My Journey to a better life!

titilayo_houseton · 01-24-2007, 05:38 AM

I never thought that i would have to start over again. I really thought that I had the control. I didn't realize that it was the low carb eating that gave me the control not to eat too much! I didn't realize that my hunger was not as great as before because of the low carbs. People were given me compliments left and right. I really thought I was cured of obesity. How wrong was I!! Once I begin to eat all the foods I was eating before and then some more I really picked up weight fast. I would like to blame it on the birthcontrol pills I start taken, but the truth is I stop exercising and start eating all the wrong food. IN no time i gaiined back 50 pounds..I was so mad at myself for gaining so much before i decided to control it. The good news is that I have begin back with the atkins diet and I truly feel like i get it this time around. I have not begin to work out yet, but I have been eating low carbs and staying away from fast food. Especially Popeye's chicken(the place I work.)LOL>>>It feels good to have my strength back. I still have a little weakness, but I can overcome that. I am not in a rush to lose weight. I want to focus on portion control. I also learned that I must keep certain foods from my diet..Or way of life. I will never eat again....cookies, cake, ice cream, candy, nor peanut buter. those are foods that trigger my over eating habits. I will refrain from fast foos restaurants unless it is something like subway or el pollo loco...which have healthy food I can eat that I truly love. i am happy that I am back to myself again. Being at 240 is not all great. Well this is my first post in my new journal. I will write in my journal each and every day so that I can continue to stay motivated.

titilayo_houseton · 01-25-2007, 03:08 AM

Today is a new day! Yesterday I was ready to give up and today I am back on track. I guess when I get hungry and can not find anything to snack on then I want to give up becauuse I feel like I can not do it. Well, my hubby had hidden my scale so I can no longer weigh myself until he lets me..LOL>>I guess the scale is one thing that also dicourages me if it doesn't move downward the way I want it too..I can not tell how if any weight i have lost in the last few days. I am hoping that it is a nice amount though. I need to cut diet soda, but right now I really need it to replace all the sweets I can not have. I really got use to binge eating. Eating whatever and how much I wanted not even given thought to how much weight I was gaining. I just saw the numbers go up and got even more depressed and stopped caring. But I realize I don't want to be stuck overweight just because my hubby doesn't care..or at least says he doesn't. THat is not an excuse to be overweight. since I have gained weight back I have noticed a change in people attitude when it comes to me. some people are more rude to me than before. The men that once glared at me just walk past me like I don't exist. I don't need the approval of other men to assure my sexiness, but I can just notice these lil things and I find to be funny that a person can not like the person on the inside..there is a lot of emphasis on weight and appearance...But I don't care because I am still going to be a great person no matter what size I am. People who are overweight need to be loved just like anybody else. Well...tioday is a world day..back at popeyes..LOL>>>I am doing really good with not touching the food. For some reason I don't really have any hunger for it. It is out of my system. That was the first thing I did..I stuck to my new years resoulution of not eating popeyes starting the 1st day of January. So I have not had it in 3 weeks. That was the best thing I cold do for myself because that was the first step into curving my cravings. Something has to be in that food that makes you want it so much. I mean it is good, but you actually crave it..LOL>>>well...I am not going to give it a chance to grab me again..LOL>>>I am on a mission. I am going to do this and this will be the last time. Once I have completed my journey then another one will begin..the journey if maintaining. I plan to add more veggies at first..like corn and carrots..then I will add beans..Not too much though. I want to learn to eat small portions of food. I will eat enough to get rid of hunger pains, but not enough to make myself stuffed..I will learn to feel full even if I am not. I will basically use my mind and put small meals together and not give myself seconds or thirds. I am on the road to recovery..I have to remind myself that I am no longer allowed to eat sugary foods like; coookies, cake, candy, ice cream, and etc...I would say low carb ice cream or cookies would be ok, but honestly those are triggers too..I tend to over eat them which equals the same amount of regualar cookies and ice cream..LOL>>I have tojust elave it all alone. Right now I accept that. Hopefully I can follow my plan in the future..I may have to just learn how to control my intake and have mabe like one serving of low carb ice cream and learn to call it a day...I will test myself and If I am unable to eat just one serivng then I will eliminate it all together..

