My journey to hawtness!!!

ScarletBlonde · 11-09-2006, 10:33 AM

I’ve been thinking of starting this journal so many times, but just couldn’t. Don’t know why really. I know that sometimes my issues pale in comparison to others, but we all have those days where even the smallest thing seems fatal.

My whole life, people have always had comments about my weight. Don’t know if they were trying to help, but they only helped to bring my self esteem down and make everything about me about the way that I look.

The past is past and I’m going to keep trying not to dwell on it. But I warn you, dear reader that sometimes it does come back and bite me in the butt.

So about me:

I am an administrative assistant for a street paving company. I have been here for over 2 years and really enjoy my job. And my bosses, the Chief (woman) and Boss Man (man) are a young happily married couple who appreciate me and show me their appreciation all the time.

I am a single mother of 2 beautiful and wonderful kids named Luis (13) and Karelee (10). I call them, Woody (long story about Woody Woodpecker) and Lee. I live in Barceloneta, Puerto Rico and work in the Metro San Juan Area. The island is small, so everything is close, just that traffic is a killer. My daily commute is terrible. But I try to manage my time. Make phone calls, appts. My car is my second home.

I have known about this board since about 3 years ago. I did the quick loss version of low carb to look nice for a wedding. Yeah I lost, but I didn’t look good. I gained that and a lot more. I have all those excuses for the gain - stress, unemployment, relationship issues, finances, you name it and I went through most of it. That could be the culprit or it could be that I just didn’t have the motivation. I gained a lot of weight from December 2005 til about April 2006.

My motivation to make it work this time came when Lee had her first communion and I couldn’t find a pretty blouse and had to shop in the plus size section. I don’t know if dressing room mirrors are distorted or not, but I cried my eyes out the day I saw myself in that mirror. The blouse was cute, but I wasn’t. To make matters worse, my kids’ grandmother (dad’s side) saw me after a long time and said she didn’t recognize me. To be a smarty pants, I said yeah it’s the hair, but I knew better. Then I come to find out this witch never liked me and whole bunch of stuff that just made me so mad.

And I got that I’ll show her attitude.

That just put fuel in the motivation machine.

So I decided to make a change – FOR ME- then for my kids. For me this isn’t only about the way I see myself, but also how others see me and that means I have had to and have to make changes in other aspects of my life too. So little by little I am making the changes.

I am a part of a wonderful support group – The Gutter Girls – Making a More Fabulous Me.

I don’t have the words to express how they help me get by day to day. I love them all and come in here every chance I get just to see what they have to say and offer my support and love if I can.

I’ll try to post as much as I can. I don’t have a computer at home yet, so I post when work permits.

There’s more to me, but if you read up to here. You probably need to get up from your desk and go to the ladies room.

Be back later!!

cleochatra · 11-09-2006, 10:39 AM

It's so nice to meet you and learn a little more about you! Welcome!

Mel78 · 11-09-2006, 10:56 AM

I'll be here with you till the end my friend!!!!

heidi21062 · 11-09-2006, 11:13 AM

Just stopping by to say "hi"....We're here for you girl...

by the way...does your former MIL have a sister named Doris??? I'm just sayin...

ScarletBlonde · 11-09-2006, 11:16 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by heidi21062

Just stopping by to say "hi"....We're here for you girl...

by the way...does your former MIL have a sister named Doris??? I'm just sayin...

No.

But that lady just gets to me.

Thanks to all of you - Cleo, Mel and Heidi for stopping by. Just like everything, starting is tough, but once you start everything else is a breeze.

heidi21062 · 11-09-2006, 11:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ScarletBlonde

No.

But that lady just gets to me.

Just thought she might be related to my dear, loving, caring, wonderful MIL...

Vikktorea · 11-09-2006, 11:53 AM

Hi Karen - Popping in to say Hi

Great job on linking your journal in your siggy. I'll be checking in on ya and cheering you on as we journey on

Potaty · 11-09-2006, 12:21 PM

Hi Karen! I'm so glad you started a journal!!!!!

