Rebecca's Realization

fields6407 · 11-17-2006, 04:29 PM

I started LC on 10/16/06, after talking about it with a friend of mine at work. It was one of the few things in way of weight loss that I hadn't tried over the years. I am going to be righting in this journal as a way to not only motivate myself but be able to put my thoughts and feelings down on paper as I am an emotional eater. I am thinking that if I get my thoughts out I will be one more step in the right direction. In the month that I have been LC'ing I have had several ups and downs. Not only with the eating, but in life as well. In the past if I have problems at work, or home I have always tried to lean on food to help me feel better. I have always been a insecure person, and food has always been my friend when I wasn't sure anyone else was. June of this year I maxed out. I got to my heaviest weight ever. 224lbs. On my 5'5" frame that is not a pretty picture. I come from a family of larger people, and suffer from depression. These are things that are working against me in my struggle to be thin. Last month when I first came to this site I weighed 116lbs. I had gotten the first 8lbs off by using an appetite supressant that my doctor gave me. It didn't work for long. I have realized that I need to change my way of life in order to change the amount that I weigh. I just seem to struggle with that on a daily basis. I AM committed to getting this weight off. I will fall along the way, but I will just pick myself up and dust off and keep going. Yesterday I ate very badly, for a lot of reasons, but today, I am back on track. I know that just a short time ago I would have just given up totally and gone back to my old ways of stuffing my face to make me feel better. I am going to take the next 10days or so 1 day at a time marking my progress in here as I go, then begining 11/27/06 I am going to start induction all over again and give myself a fresh, clean start. I have got to become more physical and drink more water in addition to drinking more water. I am determined, and things will come with time. I will not give up.

fields6407 · 11-20-2006, 11:03 AM

Have been sick all weekend.

Only having water and Diet Sprite. Afraid to eat anything else. I have NO IDEA how people purge after meals. That is definately not the thing for me! One thing I have noticed, is that even though I have been sick, and can't eat, I still think about food.

That is an issue. Hard to eat low carb when sick, all I want to try is soda crackers and chicken noodle soup. Well only 1 more week, until I start my new induction. will be working on the water intake between now and then.

fields6407 · 11-21-2006, 02:13 PM

Well, back at the office. Have puked my way down to 205. Not interested in losing weight that way any more. Soup and Saltines not a way to live. Will probably be eating that way for a couple more days, since not 100% better yet. Getting my book tomorrow in order to read it over before I start a true induction on Monday. 205 would be a good number to sart at for that. Hopefully it won't go up for the holiday.

b_lou_who · 11-21-2006, 02:58 PM

Have a super Thanksgiving! You can do it!

fields6407 · 11-25-2006, 09:46 AM

Made it through Thanksgiving didn't do too good. Had pumpkin pie with the crust. Had a game night over at a friends, where I had some chips and salsa, and 2 sections of chicken quesadilla, and 2 lite beers. I didn't eat near as much as I usually would. I have found that carbs upset my stomach now. I got a new book Atkins for Life and still and on schedule to begin induction again on Monday. I will update my stats then with new begining numbers and a fresh start. My friend Marvin is doing really well with his way of eating and is ahead of his goals. Really motivates me to get going in the right direction again. Although 205 is the lowest I have been in along time. I know that in all diets I have tried in the last 4 years, I always stall out at 199. I really don't want to do that this time. That is not a healthy weight for me. I have set my goal for 125. But I know I look good at 145 and I would be very happy with that. Either way I have a long way to go.

fields6407 · 11-26-2006, 11:11 AM

Went to husbands families house yesterday. Had told them in the summer that when they saw me at the Holidays I will have lost some weight. So I have lost 20lbs since then, and all his sister has to say is "I thought you were going to be on a diet" That is very discouraging. 20lbs in 5 months isn't enough. How can I just wake up one day and be thin? I don't know. Sometimes I want to give up so bad, but I know I can't live the rest of my life being so unhealthy that I can barely walk around the block.

Marvin · 11-27-2006, 07:37 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by fields6407

So I have lost 20lbs since then, and all his sister has to say is "I thought you were going to be on a diet" That is very discouraging. 20lbs in 5 months isn't enough.

