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[Aldiana]

Good to see you back! I was getting nervous! and whether or not you are on plan, keep coming here. I know you will be ok eventually. I think it's some internal switch that has to flip before we are truely ready.

I'll post a bit more about it in my own journal...

*HUGGLES*

lori

[Samantha42]

Originally Posted by Aldiana

Good to see you back! I was getting nervous! and whether or not you are on plan, keep coming here. I know you will be ok eventually. I think it's some internal switch that has to flip before we are truely ready.

I'll post a bit more about it in my own journal...

*HUGGLES*

lori

Awww "Huggles" is too cute! I'm not really on plan... not really weighing, trying to keep up with water and some exercise. Birthday week is in full swing.... had a 1/2 bottle of wine last night and I thought I'd fall asleep at 8pm (though I still had a comedy show at 9:30). It was a real struggle to stay awake ! I've been eating off plan, but shockingly, not really bingeing or overeating. It seems like once I go off plan, the first few days I am in ravenous binge mode, then the next few days I am so over food I want to not eat anything, and I'll eat smaller portions of (still crappy) food. My mom asked if we could do dinner next weekend to celebrate and I told her I was sick of celebrating with food and I wanted to do something different, so instead we may go see a play (like Wicked) or go somewhere outdoors. I would so much rather do that than gorge myself, or just eat out period. I don't do well with restaurants and staying on plan, and it's completely my fault. Every restaurant CAN cater to lowcarbers, it's just ME who chooses to make bad choices.

Wednesday I am getting back on plan... I need to lose serious weight before school, and I have 6-7 weeks to do so.... how many pounds do you think I could lose by then? I like hearing motivating answers.

[Potaty]

Warning........tough love ahead, turn back now if you don't want to hear it:










In 6-7 weeks I think you could lose 15-25 lbs. BUT you have got to get on track and stay on track. It seems like lately you have been sort of plan, sort of off plan. The days you are most on plan, you are still eating too many carbs (i.e. huge salads). If you stay at or below induction level carbs, you and I both know you will be hugely successful in 6-7 weeks. But if you have days with carbs around 30-90, your weight loss will be more likely 10-15 pounds, max. Come on girl, I know you want it so go get it, don't let anyone or anything (celebrations included) stop you! Sorry for the tough love, but I want to see you succeed!!!!!!

[mmam5]

I agree with Kate!

You can do this Samantha... I've seen you at Make-It-Fast ... What is it that you truly want? From a health standpoint, you know that even just losing 10-15 and keeping it off will make you that much healthier - which will make a happier you!

You can still Celebrate with your friends... but make that your 1-meal of the day, drink more water, etc. etc. You know what to do!!! And We know you can do it!

ps..

[Samantha42]

I seriously need the TOUGH-love kick in the ass conversation. You guys are all so absolutely right.... why is it so much easier to see what needs to be done from an outside perspective? Like, if my friend was in the same position that I'm in asked for advice, I would give her the greatest, most useful advice ever.

But when it's myself and my own situation, GACK! the excuses flow, I'm totally confused...

There is absolutely NO reason that I should be unable to stay on plan throughout my birthday. Because of that, I am getting back on track TODAY (not tomorrow, not wednesday), because tomorrow is my bday and I think I've gained 8 pounds in the past 3 weeks.

I'm upping my water today, I'm not even hungry so I'll have a protein shake now and then a LC dinner with 1-2 Miller Lites.

I'm going to work my butt off for this. I am going to stop trying to whiddle down my carbs and start again from the bottom up (know what I mean?). I am going to post my weight everyday (starting wednesday! let me just lose some water first? )


I you guys!

[GRAN4]

[SIZE=3]I am getting back on track TODAY[/size]

GOOD FOR YOU,SAM!!
I think you've already made the first step in your new commitment to yourself by telling your Mom you wanted to do something besides "eat out" for your BD. Way to go girl!!
Don't let anything stand in your way. You've flipped that switch that Aldiana spoke of; now keep the light burning and don't turn it off!
In 6-7 weeks I'll bet you can see 155 to 160 looking back up at you from that scale!

[shoelattegurl]

Samantha! Hope you have a great day!!

[mmam5]

Happy bday to you
Happy bday to you
Happy BIRTHDAY Dear Samanthaaaaaaaaaaa
Happy bday to you!!!!!!!

[evmays]

Hey girl, sorry I missed your b-day, I thought it was today!

