Angie's Journey for myself

[angtonio1]

Ok, so i been meaning to make a journal but haven't had the time
So now i decided to just do it.

Growing up i was ALWAYS the cute fat girl. I was always told i would be alot prettier if i would just lose weight. I got criticized by great grama (rest her soul), my grandmother, my parents, friends, everyone it seems. My self esteem has always been up and down. I always wanted to join a gym but could never afford it. I grew in California where everyone is skinny and eats healthy blah blah blah. In high school i was the semi fat girl, i was friends with everyone at my school. i was very outgoing. but of course i was not on the cheer squad.i played sports but still ate horribly. therefore i was thick.
As the years went by i got bigger. I remember i was living in my own apartment in 95 and standing in front of the mirror. I grabbed a huge handful of my tummy and was in disgust at how big i was. I was sooo frustrated and tired of being fat. i hated it. At that point i had been working for a paging company. They had a corporate membership at the Family Fitness Center (now called 24 hr fitness). All you had to do was sign up and then it was 13 dollars a month. Believe it or not, its 11 yrs later i am in the military and not even in cali but i still pay for my membership. for when i go home i have a gym to use.
So anyway, after seeing my tummy i started trying to eat better and would go to aerobics everyday. I loved the step classes. I still do when i can find a class. Then stuff happened and i stopped going to the gym. Guess too much partying and work. THen in June 96 i moved back home to my parents house in Temecula, CA.
Had been there a week and on July 4th i looked in the mirror and FINALLY saw myself for how fat i really got. :O that is when i made a promise to really try harder. That night my moms friend came to ask her to go walking...my mom declined but then she yells out to me to see if i want to. I say yes........
From there we started walking everyday, about 4 miles a day. I loved it. Within a couple weeks i began to go to the gym again and do step class. Around that time my moms friend Sylvia told me about some diet stuff called Cybergenics she had but had never used. So we decided to both get on it and would go walking every morning. It was a two week program. They give you a meal plan and list of foods and pills and exercise schedule. I followed it to the T! By the end of the first two weeks i lost at least 10 lbs. That was great motivation. We would walk in the morning at 7 am then at 8 i would rush to the Family Fitness and do step class for an hour, then do stairmaster for 30 mins and then weights for 45 mins. By Nov i had lost ALOT of weight. Didnt weigh myself but i was in a size 9. For the first time in my life.
I did all this everyday and continued to be on Cybergenics. By the end of January i was a size FIVE! So within 7 mos i went from a size 20 to a 5. Everyone was freaking out. Sooo many people could not believe it. ALot of people were negative they didnt want me to lose. BUt truth is they didnt want me to look better than them, cos that would mean i would get all the attention when we went out. HA HA. That ended up happening too!
Well the defining moment for me came when one night in late Jan 97 i was at the mall after work in jeans and sweatshirt. Let me back up, in junior high and high school i had the hugest crush on a popular guy. He was cool but of course was into the cheerleaders. Even married one. So i hadnt seen him since 93 at the jC. when i was fat! Well anyway, i was walking thru the mall and i walked past him (it was a moment out of a movie, kinda slow motion) he was with his little girl. All of a sudden his mouth DROPS! He goes "ANGIE???@?@?? and i just look over and give him a sly grin and laugh. THat was the greatest feeling. Having lost all that weight and looking sooo dam good.
I am not ashamed or am going to hide. Heck I will flaunt it. ITs been years since then, I am still working out constantly and still look good. Even though I got pregnant in spring 97, i busted my butt and lost it all again.

Now i run all the time, training and running in marathons. I have a myspace account that i have new pics of me on and alot of folks from my HS go on there and see me now. ITs funny cos alot of people have accounts from my school... Just like in the movies all the pretty girls and hot guys from school look like crap now. HA HA HA! I cant wait to go to my 20 yr reunion.

Anyway, back to my weight loss journey. Now I am happily married, have a wonderful son and am trying to stay in shape and keep a healthy level of sanity. Although i am at a good weight and in shape, my hubby and i are in the process of trying to have another baby! I want this journal to be my daily fortitude to keep me in check so i continue to eat healthy and workout before, during and after my next pregnancies. I dont want to become one of those women who give up on their selves because of having a family.
Plus we have a vacation to Walt Disney World in April 07 so i want get myself in bikini shape so i can strut my stuff when we go hang out at our resort pools. I have some sexy bikinis to wear and i need a little more work to make them look good

So here i go..........

[angtonio1]

Well for today.....

i ran for an hour, wanted to do more but since the gym closes at 6 i had no choice.

Eats for today:

Brunch: Homemade smoothie: protein shake with water-10 oz, ice, froz berries, natrataste. blended to thickness. YUMMY! Comes out more like ice cream instead of smoothie.

Dinner: Shrimp fajitas with salad, 3 corn tortillas, guacamole

Water: At least 90 oz of water

Had some FF frozen yogurt from Marble slab..YUM!

Also had a fiber shake this afternoon with rasp lemonade crystal light. After dinner had my Cleansing tea with 16 oz of hot water.

For the next two and a half months i am doing a cleanse called Colonix. So far i have lost about ten to fifteen pounds. Feel lighter and can breathe better. Plus my skin is glowing. i love it. i am not tired anymore at 3 pm. i love it!