titilayo_houseton · 04-25-2007, 01:58 AM

OK>>I tried the low calories thing for like two weeks, and it was going well..I was exercising every day and it felt wonderful. I had so much energy...almost too much..LOL, but it stopped the day I got my hair done. I don't know why. I used that as an excuse to quit. But monday was the day I decided to go back to Atkins. I mean I did it before and saw wonderful results. I just have to learn to eat more healthy so that I don't develop heart disease because atkins will have you eating a lot and still lose weight, but I want to control my portion sizes. I remember after being on atkins for so long I really didn't eat much after awhile. It was some type of control I had. I don't know, but I am hoping to get that back. I begin this week weighing in at 255 pounds and today I weigh 250.2. So in two days I have lost almost 5 pounds. that is wondeful in itself. I am hoping to continue to lose he weight and not give up again. I want to look nice, and not be fat anymore.

titilayo_houseton · 05-03-2007, 04:49 AM

well nine days later and I am weighing in at 247...I have lost 3.2 pounds in a weeks time. I am trying my hardest just not to eat all day long. I have come up with a new plan. Since I work I don't want to eat when I am at work. I am trying to eat small through the day and have my last meal be my biggest meal where I can feel satified and not hungry for the rest of the day. My days off are usually the hardest. But today it seems to be going well. I want to try to be more active..getting out the house more and more each day. Well. If I can keep this up for the rest of my life then I will be good. I don't know why it is so hard, but it is..I hope that it will become part of my life routine. I have noticed that if you get use to something and you like it then it will work. I like eating low carbs becaus I love meat. I just like to feel satisfied..Plus I notice when I am not overeating I feel better. I don't feel as sluggish..well..Im still wishiing myself luck.!

01-24-2007, 05:38 AM	#1
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	My Journey to a better life! I never thought that i would have to start over again. I really thought that I had the control. I didn't realize that it was the low carb eating that gave me the control not to eat too much! I didn't realize that my hunger was not as great as before because of the low carbs. People were given me compliments left and right. I really thought I was cured of obesity. How wrong was I!! Once I begin to eat all the foods I was eating before and then some more I really picked up weight fast. I would like to blame it on the birthcontrol pills I start taken, but the truth is I stop exercising and start eating all the wrong food. IN no time i gaiined back 50 pounds..I was so mad at myself for gaining so much before i decided to control it. The good news is that I have begin back with the atkins diet and I truly feel like i get it this time around. I have not begin to work out yet, but I have been eating low carbs and staying away from fast food. Especially Popeye's chicken(the place I work.)LOL>>>It feels good to have my strength back. I still have a little weakness, but I can overcome that. I am not in a rush to lose weight. I want to focus on portion control. I also learned that I must keep certain foods from my diet..Or way of life. I will never eat again....cookies, cake, ice cream, candy, nor peanut buter. those are foods that trigger my over eating habits. I will refrain from fast foos restaurants unless it is something like subway or el pollo loco...which have healthy food I can eat that I truly love. i am happy that I am back to myself again. Being at 240 is not all great. Well this is my first post in my new journal. I will write in my journal each and every day so that I can continue to stay motivated. __________________ Eating is an addiction for me, but one day at I time I will train myself to eat in-order to live and not live to eat!!!!!!

