusted with myself. I could sit here and place the blame on myself and get pity for it, but truth be told I am sick and tired of placing blame and making excuses. I made myself fat. I am the only person who can fix this. I can continue on the path that I am currently on and die obese, miserable, and early or I can choose to take control of myself and my life and make the choices necessary to be healthy and fit.

This is what I choose. I choose to be healthy. I choose to make the choices necessary to become the person that I envision in my dreams. That woman with the uber self confidence who radiates beauty and eminates passion. I want to be able to toss on some sneakers and feel the wind blowing through my hair as I run just for the sake of running. I want to stop taking medicine to get my body through life. I want to start LIVING life!

I started this morning when I stepped on that scale. There is no going back. There are no excuses. I will SUCCEED!

lowcarb0rbustmypants · 02-13-2007, 10:09 AM

Well there you have it. The beginning of a long arduous journey has begun. This is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done. I'm not just going to diet this time. I am not just going to go through the motions. I am going to actually change lots of things about myself. This is going to be an emotional event. It is going to bring me to tears, but I am up for it. I CAN do this! I've lost weight many times. I can do that. This time is different. I want more that just to lose weight. I want to live. I want to experience. I want to learn and grow. I am a work in progress. I am going to mold myself. I am going to be healthy and fit. I am going to not only fix myself, but am going to fix a household full of bad habits that I taught and encouraged. My children and fiancee will be better for this as will I.

Now to write down my goals, plans, and other miscellaneous start up things that I feel I must put down in order to have accountability.

Dan and I started a lemonade cleanse today with the goal of doing seven days. I gave up caffeine a week and a half ago so this will be a bit easier for having done that. For those of you that don't know what that is, it's a sort of fast to cleanse your body of toxins. Dan and I have had a steady diet of Taco Bell, Applebees, and other miscellaneous food that just isn't the best for you so we decided that on my vacation we would do a cleanse and clean out all the "crap" literally and then start induction. It includes drinking "lemonade" ie, 8 oz water, 1/10th tsp of cayenne pepper, 2 tbsp of freshly squeezed lemon juice, and 2 tbsp of grade b maple syrup. You drink approximately 6-12 glasses of this concoction a day. You also drink water to help flush your body as well as do a salt water flush and drink a laxative tea nightly. It isn't the easiest thing to do and takes alot of mental work to get through it, but I've done it and you do end up feeling amazing when it's done. So this is our beginning.

To break your fast you boil vegetables and drink the broth. Moving onto eating the vegetables and adding back food slowly. It's a process, but must be done or you risk making yourself feel sick. From this Dan and I will move onto induction. I'm really excited about having someone to do this with. It's going to be really helpful. We will be each other's motivation. To this I will have to add exercise. I'm just not sure what day that will happen. The cleanse is supposed to be for 7 days, but if I prolong it I won't start exercising until I am actually eating food. So for now I will put as my plan. Once on induction I will exercise a minimum of 6 days a week.

Induction-Exercise

Weeks 1 and 2 -10 minutes walking treadmill, circuit of weights x 10 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park)
Weeks 3 and 4 - 15 minutes walking treadmill, circuit of weights x 12 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park)
Weeks 5 through 9 - 20 minutes walking treadmill split up in 2-10 minutes sessions, circuit of weights x 15 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park twice)
Weeks 10 and on - 30 minutes walking treadmill split up in 2-15 minutes sessions, circuit of weights 2 sets of 10 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park twice)

I can't say that I won't be looking forward to the weightloss aspect of all of this as well, but it's not my primary motivating factor, but it is a telling part of reaching goals and in such I will be rewarding myself for attaining certain milestones. I will also reward myself for sticking to my plans because those little steps are what will eventually get me through this marathon I call life.

I intend on purchasing myself a charm bracelet. I will purchase this bracelet after finishing my cleanse. This bracelet is going to be used to track my progress as well as be a reminder daily of what it is I am trying to attain. I will also be rewarding myself with other things and will post that goal with the prize to be attained as I think of them.

