janamonkey's journal

[janamonkey]

Helllllo everyone! I've been thinking about starting a journal, so here I am. I've written this before here, but I'll say my story again.

I'm 24, married, born and raised in Portland, OR. I grew up in a thin, fit, family, played sports all through adolescence, was average weight and height for my age. I stopped playing sports in high school and then realized that unlike my family, I ate to deal with stress and that would make me gain if I didn't excersize! I went through some rough times after high school (parents divorce, bad boyfriends, etc etc) and ended up weighing about 195. I didn't even realize how much I weighed until I was struggling to fit into size 14s. A friend and I took a road trip down to souther california and we decided to try Atkins together- she was much smaller than I but we did it together and both lost weight on our vacation- amazing! Over the next 4 months I lost 65 pounds, hovering between 135-140, the whole time staying around 30 carbs a day. Then, I got married. I mantained alright, gained some-- I stayed around 145-150 until this last fall/winter. My husband and I bought a house and moved, and honestly, that was one of the most stressfull times of my life. I got on the scale this last weekend and was shocked to see 166... I looked in the mirror and realized just how much I was starting to look like that fat girl I was. I should have realized it- all my 8's and 10's were moving to the back of the closet and I keep recycling the same outfits I could squeeze into lately..

Anyway, today is day three for me. I'm doing a modified Atkins- just more veggies but under 20 carbs a day. Oh, and some almonds. and this time I am going to add back carbs instead of turning to them when I'm at goal. I don't really feel any smaller yet but I do have more self confidence, to finally have control of the stress eating monster that's inside of me.

Anyway... that's me!

[janamonkey]

Finally, down one pound today! I know it's just a small amount but I am so happy to see the scale go the other way. I've been steadily gaining weight for the last month so it's so exciting to see that it's going THE OTHER WAY!! Yay! Also, my bigger pants are feeling looser today! I can't WAIT to get out of these size 12s- it's like a burden on my life.

[Samantha42]

Hey-- your trip when you lost weight with your friend sounds like such a great idea!! I wish I had a friend I could do that with !

I'm 23.... with similar stats, just wanted to pop in and wish you luck!! You can do this (obviously, you HAVE done this). So keep it up

[janamonkey]

hi there! thanks for the response

Today was an okay day, work is completely stressing me out. I am covering for someone on vacation and it is kind of like a living hell fitting all the work into one day. Then I come on here and waste time becuase I don't want to deal with it. I think I need to take a class on time management. Hm.

Good news, I'm down two more pounds today. That makes me feel good. Honestly, the thing with LC is the texture issue. Oh well, really it's a small price to pay.

My goals for the next week are--- and I know it's the middle of the week, but who cares??---

1. Drink more water
2. Eat a solid breakfast
3. Start some strength training.

[janamonkey]

Speaking of time management... I'm sitting at work with a pile of papers in front of me, while i'm online.

Today I was down another pound, hurray. I think I should stop weighing myself everyday though, I think I'm setting myself up for dissapointment. I feel like I'm kind of on a roll now with meal planning/eating. The hunger and cravings are gone, so that's fantastic. This morning I tried on my size 10's- I could button them up but they are not exactly wearable outside of the house. Yet.

[janamonkey]

So, no loss today. that's okay, no gain either. I am officially wearing size 10 pants today though!! Wooooo hoooooo!!!!

I'm excited, playing a gig tomorrow night with some good bands from here. I'm glad I am on the woe- I feel more confident, happy, etc. etc. Even though I still have the bulk of the weight to lose I still feel like I'm on my way there.

[janamonkey]

I just need to vent.

Work is driving me crazy. I can't do everything, and that is what is expected of me! And the printer won't print envelopes and I think I might kill the printer. I feel so overwhelmed today, I didnt' bring enough food so I am STARVING but will not cheat. I am going to a friends who lives close by and am going to eat some cheese and lay down on the couch and close my eyes... only 12 more minutes until 5. I am just worked out this week! Even my puppy who is here with me is asleep right now, I guess my stress transfered to her.
I'm going shopping with my sister today- who is perfectly sized and shaped. Stupid size 4! But I like to be around her so it should be okay. I will not by any new clothes though- not only do I not need them, I hope to not be able to fit into size 12s soon. I am wearing a 10 today but it is a big 10 and none of my other things this size fit anyway. So I can't count it as a size drop.
I need a nap!

[janamonkey]

So the show last night went well- tons of people there, I sang and played well, it was fun. I was out very late but I still loved it. It was at an italianish place, like a bar that has pasta, crepes, etc. I had the antipasta dish- I gave the bread to someone else and ate the cheeses and meats. There were some pickled asparagus, SO GOOD. Good thing there were only two, I think I could have eaten 20. I had some wine, to celebrate my sisters birthday. All in all yesterday I was under 25 carbs so I feel good about my decisions.

