Lisa's Journal

[Mamamo]

I am starting Atkins today.

I am at 242 lbs.

I'd like to be around 150 lbs. but not quite sure. I guess I will know when I am at a comfortable weight again when I get there...(It has been such a long time I cannot remember).

I am excited and nervous at the same time. Please let this work.

[CarolinaRocker]

I just wanted to stop by and congratulate you for taking that first step.

Just relax and let it work for you. No need to stress about it all

[Mamamo]

Oh thank you thank you other Lisa ...You are so nice. It must be the name...

Okay, I have made it through breakfast - 2 eggs over easy and a sausage patty and lunch - 1/4 lb. tuna with mayo 2 cubes of cheese and 3 olives. Oh and I tried a Diet Snapple Blueberry Iced Tea...it was not bad.

I'm kind of tired but it has been a long stressful week. I had a semi-meltdown yesterday...which happens maybe once a year and yesterday was the day for me. The boiler repair cost $700 and that wouldn't be so bad if it was the only thing we have had to fix in the house so far but it is added to a long list of stuff that was being held together by a thread (the oven which almost killed me, the wiring is crap, the pipes are old, the hot water heater is old, the boiler is 13 years old, the thingie in the bathroom leaks, the outside water line is shot but they left a new spicket on it which made it look new, and the ice line for the fridge leaks) and I am afraid that this is all too taxing on our finances. I feel like we were tricked by the home inspector, maybe he was in cahoots with the real estate representative. At any rate, all he told us about was that the hot water heater was old. This is making me real angry. We were told that we should think about maybe getting a new boiler.

So my son was driving me to the doctor yesterday and I just about blew a gasket talking about it and my poor son was trying to calm me down. We actually had a real good talk about life and stuff after that which was nice, but when I got to the doctor's office my blood pressure was slightly high and they made me sit around and relax until it went back down.

*Takes a deep breath* I keep telling myself this will all work out in the end and eating the wrong things is not going to help it anyway...

[CarolinaRocker]

Did the inspector give you a written guarantee to back up his report? Ours did. Make sure he checked everything he was supposed to. They should have told you how old everything is.

I know what you mean though...when we bought this house everything seemed to fall apart..even the blinds/toilet paper holders were held up with on one screw trim on the walls just balanced there blah blah blah. The air conditioner broke within a week, the main line of the plumbing backed up ....I was thinking ....oh here we go....the money pit for sure.

I hope things get better....one day at a time!

[Mamamo]

I will have to look into the inspection report.

I forgot to write in here yesterday. :|
I was down to 237 yesterday morning which was quite exciting!

I spent most of the day running back and forth to the toilet...and most of the water that I usually hold in my legs is gone...so when they say ketosis is a diuretic, they aren't kidding!

Today I am at 236.8 and I am tired...I am drinking all day and taking all of my vitamins...and I've spent the weekend napping and peeing and cooking and eating...*laugh*. I am glad I started close to the weekend and that I was not at work!

I am making chicken soup and chicken salad right now and some crystal light lemonade...and am getting ready for another nap...

I've also discovered the American Movie Classics (AMC) channel...Excellent channel!

[CarolinaRocker]

See......youre doing great already!

[Mamamo]

You are so nice Lisa...*pinches your cheeks*.

Okay. I am at 234.8 lbs. today. I only peed 20 times yesterday so I guess the water is mostly gone now. Yay! I can definitely see a difference in my legs where I always retain water...I can happily say there is very little left.

I am eating my chicken salad today and boy is it good!

I'm at work and it is extremely busy which is good in a way because I cannot think about food.

[Mamamo]

I am down another pound today. With all the water loss and the loss of 8 lbs. my knee brace no longer fits and was around my ankle when I walked the 8 blocks to work this morning. It was slightly annoying but a good reminder that I am going in the right direction weight wise.

We are supposed to get snow tonight and hopefully if it is gonna snow it will be a blizzard and I can stay home...None of this wussy one or two inch snow cover...I say...BRING IT!...

LOL..now watch my roof fall in!...bah...okay...going to get some work done.

[Mamamo]

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

I got a hard-cover copy of my favorite book that I asked for. I cannot wait to read it again.

We have a snow day today! Yay! I think I am heading back to bed for a while..'cuz I can..

I am stuck at the same weight...and I am going to learn from my past mistakes and not weigh myself everyday...

So I will not weigh in until Monday...

TOM will be around then and I am probably retaining water and getting myself upset over a natural bodily function...

Why...cuz I can...lol...PMS sucks...

*jumps back under the covers*

LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW

[Mamamo]

My scale is going in the wrong direction and I have not cheated once. I'm guessing this is water as TOM is going to rear its ugly head within the next few days. I will take a lesson from dieting in the past and not weigh myself everyday so I do not get discouraged. I will stay off of the scale until Monday morning.

I'm spending a quiet day at home straightening up and watching movies. I cannot walk on the icy sidewalks with this knee. I will wind up injuring myself even worse. I will try to get into work tomorrow. Hopefully, the ice will have melted some by then.

[Mamamo]

So I've made it through my first week on Atkins...and after the scale going back up again midweek...and having patience and not freaking out about it...the scale made its way back down.

I made it through the tensions...the boiler...the hotwater heater...the snowstorm and MRI results which were not so great.

Overeating cannot fix lifes little ups and downs and it certainly cannot help my knee heal.

I won't give in this time.

Oh, forgot to mention...down 7 lbs. the first week....(lol, it's the codeine)...

[Mamamo]

I am down 2 more lbs. today to 233. I guess a little patience pays off sometimes.

I am going to rest today. I don't feel well. I am really tired and I have the chills.

[Mamamo]

Wow so I guess I had a kind of whoosh...I am down 3 lbs. today to 230.

I slept 12 hrs. last night which I really needed.

