Lucky's Trip!

[luckylychee]

This is my first weightloss blog entry. I'm actually not actively trying to lose weight at the moment. Thats because I'm six months pregnant with a little baby girl. For the first few months of my pregnancy I've been staying home and pigging out on everything under the sun, well that resulted in 20lb gain. It really woke me up so I've decided to go back my low carb woe.

I've always been a big girl. I started college at 180lbs. After three years I found myself at 243lbs. I so delusional about how I looked. I began low carbing after reading Dr.Atkins book, the weight started to drop and my self esteem began to rise.

I moved to LA when I was 23. Before that I went from a size 20 to a size 14. I would go on and off with low carbing. The biggest reason was because my best friend there was also overweight, and we both shared a passion for food. LA also offered sooo much delicious food! Finally one day I kicked my butt in shape and began low carbing and exercising again. Right around then I met a man and entered in a relationship. He was a pharmacist and also addicted to meth, I joined him, not fully understanding the harm of the drug. I immediately began to lose weight and lose control of my life. I was so skinny, and to the public, so attractive, that I fell in love with that lifestyle. It took one entire year for me to realize that I had sank so deep.

I quit meth cold turkey. I decided that I was better than the people around me who were doing it. I also began to gain weight. I was back to 180lb. I guess that's fair, since I didn't lose all my weight the right way last time. I went down to around 170lb from being strict with myself, never cheating. I met my husband, got married, and moved to Luxembourg for his work.

That's where I am today. I am a housewife, I am in a loving relationship. I am going to be a mother next March. I'm looking forward to the change and also intimidated at the same time.

My personal goal is to be as fit as possible during my pregnancy. I don't want to abide by the concept that I'm eating for two and that I can always lose weight after having the baby. I want to be fit for my daughter. I want to look like the picture in my signature again.

[luckylychee]

I ate fairly healthy yesterday. I made myself a grill cheese on wheat for lunch, and finished off another piece of whole wheat bread with some pate and leftover caviar. The bread pieces are a lot smaller than the normal ones.

For dinner I made tofu with veggies, scrambed two eggs on top, and hot sauce. It's my favorite fast food. I wanted to snack before bed, but I had a cup of hot decafe with cinnamon, and all my cravings went away.

I also did t-tapp basic workout plus. The hoe down really kicked my butt. I skin brushed afterwards. I'm looking forward to doing my t-tapp and then skin brushing now. I might go get a tape measurer later on today to track my progress.

[luckylychee]

Just checking in to add in my activities for the day.

Breakfast - plain yogurt with splenda and blue berries (yum)
Lunch - left over tofu and veggies
Dinner - probably more tofu and veggies (or some chicken)

snack - cottage cheese
I might cave in and eat some more yogurt before going to bed, it's too good to put down.

I did Basic Workout Plus today. Actually I practically did it twice. The puppy would not leave me alone when I'm exercising so I had to pause the dvd and put her in the other room. When I came back, I realized I had actually stopped the DVD, and could not for some reason fast forward to where I started. So I re-started when I almost finished. Hmm.. maybe that's why I'm so poofed!

Tomorrow I want to do basic workout plus and also step away the inches. Can't wait to brush my skin now and feel soft I can get!

[luckylychee]

I am spending Thanksgiving alone this year. Luxembourg doesn't celebrate Thanksgiving, so hubby is at work as usual. I ate a lil bad this morning. I had a twix ice cream bar. Later during the day I ate a lot better.

Yesterday I wasn't feeling well, and couldn't tapp. Today I managed to tapp after doing the dishes and cleaning up a little bit. It's only 15 minutes of workout, but I'm proud that I stepped through my barrier or excuses not to work out.

Dinner I will have some chicken with bean sprouts. Maybe some yogurt later on.

