Justice's Journal

[Justice]

Weight: 193.5

[COLOR="Purple"]So here we go. Never been much of a journaler but see this as a way to keep myself accountable in a user friendly environment.

Officially Started 12/15. Had a clean weekend which is no small thing since we had two Holiday Parties!

I plan to break my weight loss down into mini goals with rewards.

185-1/15/07: Massage

175-2/15/07: $200 new Clothes

165-3/15/07 Night away with DH

155-4/15/07 Massage and hair

145-5/15/07 $200 new clothes

135-6/15/07 Spa day and new swimsuit Hawaii outfit

[Justice]

Down 4 pounds in 5 days. I am pleased. More importantly, I feel great today!
No cravings and lots of energy. I am drinking tons of water. I feel like I am truly committed this time. How sad to have to say that! More on that later.

BBL off to have lunch with DH and DS.

[Justice]

I am going to post my daily menu to keep me accountable and look for trends.

B: Sweet eggs (two eggs, TB cream, 2 packets splenda)
S: Americano with 2TB cream, 2 packets splenda
L: Rotisserie chicken and coleslaw
S: 1 oz pepperjack cheese and coffee w/ cream and splenda
D: Taco beef with cheese, tomato, guacamole, sour cream
S: Lemon Jello fluff

I am a little concerned that the coffe will cause me to stall, but until it does,
I am not going to worry about it. It will be the first thing I cut out. It keeps me going through the day!

Last night when I logged back into this site for the first time in three years,
after spending several days lurking and getting into the plan, my old signature came up as 160/149/135. It really made me sad. So much of the last three years have been spent thinking about weight, trying to lose weight and yo-yoing around. Life is too short!

Today I am committing to not letting that happening again! This will become my WOL. It will taking planning, commitment, and occasional sacrifice but the rewards are huge. Healthy Mind, Healthy Body, and most of all Healthy self-image. I will be in control of my food choices. I will not let them control me.

This will happen for me, for my DS and my DH. I do not have the emotional energy to continue to be overweight and to not feel good about myself.

Things are changing physically and emotionally.

[Justice]

Well, no change in weight today. But still at 4 pounds lost in less then a week, so can't be disappointed.

Today we had a staff meeting at work and there were all sorts of delicious treats. Amazingly, I was not even tempted. I had a slice of cheese and was fine. That felt really good.

Menu Today:

B: Chicken Sausage & 1 TB sugar free syrup
S: Americano with sugar free vanilla, cream and splenda
L: Rotisserie Chicken and cole slaw
S: Coffee and cheese
D: Fajitas: Pork, cheese, onions, peppers, sour cream
S: Jello Fluff

I feel like eventually I am going to need to be more strict on how I eat but I want to eat as loosely as possible while still on plan. I will continue to do this as long as I am on track to meet my monthly goals. As the goal dates get closer, I will tighten things up as I need to. I went to eat in a way that can be a WOL. In the past of have used LC as a crash diet. I would eat extremely clean for about two weeks and then fall of the wagon. This time my focus is going to be on staying on plan 100% and eating extremely clean as needed.

Still secretly hoping for the 180s by Friday for DH and my night away; however, that seems unlikely unless the whoosh fairy pays a visit.

[Justice]

Ok Day 6 on plan. Out to dinner and drinks with girl friends and on plan other then alcohol! Feeling good. Hoping to be down tomorrow.

B: Sweet Eggs
S: Americano
L: Steak escape philly cheese steak incides of 6 inch
S: 1/2 cup coffee
D: Bnless cheddar bacon Burger, martini, red wine, a couple of soybeans

[Justice]

Well, I am little bummed scale is up today but I think it is probably the two drinks I had last night, which I am ok with since "girls night out" happens rarely.

This was my last weigh-in until Tuesday morning since we are going to our parents' house for Christmas. My goal is to weigh in on Tuesday at 189.5. I know that this is incredibly aggressive but...hey why not shot for the stars,right!?!?! I figure having that goal will make me eat very clean.

So here is to a great Holiday and 189.5 on Tuesday!

