Trying to find me again-terri73

terri73 · 09-25-2006, 09:50 AM

Well...here I set really wanting to have spagetti for lunch though my plan is to have turkey cheeseburgers. I have been thinking about starting a journal so I thoought this be the perfect time.

I am the typical yo yoer I guess. One year ago I was settingin this chair weight 100lbs less than I do now. I was living a LC life and I really was loving it. Little by little my stress and emotions took over and one cheat turned into never eating on plan. Long story short I stated at 343lbs, with LC went down to 233lbs and here I am today at 340.2 (at last weighing last Wednesday).

I am tired of being the way I am. I think that I am the most miserable that I have ever been in my life. I don't want to do anything, not only because I am afraid of what people think about my fattness, but also because my legs and back kill me if I try to do very much. To be perfectly honest at this point I even shy away from myDH because I am uncomfortable even being intimate with him. I love him, but right now I am having ahard time loving myself.

I am going to take this first step in regaining the control over my life. I am planning on taking this little steps at a time. I would love to say I am going to post and stick with it for the next 100 days (or whatever number) but I think right now I should just try to focus on a week at a time. So my goal is to post and stay on plan until next Monday. If I make that goal I will add to the time then.

LosingIt · 09-25-2006, 01:17 PM

I think it is weird that this is the first time I have ventured into the journals and I found you here!!

Girl, I know you can do this!! I just know you can~ keeping a journal is a very good eye opener, you have to be honest with yourself to see your weak spots and start correcting them.

As for your DH, if you truly love him, you really need to keep that part of your life as active as possible.

I'm going to follow your progress here~ I have been thinking of starting my own journal to get myself motivated and keep myself in check.... maybe your new journal is the motivation for me to get busy and get one going for myself!

Did you get that living room done?!?

terri73 · 09-25-2006, 05:29 PM

Well, if I make it just afew more hours I will have a totally cheat free day in. And I have had no pop what so ever. I think that is a miracle in itself.

B-3 slices of deli chicken breast
s-pepperoni, cauliflower dipped in a little ranch
l-turkey cheeseburger 1.25 of them. I gave most of one to the doggies and a sf jello cup.
d-saurkraut and hot dogs

I have had a few sugar free pickle chips on and off today. And if I get hungry before bed I will snack on some pepperoni.

I have had about 50 oz of water today so far. I am going to try to get in a little more before betime.

~Gina~ glad you stopped by!! You know how easily distracted I am. Keep on me girl!!!

LosingIt · 09-26-2006, 06:20 AM

YAY FOR YOU TERRI!!

Man, am I ever excited for you! Day 1 down... the rest is a piece of hmmmm~

chicken!!

KUTGW!!

terri73 · 09-26-2006, 09:53 AM

I have been a complete lazy butt today. Took DD to school and me and my doggies went back to sleep until 11am. They reassured me that it was fine that we took a nap.
I really wanted some mini wheats when I woke up but, I had egg drop soup and pepperonis. Right now I need to get some water in me. I feel like I could drink down a couple of bottles straight in a row.

B-slept through it.
L-egg drop soup, pepperoni's.

LosingIt · 09-26-2006, 04:30 PM

Just dropped by to see how your day went today! I hope you had another cheat free day!

Gotta give me the recipe for Egg Drop Soup! Pwreaseeee!

terri73 · 09-27-2006, 07:43 PM

What a horrible day!!

I just feel like I have had a pity party for myself all day. Nothing has been right. I am unsure that I am going to be able to keep working much longer due to conflicting schedules, DH and I aren't getting along very well. He is just getting on my nerves so much. And I am constantly angry with myself. I hate this person that I have become again. She makes me sick.

This week I have only lost 1.5lbs. I am the only person to blame for it. I keep falling off track over stupid emotional things. Eating doesn't even make me feel better, it only makes me feel worse than I did to begin with. I know it makes me feel worse so why do I do it?

I am going to do this....I have to do this. There is no other choice except to cause my self to be sick and die...because that is what being this obese is going to do. I have to do this myself....and I have to do this for my family. Especially my baby girl, well she's not really a baby she's 11, but I don't want this fat to be an example for her.

So, for real, it's do or die. I have to get on the right rack.

LosingIt · 09-28-2006, 06:26 AM

Dear, dear Terri!!