ScarletBlonde · 11-09-2006, 01:01 PM

Thanks for stopping by sweetie!!

Here are my meals for accountability:

Coffee
B - Atkins Shake
L- Chicken broth and BBQ chicken no skin
D - Some fast food salad. Maybe Taco Bell salad or Ponderosa there's a ponderosa express in that food court. I'll have to see how hungry I am.

And of course WATER!!!

I'll be at the Mall with the kiddos. Woody has a party on Sat. He needs a new shirt.

While we're there we'll be checking out stuff for Jeans Day, Picture Day, Thanksgiving, Lee's Birthday, Alanys's baby shower and I don't know what else.

The list keeps getting bigger and bigger. So much to do - so little time.

BBL or tomorrow!

Mel78 · 11-09-2006, 01:09 PM

Ohhh... one of my favorite things to get at the mall is a steak & cheese sub... minus the bread of course... with double veggies and cheese!!!

(I've even been known to bring my own LC-ketchup for chowing!!!)

Have a great time tonight!!!

Tylar_Connar · 11-09-2006, 01:49 PM

ScarletBlonde · 11-10-2006, 06:03 AM

This month’s TOM is playing a mean trick on me. Usually it comes on the 27th day and today is day # 29 and still nuttin’ !!!!!! I feel heavy.

I have cravings for salty food.

I’m drinking lots of water but I’m soooooooo bloated.

It’s Friday and I should be doing the Happy Dance.

But I feel

JoyInHope · 11-10-2006, 09:37 AM

Hello Karen! I think it's great that you started a journal! I love to keep up-to-date with all the progress my fellow Gutter Gals are making!

It's fun getting to know about your life.... oh, I am so envious of your sunny weather, so you must post often with the temperature there (it'll drive the rest of us crazy!). But I'm also glad to hear about your kids and busy, busy life... and I think you've got the best motivation for self-improvement... YOU!

Have a good day, Karen! See ya around the challenge board and I'll drop by to keep tabs on your journal!
~ Cathy

Sadler_Girl · 11-10-2006, 10:44 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mel78

I'll be here with you till the end my friend!!!!

me too!

ScarletBlonde · 11-10-2006, 12:59 PM

I went to the mall last night and didn’t see anything that caught my eye.

The kids weren’t into it either.

So we’ll have to do something during the week or next weekend. This weekend they are with their father so I’ll be by myself.

Not that it really matters, because I won’t be home tomorrow anyway. I made a list of the things I have to buy and do. And I left it at home.

Here I am thinking what everything is and my boss keeps asking me to do stuff.

Man, I am kinda behind with the filing, did I mention how much I HATE filing. The pile keeps getting bigger and bigger because I can’t seem to find the motivation to start. And when I do start - the freakin’ phone keeps ringing off the hook. I wanted to take some stuff home so I could organize it. But it seems that I won’t be able to. And that would mean that next week there are no boards for me until it’s done. I’ll see how I can remedy that. Wow another thing to organize

ScarletBlonde · 11-10-2006, 01:47 PM

Today's Menu:

Coffee
B-Atkins Shake
L-Shrimp
D -Chicken and some broccoli

I normally don’t drink shakes too often, but I was in a rush this morning and that’s all I could grab. They don’t seem to stall me. But I’ll try to keep it at once in a while. Lotsa water and some orange crystal light.

Work was

. We usually try to get all the work out so we can start fresh on Monday.

I won't be back here til Monday so HAVE A NICE WEEKEND!!!!

SweetE · 11-10-2006, 07:25 PM

Wow, I want to join Gutter Girls, if it means I will look hawt like all of y'all! Just wanted to pop in and say hi, Scarletblonde

ScarletBlonde · 11-13-2006, 06:53 AM

You can join us anytime SweetE!!!