So this is it. My plans for the rest of my life. Let's do this thang!

lowcarb0rbustmypants · 02-13-2007, 08:11 PM

God this has to be the hardest thing I have ever done! I want to eat so bad I can hardly stand it. Dan and I went out running errands and everywhere we went food was staring us in the face. We tossed back and forth the idea of just going ahead and starting induction, but I have already ordered $55 dollars worth of maple syrup and we have another $35 here in the house. We even had to go to Wal-Mart and pick up food for the kids and get some more lemons and water. Still wrestling with wanting to eat we checked out. We are home now. Going to watch a movie and drink some peppermint tea. We are doing it. That which does not kill us......and all that! LOL

lowcarb0rbustmypants · 02-14-2007, 11:30 AM

Day 2 - Weight=381.4 lbs
I would like to eat the ass off a donkey right now. I am starving! I did my saltwater flush. Nothing too amazing about it. I was seriously dreading it and the funny thing is the drinking was the worst part. Tasted HORRIBLE! I never got those raging stomach cramps that I got the last time. I merely visited the restroom a total of two times. Dan however didn't fare as well. LOL He's okay now, but his backside and the toilet got really acquainted. I can't wait for this to be over, but am also really proud of me being able to stick to this.

02-13-2007, 09:37 AM	#1
lowcarb0rbustmypants MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2002 Location: Alabama Posts: 2,272 Gallery: lowcarb0rbustmypants Stats: 421.6(pre Cushing's surgery)/382.6/200 WOE: chew and swallow down the throathole	<Insert witty journal title here> I've been on this weightloss rollercoaster it seems like all my life. I've hit rock bottom or thought I had on numerous occasions. I've had my lightbulb moments when I thought I had gotten it. I've fallen off the wagon, jumped off the wagon, and gotten run flat ass over by the wagon. I think...no actually I know that it is epiphany time for me. This will be the very last time I post a start date. I stepped on the scale this morning naked as a jaybird in all my glory and it registered 389 pounds. The very idea that I am only 11 pounds away from 400 pounds and that I am now 2 pounds over what I ever knew was my highest weight has me so disgusted with myself. I could sit here and place the blame on myself and get pity for it, but truth be told I am sick and tired of placing blame and making excuses. I made myself fat. I am the only person who can fix this. I can continue on the path that I am currently on and die obese, miserable, and early or I can choose to take control of myself and my life and make the choices necessary to be healthy and fit. This is what I choose. I choose to be healthy. I choose to make the choices necessary to become the person that I envision in my dreams. That woman with the uber self confidence who radiates beauty and eminates passion. I want to be able to toss on some sneakers and feel the wind blowing through my hair as I run just for the sake of running. I want to stop taking medicine to get my body through life. I want to start LIVING life! I started this morning when I stepped on that scale. There is no going back. There are no excuses. I will SUCCEED! __________________ Highest weight on: June 3rd, 2008 421.6 lbs Weight on: November 23rd, 2008 382.6 lbs ~~§~~Shawna~~§~~