I know all to well how hard it is to get back on track! I am having the exact same problem! YOU ARE GOING TO BE HEALTHY AGAIN! And I can't wait to share the thrill you are going to have to see that in black and white!!! What a wonderful day that is going to be when you reach goal and can share with others what a struggle you had and be the sole source of encouragement that they need! YOU CAN AND WILL do this!! Right? You are going to tell yourself every single day how beautiful you are and why you need to do this not only for your family, but for yourself, right? You have to stay strong, stay focused & determined because NOT ONE OTHER PERSON IN THIS WORLD CAN DO THAT FOR YOU!! *positive thoughts!! positive thoughts* NO MORE NEGATIVES HERE, WE'RE MOVING FORWARD!!

1.5 lbs is a loss and girl a loss is a loss is a loss!! Don't you ever think of it otherwise! Be proud of yourself because you know you are trying if you see a loss... what about all of the people that are working so hard and have hit a stall for months at a time?!? It does happen so don't be so hard on yourself! We all love you and are here for you whenever you need a little encouragement!

Please stay strong~ we're going to get there!! You are going to be in "Twoderville" in no time!! By Christmas, right? Come on girl!! YOU CAN DO IT! Keep posting... keep being real... keep believing... because YOU ARE GOING TO REACH YOUR GOAL THIS TIME!

terri73 · 09-28-2006, 09:58 AM

Today feels like I new beginning. I have posted all over the boards the past couple of days and can feel the support. I have never had so many PM's ever in my history on here.

I have a great challenge group that always have my back. And always have kind and understanding words for me. I have found others on this site that are seeing the numbers on the scale that I am. I sort of felt like the only 338.5 lb person in the world. But I have learned that I am not. I just needed to open my eyes and see the world for what it is. It is a struggle. Nothing is cheap or easy. No amount of food can ease my pain or sorrow. EAting will not make things better it will only make me feel worse. Whenever I feel like letting my emotions make me eat I am going to drink a bottle of water.

There are to be no cheats. Like Alliecat said NO cheats, NOT ever!!

I feel like a new person is emerging from this fat body. Slowly she will get to appear and hopefully stay with us this time. It is a lifetime committment. Not a diet. A new way of life.

LosingIt · 09-28-2006, 10:43 AM

YOU GOT IT NOW!

LosingIt · 09-29-2006, 07:55 AM

Where ya at Terri?!? I hope all is going well for you!

terri73 · 09-29-2006, 10:13 PM

OK..I didn't even feel like journaling anything tonight but I am here. Let's just say this day didn't go as planned. But tomorrow is a new day and the day I go to the store!!YAY!!! I am thinkning of trying my Carmen Electra dvd tomorrow. I will get some exercise walking at the Oktoberfest tomorrow. No need to worry about cheats there. It is a tiny one and there aren't many things I would want to eat. Imagine an Oktoberfest with no kraut and sausages or german ptoato salad....this one has no authentic food. I have no desire to eat deep fried dough crap that will be all they have.

Well, I have to be at work in the morning so I had better head to bed.

LosingIt · 09-30-2006, 12:45 PM

I'm so glad that you posted today Terri! It is so good to post even when you don't want to or feel like it! Please hang in there girl~

monet0329 · 09-30-2006, 06:14 PM

Hi Terri..

.. I know you've been on here a few days.. but for some reason.. I didn't see ya..

.. so

..

..

Look at my numbers girl I know all about what your going through.. and I mean ALL about it.. so no.. your not the only one this size on here ..

and look.. we are even neighbors..

.. I am in Indiana..

I will be here to cheer you on.... like your fried said.. YOU CAN DO THIS!!..
I know how emotion can make you feel like you need food for comfort.. and I know how sometimes you feel like your not in control.. but remember this.. if your not in control.. who is? the food.. the bad food.. the food that has made us fat and unhealthy? .. YOU take control girl.. your a beautiful strong person.. you did this once right.. you can do it again.. don't let emotions or men or whatever bring you down.. hold your head high and know YOU ARE WORTH THE EFFORT YOU PUT IN THIS!!!,,,

I am hoping that you being over weight isn't the reason you and dh aren't getting along

.. that would be real sad.. I wish you the best that you all are ok..

..

If your anything like me.. and most mothers are.. you have always put everyone else before yourself.. well now is the time that YOU do for yourself !!... I don't mean ignore everyone else..lol.. but put yourself right up there with everyone else

.. make yourself some goals.. little ones to start out.. and when you meet those goals.. treat yourself to something special.. not food.. get your hair done.. buy something pretty.. anything.. just something special..