This weekend was very busy. TOM came

and I just wasn’t into trying on clothes. I tried on a pair of jeans and I looked

so I’ll wait for now.

My friend Alex, asked me to accompany her to do some shopping for Alanys.

How could I refuse? So I put some of my shopping on hold. That’s ok though, I’m still on schedule.

I got most of the stuff that I wanted to do, out of the way, so that’s a relief. Cleaned and organized. I even got around to organize some work stuff.

This week, the kids are celebrating Puerto Rican Heritage Week in school, so this Friday I’ll be there watching them dance and do their thing. Woody is wearing jeans, so that’s easy, but Lee needs a typical “jibara” (country girl) dress. I have to go to Party City for that. I'll be sure to post pics.

Eating wise, I was good, but since I was out all day, water consumption for Saturday was

. Yesterday was pretty good, but salty foods....

I'm up a little, but I'll blame it on TOM and lack of water. Today will be water, water, water and water for me.

Mel78 · 11-13-2006, 08:01 AM

Ok Ms. Karen...

How'd I miss your journal when I was going through my morning "hellos"

I'm glad to hear you got out and went shopping... but

Sorry TOM has you feeling less than fabulous

I'm with you though that because of being on the go so much my water consumption was WAY down... and that's NEVER good.

Can't wait to see pics of your beautiful babies!!!

ScarletBlonde · 11-13-2006, 08:31 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mel78

Ok Ms. Karen...

How'd I miss your journal when I was going through my morning "hellos"

I think it was on the second page.

I guess since I haven't posted since Friday, it got lost in the shuffle.

Not liking work today!

Mel78 · 11-13-2006, 09:46 AM

Gottcha!!!

I know... WORK SUX!!!

I'm actually gonna take a late lunch today and get my hair cut (just a cut, nothin' fancy)... So, it makes the morning even LOOOONGER!!!

Oh... hey... I talked with Cheryl this morning and she's placing our orders!!! She said she'll get hers together too and have it called in tomorrow which usually means it should be shipped to me (possibly) this week. Which in turn means I can ship your order and extra stuff to you either Saturday or Monday

WOOHOOO!!!

ScarletBlonde · 11-13-2006, 10:46 AM

Oh that's soooooooooo great. I'm really looking forward to doing this. I need a hobby. And it'll be something made by me which would make it extra special. My mom is a real crafty person and she's so happy that I am starting something. FINALLY! and since it's something she doesn't know how to do, she feels that it'll be my own thing! KWIM?

This day is DRAGGING!!! I am totally frustrated and unmotivated at work. It seems that everything that I do is wrong. I hope it's just the hormones because I really feel like

.

Sadler_Girl · 11-13-2006, 10:54 AM

Good Morning I hope today is great!

D

KarbieGrl · 11-13-2006, 07:06 PM

Hey Karen - I found your journal

You're outlaw inlaws sound very familar to me...but I won't go into why. Lets just say we have all been there at some time or other and it aint fun. Guess that makes us GutterGals a lot closer than we first realized.
Have a good evening!

Mel78 · 11-14-2006, 06:15 AM

Hey babe

How're you doing today?!?!? Sounds like your day yesterday at work was a bit unnerving... I've had a few of those lately too.

