QBU's trip to fit

[qbu]

Hey, Erin...yep...been busy lately. You're right...think the family would see it, but they still don't seem to get it.

The graduation party was fun. We're planning on getting the two boys together before he has to go off to college so my DS can see him. There's a park that's part way between where we both live, so I think that's where we'll probably go. I am glad that he has a good role model to look up to. He certainly idolizes his dad, but it's nice that he's got other positive role models too.

Fortunately, there weren't any large purchases at the music store. Just a lot of looking and oooohing and ahhhhhing by both DH and DS. DH is doing really good with the bass guitar lessons. He's working on the Red Hot Chili Peppers' version of "Higher Ground" and doing a great job with it. I can hear a big difference from when he started it to now and it's only been about a week or so. DS is doing really good too. He wants to play the same song as dad, but his teacher has him doing other things. DH may be joining a band too. His teacher is getting together a few people and they need a bass player so he asked DH to join...not too bad for only knowing him a few weeks.

Yesterday was our 22nd wedding anniversary. We went out to dinner at the Brazilian steakhouse that I absolutely love! We've been there so often, the owner knows us and knows what we want to order. The person who brings around the meats even remembers how I like mine cooked and if it's not done enough, will bring it back to the grill for a bit for me.

We were thinking of going to a movie, but there wasn't really anything that either of us wanted to see, so we opted not to go to one. Instead, we went to Best Buy and got a new printer for the new computer. Also got the things to do a wireless network with the other computers in the house. Our old one is being repaired. A friend was able to retrieve the documents that were on it. My biggest concern...my Atkins recipes...he got them! And he's going to repair it. It's going to cost about $100 total to fix and we'll have 2 good desktops and a laptop running in the house. I'm really glad. Since we've gotten the cable internet, DH has started using it again and if I want to use it, I need to wait. I'm not too patient when it comes to waiting. Plus, DS needs access to a computer, especially now that he's going into 4th grade. He'll have a lot more things that need to be done on the computer.

Oh, well, time to go and get started for the day. DH and I are planning on going to a local park that has a lot of waterfalls so I can take some pics. DS is at my mom's house, so it's a good day to go since DS would be bored walking around looking at waterfalls.

[qbu]

Well, today is going to be a "clean out DS's closet and see what still fits him". It's almost time to go back to school and I need to see what DS needs in the way of clothes, shoes, etc to go back to school this year. It's such a tough thing to do. What 10 yr old boy wants to stand there and try on clothes? Certainly not my son! Hopefully, it won't be so bad.

Tomorrow we have birthday party for my friend's DS. He's 5 and wants to go on a train ride. So our party is going to be going on a train ride and then her house for a pizza party. She's ordering me a salad instead of pizza. My friends are great with this WOL! She's the one that I've given all of my clothes to that have gotten too big and she's thrilled with all of them, especially now, since she's just gotten a new job. I'm so happy for her! It's really great that she got it. It's going to mean a lot more money coming in for them and it's doing something she loves.

Exercise has still been non-existent in my life. I know I need to do exercise. I feel so much better when I do. My summer job at school is over, so now I just have the nursing home to go to. I think I've been so exhausted from all of the running I just couldn't get myself motivated to do anything else when I got home. I know, I can have excuses or I can have results, but I can't have both!

I have to sit down and write out my re-committment and goals again. I've been stalled at the same weight and size for quite a while now and I'm beginning to get frustrated, wondering if Atkins is going to actually get me where I want to be or if I need to switch to something else to see if that works better for me. I don't know.

Time to get started with the wonderful closet cleaning adventure with DS.

[qbu]

Today was so nice. DH and I went to Bushkill Falls and walked the "red trail". Lots of stairs to climb, 1,297 to be exact! Plus all of the other walking involved on the trails. It's a 2.5 mile hike over some pretty rough terrain, but it was so nice. Then we went on the "yellow trail" back up to the exit. Not sure how many extra stairs or miles that put on. It took us just under 2 hours to complete all of it. I took some beautiful pictures! We're planning on going back again with DS. I'm counting that as exercise for today.