Gosh, I could go on and on.. but I will say some for later

..
but please think of your health and your daughter all the time.. be strong!!
AND MAKE IT HAPPEN!!..

hugsssss

AllieCat0817 · 10-01-2006, 06:36 AM

Wanting to give you a nice Sunday morning hug Terri.

LosingIt · 10-02-2006, 12:05 PM

Hello Terri~

I hope all is going well for ya!

Get on in here and make it real girl!

LosingIt · 10-04-2006, 08:14 PM

Terri! .................................................. ..
Terri! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Terri!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Terri! ***********************

Girl! Where are you at?!? We started this journaling thing together, you're not going to back out on me now!!

Just kiddin'~

Hope you post soon!

terri73 · 10-08-2006, 04:20 PM

Thanks for the enouraging words everyone!!! and NO I AM NOT GIVING UP!!

I have had a bad with, dealing with my depression, and everyone has been feeding me to try to make me feel better. I don't think they understand that the food is a big source of the problem. I have explained this to my family today, and hopefully the next time they want to feed me they bring me a big leafy salad!

I am ready to start a new week. I am ready to begin again w/o all the drama. No one is going to fix my life for me, I have to do it myself. My soul does feel better today. I mended a relationship with my cousin that had been weighing heavy on my heart. She has been like a sister to me for years and she really hurt my feelings on my birthday. She repeated comments that were untrue about my husband and told me that she wanted me to know what "people" were saying. Well, the person was another cousin that like to stir up trouble. I hated being angry with her. And I told her that today. I knew what she was trying to do by telling me, but it came across as not being very nice or helpful. Now that we have mended fences my load will be a little lighter.

I am setting my supplements out tonight too. That way as soon as I get DD up in the morning I can take them before I get busy. And I want to keep myself busy all day. If my hands are busy doing other things then they aren't putting food in my mouth!

I am redoing my measurements and reweighing in the morning. Since I am sure I am up in weight...but not for long!
THE CHEATING AND PITTY PARTIES ARE OVER WITH!!!!!!

terri73 · 10-09-2006, 06:20 AM

OK... it's Monday and I have a ton of stuff to do. The busier I keep the less I can eat, right?

I have gained back the piddly amount that I had lost but it will be gone again in a day or so I am sure. I am feeling it this time. I am looking toward the future for the first time in a long time. I do not want to be this size at Christmas this year. I won't go out on NYE if I look like this. So I have to get my big ole butt in gear!!!!

No real plan of attack food wise today....just eating legal until satisfied!

monet0329 · 10-09-2006, 06:29 AM

You can do it sweetie.. just throw that depression out the window and move on.. keep that positive attitude girl.. !!

LosingIt · 10-09-2006, 12:59 PM

I'm sooo glad to see you back Terri!

Ok... my motto, "HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE" I am so glad that you are feeling it this time! I know that you can and will do it! Come Christmas you're going to be down a good 2 sizes!!

I just know it! KUTGW!

terri73 · 10-09-2006, 07:27 PM

I am feeling pretty good today overall. I have alot to do tomorrow so I am trying to think ahead tonight. I plan on slicing up ciucumber so that I have it to snack on, and I am planning on working out tomorrow while at work. I also have to stop at the county courthouse and get my name changed on my voter registration!!! I never added my married name and was told that theyare checking ID's to make sure name match this time.

DD went to her first day of after school program today. She isn't crazy about it but I have to make her go!!! She needs extra math help and we just can't do it together. I cannot feel guilty for this!!!! I actually do though. I know it is for her own good.

Well...I need to shower and get to bed! Tomorrow I will post earlier in torrow!!! But I did check in and post today!!!!

