A FLAB-U-LESS NEW ME

paganrn · 01-13-2007, 03:51 AM

Ok weight loss journal... today was a good day. Didn't have much of an appetite, didn't cheat. Ate some Frankenfoods...South Beach Meal Replacement Bar to be exact, but it was 4 am I am at work in someone elses home so cooking was not an option and the kids ate the turkey I was going to bring to eat.

Down almost 15 lbs.... fat pants a little looser, jeans not quite so tight...

My main worry is that by dieting and being open about it I will have a negative impact on my girls.

paganrn · 02-02-2007, 12:44 AM

20.5 lbs down My goal is 135. But that is BMI of 20 like low end of normal. I would be happy just to be bmi of 24 which is high normal. I guess i should figure out what that weight s/b.

The hardest thing about this woe is making sure that i m staying healthy. I think I put too much emphasis on fat, and feeling full. I have a whole bag of chix breasts in the freezer...I just need to cook them. Lazy. Melting some cheese and eating it like a cracker is just easier.

I am happy with the weight loss, and I know if I cut the fat out and add some exercise I could speed it up. but I am just so damn tired. 52-56 hours a week of night shifts just seems to suck the life out of me. plus dh makes me feel guity when I sleep in on my days off. Not on purpose but he does. I wish I could quit my pt job but the cash has come in quite handy lately. The older kids get the more their activities seem to cost.

Myabe I should set aside some money for summer clothes, or removing that loose skin that's gonna be on my belly. That kinda freaks me out. but flab vs skin, guess skin is better.

I do think that the forum is definately helping me stick with this. It's good to hear from other people dealing with some of the same issues.

I am not sure why I got fat in the first place. Genetics yep. Poor diet? Yep. soda yep. lack of activity yes, But the blame cannot be placed just on that

but there had to be something more than that. I think that with all the bs I had to deal with with my parents I learned to shove my feelings down, and numb them with food. I also think that both parents being alcoholics probably contributed to my food addiction. That is why if I open a bag of something I keep going until it is gone.

I still have difficulty expressing my feelings. I tend to hold them in, actually I sometimes force myself to, I am so afraid I will spew some horribly venemous comment out which can't be taken back, even though it is what I am feeling.
so I wash it down with food, and although this might help in the short term in the end I feel doubly worse. Don't know if I can change this. I have learned to circumvent some of the bad feelings with humor. but eventually I am gonna just have to get over it and open my mouth, and if people get upset with me, then I will just hve to learn to deal with that

paganrn · 02-03-2007, 01:01 AM

I am thinking about making my mini goal 24.9 bmi which is the upper level for not being fat. I figure it is about 165 lbs which is 25 lbs away. I am confident that I can do that by the end of March. Then I will give myself until the end of May to drop another 25 which should get me to 140 which I thinf is an acceptable weight.

01-13-2007, 03:51 AM	#1
paganrn Junior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 38 Gallery: paganrn Stats: 212/191.5/135 WOE: ATKINS Start Date: 1-2-7	A FLAB-U-LESS NEW ME Ok weight loss journal... today was a good day. Didn't have much of an appetite, didn't cheat. Ate some Frankenfoods...South Beach Meal Replacement Bar to be exact, but it was 4 am I am at work in someone elses home so cooking was not an option and the kids ate the turkey I was going to bring to eat. Down almost 15 lbs.... fat pants a little looser, jeans not quite so tight... My main worry is that by dieting and being open about it I will have a negative impact on my girls.

02-02-2007, 12:44 AM	#2
paganrn Junior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 38 Gallery: paganrn Stats: 212/191.5/135 WOE: ATKINS Start Date: 1-2-7	I am not a good journaler 20.5 lbs down My goal is 135. But that is BMI of 20 like low end of normal. I would be happy just to be bmi of 24 which is high normal. I guess i should figure out what that weight s/b. The hardest thing about this woe is making sure that i m staying healthy. I think I put too much emphasis on fat, and feeling full. I have a whole bag of chix breasts in the freezer...I just need to cook them. Lazy. Melting some cheese and eating it like a cracker is just easier. I am happy with the weight loss, and I know if I cut the fat out and add some exercise I could speed it up. but I am just so damn tired. 52-56 hours a week of night shifts just seems to suck the life out of me. plus dh makes me feel guity when I sleep in on my days off. Not on purpose but he does. I wish I could quit my pt job but the cash has come in quite handy lately. The older kids get the more their activities seem to cost. Myabe I should set aside some money for summer clothes, or removing that loose skin that's gonna be on my belly. That kinda freaks me out. but flab vs skin, guess skin is better. I do think that the forum is definately helping me stick with this. It's good to hear from other people dealing with some of the same issues. I am not sure why I got fat in the first place. Genetics yep. Poor diet? Yep. soda yep. lack of activity yes, But the blame cannot be placed just on that but there had to be something more than that. I think that with all the bs I had to deal with with my parents I learned to shove my feelings down, and numb them with food. I also think that both parents being alcoholics probably contributed to my food addiction. That is why if I open a bag of something I keep going until it is gone. I still have difficulty expressing my feelings. I tend to hold them in, actually I sometimes force myself to, I am so afraid I will spew some horribly venemous comment out which can't be taken back, even though it is what I am feeling. so I wash it down with food, and although this might help in the short term in the end I feel doubly worse. Don't know if I can change this. I have learned to circumvent some of the bad feelings with humor. but eventually I am gonna just have to get over it and open my mouth, and if people get upset with me, then I will just hve to learn to deal with that __________________ The good news is I only have 10 more lbs to lose. The bad news is I have to lose it 6 more times. D start weight 1-2-7 212 weight 2-2-7 191.5

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02-03-2007, 01:01 AM	#3
paganrn Junior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 38 Gallery: paganrn Stats: 212/191.5/135 WOE: ATKINS Start Date: 1-2-7	I am thinking about making my mini goal 24.9 bmi which is the upper level for not being fat. I figure it is about 165 lbs which is 25 lbs away. I am confident that I can do that by the end of March. Then I will give myself until the end of May to drop another 25 which should get me to 140 which I thinf is an acceptable weight.