Also, small victory, I went to target and tried on a pair of pants I had tried on the week before and they fit! So I am losing inches! I didn't by them, they were too wide legged but I was soooo happy! Also, I got to buy a smaller bra. Thank GOD!

It's so sunny out today, it's fantastic. Also, it's one pm and I'm still in my PJs. A perfect day!

[janamonkey]

Not much update, still going strong, ran with a friend today which was great and used the lotion/tan stuff tonight because i am so pale I can't stand it. I hope I see a loss on the scale tomorrow, today I was at 163 and it is TOM so hopefully after this week it'll be 159!

The reason that's my mini goal is becuase that's the weight i was when I was wearing a solid 10. Even if I am not in a 10 all the way I will still be happy with seeing the 150's. It's been a while. (months! yikes.)

[janamonkey]

Today I am wearing another pair of size 10 pants! And they don't look painted on! I decided I will change my sig when the 12s are too big and the 10s all fit.

I am anxious anxious to lose weight. I was 162 this morning. I'm not sore from the run yesterday so I think I'll go again today.

[janamonkey]

Things have been going well- the C25K week 4 yesterday was tough! I finished it though! I've run three days in a row, I need a rest day today I think. I don't want to hurt myself. I weighed 160 this morning, I am going to wait and see if it shows up again tomorrow, then I will post it.

I'm getting tired of cooking dinner all the time, I wish dh would sometimes. But he can only cook pasta. Poor guy. What would he do w/o me?

[janamonkey]

So, my first two weeks are over! I lost 6 pounds, and that elusive 159 is still hiding his face! I am a little discouraged, but I figure that I am the only one who can change the number on the scale, so I just have to keep on keepin on.

I am running another week 4 run today- I am a little worried, becuase it was really hard last time. My friend who I run with is a bit further along then I am and has a faster pace towards the end. Overall, I am happy with my progress- I did week one and two, didnt' run for two weeks, then did week four. So, I hope that I can catch up. We are talking about running the Shamrock run here in Portland in march. It's a 5k and you get a cool tshirt. But right now, running 5 minutes at a time is doable, but hard. It's really cool to see progress though, when we started a minute was really hard

[janamonkey]

...ughh....

hangover. a few too many glasses of wine and I was SICK last night from it. Laying on the bathroom floor sick. I don't know why it all hit me so hard- previously I have drank three glasses of wine and just had a good night sleep but last night, ugh.

I don't feel sick to my stomach today, I just feel achey. I went for a run this afternoon and it was really hard. But I'm glad I did it anyway.

The scale was 160 today still. I didnt' expect a loss really, I just am glad I didn't gain.

I tried on all my clothes that are 10s and they all finally button up. THAT is encouraging.

[janamonkey]

So I changed the sig to be size 10- becuase that is where I am at! Some of my 12s still fit, loosly, but wearable, but all of my 10s zip and button! I went through every pair of pants, skirts and shorts yesterday. Yes!

I ran week 4 day 3 today of couch to 5 k. Basically, it was hard. I did it without walking but still it feels like my legs are going to explode. At this point, I think my endurance is raising faster than my leg muscles can carry me. According to the plan, I should be running 20 min straight by next week. What!? that's crazy talk.

I bough the shiritake noodles last week from a special asian store (which is AWESOME btw) and finally had the guts to try them tonight. I cooked up some chicken, chard, peppers, zuccini, celery and ginger in toasted sesame oil and then added them in and coated them with the oil. SO good! It was so good I felt like I was totally cheating. I don't know about using them w/ more italian type dishes. But maybe! The texture is kind of like al dente angel hair pasta.

My dh is working late tonight and I am bored and the dog is driving me crazy!

Weight was the same today but I noticed awesome leg muscle definition I have never seen before! If anything, this summer my legs will look HOT!

[janamonkey]

Today the scale was up but, i did work out really hard yesterday. And I've been doing good- laying off the LC booze and drinking water.

My scale is totally crazy. When the needle is at zero, it moves up and down. Which makes me think my weight might be a little unreliable... I want to get a new scale but then I think my weight will be higher. But according to my scale now I have lost 6 pounds in two weeks! I like that.

Today is an off running day so I am going to do some yoga/pilates and then clean the house.

AND LOST STARTS TONIGHT!

[janamonkey]

Woohoo! I met my mini goal today- 159 Also I am down a bra size, thank you God. I can't wait until I fit back into the 34B. That probably won't be until I'm at or under 140 though..

