Kiwi's Corner

kiwicherryprincess · 01-19-2007, 01:19 AM

Mission Statement

This is officially my first entry! Going on the good recommendations of my fellow weightloss adventurers, I have decided to journal my weightloss journey. Who knows! It might become a book!

Anywho, I'm going to start by declaring it my point to be doing this for all the right reasons! I have been overweight my whole life (with peaks and lows) and for that reason, was never able to form good relationships with people (particularly the opposite sex). I was the target of childhood evilness (as we should all know kids are not the innocent saints we like to think they are), and I can't recall it getting much better from there. Because of my insecurities, I often think a world of problems will be relieved from me if only I were thin....

But- I DON'T want to be doing this to make others like me more or make me feel more accepted, and I know there is still a part of me that thinks and feels this way. I'm not sure if it will ever go away. But I want to do this for me. I want to feel better about myself for myself, and I want to be the only person I please or disappoint with my successes or failures.

That is my weightloss Mission Statement, and I hope to live it through everyday to the end.

My goals are to:

Maintain a healthy diet
Cardio daily
Weight train daily
Participate in extra activities
Get involved in more group activities

I hope to report here daily to keep a log and hear encouragment from those who desire to drop in.
I am currently about ~156 lbs. (nighttime weight), and my goal is to lose 10 lbs. a month until I reach my goal weight of 103 lbs. (possibly more if I start looking too thin). That gives me an ETA of about 5 months which puts my target weight around June! Just in time for a tropical va-cay!

Root for me! I'm on my weigh!

pri17cess72 · 01-19-2007, 09:03 AM

Yeah Kiwi!! So glad you started a journal. You will really enjoy having it and then going back and reading your past posts as you begin to lose weight.

I havent heard from you in a few days and was beginning to wonder where you were.

I will be checking in on you to see how you are doing.

Have a great day!

By the way, we both have about the same amount of time to lose weight. This is good we can keep each other on track. I want to have my weight gone by the end of June. 10lbs a month is what I am striving for as well.

lovebaker · 01-19-2007, 09:27 AM

Yeah Kiwi, so happy you started a journal. Plus we have the same amout we want to lose too

You said something really important and that is feeling like everything will be better if you were just thin, and it sounds like you truly know that isnt true. I had once lose 100LBS (my highest weight being 267 and got down to 155) being that I am 5'9 that was perfect for me and I looked great, but I did it all for the wrong reasons, I starved myself, hated myself and couldnt understand why I still felt fat and so unhappy. Even though I was 155 and everyone around me would always tell me how great I looked I still saw that fat person. I ended up gaining 50LBS because I didnt lose the weight in a healthy way. Now I might be 50LBS bigger but I am happy with who I am on the inside, am thankful for my health and I know that as long as I keep that attitude this time when I hit goal It will just be a plus in my life.

It sounds like you are already on the right track and that is great

I will be here if you start to feel down and need a little tender kick in the butt

I will also be checking on you.

karrier · 01-19-2007, 10:56 AM

Hey Kiwi,
With a name like that do you just like the fruit or are you org. from NZ????

kiwicherryprincess · 01-19-2007, 11:44 AM

You guys are absolutely amazing! I didn't have a great night last night, and I was feeling totally down in the dumps this morning. When I logged online and saw your posts - just the fact that other people care!!! - it made me feel like there was so much to look forward to, I CAN do this!

I hope you know you can count on me to be a support for you too.

karrier, LOL I am not from New Zealand. I am sorry you could not find a local-buddy in me.

But I am here for you anyways. My nickname goes far back, from high school. I did have a boy in my math class who was from New Zealand though. You don't ever meet many people who are, so the accent was a nice change.

__________________________________________________ ____

Today:

Was feeling bad, now things are looking up!

I'm at 155, morning weight. I must say, I've only come back 2-3 pounds from induction (which I ended Sunday), and that's not so bad at all. Especially with the amount of sugar binging I've been doing this week, (a mixture of release from induction and good ol' TOM) I'm suprised I'm not back up to 165 lbs.! Anyhow, no more! I'm not going for the sugar anymore. I think the cravings are all out of my system. I can't exercise today because I've got lots of errands to do. Maybe tonight, I will have to see. But I have to get back in the swing of things soon. I don't like to be without exercising for too long! That can be just as habit forming.

lovebaker · 01-23-2007, 09:14 AM

Hey Kiwi, I havent seen you update your journal. How are you doing? I am sure your still on track and if your not I am here to kick your cyberspace butt

So I heard you got to meet Angela aka skinhealth over the weekend, she said some really nice things about you and now I am going to have to make a trip up there to meet you ladies. Hope to here from you soon and I just wanted you to know that I am looking in on you so dont forget to update your journal

pri17cess72 · 01-24-2007, 11:22 AM

Yeah Kiwi what is going on? No journal updates?
When do you receive your T-Tapp book?

