Luv2Knit's Journal

[Luv2Knit]

Day 11 is where I'm at. So far a 5 lb loss and feeling well. Sure wish I was half-way to goal and seeing a loss, but I know it takes me about 20 lbs before I notice a change in appearance. Training my focus to be about health and well being, as that is a very big issue as I work through my grief.

Yesterday, I drove out of state to be with my sis as she was scheduled for surgery. Packed 3 boiled eggs and large slice of fried ham. The poor girl waited on the gurney for 4.5 hours before the Doc got to her and she had a successful surgery! Mom, Dad, BIL and I were with her...she's been such a blessing to me this past year and feel a closeness to her that have never before felt. I love her.

The old me would have eaten fast food and probably chocolate at the hospital. I didn't even think of it until now (was there 6 hours). I love ketosis and the elimination of cravings. Just always wondering if I'm gagging anyone with my breath

I'm rack roasting a turkey right now. Covered it in olive oil, garlic powder, tyme and parsley. It's been in 2 hours and starting to aromatize the house. Life is good!

Going to Walmart to get pecan halves, cucumbers, eggs and a variety of cheese. I've been on a cucumber/italian dressing/sour cream kick. That's been my mainstay veg along with a cooked meat. I eat 3 to 4 fried eggs with my coffee in the morning. For lunch I've been eating meat from the night before with a cucumber and supper has been a simple stir-fry (peppers/onions) or just meat with sf jello/mayo/few pecans/little coolwhip, or jicama. I'm not getting into the salad like I usually do. I like the crispy cucumber better right now. Oh, and having the standby's: brocolli/cauliflower.

I'm going to get the rest of the Christmas decorations out...the ones I bought after Christmas 2 years ago and never put up last year, as DS's death was too hard to deal with. Thank you God for sparing DD and other DS...it could be worse.

Thank you for this board and the compassion of others who's walking this path with me.

[Luv2Knit]

I was going to garage sales in August 1999 and saw an attractive/fit woman folding clothes at my friend Bev's house. Bev and I were room mother's for our kindergarten girls. I went over to her thinking she was Bev's sister and discovered it was Bev...80 lbs lighter!

She told me about Protein Power and how to order the program. I did and by Halloween I had lost 40 lbs...half way to goal. I remember Halloween night eating 2 snack size snickers after faithfully following the program for 2.5 months and having such great success, one little reward wouldn't hurt (I hate that dreadful voice)...what a dumb choice. It caused a stall that I couldn't break because I started to "tweak" after that point and started using lc products (shakes, bars, bread, tortillas) that were just as bad for me. I maintained the loss throughout 2000 and started gaining the weight back in the spring of 2001. We had a job change, a relocation, house sale and house search a distance from our town. I quit the program and have tried SB, Atkins & PP again & again (always tweaking of course)...finally telling myself I'm just fat and will live with it...how lazy!

Fast forward...Aug. 2005 my 18 yr old son was killed tragically in a car wreck and my 14 yr old daughter was life-flighted to a trama hospital in a neighboring state. Luckily, my 16 yr old son was not with them. I quit eating and got very depressed and in a fog of sorts. I've never had such devastation in my life.

By January, I knew I had to get out of the house and excersize. I joined Curves and lost another 8 lbs for a grand total of 20, still without my normal gusto for food. During Easter we took our kids to Mexico to try to liven up our spirits and also because we know our time here is short and we wanted to give them their first airplane ride and first trip out of the US and just reconnect in a positive way. Also, go somewhere we could find peace. Well it was hard on all of us. We missed DS and had more time to reflect about him...quiet peaceful time...but very sad. I was told by my DH that when we got back I had better see a doctor.

So I started an anti-depressant and am under my doc's care. During the month of August, I also regained the 20 lb loss (snap, like that) and was back up to my high 220. I do feel a lot better now. Anxiety is gone and the dark cloud doesn't follow me every where I go. Oh...i'm also starting an early menopause...I'm 39.

So what are my thoughts about the rest of my WOL? I want to have control over something in my life (in this out of control world). It's got to be food and faith. I don't want to obsess over either aspect, but to do what's right for my body and spirit.