Did some back to school shopping later today for DS. He HATES shopping! Everything he tried on "it fits!" no matter if it was too big, too small or actually fit. It would be so nice if I could do his back to school shopping without him, but he's growing and needs to try things on.

Well, I'm gonna look around here and then call it a night.

[qbu]

Wow...been a long time since I've been here.

Since I've been here last, school has started and the first quarter is actually already over! Amazing how fast it goes.

No real changes in weight. Guess that's to be expected. I haven't been exercising. I've been so exhausted that I just can't seem to do any. I know that if I exercise I have more energy and feel better, so I've been trying to get myself to do some, any, and then I got sick...have a nasty flu type thing. I've been off of work the past two days. I hate missing work! Didn't really have a choice though...I couldn't go in.

I'm hoping that this will be gone by Sunday and I can start some exercising.

DH came home today not feeling well, so I'm hoping this isn't going to make the rounds in our house.

I found a new food that I really like. It's jicama. I know that a lot of people have probably had it for a while, but I wasn't able to find it. Now that I have...wow...I really like it. I've had it raw with cinnamon and splenda, with a cream cheese dip, and fried like french fries. Really good. I'm going to try grilling it. Haven't tried it with chili powder and lime either...that's supposed to be good.

Well, I'm going to look around here and see what's going on.

[BarbDe]

QB!!
How are things going for you??
I'm grocery shopping tomorrow for Induction! I cannot WAIT!
I've been a bad, bad girl this Xmas.
Well, not completely bad. Still not smoking, so that's something! But geez. I took up baking to keep my hands busy this last month. THAT was not smart!
So, looking forward to getting back on track. And even thinking about breaking out that Squat Nazi again.
I did get an Urban Rebounder for Xmas. That's lots of fun, actually. And a total sweat fest. But I just feel like I need to do more for a whole body workout, ya know? You have Si6, don't you? You up for a round of Debi???

[qbu]

Hi, Barb...things are going well...weight loss continues to be sloooooow!

I'm up for a round of Debi. I need to get started with exercise again...that's been my downfall...and SI6 has always been a good way to loose inches, so count me in! Starting January 1?

I've been toying with the idea of doing another induction to see if it kick starts the loss again. I may just do a 2 week and then start moving up the rungs again. I have to go grocery shopping, so it would be a good time to start again. I have to seriously think about it.

Hope your Christmas was good and wishing you a very Happy New Year!

[qbu]

Well, New Year's Eve...another year gone by. Another year of sticking to this WOE, but another year of not reaching my final goal. I'm thinking 2008 will be the year I hit my goal.

I'm starting SI6 again. That always helps. I think I might do induction again for 2 weeks and then start climbing the rungs again. I need to jump start the weight loss again.

Tonight for dinner, DH, DS and I stayed home. We had grilled shrimp with butter and garlic and steaks...oh, so good! We're going to watch some movies and hopefully be awake for the ball to drop at midnight.

We got another 9 inches or so of snow today...with 2-5 more expected tomorrow night. I don't like the snow anymore.

Recommitment to this WOE for 2008:
1~Give up diet soda again.
2~Drink more water.
3~Re-start induction for 2 weeks.
4~Exercise, exercise, exercise.
5~Weigh only once a week.
6~Measure once a month.

I think that's reasonable...it's something that can be accomplished.

Have a Happy New Year!

[BarbDe]

QB?? Where are ya??? Everything ok?

[qbu]

I'm here...I went back to work on Jan 3 and things got crazy again...things are going OK. I haven't exercised yet. I've been planning on it since Jan 1, even have the DVD in the computer drive, but just haven't gottten there yet.

Eating's on track. I didn't go back to a strict induction. I really should, but I've got to work myself up to that.