11-09-2006, 10:33 AM	#1
ScarletBlonde Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Puerto Rico Posts: 7,564 Gallery: ScarletBlonde	My journey to hawtness!!! I’ve been thinking of starting this journal so many times, but just couldn’t. Don’t know why really. I know that sometimes my issues pale in comparison to others, but we all have those days where even the smallest thing seems fatal. My whole life, people have always had comments about my weight. Don’t know if they were trying to help, but they only helped to bring my self esteem down and make everything about me about the way that I look. The past is past and I’m going to keep trying not to dwell on it. But I warn you, dear reader that sometimes it does come back and bite me in the butt. So about me: I am an administrative assistant for a street paving company. I have been here for over 2 years and really enjoy my job. And my bosses, the Chief (woman) and Boss Man (man) are a young happily married couple who appreciate me and show me their appreciation all the time. I am a single mother of 2 beautiful and wonderful kids named Luis (13) and Karelee (10). I call them, Woody (long story about Woody Woodpecker) and Lee. I live in Barceloneta, Puerto Rico and work in the Metro San Juan Area. The island is small, so everything is close, just that traffic is a killer. My daily commute is terrible. But I try to manage my time. Make phone calls, appts. My car is my second home. I have known about this board since about 3 years ago. I did the quick loss version of low carb to look nice for a wedding. Yeah I lost, but I didn’t look good. I gained that and a lot more. I have all those excuses for the gain - stress, unemployment, relationship issues, finances, you name it and I went through most of it. That could be the culprit or it could be that I just didn’t have the motivation. I gained a lot of weight from December 2005 til about April 2006. My motivation to make it work this time came when Lee had her first communion and I couldn’t find a pretty blouse and had to shop in the plus size section. I don’t know if dressing room mirrors are distorted or not, but I cried my eyes out the day I saw myself in that mirror. The blouse was cute, but I wasn’t. To make matters worse, my kids’ grandmother (dad’s side) saw me after a long time and said she didn’t recognize me. To be a smarty pants, I said yeah it’s the hair, but I knew better. Then I come to find out this witch never liked me and whole bunch of stuff that just made me so mad. And I got that I’ll show her attitude. That just put fuel in the motivation machine. So I decided to make a change – FOR ME- then for my kids. For me this isn’t only about the way I see myself, but also how others see me and that means I have had to and have to make changes in other aspects of my life too. So little by little I am making the changes. I am a part of a wonderful support group – The Gutter Girls – Making a More Fabulous Me. I don’t have the words to express how they help me get by day to day. I love them all and come in here every chance I get just to see what they have to say and offer my support and love if I can. I’ll try to post as much as I can. I don’t have a computer at home yet, so I post when work permits. There’s more to me, but if you read up to here. You probably need to get up from your desk and go to the ladies room. Be back later!! __________________ KAREN Love the Life you Live, Live the Life you Love I can do everything through him who gives me strength. -Philippians 4:13

11-10-2006, 09:37 AM	#13
JoyInHope Senior LCF Member Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Pacific Northwest Posts: 768 Gallery: JoyInHope Stats: 206/181/169 (37yo, 5'8") Start Date: LC succes in 2004, back at it in 2007!	Hello Karen! I think it's great that you started a journal! I love to keep up-to-date with all the progress my fellow Gutter Gals are making! It's fun getting to know about your life.... oh, I am so envious of your sunny weather, so you must post often with the temperature there (it'll drive the rest of us crazy!). But I'm also glad to hear about your kids and busy, busy life... and I think you've got the best motivation for self-improvement... YOU! Have a good day, Karen! See ya around the challenge board and I'll drop by to keep tabs on your journal! ~ Cathy __________________ ~ Cathy ~ *Making a more fabulous me - September 1 - 30, 2007*

11-13-2006, 10:54 AM	#23
Sadler_Girl Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: sarasota florida Posts: 15,825 Gallery: Sadler_Girl Stats: 282 start Start Date: 3/5/2006 (full into on the 9th) for the last time	Good Morning I hope today is great!D

11-09-2006, 10:39 AM	#2
cleochatra Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Denver, Colorado Posts: 7,847 Gallery: cleochatra Stats: 350/264/125 WOE: Atkins Start Date: January 1, 2008	It's so nice to meet you and learn a little more about you! Welcome!

11-09-2006, 10:56 AM	#3
Mel78 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 9,137 Gallery: Mel78	I'll be here with you till the end my friend!!!!

