b_lou_who journey

b_lou_who · 11-21-2006, 02:21 PM

Promised myself after a week of induction I would start my blog.

Here I am. Started when my weight suddenly (who knows how suddenly, over a couple of weeks maybe, I wasn't getting on scales often) jumped up over 190 for the first time in my life. Actually, the last couple months was when it climbed into the 180s. So, almost twenty pound weight gain in a few months. Which is what I did five years ago, moving from low 130s to high 150s rapidly, then a climb into the 160s over a year or so, and then another rise over another couple years into 170s. Somehow, the 192 looking at me said HELLO FATTY like nothing else.

Just finished week one. I have dropped 9 pounds to 183, which still scares the padoody out of me. But positive action. (It is Thanksgiving in two days.) But another big incentive: I just saw a picture of myself taken this summer at about 171 and I look SO HUGE that I cannot believe it. I look nothing like I thought I looked. And I was exercising. Riding my bike across town every day, ab lounger, the works. Eating "light", what a load of poo. I feel so thin on the inside, and my outside now has no relation to my self image. Really don't want to adjust that in a bad way. I want ME back.
I had to go buy size 14W (stretch) and 16 pants, a few 1X tops just to get by. My arms are a full inch bigger around than they were the last time I measured this summer.
I am keeping a paper journal, and what I notice after only a week is that my sleep is improving

, my energy getting up is better

, and that my fat pants are still tight.

I just got rid of a lot of my old thin clothes not too long ago, because after 5 years it hardly seems like I would ever wear them again.
I don't want my husband or kids embarassed by me.

So...Today I am fasting (just water/green tea) and praying. I know I cannot keep going, and make the lifestyle changes I need to without God's help and strength.

b_lou_who · 11-27-2006, 12:33 PM

Well, I did a lowcarb holiday without incident, although I probably overate a bit on T-day. Felt excessively full. The boys call our stuffing 'Thanksgiving crack'.

Everything is gone except the cranberries (made two bags, only needed one) and the gallon of turkey soup. Made our post meal turkey enchiladas with lc tortillas, no one even noticed.
My weight jumped back up yesterday to 183. I should be starting my period any day now, so it must be pms symptom. Just drinking lots of water and tea today to combat the bloat. I was really hoping to break into the 170s this weekend, but hormones have killed that one. Big party coming up Friday. I will not binge. Even though someone thinks having cream puffs for dessert is a good idea. *I love the cream puff*

11-21-2006, 02:21 PM	#1
b_lou_who Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Idaho Posts: 421 Gallery: b_lou_who Stats: 199.6/156.6/140s by year-end WOE: Atkins...and Simeons (hcg)	b_lou_who journey Promised myself after a week of induction I would start my blog. Here I am. Started when my weight suddenly (who knows how suddenly, over a couple of weeks maybe, I wasn't getting on scales often) jumped up over 190 for the first time in my life. Actually, the last couple months was when it climbed into the 180s. So, almost twenty pound weight gain in a few months. Which is what I did five years ago, moving from low 130s to high 150s rapidly, then a climb into the 160s over a year or so, and then another rise over another couple years into 170s. Somehow, the 192 looking at me said HELLO FATTY like nothing else. Just finished week one. I have dropped 9 pounds to 183, which still scares the padoody out of me. But positive action. (It is Thanksgiving in two days.) But another big incentive: I just saw a picture of myself taken this summer at about 171 and I look SO HUGE that I cannot believe it. I look nothing like I thought I looked. And I was exercising. Riding my bike across town every day, ab lounger, the works. Eating "light", what a load of poo. I feel so thin on the inside, and my outside now has no relation to my self image. Really don't want to adjust that in a bad way. I want ME back. I had to go buy size 14W (stretch) and 16 pants, a few 1X tops just to get by. My arms are a full inch bigger around than they were the last time I measured this summer. I am keeping a paper journal, and what I notice after only a week is that my sleep is improving , my energy getting up is better , and that my fat pants are still tight. I just got rid of a lot of my old thin clothes not too long ago, because after 5 years it hardly seems like I would ever wear them again. I don't want my husband or kids embarassed by me. So...Today I am fasting (just water/green tea) and praying. I know I cannot keep going, and make the lifestyle changes I need to without God's help and strength. __________________ Live big and find someone to love today, especially yourself. Dr Simeons and Dr Atkins, exercising daily Last edited by b_lou_who : 11-21-2006 at 02:45 PM. Reason: add in

11-27-2006, 12:33 PM	#2
b_lou_who Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Idaho Posts: 421 Gallery: b_lou_who Stats: 199.6/156.6/140s by year-end WOE: Atkins...and Simeons (hcg)	Post Thanksgiving weekend Well, I did a lowcarb holiday without incident, although I probably overate a bit on T-day. Felt excessively full. The boys call our stuffing 'Thanksgiving crack'. Everything is gone except the cranberries (made two bags, only needed one) and the gallon of turkey soup. Made our post meal turkey enchiladas with lc tortillas, no one even noticed. My weight jumped back up yesterday to 183. I should be starting my period any day now, so it must be pms symptom. Just drinking lots of water and tea today to combat the bloat. I was really hoping to break into the 170s this weekend, but hormones have killed that one. Big party coming up Friday. I will not binge. Even though someone thinks having cream puffs for dessert is a good idea. I love the cream puff

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