I've got to work at the nursing home today and then this evening we're going to see Trans-Siberian Orchestra, so not sure if exercise is getting done tonight.

Thanks for checking up on me! I've got to get to your journal to see how you're doing.

[qbu]

Yeah!!! I started SI6 again!!! I'm amazed at just how out of shape I've gotten from not exercising. I did SIU and thought I was going to pass out!

Eating is on track, not strict induction, but on track. Water consumption has been higher than usual, so that's good.

Today, I'm home. I had a migrane since yesterday. I went to work yesterday because I had a meeting that I HAD to be there for. No way around it. Today I woke up at 3AM with the same headache and called in. I took some pain pills and went back to sleep...just woke up again and I'm actually feeling human again.

I should probably shower before I have to get DS at the bus stop. I've got about 2 hours of peace and quiet left.

[qbu]

Well, been a while since I've been in here...not much has changed with me. Still not exercising like I should...haven't lost any weight recently.

I read a post today on here about how much the mind is responsible for weight loss. I know that it's a big determiner with me. When I first started this WOE, nothing and I mean NOTHING was going to stop me from exercising. I had it in my mind that exercise is non-negotible. I got it back into my mind again and now it's once again, NON-NEGOTIABLE for me. I will be exercising no matter what. I'll be setting my alarm again for 45 minutes earlier and getting up to exercise. I know I feel so much better when I do, so why don't I? I keep asking my son, "when will you learn (insert whatever in here)?"...guess I need to take my own advice and learn that I NEED to exercise in order to be successful with this WOL.

Once again, I'm starting the C25K. The 5K run/walk is set for April 19th at our school and I would love this to be my first 5K.

Since DH will be watching "The Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles" in a little less than an hour, I might as well get my exercise gear and go do W1D1 of the C25K on the treadmill. I've even thought about how I can run outside when the weather gets nicer. I can go down our driveway, run on our road (a private road, so not much traffic, only 5 houses in our development) until I reach the mileage I want. I'm planning ahead, so this is a good thing.

I have my breakfast made for tomorrow, my lunch is made for tomorrow. I'm setting the alarm for 45 minutes earlier so I can exercise and now I'm going to go put on my exercise clothes, get my sneakers and iPod and head downstairs to the treadmill.

[qbu]

Well, I completed W1D1 of the C25K.

I also listened to a weight loss motivation guided imagery that was mentioned in another thread. It was nice...it was an introduction, a meditation and then affirmations. Nice to do after the exercise. I think I'll be listening to this on the way to work. I don't drive to work. I'm in a carpool with my DH and another gentleman. They don't let me drive. Fine with me...I get to sit back and relax!

Calling it a night!

[qbu]

Well, today I decided to "re recommit" to this WOL (Atkins). Yea, I know I've said that before but I need to do it this time.

I haven't strayed from this WOE, however, I have from this WOL. Exercise is non-negotiable and I've been neglecting that important part of this WOL for quite some time now. I also haven't been as strict with my counting carbs as I was. I got comfortable with this WOE and thought I knew what I was doing. I guess I didn't. I haven't lost any weight in a while. My clothes are now starting to get tight on me because I'm not exercising and I'm re-gaining the 'flab' that I had lost. I feel like complete sh*t most days and that's not how I want to feel. I'm going to re-start again. I've said that a few times in the past, but this time I have to re-start induction. I know it's the only way to get back on track with what I need to do. Re-starting induction also means re-starting exercise. That will also have to happen. I'll have to start getting up earlier again. I got into the "just 5 more minutes" routine and it turns into me having to rush around and try to get ready. I don't like that. I liked when I got up early, exercised, had some time for myself before I needed to leave the house for the day.