I did the w5d2 run today after work. Amaaazing! Ran for 8 minutes, walked 5, ran for 8. This coming from someone who could barely make it to the end of 60 seconds a month ago. My running pants are falling off my booty when I run too, so I get to get a size M! And I can button up the size 8s.... ha ha ha- not wear them out though. I look, shall I say, rediculously bad. But I can get them on!

Food stuff is okay- kind of bored of what i keep eating and want to try some grapefruit. I am really going to sit down and think it out before I add anything though, becuase I don't want to go overboard. I also have been wondering what my avg. daily calorie intake is... I eat basically the same thing every day so I should figure that out.

[janamonkey]

ergg

I bought a new (awesome digital) scale, and of course it says I'm heavier. Oh well. So, I am aiming for 159 again!

Food... need to go to the store. We had lamb tonight. OMG so good. SO good! I want to eat more even though I'm full. That good. I feel like I'm not losing fast enough although I have lost 7 pounds. And a pants size. I guess I am just so anxious to see the scale go down again.

My run was good today, 2.5 miles in 30 minutes, first and last 5 minutes walking. Not bad! I am proud of my running. I would have never thought it to be possible, honestly.

[Mrs.Johnson]

Originally Posted by janamonkey

ergg


My run was good today, 2.5 miles in 30 minutes, first and last 5 minutes walking. Not bad! I am proud of my running. I would have never thought it to be possible, honestly.

I love hearing anybody say that,, it gives me so much hope.

[janamonkey]

OH that's so good! You should have hope, when I started this, I was struggling to run out to the front door, no joke!

thanks for coming by my journal

[janamonkey]

sigh- not that great of a day. it looks like we're going to owe for taxes. I don't know how that happened, we've never had to pay before. It's kind of getting me down tonight. DH and I are fighting and I just don't want to DEAL with that right now. It's nothing major- maybe that's why I just can't handle that right now.

I was down two pounds today, woohoo! One more, I'll be in the 10lbs club I even wore a size medium shirt today and it looked good.

I'm ready for bed. and it's so early.

[janamonkey]

I am seriously unmotivated to DO anything right now... I have some laundry that needs folding that I just CAN'T seem to go downstairs and get. I have to though! I can fold it during AI. I swear, if I were skinny I would have tried out. I am a good singer ( and NOT delusional like a ton of people on that show ) anyway. I'm happy my 'stories' are on tonight (AI, Lost) and I can just fold and put away laundry and be happy and watch tv with dh and the puppy.

Today weight was the same, it was a rest day for running, but I FINALLY got a jacket that's not cotton for running (it rains all the time) from Nike Outlet- I don't know if they have them other places than Portland, becuase both Adidas and Nike have the headquarters here there are 2 of both stores. Anyway, I know a girl who works at the Nike outlet and I got the jacket for 12.99! Fantastic employee discount at work. AND it was a medium and it fits and I don't bulge out of it at all !
I am so tired of the 160's.. LET ME OUT!

[janamonkey]

Hm- same weight, measurments today. Also, I'm so sorry if you are reading this, I can't spell worth beans.

It's coming on one month on plan and I am SO close to 10 lbs. I really want it!

[janamonkey]

woohoo ! ran 25 minutes straight today!

[janamonkey]

ARRR weight is the same today! .. I'm getting frustrated. I feel fanstastic though.

[janamonkey]

Okay... coming clean... i had a bit too much to drink last night which lead to the dreaded chips and salsa eating. Booo! However I did have a good all legal breakfast and I am not letting it get me down, or giving me an excuse to eat anymore bad foods. I lent my scale to a friend so I don't know if I've gained or anything but that's probably a good thing.

I ran yesterday for 25 minutes... again pace was slower than I would like, but I did it! I went with some skinny and fit friends and they had to slow down for me and while I was red faced at the end of the run I swear they didn't even break a sweat. Gah! I am always red faced though.. very ruddy all the time.

Anyway, I am going to do the shamrock run on the 11th of march with them and another friend. You get a free shirt! And free food afterwards- probably NOT lc so I'll probably bring a snack or something.

The knee and shins are not hurting while running so that's great! I want to go everyday but I also don't want to hurt myself.

[janamonkey]

Well, back on track after the chips and salsa incident this weekend. No weight lost, just bouncing between 164 and 168 this week. Egh, I haven't lost any weight since the 9th.

[janamonkey]

So I started tracking my food on fitday... I'm thinking I eat too little, ranging between 12-1300 calories? I don't know.. it seems so confusing. I have never counted calories before, or cared. I am under 20 carbs a day. Heh. I never weighed myself the first go round so maybe I should just keep trying on the size 8 jeans and be happy with that.

Better news, I ran 2.75 miles in 28 minutes today. Fantastic! I like running a lot.

[Tylar_Connar]

WOW, sounds like you are doing AWESOME!!