[Justice]

Wow! I can not believe that I actually lost 4.5 pounds over Christmas Weekend. This included my Birthday dinner on Saturday, a family Christmas Eve and Christmas Dinner. Each meal I at whatever meat was available and salad. I did not even touch anything not on plan. I did make one of Beach girl's cheesecakes for Dessert yesterday. It was hit with the family, all non-lowcarbers,and I think looking forward to have an on plan desert made the other desserts not even tempting. (Well ok not entirely true, but less tempting)

This weekend was a huge turning point for me. Before when I have used low carb as a "diet", a special event/weekend would come along and I would not only stop lowcarb but binge on carbs. I don't know how many Christmases I have come home feeling gross, bloated and disappointed in myself. This year I feel wonderful, healthy, lots of energy and in control.

I had a conversation with my mom over Christmas about making this eating plan a WOL and about how I think sugar really is a trigger food for me. She is a yoga instructor and is very slim; however, she has had her own issues with food in the past. Her biggest concern is that I will feel restricted which will not lead to long term success. After I talked with her about my plan, and adding back in healthy whole food carbs as I get closer to goal, she seemed really excited.

OK time to make breakfast as DS will be waking up soon. BBL to post menu.

[LovesDivine]

Woo hoo good for you!!! You are doing great!

I can totally relate to coming home from a family holiday dinner feeling bloated and tired. I noticed it big time Christmas Eve. I only ate ham and caesar salad and felt full but comfortable. About 30 minutes after dinner and dessert, everyone is sitting around looking tired and stuffed, and I was feeling just fine. I couldn't help myself, I made a point of pointing out to everyone that they were tired and ready for a nap after all the carby starchy sweet food, and me on the other hand, was playing catch with my fur baby! I got the rolled eyes but hey, they could not argue, proof was right there in front of their eyes!!

[Justice]

Thanks LT. It was a great Holiday! It was so nice to focus more on spending time with family then food. I am sad to say that has not always been the case for me.

Busy day today with Christmas returns and DS. I have today and tomorrow off so am try to get a lot done.

B: Sweet Eggs and coffee
S: Cheese and Pepperoni
L: Tuna, light mayo, tomato, avocado
S: Americano
D: chicken fajitas with sour cream and guacamole

[chloe2t]

Originally Posted by Justice

Thanks LT. It was a great Holiday! It was so nice to focus more on spending time with family then food. I am sad to say that has not always been the case for me.

Hi, I'm Chloe

I am gradually reading some from all the journals, just to get to know everyone a little.

this quote really popped out at me, it really speaks volumes, doesn't it?

I think it is terrific that you are there, and i hope to be there soon too.

nice to meet you

chloe

[Justice]

Nice to meet you Chloe. Good luck on your journey!

13 days on plan and I am down 10.5. I really almost can't believe it! One thing that I have be thinking about and preparing for the last few days is the scale slowing down. It has to right?!?! Of course it does. Anyways, part of making this a WOL is focusing on how I am feeling both physically and emotionally and not only on the scale number. With that said.......

I am only 1.5 pounds from my first goal and that means my first reward!

[Justice]

Well, I stepped on the scale today and could not believe it. 12 pounds lost in 15 days. Not to mention days that included my Birthday and Christams. I could not be more excited. I am going to schedule my first reward...a massage tomorrow!!!!

Plus that means I only need to los about 1.3 pounds a week to meet my next goal. I love this WOL.

Things have been crazy so I haven't been posting much. But will be around this weekend. Need to stay committed through a weekend filled with lots of parties....then things mellow out.

Off to watch movies with DH. (Who by the way is as excited as I am about my loss. I can't wait to give him back the body he married.!!! Well almost with a couple "love scars" from DS.)

[Justice]

I really can't believe it. If I didn't feel like I was losing weight I would almost think the scale was broken. TOM even showed up this morning.

Well I am off to make a big breakfast. Husband and friends watched a Bowl game at our house yesterday and made breakfast. There is left over bacon which we never have...yummy!

[Justice]

Well I am up a pound today, but TOM is here in full force so I am hoping for the post-TOM Woosh everyone talks about.