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02-13-2007, 10:09 AM	#2
lowcarb0rbustmypants MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2002 Location: Alabama Posts: 2,272 Gallery: lowcarb0rbustmypants Stats: 421.6(pre Cushing's surgery)/382.6/200 WOE: chew and swallow down the throathole	Well there you have it. The beginning of a long arduous journey has begun. This is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done. I'm not just going to diet this time. I am not just going to go through the motions. I am going to actually change lots of things about myself. This is going to be an emotional event. It is going to bring me to tears, but I am up for it. I CAN do this! I've lost weight many times. I can do that. This time is different. I want more that just to lose weight. I want to live. I want to experience. I want to learn and grow. I am a work in progress. I am going to mold myself. I am going to be healthy and fit. I am going to not only fix myself, but am going to fix a household full of bad habits that I taught and encouraged. My children and fiancee will be better for this as will I. Now to write down my goals, plans, and other miscellaneous start up things that I feel I must put down in order to have accountability. Dan and I started a lemonade cleanse today with the goal of doing seven days. I gave up caffeine a week and a half ago so this will be a bit easier for having done that. For those of you that don't know what that is, it's a sort of fast to cleanse your body of toxins. Dan and I have had a steady diet of Taco Bell, Applebees, and other miscellaneous food that just isn't the best for you so we decided that on my vacation we would do a cleanse and clean out all the "crap" literally and then start induction. It includes drinking "lemonade" ie, 8 oz water, 1/10th tsp of cayenne pepper, 2 tbsp of freshly squeezed lemon juice, and 2 tbsp of grade b maple syrup. You drink approximately 6-12 glasses of this concoction a day. You also drink water to help flush your body as well as do a salt water flush and drink a laxative tea nightly. It isn't the easiest thing to do and takes alot of mental work to get through it, but I've done it and you do end up feeling amazing when it's done. So this is our beginning. To break your fast you boil vegetables and drink the broth. Moving onto eating the vegetables and adding back food slowly. It's a process, but must be done or you risk making yourself feel sick. From this Dan and I will move onto induction. I'm really excited about having someone to do this with. It's going to be really helpful. We will be each other's motivation. To this I will have to add exercise. I'm just not sure what day that will happen. The cleanse is supposed to be for 7 days, but if I prolong it I won't start exercising until I am actually eating food. So for now I will put as my plan. Once on induction I will exercise a minimum of 6 days a week. Induction-Exercise Weeks 1 and 2 -10 minutes walking treadmill, circuit of weights x 10 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park) Weeks 3 and 4 - 15 minutes walking treadmill, circuit of weights x 12 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park) Weeks 5 through 9 - 20 minutes walking treadmill split up in 2-10 minutes sessions, circuit of weights x 15 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park twice) Weeks 10 and on - 30 minutes walking treadmill split up in 2-15 minutes sessions, circuit of weights 2 sets of 10 reps (if gym is unavailable or decide not to go must walk the trail at the park twice) I can't say that I won't be looking forward to the weightloss aspect of all of this as well, but it's not my primary motivating factor, but it is a telling part of reaching goals and in such I will be rewarding myself for attaining certain milestones. I will also reward myself for sticking to my plans because those little steps are what will eventually get me through this marathon I call life. I intend on purchasing myself a charm bracelet. I will purchase this bracelet after finishing my cleanse. This bracelet is going to be used to track my progress as well as be a reminder daily of what it is I am trying to attain. I will also be rewarding myself with other things and will post that goal with the prize to be attained as I think of them. So this is it. My plans for the rest of my life. Let's do this thang!

02-13-2007, 08:11 PM	#3
lowcarb0rbustmypants MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2002 Location: Alabama Posts: 2,272 Gallery: lowcarb0rbustmypants Stats: 421.6(pre Cushing's surgery)/382.6/200 WOE: chew and swallow down the throathole	God this has to be the hardest thing I have ever done! I want to eat so bad I can hardly stand it. Dan and I went out running errands and everywhere we went food was staring us in the face. We tossed back and forth the idea of just going ahead and starting induction, but I have already ordered $55 dollars worth of maple syrup and we have another $35 here in the house. We even had to go to Wal-Mart and pick up food for the kids and get some more lemons and water. Still wrestling with wanting to eat we checked out. We are home now. Going to watch a movie and drink some peppermint tea. We are doing it. That which does not kill us......and all that! LOL

02-14-2007, 11:30 AM	#4
lowcarb0rbustmypants MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2002 Location: Alabama Posts: 2,272 Gallery: lowcarb0rbustmypants Stats: 421.6(pre Cushing's surgery)/382.6/200 WOE: chew and swallow down the throathole	Day 2 - Weight=381.4 lbs I would like to eat the ass off a donkey right now. I am starving! I did my saltwater flush. Nothing too amazing about it. I was seriously dreading it and the funny thing is the drinking was the worst part. Tasted HORRIBLE! I never got those raging stomach cramps that I got the last time. I merely visited the restroom a total of two times. Dan however didn't fare as well. LOL He's okay now, but his backside and the toilet got really acquainted. I can't wait for this to be over, but am also really proud of me being able to stick to this.