Ouch!

That hurts! Rebecca, I'm so sorry that your SIL was so rude and insensitive. Is this the one that is the dietician? She oughta know better......

Rebecca, remember that there is only one person you are losing this weight for. There will be lots of people who will not be supportive, there will be lots of people that won't care, there will be people that won't notice, there will be people that are threatened by it, there will be people who will try to sabotage you. When it all comes down to it, the only opinion that matters is yours.

Are you feeling better?
Are you clothes fitting a little better?
Can the walk around the block be done a little more easily?
Is the tape measure showing anything?
Do the blood sugar symptoms checklist in DANDR (the book) before you start and again after about 3 weeks. You will notice a difference.

You are a great person, Rebecca, and you matter.

We're pulling for you. You can do this. It doesn't mean it will be always easy....there will be hard times, but following the book will make it easier. We're here to help you.

fields6407 · 11-27-2006, 10:32 AM

Today I started induction over again. Changed my stats to begin fresh. 208 pounds today. Was reading over the induction section of the book, and going to try to stick with just "free foods". It will be hard, but I will be sticking with it this time. will be back later to record water intake, food diary, and exercise.

fields6407 · 11-28-2006, 01:50 PM

Yesterday went well

Menu:

B: 6 bacon
L: sm salad (no carb dressing)
4 bacon
D: browned hamburger
shredded cheese.

60oz water
1 1/2 mile walk.

No snack, no urge to cheat.

Today not doing too bad either.

fields6407 · 11-28-2006, 07:03 PM

Alright!!! End of day 2 and doing well. I added everything I ate and drank today into fitday, and it said I had 972 calories and 7 carbs all day. I didn't get in a walk today, but am hoping to do some situps before bed. Drank 80oz of water, that is great for me. Causes the sloshy belly though. Am hoping when I check at work tomarrow that I will be in ketosis. That makes me very motivated, because I know I am burning fat just thinking about food and since I do that a lot I should be really down by next Monday. I am going to try to stay off the scale till then. That will be hard, but if I see a huge drop that day it will be worth it.

fields6407 · 11-29-2006, 03:32 PM

Ketosis has arrived!! I am back on track and ketosis is here to prove it.

I am going to keep the scale going in the right direction no matter what it takes.

fields6407 · 11-30-2006, 09:53 AM

Couldn't avoid the scale this morning was down to 203.

fields6407 · 11-30-2006, 05:34 PM

Todays menu

B: 3 bacon
3 slices cheese
L: Grilled salmon
sm salad
D: Steak
Celery

Water 60oz
Exercise 15min pilates

Another good day!!!

fields6407 · 12-04-2006, 12:12 PM

Well, been on induction for one week, and got on the scale today. 203. that is 6 pounds for the week, but I am just kicking myself because it could have been soooo much better if I had done better this weekend. I fell down and had pizza and beer Friday night, because of some issues at home and poor planning. I am back on track now, and hope to have at least another 6pound loss this week. I am going to(try to) stick to induction until Christmas to get a good loss before increasing carb intake. This is very do-able, sometimes it seems like I just lose interest for a minute, and then have to pick it back up, instead of sticking with it straight though. Knowing I did okay, it good, but knowing I could have done better still eats at me. I should just be happy that the scale is going down, and not going up, but I want it to go down so much faster. It is up to me to make that happen. My friend and I have worked out a new exercise plan where we will meet at her house 3 evenings a week to work out together. That should really help us both lose, and make me feel stronger and more fit. Some day I would like to be able to jog, not just walk. I have never been able to do that. Closer to spring I am going to set a goal on when I should be jogging, not walking over our lunch hour. One day at a time.

fields6407 · 12-04-2006, 07:02 PM

Had a good day today, menu:

B: None
L: Grilled Salmon Oscar with steamed Veggies
D: Sm Steak

I am very full now, and no snacks.