[luckylychee]

Yup last night I stuck to plan and ate healthy. I had chicken with bean sprouts for dinner. For snack I had a plain yogurt with splenda and blueberries. Unforutnately I'm out of yogurt now and I won't be going shopping till tomorrow. ugh I hope tonight I don't crave something sweet and end up messing up.

DH doesn't understand why I always like to grocery shop. If the house is stocked with food that's safe, then I won't wander into his stash of junk!

Today I had some left over stir fried cabbage & eggs for breakfast. For lunch he bought two ham sandwiches on whole wheat bread. I'm actually a bit impressed that he's eating whole wheat along with me even though he said he hates the taste. I guess in some subtle ways he does want to be healthier.

For dinner I will have some bok choi with tofu. I'm also making some steamed pork for DH, it's low carb so maybe I'll have some of that as well. We'll see!

As for exercise, not only did I do the bwo+, I continued onto SATI. I huffed and puffed my way through that. I am extremely proud of myself now. Next I get to enjoy a body scrub, and a niiiice long bath.

[luckylychee]

Well I'm proud to say that I did not let the day go by without t-tapping. I rested yesterday. Actually I kicked butt yesterday walking around shopping all day. While I was walking I paid attention to SATI instructions. I even told hubby about why I'm walking funny. It was a real calorie burner, walking and carrying the dog around in the rain.

We rewarded ourselves later with some pate and caviar. I'm glad rich food like these aren't off my menu.

This morning I cheated a little, okay a lot. But it was a conscious decision to and I don't regret it. DH and I had dimsum steamed at home. It's a chinese brunch consisting of yummy steamed buns with meat inside. I don't think I ate that much. I did my bwo+ later during the day and started doing lunges from instructional 2. I had lc burgers for dinner, and oranges.

I am going to start doing instructional 2 tomorrow. From the posts I've been reading it seems like a pretty challenging thing to do. I hope I'm able to go through it all without stopping. I think I will try to t-tapp in the morning. That way I feel good for the rest of the day.

That whole concept of endorphins coming from exercising is soooo true for me. Right now I'm trying to concentrate on my form so I can get maximum results. I will measure my progress in 3 more weeks. Also, since I'm pregnant I'm not going to be measuring the belly, just my upper arm and thigh.

My work is done for the day. Onto a niiiiiiiiice body brushing and a niiiiice long shower.

[luckylychee]

Woke up really really late today. DH picked up his suit himself, so I let myself sleep in. It was nice. The first thing I did this morning, after eating three clementines, was to pop in my t-tapp and challenge myself with instructions 2. I knew it was going to be a hard task. So far I've been proud of myself for just working out 15 minutes a day. Now I have to do a 45 minute workout without stopping!

So many times during the workout I told myself that even though I'm doing the moves now, there's no way I will be able to the next one coming up. I kept setting myself for failure so that when I do end up turning off the dvd prematurely, it wouldn't be such a surprise.

Well the surprise was that I actually finished the dvd. Even though it was really long! I was out of breath! I loved that Teresa allowed water breaks and boy did I drink my water! I looooved the arm workout and I'm glad the hoe downs is in the instructional 2 as well.

I am very pleased with myself.

For breakfast I think I will have a sausage egg sandwich on wheat toast.

[luckylychee]

I completed my 3rd day of instruction 2 today. I really want to be able to follow what it said on that website, so i can get my body prepped up for a boot camp.

Being pregnant doesn't make me want to slack off. I want to gain as little weight as possible. Well as long as if it's healthy.

Went to the doctor's for a checkup. It was such a nice change to have the biggest belly there. Usually when I'm in the waiting room, the women there always steal my thunder by looking bigger than me. The baby is very healthy, although we didn't get that much time during hte ultrasound. DH said he noticed that baby has a sharp chin just like he did when he was a baby.

Today I got a little intimidated looking at my body and wondering if i'll ever have that ideal body I always wanted. I guess the key is to be patient and believe that if I eat right and work out, that it will happen.