We're going to a party tonight where there will be lots of food. It is odd, I am not really worried about going off plan at all. This is so different then years past and parties past. I can't even identify why things are so different this time. I just know they are. (Something to explore in the new year, I guess.)

I have sausage and sourkraut cooking in the crockpot and will have a glass or two of merlot. Plus I know there will be veggie tray as well as meatballs. The meatballs I am sure will have some breadcrumbs in them so I will just sample those.

Most of all it feels great to be down 14 pounds and solidly into my plan instead of making yet another New Years's resolution to lose weight.

[Justice]

GRRRR! Up another .5 today. TOM is still hanging around so i am keeping my fingers crossed that the scale will start moving the other way. I am continuing to eat on plan. I just need to have confidence that this plan works. Of course it works. You have to love 12 pounds in 19 days! So here is to a low weigh in tomorrow!

[TexasKitKat]

Just wanted to say "hi" and KUTGW! As you can see, the plan works when we work the plan! So....how WAS that massage?

[Justice]

Hi TexasKitKat! It does work. I really think it is all about commitment and I am there. The massage was heaven! If I was super rich I would have a massage every day. Now I am aiming for 175 and a shopping trip!

So I am back down to 183.5 today. That was my low. Plus TOM is still hanging around so I am hoping that there will be even more loss in the next couple of days.

I need to go back to posting my menu. It keeps me a accountable. BBL to do that.

[SouthernBelleMama]

You've done a gr8 job so far on your weightloss journey. You'll be at goal before you know it having such a terrific attitude. I'm sure that massage was heaven. Just think less than 10 pounds to go before you get your 1st shopping trip. KUTGW !!! Have a gr8 Wednesday.

[Justice]

Thanks for the encouragement SouthernBelleMama! I just need to make this happen. I have such a blessed life.. fabulous DH, a DS that I could just eat up, great career and friends that are like family. Food/dieting has taken up so much of my energy the last few years and all I have done is run in circles. I just made a decision that as of 12/15 the only energy directed towards food was going to be positive life changing energy i.e. these boards, new on plan recipes etc.

This way of thinking was amazing over the Holidays, instead of focusing on food or when I was going to start my next diet, I focused on all the wonderful blessings in my life!

[Justice]

Still holding steady at 183.5 this morning. TOM has gone into hiding for another month and so I am hoping for a Woosh in the next couple of days.

Menu yesterday:

B: sweet eggs with 1 splenda and two TBS Davinici Syrup
S: Coffee Davinici Syrup, half and half and two splenda
L: Egg salad with mayo and mustard
S: Coffee with Davinic Syrup and 1 splenda splenda
D: Chicken chop Salad, glass with wine and coffee with 2 splenda and cream
S: TBS cream cheese, TBS Peanut butter and 1 splenda

AHHHH! I had 7 splenda packets yesterday......I am going to cut that down to no more the 4 a day and see what happens.

Well we are off to the beach tomorrow with a group of friends. Going shopping tonight to get all on plan foods. It is going to be so much fun!
Saturday night we are making crab which I absolutely love. I cannot wait.

Well off to get ready for work. BBL to post my menu.

[Justice]

Back to post my menu for the day:

B: Chicken Sausage
S: Coffee with two splenda
L: Mediterranean Chicken Salad at Nordstrom Café
S: half cup of coffee 1 splenda
D: hamburger patty with cheese sugar free BBQ and Mayo
S: 2 glass red wine (Opps...but Comedy Thursday...what can you do)

Ok...here is hoping to see 182 tomorrow!

[Justice]

YEY!!! The scale jumped down to 181.5. I think the extra weight was from TOM. Good info for next month because it sure is frustrating.

Well, this afternoon we are off to the beach for the weekend. It is tough because it is with our dinner group. We make lots of good food! So, I am bringing lots of on plan food and we are making crab and garlic butter tomorrow for dinner. Looking forward to that!

BBL to post my menu!

[Justice]

Back up today at 183. This is not hugely suprising as I drank too much coffee and too much wine over the weekend. I am sure my carbs were closer to about 40 per day then 20. I also had one chocoloate chip cookie on Sauturday night. GRRRR. My defenses were down from the wine.

