DiSa Starting Over

[DiSa]

Endless attempts to "diet" brings me back once again to the Lowcarbfriends website. Back in 1999 I lowcarbed and lost 52lbs (212>160) with the help of friends from this very website in a 6 month period. In 2001 I went through some personal struggles and as anxiety and stress set in I began to eat again. Here I am 5 years later at 193lbs. after getting back up to 203lbs. at the first of this year. The year is ending and I am only 10lbs down,,,,
Things are fine and me and my family made it through the tough couple of years, everyone is stronger and healthier but still I can't get the weight off. I'm not sure why or what it is?
I turn 47 on November 14th. I don't want to feel the way I do today about myself,,,I know there is no miracle way to loose 50lbs in 3 weeks but if I could loose 10lbs I would feel like I have a grasp on my weight struggle. I feel I have a successful marriage of 30 years (Yes! 30 years), I have a successful career, and I have no idea what the underlying problem could be?
Today is the first day of the rest of my life and I choose not to live it as a fat person. I will use my journal to help me "put stuff out there" so I can move on and enjoy my life with better health and a stronger body.