20oz water
20min Pilates

fields6407 · 12-11-2006, 02:30 PM

Well, Today was supposed to be weigh day, but I didn't do it. I get so hung up on the number that if it isn't going the way I want, I fall off and do bad regardless if I am feeling better about myself or not. have not had the drive to make good choices the last few days. Tomorrow is a new day, and will be back to my new exercise program and making good choices again. Even though I have done bad recently, I am not going to change my goals, will just have to try to work harder. The exercise makes me feel good about myself, so will keep that up no matter what the scale says. I will only be weighing once every 2 weeks now. Hope that helps.

11-17-2006, 04:29 PM	#1
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Rebecca's Realization I started LC on 10/16/06, after talking about it with a friend of mine at work. It was one of the few things in way of weight loss that I hadn't tried over the years. I am going to be righting in this journal as a way to not only motivate myself but be able to put my thoughts and feelings down on paper as I am an emotional eater. I am thinking that if I get my thoughts out I will be one more step in the right direction. In the month that I have been LC'ing I have had several ups and downs. Not only with the eating, but in life as well. In the past if I have problems at work, or home I have always tried to lean on food to help me feel better. I have always been a insecure person, and food has always been my friend when I wasn't sure anyone else was. June of this year I maxed out. I got to my heaviest weight ever. 224lbs. On my 5'5" frame that is not a pretty picture. I come from a family of larger people, and suffer from depression. These are things that are working against me in my struggle to be thin. Last month when I first came to this site I weighed 116lbs. I had gotten the first 8lbs off by using an appetite supressant that my doctor gave me. It didn't work for long. I have realized that I need to change my way of life in order to change the amount that I weigh. I just seem to struggle with that on a daily basis. I AM committed to getting this weight off. I will fall along the way, but I will just pick myself up and dust off and keep going. Yesterday I ate very badly, for a lot of reasons, but today, I am back on track. I know that just a short time ago I would have just given up totally and gone back to my old ways of stuffing my face to make me feel better. I am going to take the next 10days or so 1 day at a time marking my progress in here as I go, then begining 11/27/06 I am going to start induction all over again and give myself a fresh, clean start. I have got to become more physical and drink more water in addition to drinking more water. I am determined, and things will come with time. I will not give up. __________________ Rebecca

11-27-2006, 10:32 AM	#8
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	New Day! Today I started induction over again. Changed my stats to begin fresh. 208 pounds today. Was reading over the induction section of the book, and going to try to stick with just "free foods". It will be hard, but I will be sticking with it this time. will be back later to record water intake, food diary, and exercise.

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11-20-2006, 11:03 AM	#2
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Have been sick all weekend. Only having water and Diet Sprite. Afraid to eat anything else. I have NO IDEA how people purge after meals. That is definately not the thing for me! One thing I have noticed, is that even though I have been sick, and can't eat, I still think about food. That is an issue. Hard to eat low carb when sick, all I want to try is soda crackers and chicken noodle soup. Well only 1 more week, until I start my new induction. will be working on the water intake between now and then.

11-21-2006, 02:13 PM	#3
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Well, back at the office. Have puked my way down to 205. Not interested in losing weight that way any more. Soup and Saltines not a way to live. Will probably be eating that way for a couple more days, since not 100% better yet. Getting my book tomorrow in order to read it over before I start a true induction on Monday. 205 would be a good number to sart at for that. Hopefully it won't go up for the holiday.

11-21-2006, 02:58 PM	#4
b_lou_who Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Idaho Posts: 421 Gallery: b_lou_who Stats: 199.6/156.6/140s by year-end WOE: Atkins...and Simeons (hcg)	Have a super Thanksgiving! You can do it!

11-25-2006, 09:46 AM	#5
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Made it through Thanksgiving didn't do too good. Had pumpkin pie with the crust. Had a game night over at a friends, where I had some chips and salsa, and 2 sections of chicken quesadilla, and 2 lite beers. I didn't eat near as much as I usually would. I have found that carbs upset my stomach now. I got a new book Atkins for Life and still and on schedule to begin induction again on Monday. I will update my stats then with new begining numbers and a fresh start. My friend Marvin is doing really well with his way of eating and is ahead of his goals. Really motivates me to get going in the right direction again. Although 205 is the lowest I have been in along time. I know that in all diets I have tried in the last 4 years, I always stall out at 199. I really don't want to do that this time. That is not a healthy weight for me. I have set my goal for 125. But I know I look good at 145 and I would be very happy with that. Either way I have a long way to go.