11-09-2006, 11:13 AM	#4
heidi21062 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Transplanted to NC...but my hearts in Hampton, VA.... Posts: 14,573 Gallery: heidi21062 Stats: 190/176/110 - 5'3" WOE: Atkins..no WW's...wait a minute....what day is it? Start Date: Started WW 07/28/08 @ 178.6 lbs	Just stopping by to say "hi"....We're here for you girl... by the way...does your former MIL have a sister named Doris??? I'm just sayin...

11-09-2006, 11:53 AM	#7
Vikktorea MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: Shenandoah Valley, VA Posts: 1,980 Gallery: Vikktorea Stats: 179/170/135 WOE: Modified M&E Start Date: 9/17/06	Hi Karen - Popping in to say Hi Great job on linking your journal in your siggy. I'll be checking in on ya and cheering you on as we journey on

11-09-2006, 12:21 PM	#8
Potaty Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: Mulletvane, where mullets grow long and luxurious Posts: 3,407 Gallery: Potaty Stats: Losing weight for another baby! WOE: Atkins	Hi Karen! I'm so glad you started a journal!!!!!

11-09-2006, 01:01 PM	#9
ScarletBlonde Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Puerto Rico Posts: 7,564 Gallery: ScarletBlonde	Thanks for stopping by sweetie!! Here are my meals for accountability: Coffee B - Atkins Shake L- Chicken broth and BBQ chicken no skin D - Some fast food salad. Maybe Taco Bell salad or Ponderosa there's a ponderosa express in that food court. I'll have to see how hungry I am. And of course WATER!!! I'll be at the Mall with the kiddos. Woody has a party on Sat. He needs a new shirt. While we're there we'll be checking out stuff for Jeans Day, Picture Day, Thanksgiving, Lee's Birthday, Alanys's baby shower and I don't know what else. The list keeps getting bigger and bigger. So much to do - so little time. BBL or tomorrow!

11-09-2006, 01:09 PM	#10
Mel78 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 9,137 Gallery: Mel78	Ohhh... one of my favorite things to get at the mall is a steak & cheese sub... minus the bread of course... with double veggies and cheese!!! (I've even been known to bring my own LC-ketchup for chowing!!!) Have a great time tonight!!!

11-09-2006, 01:49 PM	#11
Tylar_Connar Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Nov 2005 Posts: 12,434 Gallery: Tylar_Connar Stats: 198177150 WOE: 27 lbs to go for now Start Date: 10/14/06-165, 11/23/07 180

11-10-2006, 06:03 AM	#12
ScarletBlonde Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Puerto Rico Posts: 7,564 Gallery: ScarletBlonde	This month’s TOM is playing a mean trick on me. Usually it comes on the 27th day and today is day # 29 and still nuttin’ !!!!!! I feel heavy. I have cravings for salty food. I’m drinking lots of water but I’m soooooooo bloated. It’s Friday and I should be doing the Happy Dance. But I feel

11-10-2006, 12:59 PM	#15
ScarletBlonde Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Puerto Rico Posts: 7,564 Gallery: ScarletBlonde	I went to the mall last night and didn’t see anything that caught my eye. The kids weren’t into it either. So we’ll have to do something during the week or next weekend. This weekend they are with their father so I’ll be by myself. Not that it really matters, because I won’t be home tomorrow anyway. I made a list of the things I have to buy and do. And I left it at home. Here I am thinking what everything is and my boss keeps asking me to do stuff. Man, I am kinda behind with the filing, did I mention how much I HATE filing. The pile keeps getting bigger and bigger because I can’t seem to find the motivation to start. And when I do start - the freakin’ phone keeps ringing off the hook. I wanted to take some stuff home so I could organize it. But it seems that I won’t be able to. And that would mean that next week there are no boards for me until it’s done. I’ll see how I can remedy that. Wow another thing to organize

11-10-2006, 01:47 PM	#16
ScarletBlonde Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Puerto Rico Posts: 7,564 Gallery: ScarletBlonde	Today's Menu: Coffee B-Atkins Shake L-Shrimp D -Chicken and some broccoli I normally don’t drink shakes too often, but I was in a rush this morning and that’s all I could grab. They don’t seem to stall me. But I’ll try to keep it at once in a while. Lotsa water and some orange crystal light. Work was . We usually try to get all the work out so we can start fresh on Monday. I won't be back here til Monday so HAVE A NICE WEEKEND!!!!