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01-25-2007, 03:08 AM	#2
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	Today is a new day! Yesterday I was ready to give up and today I am back on track. I guess when I get hungry and can not find anything to snack on then I want to give up becauuse I feel like I can not do it. Well, my hubby had hidden my scale so I can no longer weigh myself until he lets me..LOL>>I guess the scale is one thing that also dicourages me if it doesn't move downward the way I want it too..I can not tell how if any weight i have lost in the last few days. I am hoping that it is a nice amount though. I need to cut diet soda, but right now I really need it to replace all the sweets I can not have. I really got use to binge eating. Eating whatever and how much I wanted not even given thought to how much weight I was gaining. I just saw the numbers go up and got even more depressed and stopped caring. But I realize I don't want to be stuck overweight just because my hubby doesn't care..or at least says he doesn't. THat is not an excuse to be overweight. since I have gained weight back I have noticed a change in people attitude when it comes to me. some people are more rude to me than before. The men that once glared at me just walk past me like I don't exist. I don't need the approval of other men to assure my sexiness, but I can just notice these lil things and I find to be funny that a person can not like the person on the inside..there is a lot of emphasis on weight and appearance...But I don't care because I am still going to be a great person no matter what size I am. People who are overweight need to be loved just like anybody else. Well...tioday is a world day..back at popeyes..LOL>>>I am doing really good with not touching the food. For some reason I don't really have any hunger for it. It is out of my system. That was the first thing I did..I stuck to my new years resoulution of not eating popeyes starting the 1st day of January. So I have not had it in 3 weeks. That was the best thing I cold do for myself because that was the first step into curving my cravings. Something has to be in that food that makes you want it so much. I mean it is good, but you actually crave it..LOL>>>well...I am not going to give it a chance to grab me again..LOL>>>I am on a mission. I am going to do this and this will be the last time. Once I have completed my journey then another one will begin..the journey if maintaining. I plan to add more veggies at first..like corn and carrots..then I will add beans..Not too much though. I want to learn to eat small portions of food. I will eat enough to get rid of hunger pains, but not enough to make myself stuffed..I will learn to feel full even if I am not. I will basically use my mind and put small meals together and not give myself seconds or thirds. I am on the road to recovery..I have to remind myself that I am no longer allowed to eat sugary foods like; coookies, cake, candy, ice cream, and etc...I would say low carb ice cream or cookies would be ok, but honestly those are triggers too..I tend to over eat them which equals the same amount of regualar cookies and ice cream..LOL>>I have tojust elave it all alone. Right now I accept that. Hopefully I can follow my plan in the future..I may have to just learn how to control my intake and have mabe like one serving of low carb ice cream and learn to call it a day...I will test myself and If I am unable to eat just one serivng then I will eliminate it all together..

04-25-2007, 01:58 AM	#3
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	OK>>I tried the low calories thing for like two weeks, and it was going well..I was exercising every day and it felt wonderful. I had so much energy...almost too much..LOL, but it stopped the day I got my hair done. I don't know why. I used that as an excuse to quit. But monday was the day I decided to go back to Atkins. I mean I did it before and saw wonderful results. I just have to learn to eat more healthy so that I don't develop heart disease because atkins will have you eating a lot and still lose weight, but I want to control my portion sizes. I remember after being on atkins for so long I really didn't eat much after awhile. It was some type of control I had. I don't know, but I am hoping to get that back. I begin this week weighing in at 255 pounds and today I weigh 250.2. So in two days I have lost almost 5 pounds. that is wondeful in itself. I am hoping to continue to lose he weight and not give up again. I want to look nice, and not be fat anymore.

05-03-2007, 04:49 AM	#4
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	well nine days later and I am weighing in at 247...I have lost 3.2 pounds in a weeks time. I am trying my hardest just not to eat all day long. I have come up with a new plan. Since I work I don't want to eat when I am at work. I am trying to eat small through the day and have my last meal be my biggest meal where I can feel satified and not hungry for the rest of the day. My days off are usually the hardest. But today it seems to be going well. I want to try to be more active..getting out the house more and more each day. Well. If I can keep this up for the rest of my life then I will be good. I don't know why it is so hard, but it is..I hope that it will become part of my life routine. I have noticed that if you get use to something and you like it then it will work. I like eating low carbs becaus I love meat. I just like to feel satisfied..Plus I notice when I am not overeating I feel better. I don't feel as sluggish..well..Im still wishiing myself luck.!