A simple eating plan is what I started 11/21/06...yes 2 days before Thanksgiving. The voice said...just wait til Friday and I said BS...now or never. I ate beautiful fresh turkey, olives, cheese, relish vegies, and SF punch. I enjoyed not feeling the glutony those around me were complaining about. I'm down 5 lbs too. It seems a lot slower to me, probably the yo-yo effect, and other issues Dr. A explains in his book...but it's coming off.

I'm not setting any goal dates and am unsure of my desired final weight. My most important goal is 1 meal at a time. I know exactly what I can't eat because of my carboholism addition...so there won't be any REWARD MEALS or JUST ONE BITES or I DESERVE ITS! and especially... "YOU CAN START AGAIN TOMORROW" that's a crock of BS if I ever heard it.

And what am I doing for my spirit? First and formost...I am assured that my son has the victory over death because of his faith and being washed by the spirit. He's in glory not pain and that is a comfort. I read and hear the Gospel of Jesus Christ and focus on what he did for me and what it must be like for my son to be living with him. My time to reunite with him will come, but my time here with my other children is my priority.

[Luv2Knit]

It's a beautiful day here, sun's shining and none of that awful wind Wyoming is famous for. Went to service and sunday school. The music was good for my spirit. I'm eating higher fat today because it's Sunday and I'm around the fridge etc...trying a little preventive measures to keep the cravings in check.

3 fried eggs w/1 tbsp butter
1/2 c pecan halves
coffee/cream/splenda/cinnamon/real vanilla

Roasted turkey dipped in olive oil w/seasoning
sliced cucumber w/hm ranch
fried bacon pieces

Maybe hamberger patties for supper w/steamed brocolli

DH is sanding the living room floor...nasty job and a long process. Gonna change and help him out. Also started an afghan yesterday, so will enjoy a new challenge to keep my mind and hands busy.

[Luv2Knit]

Day 11 of induction. I've averaged a 2.5 lbs per week loss. I haven't added any excersize yet. My total fat that I would like to lose is 80 lbs. If I continue at this rate it will be around 32 weeks to reach goal...8 months. That would be July 21.

Feeling very satisfied nutritionally. No cravings, headaches, cramps, bloating or deprivation. Pants feel a little tiny bit looser. Have the worry that I will get discouraged and fail, I recognize that feeling. I weighed this morning and didn't see any change from yesterday...sure am an impatient person. Stay the course...the weight will come off. Atkins is proven science and so easy.

DD adopted a kitten from Humane S. He's adorable, luvy duvy and a real pistol. It's nice gettin lap luvins from him. He's got a real pleasant temperment.

Will be eating on the road today with DS. He's visiting a college for next year.

[Luv2Knit]

On plan all day...no cravings or temptations.

3 fried eggs
coffee/cream/splenda/cinnamon

1/2 cup pecan halves
3 boiled eggs
thick slice of ham

diet 7-up

Roasted turkey w skin
cucumber w/ranch dressing

TOM is starting now...so looking for a whoosh by Thursday or Friday.

[cdn_gal]

Just popping in, hope you dont mind....
Read through your journal so far, and just wanted to give you a
You are doing really well so far, and kudo's to you for starting 2 days before Thanksgiving!
Your menu's also sound incredibly tastey!!
KUTGW!!!

[Luv2Knit]

Thanks for the hug cdn_gal. I don't mind comments: rebukes or encouragement. We're all in this together.

It's easier for me to eat simple foods right now. Six years ago when I did Protein Power, I spent so much time working through recipes and trying to find substitutions. I think I let myself down with some of the outcomes (not a very good cook). I am interested in trying Linda Sue's recipes and congratulate her for working so hard and sharing them with so many. This is a down the road goal for me. I still have to keep it simple for a while.

Today:
ham/cheese omelet
coffee/cream/splenda/nutmeg
Roasted Turkey
cucumber w/ranch
hot tea
hamburger patties
steamed broccoli

Had such a great day with my DS yesterday. He's excited for college and even has an idea of what he wants to do. Took me a long time to figure that one out! He won't be too far from home and could come home on the weekends if he wants...hope he will.