So, starting tomorrow, Monday, March 3, 2008, I will once again:

• Start induction again for at least 2 weeks
• Get up early and exercise BEFORE work
• Visit my journal every day to post updates
• Be sure to drink enough water (most days, I'm fine, but there are some when I'm so busy, I just dont' even think about it)
• Eat more veggies again...they've been lacking in my diet
• Take my supplements on a daily basis
• Using FitDay again

I went grocery shopping and have induction friendly foods ready to go. I'm going to make Oopsie rolls in a few minutes. While they are baking, I'll get my breakfast made for the next few days and lunches made for the next few days too.

When I'm done doing that, I'll go and to C25K W1D2.

I'll get my clothes all ready for tomorrow AM and then set the alarm for 45 minutes earlier to get up and exercise before work.

Our school has a 5K run on April 19th. I was really hoping that I could run the entire thing. I'm guessing if I start the C25K again tonight I'll be able to do that.

I don't think I've ever written so much in my journal at one time. As I'm typing this, it feels like there's a weight being lifted from my shoulder. The weight of carrying around all of the "I have to get started again, but haven't actually told anyone else".

I'm going to give my friend a call and see if she wants to start our exercise buddy program again. Actually, it was more of an exercise bit*h session in the beginning, then it became, an I can't believe how much easier this has become session. I think she'll be game for it. We would exercise and then make sure to check in with each other every day. Even if it was a 5 minute conversation. It worked! We're both very competitive and we pushed each other to do more. Then life got in the way....for both of us.

Today, I'm making myself a top priority again. If I don't, nobody else will. If not now, when. I'm going to have to get selfish with my "me" time again.

I've done this before...I KNOW I can do this again!

[qbu]

Well, it's been a while again since I've been in here...and once again...life took over and having me as a priority got shot in the a$$. I'm so annoyed at myself for letting it happen again. It felt so good being on induction, exercising, being back on track and then I stopped!

It feels like I keep doing the same thing over and over again and not getting anywhere. I'm going to once again, start induction, exercising, and being on track. I want to just say, "rest of the world be damned!" but I realistically can't do that.

I know that I feel lousy---no energy, headaches, etc---because I'm not following this WOL how I should. Sure, I stay true to the eating portion of it, but nothing else at this point. I really feel that I should consider myself starting over again, from the very beginning. I should read the book for the upteenth time, start my charts again, start fitday again, just like I did in the beginning. That might jump start it.

Summer will be here soon and I'll only have the one job, so that will be much easier for me to have time to do things for me. It will be 3 years since I started this journey on Saturday, April 5th. I'm still not at goal!

I have to get the fire lit under me again and get moving! It's the only way that I'll reach my goal.

[BarbDe]

I'm having your same struggles QB!
I'm back to ketosis today.
How YOU doing??

[qbu]

Sorry to hear that you're going through the same thing.

I'm still having the same issues...no time for me to do what I need to. I joined an exercise challenge on another board that starts on Sunday, so that's my target day to get myself together and get things rolling again. Eating seems to be the easy part...it's just everything else at this point that I'm having trouble dealing with!

[qbu]

Well, today marks 3 years that I've been following Atkins.

I've also had an a-ha moment. Yesterday, I put on a pair of pants that I was able to wear last spring and they were tight. Now, understand, I haven't gained or lost any weight since then (that's a whole other story), but I haven't been exercising. Got a lot of the flab back that I had lost. Come he|| or high water, I will be exercising at least 5 times a week. I don't care if I have to get up at 3:00AM to get it done before work or do it after I get home before I eat dinner, but it will be done. I can't have this happen. I've worked too hard to get to where I am to have it all fall apart.

I will be at goal this year. I would like to be there by the end of the summer. It's very doable, I just need to get off of my a$$ and do it again.

I may re-start induction. Since this is the day I started 3 years ago, why not. My day so far has been induction friendly, so it can certainly continue that way.

[qbu]

I exercise today!!!! Yeah!!! I know that I'm going to feel it tomorrow AM, but that's OK. I'm planning on getting up early and exercising again before I'm fully aware of how sore I am.