Overall though it was a wonderful weekend and this is a journey. Forr the most part I stayed on plan and gosh was there a lot of crap that I could have eaten. So a 1.5 gain as a result of fabulous weekend away with family and friends is ok with me.

BBL to poast menu.

[Justice]

Back to post my menu as promised.

B: sweet eggs with tbsp Butter
S: Coffee cream and 2 splenda
L: Grilled chicken, salad with blue cheese, hazelnuts and onion
S: Coffee w/ cream and 1 splenda
D: Parmesan crusted Talipia and green salad with shrimp
S: 1 ounce cream cheese sweetened with 1 TSP sugar free instant pudding mix

[Justice]

Well down to 182.5 today. Still not at my low but moving that way. Hope to see it tomorrow. Exhausted today as it was a long day at work and DS was up a lot of the night last night.

Today's Meu:

B: 2 strips bacon, one egg
S: Caramel coffee
L: turkey soup (Turkey, chicken broth, onions)
S: Green tea, half splenda packet, and 14 almonds
D: Pork chop and Linda Sue's Faux mash potatoes with sprinkle of cheddar
S: 1 ounces cream cheese, TBS Peanutbutter, splenda packet

Well I am getting pretty close to a month on plan and would love to see the 170s by the 15th! Think I will make that a mini-mini goal.

[Justice]

Down .5 this morning. So...it has taken me a week to start losing again after my beach weekend. I think I am ok with this. While it is frustrating to lose a whole week of loss, I didn't return to old patterns, which in the past meant totally going off plan on the weekend and then getting frustrated.....and then who knows......Well can we say five years of gaining. Instead, I enjoyed my weekend, stayed mostly on plan and got clean on Sunday morning.

Ultimately this is my goal as I move through my weight loss and maintenance. To learn moderation and not live in the extreme. Low Carb will be my WOL. I feel better, look better and I truly believe it is better for my body BUT an occasional piece of cake or an occasional piece of French bread will pass my lips. Not often, not as part of our diet at home...but to say NEVER is a trigger for me. I know this.

I know this my be contraversial...but this is my journal so here goes. I see so many people on this board who have the extreme view that sugar is a trigger food for them that they can never have. I believe this is true for some people in the extreme and many people to a certain extent. However, I also think that extremeness can be a trigger for many people. It certainly is for me. As I take this journey, I do it being aware that I many have some temporary set backs as a part of this "moderation" approach. However, if having extra wine, one piece of sweet Brie and a chocolate chip cookie on a special weekend keep me in a good place mentally then to me...it is worth it.

I know this is not something that can work for everyone. But part of the journey is learning about ourselves.

Well here is to seeing the 170's soon and to a month on plan tomorrow!

[Justice]

Welll, it has been a while since I have posted but I have been on plan. Life has just been really crazy busy. That is one of the things that a love about this WOL. Not matter how crazy life gets it is possible to stay on plan....maybe not as clean as you would like or as ideally balanced as one should be, but on plan none the less.

By crazy, I mostly mean being a working mom with the a six month old...in addition to being a wife, friend, daughter, homemaker etc. I know there are so many women out there who do this only a daily basis and my admiration continues to grow for those who are able to do it for a life time. I just don't know if that is me. AND right now we only have one little munchkin. Who I may add is the most delicious thing in the world....
and who is starting to wake up in his crib.....

BBL to finish my thought and post menu...something I want to committ to on a daily basis.

[Justice]

Well DS is down for a nap...so back to finish my thoughts.

Today I am starting the couch to 5k running program and am very excited about it. I have run in the past, many 5ks, 10ks and a half marathon, but always while eating a high carb diet. I am slightly worried about starting a running program while still in the weight loss phase of Atkins. I need to remember that my goal is weight loss for the time being and that as I get closer to goal and move to pre-maintenance I can work on finding the appropriate CCL to fuel my optimal runs. For now I just need to get out there and get active.

Todays Menu:

B: Sweet Eggs, Coffee with cream and splenda
L: Salmon patty with LC tarter sauce
D: Taco salad with cheese, sour cream and guac