I'm worried that maybe I'm t-tapping wrong, that my form isn't perfect, and if htat's the case then i'm not going ot lose weight. But then again, the fact that I'm moving and committing myself to exercising is better than not moving, so at least i'm heading in the right direction.

[luckylychee]

I had an absolute horrible day. DH came home for lunch, I picked a fight with him over our dog's vet appt. I think it's the hormones because at the moment, it's not even a big deal.

I'm glad we found a nice kennel for our puppy to stay in while we visit UK for Christmas. I would love to take her along but DH's famiy wouldn't want a dog around I guess.

Anywhoo... I was so upset, I finished my whole wheat sandwhich, and ate DH's since he got too mad to finish his lunch and went back to work.
Later we went to Mcdonalds, i walked out with only my diet coke.

Also, all day long I have been telling myself that since I feel so lousy, that I was just going to skip the whole working out thing today. I know that in order to prep for my bootcamp I'm supposed to do instruction 2 of my t-tapp at least four days ina row, and today would have been the fourth. Finally I convinced myself to turn on my dvd player and did that loooong instruction2.
Afterwards it's too late to have a big dinner, so I ate some plain yogurt with liquid splenda.

I must say, I'm pretty proud of myself right now. I've eaten healthy, and I kept to my workout routine. I didn't let a bad day and being pregnant as an excuse for me to pig out and get lazy. I hope this attitude stays with me.

[luckylychee]

Checking in to report that I did my fifth straight day of instruction 2. I kept thinking during the workout that the goal this week was to do four days straight, and so technically if i stop the tape now it's not that like I failed. Then I started thinking about how proud I'd be of myself if i did finish, so guess wat, i finished, every last one of the exercises. er.. uh.. except the ones where I have to bend over and be all uncomfortable cause of my belly.

I don't have a big appetite today either. I had a bowl of full fat plain yogurt this morning. For lunch I made a sandwhich with two eggs and two pieces of sausage (they're big pieces of sausage), but couldn't finish the whole sandwich till around 5pm today. For dinner I'm having this crusted pork chop from Linda Sue's website and stir fried green beans.

I ran out of yogurt and didn't go shopping. I guess if I end up craving a snack later tonight I might just get me a grapefruit or a decafe coffee.

[luckylychee]

It's been a few days since I checked in, I almost couldn't find my journal!! I'm so glad everyone else on here is keeping up to date with their journal to health!

I was originally planning on doing a 14 day bootcamp with my t-tapp B/R. To be honest I wouldn't mind doing it either. I love the moves. But after Michelle's advice, I found out htat the info I had was a bit outdated. So bootcamp is normally 4 days. Well that's good for me. I am only one day away from finishing. After that I'll take two days off to let my muscles rest. I think it's getting harder for me to t-tapp each day. I'm not sure if it's because I'm going to my personal max, or because my belly is getting bigger. I get tired so much earlier on. I do my best each time though.

I made this awesome pork and turnip soup today. Don't have much appetite though. When DH gets home I'll steam an egg dish, make some rice for him, and that's our dinner.

Funny thing, I've been doing very well with my eating on maintenance level, cutting out sugar and carbs that's unhealthy for me and the baby, yet DH cannot stop eating! Last night he wanted me to put a pizza in the oven for him when he gets home. When he got back he saw that I had made myself some chicken breast with tomatoe sauce and cheese on top and squash on the side, he ate a whole chicken breast, and 3 quarters of his pizza, and then a huge slice of black forest cake, and later had a yogurt. I don't want him to gain too much sympathy pain!! I was done eating way before he was any way!

[luckylychee]

Wooo did I fall off the wagon!!!

Last time I checked in I was just getting ready to take 2 days off to rest from my 4 day bootcamp. I ended up taking 5 days instead, and eating everything in sight during that time.

The whole time I was feeling guilty, really guilty, but I just could NOT make myself want to workout again. I don't like that feeling at all.