I'm still pretty much doing induction-type eating. I'm not going to call it a strict induction because it's not. I know I need to cut down on the amount of cheese I have. That's a big thing with me.

I have my breakfast and lunch all ready for tomorrow. I have to get my clothes ready for tomorrow and then I'll be ready to relax and watch "Dexter".

[qbu]

Wow...been a long time since I've been in here.

Eating is good, water is good, supplements are so-so, exercise has been surprisingly good. I'm doing Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. It's a 3 level workout. I'm still on level 1, but planning on one more week there and then moving to level 2. I've also started running. It's a program that's easier than C25K for me. The goal is a mile in 4 weeks. I figure when I get that, then I'll start C25K.

School is almost over. Friday is my last day. The other day, one of the classes was having an end of year party with the parents. I went to it and the one dad commented, "Mrs. ____? Wow, you look like a million bucks! You've lost about 10 years!" I haven't seen him for about 3 years, so he hasn't seen me since I've lost weight. It was nice to have someone notice again. It's been slow coming off lately and I've been getting a bit discouraged, but his comments made me realize I need to keep going to get to my ultimate goal...still not sure what that is.

I'm looking forward to summer coming. I need some time off. I know a lot of people think that teachers have an easy job, but I'm letting you know, it's not. Especially in special education (which is what I do). It's a great job that I wouldn't trade for anything...I love working with my kids....but, we all need a break.

Time to go do some stuff around here.

[qbu]

Well, only a day and a half left this year in school. Tomorrow is our work day (no students) and then Friday is a half day with the students. I have 4 graduating. It's going to be tough to say "good-bye" to them. I've known two of them the entire time I've been at the school, 9 years! The other two I just started with last year, but they're great kids too. I never had this problem when I was at the elementary school!

Still doing JM Shred. I really like that. Now that school is going to be out, I think I'll add some other stuff with it. I do want to do the running program, so I think I'll add that 3 days a week too. I'm not going to be working this summer, so I don't have any excuses!

My things are all ready for tomorrow...breakfast is made...clothes are ready...no lunch to do, going out for that tomorrow. I still have so much to do it's unbelievable that we only have a day and a half left. I always get through it though.

Time to call it a night. It's still a school night!

[qbu]

OK..new month...new plan of attack! Actually, it's just an old plan of attack that's being re-implemented. Make myself a priority. Get selfish again and do what I need to in order to get where I want to be. I saw something that said, "Believe in yourself and magic will happen". I think I stopped believing in myself for a while. I got to the point where everyone and everything else became more important and I felt I wasn't as important as the other things. Well, you know what? That's wrong! I'm damned important. I'm worth doing what needs to be done. And today, it starts again!

I'm going back to clean induction. Already started that yesterday. Did good with it.

Today, serious exercising starts again. DH and DS will just have to realize that I need some "me" time again.

I'm taking back my life for what I want and need. I am going to "believe in myself" again and "magic will happen".

[qbu]

I weighed again today...lost 3lbs since last week! So lost a total of 7lbs since my ne plan of attack has taken place.

Guess all of the heavy lifting and moving around of stuff has paid off!

Things have still been busy. We're still getting things back in order, but did manage to have some fun this weekend.

We went to a wedding on Saturday. Our neighbor's daughter got married. She was only 8 when they moved in! I felt so old! But, there was also a positive. Her 18 yr old brother gave me a great compliment. He and I were talking and he said, "Every time I see you, you're getting skinnier and skinnier. You look really great." (Nice to hear when I was feeling a bit down about how things were going and then this AM weighed and found I lost 3 more lbs!)

We went out with friends on Sunday for dinner at Longhorn Steakhouse. That was nice.

Yesterday, we went to the Philadelphia Zoo for the day. It was in the 90's and very humid! We walked around the zoo for about 4.5 hours. Don't know how much water I drank in that time, but it was a lot!

Today we're planning on doing more organizing and moving of "stuff".

Time to get going for the day.