[Luv2Knit]

The floor sanding is coming along...what a job! I decorated my kitchen for Christmas since the living room is getting a make over. Feeling hungry this morning. I think I'm the only one still working on the turkey from Saturday...it's getting tossed tonight. Shrimp sounds good and Albertson's is advertising all the choice meats now for Christmas. Payday's tomorrow...maybe I'll get us some lobster tails.

Been swamped at work...what a drain it can be...feeling like I want to lock myself in the house again. We're starting Advent tonight at church...so that will be good to have some fellowship, course soup suppers are starting too...gonna have to dodge that issue. I think I'm just going to tell anyone that may ask that I've got some food allergies and don't want an upset stomach. I remember how awful certain foks were when I told them I lc'd. I really don't want to hear it again.

My grandpa isn't well...talking about nursing home. He's falling down and very weak, poor grandma. They seemed so old at Thanksgiving and frail.

[Luv2Knit]

Made steak and shrimp...yummers. Also roasted cauliflower, it was ok. Probably won't try it again for a while.
Roasted turkey
coffee/splenda/cream
Roasted turkey
sharp cheddar
steak and shrimp
roasted cauliflower
pecan halves
sf jello w/cream cheese/celery/mayo - very good

[kmf1028]

Just dropping in to say hello and read your journal and you are such a strong women!!!!!! Your plan sounds great and you sound like you have it under control for now and you will do fine!!!!!

KUTGW and if you ever need a chat or should just let me know.

Kat

[Luv2Knit]

Woke up to a 1 pound loss

Had the craziest dream that my sister & I were trying to make our flight and were riding in a horse and cart. Got 1/2 way to the airport and she forgot her driver's license...and I forgot the itinerary/tickets at work...then got to work and I forgot my keys to unlock the door. Told myself to get out of bed...wasn't getting any rest I think it's a sign not to take any trips w/sis.

Got left over steak, fresh cucumbers and green peppers, eggs & cheese. Should have no problem eating today. My SIL doesn't have breast cancer, thank goodness.

[kmf1028]

WTG!!! on your loss!!!!! I knew you could do it!!!!!!

[Luv2Knit]

Kathy, thank you for your encouragement that means a lot. It's all about choices isn't it? I recognize you from other posts that you have left for people and appreciate you taking a moment to comment here.

[kmf1028]

[Luv2Knit]

Going to eat a hifat/protein diet today. I felt like snacking last night...which I haven't really felt before. I think it was the green peppers in my hamburger stirfry. I also had a radish/celery/ranch salad some pecans and not much protein. I really have to watch those carbs...even vegie carbs sometimes put me over.

eggs
mayo
coffee/cream/splenda/cinnamon
hamburger
cucumber/sour cream/italian
surf/turf (shrimp & steak)
radishes and green olives

My blouse is fitting much looser than the last time I wore it. The buttons on the bossom are staying closed when I pull my arms back...always the first to go...wish it was my tummy instead!

[kmf1028]

Great feeling on the clothes fitting better!!!!!! I hope you are having a great day as I know I am, busy but great....

for a loss for you soon

[Luv2Knit]

I started the couch to 5k running program this afternoon...rubbed a blister on my heel...ouch. It wasn't bad, actually enjoyed it. I know I can't lose this weight without excersize, those days are over.

Had a great night with my niece. Took her to the holiday stroll and watched the parade. I love it here, such a great community. Got a good start on my Christmas cards.

[Luv2Knit]

It was a good day. I stayed on plan w/o any trouble.

egg omelet w/cheese
coffee/splenda/coconut milk
eggs/pepperoni fried
steak
cucumbers/sour cream/red wine vinegar
2 cups peppermint tea/splenda

I'm looking forward to my c25k tomorrow. I will go after work and should be home by 5:45...not too late. I'm going to a carry-in luncheon tomorrow and hope to be strong. I'm sure I'll find all kinds of sweets...challenge to find lc.

[kmf1028]

Glad you are doing great!!!! and I so understand about the exercise thing, I am going to start adding in my TM today!!!!!!!!! My goal is to get on there a minimum of 45 minutes a day and if I can stay on longer than I will.....

Hope you have a great day and KUTGW!!!!!!! I know you can do it.....