11-26-2006, 11:11 AM	#6
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Went to husbands families house yesterday. Had told them in the summer that when they saw me at the Holidays I will have lost some weight. So I have lost 20lbs since then, and all his sister has to say is "I thought you were going to be on a diet" That is very discouraging. 20lbs in 5 months isn't enough. How can I just wake up one day and be thin? I don't know. Sometimes I want to give up so bad, but I know I can't live the rest of my life being so unhealthy that I can barely walk around the block.

11-28-2006, 01:50 PM	#9
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Yesterday went well Menu: B: 6 bacon L: sm salad (no carb dressing) 4 bacon D: browned hamburger shredded cheese. 60oz water 1 1/2 mile walk. No snack, no urge to cheat. Today not doing too bad either.

11-28-2006, 07:03 PM	#10
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Alright!!! End of day 2 and doing well. I added everything I ate and drank today into fitday, and it said I had 972 calories and 7 carbs all day. I didn't get in a walk today, but am hoping to do some situps before bed. Drank 80oz of water, that is great for me. Causes the sloshy belly though. Am hoping when I check at work tomarrow that I will be in ketosis. That makes me very motivated, because I know I am burning fat just thinking about food and since I do that a lot I should be really down by next Monday. I am going to try to stay off the scale till then. That will be hard, but if I see a huge drop that day it will be worth it.

11-29-2006, 03:32 PM	#11
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Ketosis has arrived!! I am back on track and ketosis is here to prove it. I am going to keep the scale going in the right direction no matter what it takes.

11-30-2006, 09:53 AM	#12
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Couldn't avoid the scale this morning was down to 203.

11-30-2006, 05:34 PM	#13
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Todays menu B: 3 bacon 3 slices cheese L: Grilled salmon sm salad D: Steak Celery Water 60oz Exercise 15min pilates Another good day!!!

12-04-2006, 12:12 PM	#14
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Well, been on induction for one week, and got on the scale today. 203. that is 6 pounds for the week, but I am just kicking myself because it could have been soooo much better if I had done better this weekend. I fell down and had pizza and beer Friday night, because of some issues at home and poor planning. I am back on track now, and hope to have at least another 6pound loss this week. I am going to(try to) stick to induction until Christmas to get a good loss before increasing carb intake. This is very do-able, sometimes it seems like I just lose interest for a minute, and then have to pick it back up, instead of sticking with it straight though. Knowing I did okay, it good, but knowing I could have done better still eats at me. I should just be happy that the scale is going down, and not going up, but I want it to go down so much faster. It is up to me to make that happen. My friend and I have worked out a new exercise plan where we will meet at her house 3 evenings a week to work out together. That should really help us both lose, and make me feel stronger and more fit. Some day I would like to be able to jog, not just walk. I have never been able to do that. Closer to spring I am going to set a goal on when I should be jogging, not walking over our lunch hour. One day at a time.

12-04-2006, 07:02 PM	#15
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Had a good day today, menu: B: None L: Grilled Salmon Oscar with steamed Veggies D: Sm Steak I am very full now, and no snacks. 20oz water 20min Pilates

12-11-2006, 02:30 PM	#16
fields6407 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Davenport Iowa Posts: 114 Gallery: fields6407 Stats: 208/207/125 5'5" WOE: makin' it up as I go Start Date: 11/27/06 (again)	Well, Today was supposed to be weigh day, but I didn't do it. I get so hung up on the number that if it isn't going the way I want, I fall off and do bad regardless if I am feeling better about myself or not. have not had the drive to make good choices the last few days. Tomorrow is a new day, and will be back to my new exercise program and making good choices again. Even though I have done bad recently, I am not going to change my goals, will just have to try to work harder. The exercise makes me feel good about myself, so will keep that up no matter what the scale says. I will only be weighing once every 2 weeks now. Hope that helps.