TOM is heading in and I am super sleepy.

[Mamamo]

Paid holiday today so I don't even mind that it's Monday.

I have two doctor's appointments today.

Weight stayed the same, which I expected after losing so fast for a few days.

[Mamamo]

I am back from the orthopedic doctor. I will have to have surgery to remove the torn part of the meniscus and it looks like the date is set for 3/16. I would've gotten in earlier but there is a question as to whether I've developed an allergy to latex which needs to be addressed and the presurgical testing needed before the surgery. It sounds like a straightforward surgery. It is same day surgery. There is no cast. You either get a cane or a crutch. I am very happy with all of this since I was picturing a huge cast afterwards. So a few more weeks of being drugged up and limping and I will be almost as good as new.

[Mamamo]

My train was delayed this morning. I was late getting into work and I have a pile 5 inches deep of things that came in last week that I have to make up before this weeks pile comes in...lol...*pulls out hair*.

I had a minor mishap with some weight watchers chocolate pops last night...I don't know why. Hubby was kind enough to pick them up thinking he was doing something nice for me. I should have just thrown them away but I couldn't do that to him.

Hence I am afraid to get on the scale.

[Mamamo]

The train in front of mine derailed this morning and I got to work late. Blah!

Note to self: Maybe I am better off keeping sweet stuff out of the house altogether.

Someone noticed I had lost weight yesterday afternoon. That was a nice feeling.

[Mamamo]

A New Jersey Transit train derailed in Bergen County on Wednesday morning, according to NJ Transit. Three cars on the southbound train went off the tracks around 7:25 a.m. Wednesday morning as it was traveling from Waldwick to Hoboken, said NJ Transit spokesman Dan Stessel. Main and Bergen County Line service will operate on a modified schedule while crews work to make repairs to damage caused by this morning’s derailment. Repairs should be completed by about 5 p.m. Photo from WNBC-TV

[Mamamo]

I am doing well today. I slept well last night and can actually focus at work, which is a miracle on painkillers and there were no disasters on the way to work...YAY!

NJ Transit suspended 3 workers over the derailment yesterday for installing a switch improperly. What a mess it made. Besides having to bring a crane in to take out the derailed cars, there was a long stretch of the tracks that were simply ripped up and they were still working on it last night when we went home...I don't know about this morning 'cuz I was snoring...lol.

So I weigh in tomorrow..I am probably down the 12 lbs. I had lost which is not bad for the first two weeks. I can tell I am losing weight in my stomach because my clothes are fitting better and it is such a good feeling.

[TammyAnne]

Hey Lady, just wanted to let ya know I read your journal Hope things go well for you the rest of the week and the weekend. I noticed we started LCarbing around the same time....KUTGW!

[TammyAnne]

Just had to come back and say I noticed that we are both 41 yrs old too......
1965 babies

[Mamamo]

Awwww so sweet. Thank you Tammy and nice to meet you.
Yes 1965 babies rock the house...

Well I've been stuck all week after slipping up and eating a Weight Watchers chocolate pop...figures...and just goes to show I cannot lose eating their foods...

I also started the diet at a weird time when I was about to have TOM visit and I retain a lot of water so I am thinking the best thing for me to do would be to avoid the scale for 2 weeks out of every month so as not to discourag myself.

But it has been 2 weeks and I have not given up this time and I have lost 12 lbs. and I am happy with that. I can now zipper my winter coat without having to pull it up over my hips to zipper it and pull it back down...lol...so my tummy got smaller. A few people have noticed the weight loss and everyone is being so supportive.

I even have to forgive my husband for buying the chocolate pops because he really doesn't understand lowcarb...he sees me finding lowcarb stuff at the grocery store and how excited I get when I do...so when he saw sugar free he was so excited he thought he found something I could eat.

We are going to look for a newer car this weekend and to trade in our other car. We are looking at a black Ford Explorer. It is very nice and very shiny.
And I have to clean and organize this weekend and get paperwork together for taxes....

[Mamamo]

We got about 9 inches of snow again yesterday and I didn't make it to work. If I fall with this knee I will do even more damage to it so I am being extra careful.

We traded our old car in for a new car this weekend and bought a 2007 Ford Explorer (Eddie Bauer edition) in cherry red. It is beautiful.

I totally flubbed on my eating this weekend which has me down a bit. It is hard when there are temptations around and you are the only one doing lowcarb. I feel like my get up and go has got up and went today...but I am not giving up. I will start again and not weigh myself for 2 weeks.

[Mamamo]

I cannot believe tomorrow is March 1st...

[Mamamo]

I cannot believe today is March 1st...lol

[Mamamo]

Okay...I feel like a failure. My cheating started with those darn Girl Scout samoans and I haven't been doing lowcarb all week now. I am truly exhausted from all of the pain medication I am on and when I get home I don't even want to cook so it has been fast food for a few nights and my intestines did not like that...


I am nervous about the surgery and it is still 2 weeks away. I just want to get it over with...at this point.

I think I will think about dieting when the surgery and recovery are over with and I am not going to beat myself up about it. I cannot control everything as much as I would like to.

[Mamamo]

I am down in the dumps. Eleven days until surgery and it cannot get here fast enough. These painkillers are making me so tired, when I get home from work I literally go into bed. I've gotten nothing done in the house for a few weeks and looking at it is bugging the crap out of me, but when I get up and try to do it, I twist the wrong way and wind up in even more pain.

I am going to have to try to get into a diet again when I am home after the surgery.

In effect I feel useless and like a schmo...yes I made that word up...lol..

Gah back to work.

[Mamamo]

I am very busy at work. I think my boss finally got it through his head that I will be away for a bit and he is throwing things to be done at me continuously.

Ten more days 'til surgery...I think I got some comfort from thinking this to myself today.