[Luv2Knit]

I've really got to watch my carbs. I've been reading DANDR and seeing that I'm making some mistakes. Picked up some keto sticks last night also and vitamins.

I really burned out on salads, so I've been eating cucumbers and radishes. Picked up some sauerkraut and canned pumpkin and will need to be real careful measuring. I'm also checking the labels on the "sugar free" stuff...and have noticed some of the stuff has "ose" in it...Dr. A says abvoid it.

Switched back to decaf singles/1 TBSP cream/1 Packet splenda=2 carbs/1 c. I get carried away with the cream...no pop either!

[Luv2Knit]

Out of ketosis...too many carbs this week. I wasn't watching my food measurements and being real lazy about it. I felt the water retention, headache and stiffness...WOW!!! Why do I do it? I also have an issue with my left shoulder when I eat carbs...honest to God it feels like something leaks out of the joint into my muscle...sounds crazy I know, but it is carb related.

I went to a luncheon at my friend's church and there was very decadent soups/deserts and I indulged and continued the next day at my own church soup supper....so now, 2 days later I am trying my darndest to get my ketosis back. So far...not happening...I did manage to get my induction headache back though! HOORAY FOR ME

[Luv2Knit]

Yeah...back in ketosis. Took a shopping trip today and ate at Famous Dave's. I ate on plan and have even been drinking decaf.

[Luv2Knit]

I have a terrible toothache. Every time I eat or drink anything hot or cold...wham!!! I'm torked because I see my dentist every 6 months like I should and had an old filling removed and filled...it's the one causing me trouble and has for 2 years and my dentist hears about it every time and does a little drilling/maintenance on it...but I'm really suffering now...Sunday and can't do a dang thing about it. Was up for a few hours last night using orajel and xtra strenth pain killer...lousy.

Bought living room furniture yesterday...finally found what I've been looking for, now have to wait a month for delivery...sheesh! Still working on the wood floor in the living room, should be done in a week...I hope!

Gonna make wings today and maybe a lc soup for the week. I hate to cook, so it will be a challenge...but need a little more variety, going to cook up some eggplant too...luv it in olive oil. Not into salad still, but radishes and cucumbers are still tasting fine.

The children are putting on their Christmas program this morning at church. It will be uplifting and I will finish reading Luke this afternoon...such a great story. Gonna get the tree done too. I still battle my depression and have a time doing some things. DH took me and our 2 children to a play last night, "the christmas story" Charles Dickens. It was great, such a production. Amazing that our little town has such talent. Still hard to see people because of DS's accident, but it's just me and time has helped. I have a fresh wreath for his grave and will put it there today.

[Luv2Knit]

Saw my dentist yesterday and he said he sees a tiny bit of discoloration in the root and gave me an antibiotic. He blocked out 2 hours in Feb for a root canal...joy! So, am hurting again today and being careful with food.

Still in ketosis (small) I'm working on it. Taking the antibiotic now and wondering what that might do. All the meds taste so sweet, they are probably all bound by cornstartch.

pepperoni
eggs
coffee/splenda
creamed spinach
2 chicken legs
probably fish or leftover chicken for supper w/cucumber
ham/c. cheese rollup w/green olives

[pudgy7]

Hi Luv2Knit, just wanted to stop in and say hi. I skimmed through your journal while I had some time this morning and wow, I have to say God Bless you and I was in tears when I read about your son and daughter's accident. I was blessed when I read this part "And what am I doing for my spirit? First and formost...I am assured that my son has the victory over death because of his faith and being washed by the spirit. He's in glory not pain and that is a comfort. I read and hear the Gospel of Jesus Christ and focus on what he did for me and what it must be like for my son to be living with him. My time to reunite with him will come, but my time here with my other children is my priority."
How wonderful to know he's with God. My prayers are with you and you stay strong. God Bless and Merry Christmas!

[Luv2Knit]

Originally Posted by pudgy7

...How wonderful to know he's with God. My prayers are with you and you stay strong. God Bless and Merry Christmas!

YES! thank you.

We're doing ok. The prayers are appreciated and a comfort. God Bless you to sister and a Merry Christmas to you too!