09-25-2006, 09:50 AM	#1
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	Trying to find me again-terri73 Well...here I set really wanting to have spagetti for lunch though my plan is to have turkey cheeseburgers. I have been thinking about starting a journal so I thoought this be the perfect time. I am the typical yo yoer I guess. One year ago I was settingin this chair weight 100lbs less than I do now. I was living a LC life and I really was loving it. Little by little my stress and emotions took over and one cheat turned into never eating on plan. Long story short I stated at 343lbs, with LC went down to 233lbs and here I am today at 340.2 (at last weighing last Wednesday). I am tired of being the way I am. I think that I am the most miserable that I have ever been in my life. I don't want to do anything, not only because I am afraid of what people think about my fattness, but also because my legs and back kill me if I try to do very much. To be perfectly honest at this point I even shy away from myDH because I am uncomfortable even being intimate with him. I love him, but right now I am having ahard time loving myself. I am going to take this first step in regaining the control over my life. I am planning on taking this little steps at a time. I would love to say I am going to post and stick with it for the next 100 days (or whatever number) but I think right now I should just try to focus on a week at a time. So my goal is to post and stay on plan until next Monday. If I make that goal I will add to the time then. __________________ ~~Terri~~ <<------Me being baptized in the arms of my Uncle and Hubby. "We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and Fabulous? Actually, who are YOU NOT TO BE? You are a child of God. Your playing small DOESN'T serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you."~Nelson Mandela'94 http://www.myspace.com/terri45692

09-25-2006, 01:17 PM	#2
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	I think it is weird that this is the first time I have ventured into the journals and I found you here!! Girl, I know you can do this!! I just know you can~ keeping a journal is a very good eye opener, you have to be honest with yourself to see your weak spots and start correcting them. As for your DH, if you truly love him, you really need to keep that part of your life as active as possible. I'm going to follow your progress here~ I have been thinking of starting my own journal to get myself motivated and keep myself in check.... maybe your new journal is the motivation for me to get busy and get one going for myself! Did you get that living room done?!? __________________ LosingIt for good this time!

09-28-2006, 06:26 AM	#8
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	Dear, dear Terri!! I know all to well how hard it is to get back on track! I am having the exact same problem! YOU ARE GOING TO BE HEALTHY AGAIN! And I can't wait to share the thrill you are going to have to see that in black and white!!! What a wonderful day that is going to be when you reach goal and can share with others what a struggle you had and be the sole source of encouragement that they need! YOU CAN AND WILL do this!! Right? You are going to tell yourself every single day how beautiful you are and why you need to do this not only for your family, but for yourself, right? You have to stay strong, stay focused & determined because NOT ONE OTHER PERSON IN THIS WORLD CAN DO THAT FOR YOU!! positive thoughts!! positive thoughts NO MORE NEGATIVES HERE, WE'RE MOVING FORWARD!! 1.5 lbs is a loss and girl a loss is a loss is a loss!! Don't you ever think of it otherwise! Be proud of yourself because you know you are trying if you see a loss... what about all of the people that are working so hard and have hit a stall for months at a time?!? It does happen so don't be so hard on yourself! We all love you and are here for you whenever you need a little encouragement! Please stay strong~ we're going to get there!! You are going to be in "Twoderville" in no time!! By Christmas, right? Come on girl!! YOU CAN DO IT! Keep posting... keep being real... keep believing... because YOU ARE GOING TO REACH YOUR GOAL THIS TIME! Last edited by LosingIt : 09-28-2006 at 06:28 AM.

09-28-2006, 10:43 AM	#10
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	YOU GOT IT NOW! Last edited by LosingIt : 09-28-2006 at 10:44 AM.

09-30-2006, 06:14 PM	#14
monet0329 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: ~Indiana ~ Posts: 8,606 Gallery: monet0329 Stats: ?/ ?/ 200.. for now.. WOE: Low carb...because it works! Start Date: Febuary 27,06.. restart 6/14/08	Hi Terri.... I know you've been on here a few days.. but for some reason.. I didn't see ya.. .. so .... Look at my numbers girl I know all about what your going through.. and I mean ALL about it.. so no.. your not the only one this size on here .. and look.. we are even neighbors.. .. I am in Indiana.. I will be here to cheer you on.... like your fried said.. YOU CAN DO THIS!!.. I know how emotion can make you feel like you need food for comfort.. and I know how sometimes you feel like your not in control.. but remember this.. if your not in control.. who is? the food.. the bad food.. the food that has made us fat and unhealthy? .. YOU take control girl.. your a beautiful strong person.. you did this once right.. you can do it again.. don't let emotions or men or whatever bring you down.. hold your head high and know YOU ARE WORTH THE EFFORT YOU PUT IN THIS!!!,,, I am hoping that you being over weight isn't the reason you and dh aren't getting along .. that would be real sad.. I wish you the best that you all are ok.. .. If your anything like me.. and most mothers are.. you have always put everyone else before yourself.. well now is the time that YOU do for yourself !!... I don't mean ignore everyone else..lol.. but put yourself right up there with everyone else .. make yourself some goals.. little ones to start out.. and when you meet those goals.. treat yourself to something special.. not food.. get your hair done.. buy something pretty.. anything.. just something special.. Gosh, I could go on and on.. but I will say some for later .. but please think of your health and your daughter all the time.. be strong!! AND MAKE IT HAPPEN!!.. hugsssss __________________ DUMP THE PLUMP People !! Giving it to God !