Hi Lovebaker you have two people in common with me (Kiwi and Skinhealth so I thought I would say hi!

Have a great day everyone!

kiwicherryprincess · 01-30-2007, 01:52 PM

I am very, very bad. I have not been doing a good job at all about entries into my journal. But I can't be partly to blame for that. I am currently trying to fix another part of my life right now - the financial one. So I've been busy looking for work after about a year of living off savings while I was in school. (Still doing school but have more time for work now.) I hope to start doing better, documenting my stuff, working out, etc. after this chaos dies down. Esp. if I get this job I really really want, they have a gym on site and I could totally use it before, during, or after my shift. Gotta love that perk! Anyhow, I keep my fingers crossed it works out for me so I can start making progress in other areas!

My weight has been slowly creeping up, but I know I am completely to blame. I've been eating positively horrible lately, and I'm suprised, frankly, that I haven't gained more. So I guess in retrospect, I'm not doing so bad.

Last weigh in a couple days ago was 159 lbs. Can't remember at what point in the day that was though.

I might be going somewhere special this summer, and I'd love to have a special body to go with the special trip. So my goal is still to hit 10 lbs. a month until I reach my goal of 103 lbs. I am only 5'1, but I will be honest that that number is on the low end of my recommended weight scale. My goal may be adjusted depending on how I look and feel.

I'm looking at at least 5-6 months of dedication. If I start now, that puts me dead-smack in the center of summer. Do I have a choice? Nope! I have to do this!

Pushing on...

01-19-2007, 01:19 AM	#1
kiwicherryprincess Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: San Francisco, CA Posts: 126 Gallery: kiwicherryprincess Stats: 192/meter me!/103 : 5'1" WOE: Cal Watch / Reg Exercise Start Date: 03/05-12/05 ... 10/06-present	Kiwi's Corner Mission Statement This is officially my first entry! Going on the good recommendations of my fellow weightloss adventurers, I have decided to journal my weightloss journey. Who knows! It might become a book! Anywho, I'm going to start by declaring it my point to be doing this for all the right reasons! I have been overweight my whole life (with peaks and lows) and for that reason, was never able to form good relationships with people (particularly the opposite sex). I was the target of childhood evilness (as we should all know kids are not the innocent saints we like to think they are), and I can't recall it getting much better from there. Because of my insecurities, I often think a world of problems will be relieved from me if only I were thin.... But- I DON'T want to be doing this to make others like me more or make me feel more accepted, and I know there is still a part of me that thinks and feels this way. I'm not sure if it will ever go away. But I want to do this for me. I want to feel better about myself for myself, and I want to be the only person I please or disappoint with my successes or failures. That is my weightloss Mission Statement, and I hope to live it through everyday to the end. My goals are to: Maintain a healthy diet Cardio daily Weight train daily Participate in extra activities Get involved in more group activities I hope to report here daily to keep a log and hear encouragment from those who desire to drop in. I am currently about ~156 lbs. (nighttime weight), and my goal is to lose 10 lbs. a month until I reach my goal weight of 103 lbs. (possibly more if I start looking too thin). That gives me an ETA of about 5 months which puts my target weight around June! Just in time for a tropical va-cay! Root for me! I'm on my weigh!

01-19-2007, 09:03 AM	#2
pri17cess72 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: SF Bay Area CA Posts: 2,464 Blog Entries: 1 Gallery: pri17cess72 Stats: 187/xxx/130 5'5" WOE: Atkins Start Date: 01/01/2007 Re-Start 01/01/08	Yeah Kiwi!! So glad you started a journal. You will really enjoy having it and then going back and reading your past posts as you begin to lose weight. I havent heard from you in a few days and was beginning to wonder where you were. I will be checking in on you to see how you are doing. Have a great day! By the way, we both have about the same amount of time to lose weight. This is good we can keep each other on track. I want to have my weight gone by the end of June. 10lbs a month is what I am striving for as well. __________________ "A change from unhealthy habits to healthy habits will yield extraordinary results." 20lbs to lose/ 3 lost/ 17lbs to go

01-19-2007, 09:27 AM	#3
lovebaker Senior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Posts: 410 Gallery: lovebaker Stats: start 198/current 180/goal 150/ 5'9 WOE: Atkins Start Date: December 2006	Yeah Kiwi, so happy you started a journal. Plus we have the same amout we want to lose too You said something really important and that is feeling like everything will be better if you were just thin, and it sounds like you truly know that isnt true. I had once lose 100LBS (my highest weight being 267 and got down to 155) being that I am 5'9 that was perfect for me and I looked great, but I did it all for the wrong reasons, I starved myself, hated myself and couldnt understand why I still felt fat and so unhappy. Even though I was 155 and everyone around me would always tell me how great I looked I still saw that fat person. I ended up gaining 50LBS because I didnt lose the weight in a healthy way. Now I might be 50LBS bigger but I am happy with who I am on the inside, am thankful for my health and I know that as long as I keep that attitude this time when I hit goal It will just be a plus in my life. It sounds like you are already on the right track and that is great I will be here if you start to feel down and need a little tender kick in the butt I will also be checking on you. __________________ "Be the change you want to see in the world" (ghandi)

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01-19-2007, 10:56 AM	#4
karrier Senior LCF Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Havelock North New Zealand Posts: 106 Gallery: karrier Stats: 275/225/130 WOE: atkins Start Date: January 2007	Hey Kiwi, With a name like that do you just like the fruit or are you org. from NZ????