Today I finally got my butt moving, and I completed my B/R. Tomorrow I will be doing my bwo+. I don't want to give myself another opportunity to mess up again.

[luckylychee]

It's been a while since I posted, but I didn't think I'd be at the last page. I'm going to try to not let that happen again.

Went to London with DH for chsistmas, spent a week at the in-laws and did some good shopping! The most prized product I came back with was the George Foreman grill. I absolutely LOOOOOOOVE it!! It's annoying as heck to clean but I love grilling salmon on it. I also bought some cute maternity clothes because up till now I've been in sweatpants, but I finally get to show off my belly!

I ate a lot of sweets during christmas. Everybody and their mother seem to want to give us a box of fancy chocolates this year. DH and I ate them all. I decided on the way to the airport coming home that I needed to do a low carb detox the minute we get home, well it didn't happen tha way when I found a krispee kreme at the airport! We bought a dozen. DH was wondering how the heck we'll finish all those donuts, it didn't even last past noon the next day! Then I continued to eat half healthy and half cheating. I wasn't exercising either.

Starting January 1st, Monday, I got my butt up and planned my low carb meals. I bought a lot of salmon, steak and chicken breast over the weekend. I also have been t-tapping. So far this week I've done two B/R, and one BWO+ on my day off. I plan on doing BWO+ tomorrow.

Two more months and I'm going to be a mommy!!!

[luckylychee]

OKay I'm back!!

Mia is healthy and the c section was very successful. I love her to death. It's still really annoying ot have to get up in the middle of the night, every night, but the minute I see her face, it all melts away and I can't wait to pick her up and hold her again. It's so cliche this mother instinct thing.

Weightloss.. none!!! Well almost none, I've only lost around 10lbs since my sugery. I mean the baby was 7lbs for god's sake. Everyone keeps telling me to be patient, that I might be bloated from all the IV they've put in me. But it's been two weeks now, you'd think my body would start dropping some weight. So far I've been eating very healthy. I would loooove to start t-tapping again, but I can't till my postnatal appt..in four weeks.

Here's wat I'm eating today:
Breakfast: giant (i mean really giant, i could wash my face in the bowl) size of soup made with homemade beef broth, a lot of lettuce, and two eggs)
Snack: this is my weakness, i have this diet chocolate wafer thingy, i'm not sure what the nutritional content is, but after i'm done with it i'm not buying any more, so many one or two wafers today
lunch: not sure..maybe some giant chunks of beef from teh fridge
snack: eggs
dinner: giant salad, lots of curried chicken wings, maybe a beef and vegetable soup.

I'm breastfeeding so I'm watching out to make sure i'm eating enough vegetables.

That, and I'm downing water like there's a fire inside. So far my efforts seem to be wasted, but I know this woe works so I'm going to keep plugging along!

[luckylychee]

Oh my I forgot to post yesterday. I ate on plan yesterday though. Actually, I tweaked things a bit. I was having a giant bowl of soup at night and then chunks of meat, which I think weighs me down the next morning. So last night for dinner I had a lot of pork, skipped the soup and had some full fat plain yogurt with splenda.

This morning i was down 1 kilo. That's a lot for my book. I now realize that even though i'm eating healthy, I still have to watch out for the sheer volume of food that I'm putting in my body. My mom is such an awesome cook it's hard to watch out for portions when she presents her dishes.

Today I had egg sandwiche (wrapped in fresh lettuce) with bacon for breakfast, lunch with pork with skin an fat all on it (yum) and dinner was beef curry soup and cabbage carrots pork stir fry. It was so good. Oh some time during the day I ate half a giant carton of plain full fat yogurt.

The only thing I have to complain about today is the lack of sleep I got. Mia has been needing my attention every few minutes or so to either feed or change her or to just hold her. She's breastfeeding really well now so it's worth it.

I'm hoping that tomorrow I will shed another kilo? I mean... maybe this is where the preggo weight starts melting off? i'm hoping!