09-25-2006, 05:29 PM	#3
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	Well, if I make it just afew more hours I will have a totally cheat free day in. And I have had no pop what so ever. I think that is a miracle in itself. B-3 slices of deli chicken breast s-pepperoni, cauliflower dipped in a little ranch l-turkey cheeseburger 1.25 of them. I gave most of one to the doggies and a sf jello cup. d-saurkraut and hot dogs I have had a few sugar free pickle chips on and off today. And if I get hungry before bed I will snack on some pepperoni. I have had about 50 oz of water today so far. I am going to try to get in a little more before betime. ~Gina~ glad you stopped by!! You know how easily distracted I am. Keep on me girl!!!

09-26-2006, 06:20 AM	#4
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	YAY FOR YOU TERRI!! Man, am I ever excited for you! Day 1 down... the rest is a piece of hmmmm~ chicken!! KUTGW!!

09-26-2006, 09:53 AM	#5
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	I have been a complete lazy butt today. Took DD to school and me and my doggies went back to sleep until 11am. They reassured me that it was fine that we took a nap. I really wanted some mini wheats when I woke up but, I had egg drop soup and pepperonis. Right now I need to get some water in me. I feel like I could drink down a couple of bottles straight in a row. B-slept through it. L-egg drop soup, pepperoni's.

09-26-2006, 04:30 PM	#6
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	Just dropped by to see how your day went today! I hope you had another cheat free day! Gotta give me the recipe for Egg Drop Soup! Pwreaseeee!

09-27-2006, 07:43 PM	#7
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	What a horrible day!! I just feel like I have had a pity party for myself all day. Nothing has been right. I am unsure that I am going to be able to keep working much longer due to conflicting schedules, DH and I aren't getting along very well. He is just getting on my nerves so much. And I am constantly angry with myself. I hate this person that I have become again. She makes me sick. This week I have only lost 1.5lbs. I am the only person to blame for it. I keep falling off track over stupid emotional things. Eating doesn't even make me feel better, it only makes me feel worse than I did to begin with. I know it makes me feel worse so why do I do it? I am going to do this....I have to do this. There is no other choice except to cause my self to be sick and die...because that is what being this obese is going to do. I have to do this myself....and I have to do this for my family. Especially my baby girl, well she's not really a baby she's 11, but I don't want this fat to be an example for her. So, for real, it's do or die. I have to get on the right rack.

09-28-2006, 09:58 AM	#9
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	Today feels like I new beginning. I have posted all over the boards the past couple of days and can feel the support. I have never had so many PM's ever in my history on here. I have a great challenge group that always have my back. And always have kind and understanding words for me. I have found others on this site that are seeing the numbers on the scale that I am. I sort of felt like the only 338.5 lb person in the world. But I have learned that I am not. I just needed to open my eyes and see the world for what it is. It is a struggle. Nothing is cheap or easy. No amount of food can ease my pain or sorrow. EAting will not make things better it will only make me feel worse. Whenever I feel like letting my emotions make me eat I am going to drink a bottle of water. There are to be no cheats. Like Alliecat said NO cheats, NOT ever!! I feel like a new person is emerging from this fat body. Slowly she will get to appear and hopefully stay with us this time. It is a lifetime committment. Not a diet. A new way of life.

09-29-2006, 07:55 AM	#11
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	Where ya at Terri?!? I hope all is going well for you!

09-29-2006, 10:13 PM	#12
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	OK..I didn't even feel like journaling anything tonight but I am here. Let's just say this day didn't go as planned. But tomorrow is a new day and the day I go to the store!!YAY!!! I am thinkning of trying my Carmen Electra dvd tomorrow. I will get some exercise walking at the Oktoberfest tomorrow. No need to worry about cheats there. It is a tiny one and there aren't many things I would want to eat. Imagine an Oktoberfest with no kraut and sausages or german ptoato salad....this one has no authentic food. I have no desire to eat deep fried dough crap that will be all they have. Well, I have to be at work in the morning so I had better head to bed.