11-10-2006, 07:25 PM	#17
SweetE Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: South Carolina Posts: 522 Gallery: SweetE WOE: WW Start Date: 6/02/07	Wow, I want to join Gutter Girls, if it means I will look hawt like all of y'all! Just wanted to pop in and say hi, Scarletblonde

11-13-2006, 06:53 AM	#18
ScarletBlonde Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Puerto Rico Posts: 7,564 Gallery: ScarletBlonde	You can join us anytime SweetE!!! This weekend was very busy. TOM came and I just wasn’t into trying on clothes. I tried on a pair of jeans and I looked so I’ll wait for now. My friend Alex, asked me to accompany her to do some shopping for Alanys. How could I refuse? So I put some of my shopping on hold. That’s ok though, I’m still on schedule. I got most of the stuff that I wanted to do, out of the way, so that’s a relief. Cleaned and organized. I even got around to organize some work stuff. This week, the kids are celebrating Puerto Rican Heritage Week in school, so this Friday I’ll be there watching them dance and do their thing. Woody is wearing jeans, so that’s easy, but Lee needs a typical “jibara” (country girl) dress. I have to go to Party City for that. I'll be sure to post pics. Eating wise, I was good, but since I was out all day, water consumption for Saturday was . Yesterday was pretty good, but salty foods.... I'm up a little, but I'll blame it on TOM and lack of water. Today will be water, water, water and water for me.

11-13-2006, 08:01 AM	#19
Mel78 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 9,137 Gallery: Mel78	Ok Ms. Karen... How'd I miss your journal when I was going through my morning "hellos" I'm glad to hear you got out and went shopping... but Sorry TOM has you feeling less than fabulous I'm with you though that because of being on the go so much my water consumption was WAY down... and that's NEVER good. Can't wait to see pics of your beautiful babies!!!

11-13-2006, 09:46 AM	#21
Mel78 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 9,137 Gallery: Mel78	Gottcha!!! I know... WORK SUX!!! I'm actually gonna take a late lunch today and get my hair cut (just a cut, nothin' fancy)... So, it makes the morning even LOOOONGER!!! Oh... hey... I talked with Cheryl this morning and she's placing our orders!!! She said she'll get hers together too and have it called in tomorrow which usually means it should be shipped to me (possibly) this week. Which in turn means I can ship your order and extra stuff to you either Saturday or Monday WOOHOOO!!!

11-13-2006, 10:46 AM	#22
ScarletBlonde Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Puerto Rico Posts: 7,564 Gallery: ScarletBlonde	Oh that's soooooooooo great. I'm really looking forward to doing this. I need a hobby. And it'll be something made by me which would make it extra special. My mom is a real crafty person and she's so happy that I am starting something. FINALLY! and since it's something she doesn't know how to do, she feels that it'll be my own thing! KWIM? This day is DRAGGING!!! I am totally frustrated and unmotivated at work. It seems that everything that I do is wrong. I hope it's just the hormones because I really feel like .

11-13-2006, 07:06 PM	#24
KarbieGrl Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Apr 2004 Posts: 7,345 Gallery: KarbieGrl	Hey Karen - I found your journal You're outlaw inlaws sound very familar to me...but I won't go into why. Lets just say we have all been there at some time or other and it aint fun. Guess that makes us GutterGals a lot closer than we first realized. Have a good evening!

11-14-2006, 06:15 AM	#25
Mel78 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 9,137 Gallery: Mel78	Hey babe How're you doing today?!?!? Sounds like your day yesterday at work was a bit unnerving... I've had a few of those lately too.