01-19-2007, 11:44 AM	#5
kiwicherryprincess Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: San Francisco, CA Posts: 126 Gallery: kiwicherryprincess Stats: 192/meter me!/103 : 5'1" WOE: Cal Watch / Reg Exercise Start Date: 03/05-12/05 ... 10/06-present	You guys are absolutely amazing! I didn't have a great night last night, and I was feeling totally down in the dumps this morning. When I logged online and saw your posts - just the fact that other people care!!! - it made me feel like there was so much to look forward to, I CAN do this! I hope you know you can count on me to be a support for you too. karrier, LOL I am not from New Zealand. I am sorry you could not find a local-buddy in me. But I am here for you anyways. My nickname goes far back, from high school. I did have a boy in my math class who was from New Zealand though. You don't ever meet many people who are, so the accent was a nice change. __________________________________________________ ____ Today: Was feeling bad, now things are looking up! I'm at 155, morning weight. I must say, I've only come back 2-3 pounds from induction (which I ended Sunday), and that's not so bad at all. Especially with the amount of sugar binging I've been doing this week, (a mixture of release from induction and good ol' TOM) I'm suprised I'm not back up to 165 lbs.! Anyhow, no more! I'm not going for the sugar anymore. I think the cravings are all out of my system. I can't exercise today because I've got lots of errands to do. Maybe tonight, I will have to see. But I have to get back in the swing of things soon. I don't like to be without exercising for too long! That can be just as habit forming.

01-23-2007, 09:14 AM	#6
lovebaker Senior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Posts: 410 Gallery: lovebaker Stats: start 198/current 180/goal 150/ 5'9 WOE: Atkins Start Date: December 2006	Hey Kiwi, I havent seen you update your journal. How are you doing? I am sure your still on track and if your not I am here to kick your cyberspace butt So I heard you got to meet Angela aka skinhealth over the weekend, she said some really nice things about you and now I am going to have to make a trip up there to meet you ladies. Hope to here from you soon and I just wanted you to know that I am looking in on you so dont forget to update your journal

01-24-2007, 11:22 AM	#7
pri17cess72 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: SF Bay Area CA Posts: 2,464 Blog Entries: 1 Gallery: pri17cess72 Stats: 187/xxx/130 5'5" WOE: Atkins Start Date: 01/01/2007 Re-Start 01/01/08	Yeah Kiwi what is going on? No journal updates? When do you receive your T-Tapp book? Hi Lovebaker you have two people in common with me (Kiwi and Skinhealth so I thought I would say hi! Have a great day everyone!

01-30-2007, 01:52 PM	#8
kiwicherryprincess Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: San Francisco, CA Posts: 126 Gallery: kiwicherryprincess Stats: 192/meter me!/103 : 5'1" WOE: Cal Watch / Reg Exercise Start Date: 03/05-12/05 ... 10/06-present	I am very, very bad. I have not been doing a good job at all about entries into my journal. But I can't be partly to blame for that. I am currently trying to fix another part of my life right now - the financial one. So I've been busy looking for work after about a year of living off savings while I was in school. (Still doing school* but have more time for work now.)* I hope to start doing better, documenting my stuff, working out, etc. after this chaos dies down. Esp. if I get this job I really really want, they have a gym on site and I could totally use it before, during, or after my shift. Gotta love that perk! Anyhow, I keep my fingers crossed it works out for me so I can start making progress in other areas! My weight has been slowly creeping up, but I know I am completely to blame. I've been eating positively horrible lately, and I'm suprised, frankly, that I haven't gained more. So I guess in retrospect, I'm not doing so bad. Last weigh in a couple days ago was 159 lbs. Can't remember at what point in the day that was though. I might be going somewhere special this summer, and I'd love to have a special body to go with the special trip. So my goal is still to hit 10 lbs. a month until I reach my goal of 103 lbs. I am only 5'1, but I will be honest that that number is on the low end of my recommended weight scale. My goal may be adjusted depending on how I look and feel. I'm looking at at least 5-6 months of dedication. If I start now, that puts me dead-smack in the center of summer. Do I have a choice? Nope! I have to do this! Pushing on...