09-30-2006, 12:45 PM	#13
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	I'm so glad that you posted today Terri! It is so good to post even when you don't want to or feel like it! Please hang in there girl~

10-01-2006, 06:36 AM	#15
AllieCat0817 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Southeastern Coastal SC Posts: 11,738 Gallery: AllieCat0817 Stats: 213.5/133.5/140 WOE: Atkins Maintenance Start Date: 5/23/03	Wanting to give you a nice Sunday morning hug Terri.

10-02-2006, 12:05 PM	#16
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	Hello Terri~ I hope all is going well for ya! Get on in here and make it real girl!

10-04-2006, 08:14 PM	#17
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	Terri! .................................................. .. Terri! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Terri!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Terri! *********************** Girl! Where are you at?!? We started this journaling thing together, you're not going to back out on me now!! Just kiddin'~ Hope you post soon!

10-08-2006, 04:20 PM	#18
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	Thanks for the enouraging words everyone!!! and NO I AM NOT GIVING UP!! I have had a bad with, dealing with my depression, and everyone has been feeding me to try to make me feel better. I don't think they understand that the food is a big source of the problem. I have explained this to my family today, and hopefully the next time they want to feed me they bring me a big leafy salad! I am ready to start a new week. I am ready to begin again w/o all the drama. No one is going to fix my life for me, I have to do it myself. My soul does feel better today. I mended a relationship with my cousin that had been weighing heavy on my heart. She has been like a sister to me for years and she really hurt my feelings on my birthday. She repeated comments that were untrue about my husband and told me that she wanted me to know what "people" were saying. Well, the person was another cousin that like to stir up trouble. I hated being angry with her. And I told her that today. I knew what she was trying to do by telling me, but it came across as not being very nice or helpful. Now that we have mended fences my load will be a little lighter. I am setting my supplements out tonight too. That way as soon as I get DD up in the morning I can take them before I get busy. And I want to keep myself busy all day. If my hands are busy doing other things then they aren't putting food in my mouth! I am redoing my measurements and reweighing in the morning. Since I am sure I am up in weight...but not for long! THE CHEATING AND PITTY PARTIES ARE OVER WITH!!!!!!

10-09-2006, 06:20 AM	#19
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	OK... it's Monday and I have a ton of stuff to do. The busier I keep the less I can eat, right? I have gained back the piddly amount that I had lost but it will be gone again in a day or so I am sure. I am feeling it this time. I am looking toward the future for the first time in a long time. I do not want to be this size at Christmas this year. I won't go out on NYE if I look like this. So I have to get my big ole butt in gear!!!! No real plan of attack food wise today....just eating legal until satisfied!

10-09-2006, 06:29 AM	#20
monet0329 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: ~Indiana ~ Posts: 8,606 Gallery: monet0329 Stats: ?/ ?/ 200.. for now.. WOE: Low carb...because it works! Start Date: Febuary 27,06.. restart 6/14/08	You can do it sweetie.. just throw that depression out the window and move on.. keep that positive attitude girl.. !!

10-09-2006, 12:59 PM	#21
LosingIt MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: IN Posts: 1,204 Gallery: LosingIt Stats: 198/192/140 ~ 5'1" Start Date: 6/17/05~ re-start 6/08	I'm sooo glad to see you back Terri! Ok... my motto, "HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE" I am so glad that you are feeling it this time! I know that you can and will do it! Come Christmas you're going to be down a good 2 sizes!! I just know it! KUTGW!

10-09-2006, 07:27 PM	#22
terri73 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 3,285 Blog Entries: 5 Gallery: terri73	I am feeling pretty good today overall. I have alot to do tomorrow so I am trying to think ahead tonight. I plan on slicing up ciucumber so that I have it to snack on, and I am planning on working out tomorrow while at work. I also have to stop at the county courthouse and get my name changed on my voter registration!!! I never added my married name and was told that theyare checking ID's to make sure name match this time. DD went to her first day of after school program today. She isn't crazy about it but I have to make her go!!! She needs extra math help and we just can't do it together. I cannot feel guilty for this!!!! I actually do though. I know it is for her own good. Well...I need to shower and get to bed! Tomorrow I will post earlier in torrow!!! But I did check in and post today!!!!

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