Hope you had fun, even if you did cheat....
So I was thinking...the fear you have of seeing people you know is something I can relate to 100%....try to turn it into a fear of gaining more weight, that helped me...you can lose the weight, its not impossible, its just a matter of actually doing it ya know?
I read the part about howw your sister left u in your room to cry which made me tear up for you since I know it made you feel worse. The truth is that unless someone has gone through weight gain after being a normal weight - they dont know how depressing it really is, and they dont understand...I had tried over and over to get down to at least 150 when I was at 170 but it never happened. I was always like: "I wonder if I can make it this time" ...that set me up for failure. Instead of that believe in yourself enough to KNOW you will lose...I know how you are feeling Ive been there, but really, you cant depend on anyone else, you have to do it on your own. If you go out to dinner you have to bring your will power. Do the diet the right way (you know what you have to do). If you know you are going to not be able to resist if you go out - just dont go - say you're sick! You have to be consistent or you wont lose! Don't start tommorow - start right this minute! And by the way, I am not going to stop nagging you until you reach goal so u better get crackin'! Talk to you soon!!!!

[Samantha42]

LOL, you guys are too kind!

Thanks for the Bday wishes.... ended up having a great day and night. I did have some mexican and some ice cream for dessert. I just went out with my Mom, and we had SO many leftovers, so she was going to bring it all home and I told her not to. I explained to her that after my Bday I'm getting back on track with my eating and I'd appreciate not having the food in the house. We ended up bringing home 2 boxes, 1 of food for my mom at lunch, and 1 for whoever else in the house wanted to eat it (just not me ).

The second we walked in the door, my doggie KNOCKED the boxes to the ground, and DEVOURED the entire box of food for anyone. Thank god! My mom and I interpreted it as some weird sign saying it wasn't meant to be in the house after all, and her tacos were still ok and she brought them to work. It was very funny in the end. Also, my telling her about my plan was good. We don't normally talk about things like that (except when she has a confrontation/intervention, worst ever!) so I feel like it was a step. If other people around me are aware of my intentions, then maybe I won't have to LIE to get out of social obligations. It's a lot easier to stay on plan when other people know you are trying to, and they are watching you, and they are encouraging you.

Last night I had a "fat" dream.... I have 2 kinds of weight-related dreams.

1) the fat dream-- I am in public, my high school is there, my best friends and ex-boyfriends are there. I feel fat and ashamed. I hide. People whisper about me. Nobody recognizes me. I avoid talking to people and I run away.

2) the not-too-fat dream -- I am in public, see people who haven't seen me fat, but I've either recently lost a ton of weight and I'm thin and confident, or I'm still overweight but not grossly, and I feel confident, and people gravitate towards me and I'm happy.

Last night in my fat dream I didn't go to my best-friend's wedding because I knew people from high school would be there. I was wearing the dress around and everything, I kept crying to people and saying what a horrible selfish person I was for not going, and that I was a bridesmaid, too.

Isn't that just awful??? It's a sign, I'm not continuing down this path... whether it's a wedding or a night at the bar, I am going to be CONFIDENT and I am going to lose enough weight to feel good about myself.

My goals at the beginning of my journal never happened (let's just say, I'm higher than my starting point, instead of 15 pounds lower). I'm going to need to reevaluate my mini-goals.

Mini-goal #1 Be in Ketosis by Friday or Saturday morning, depending on how long it takes me.



If I lost even just 20 pounds and was still 25 away from goal, I'd be much happier. Mini-steps!

[Samantha42]

Ok, I just posted this elsewhere, but I just wanted to say, Minigoal met extemely early!!

Ok... this is so weird.... I just had a bday and totally took the week off from LC. It was so gross, I am totally carbed up, bloated... and very ready to get back on track.

So yesterday is my first day of clean eating and I ate 0 carbs (I like 2-3 days of M/E or water fasting to get back into ketosis quickly) and today I'm already in ketosis! I had the taste in my mouth and I thought, no possible way! So I used a ketostick and it was medium pink... I'm definitely in it. I didn't workout yesterday and Tuesday night I was 100% carbed up, if that's even an expression

Has anyone gotten into ketosis that quickly? Does it say something about my metabolism, insulin, etc? Is this a good thing or a bad thing? Just wondering about the physiology of it all...

[mmam5]

Hey Samantha . . . Maybe you didn't eat off plan as bad as you thought you did... sometimes I get there fairly quick also... then I have to ban myself from rechecking every couple of hours!! Maybe your body is in tune with your brain and you're ready to commit!!

Either way - take it and run! YOU Can do this !!!

ps - Hope your dog didn't get sick... Those signs are hard not to pay attention to aren't they!?!

[shoelattegurl]

Originally Posted by Samantha42

Ok, I just posted this elsewhere, but I just wanted to say, Minigoal met extemely early!!

Ok... this is so weird.... I just had a bday and totally took the week off from LC. It was so gross, I am totally carbed up, bloated... and very ready to get back on track.

So yesterday is my first day of clean eating and I ate 0 carbs (I like 2-3 days of M/E or water fasting to get back into ketosis quickly) and today I'm already in ketosis! I had the taste in my mouth and I thought, no possible way! So I used a ketostick and it was medium pink... I'm definitely in it. I didn't workout yesterday and Tuesday night I was 100% carbed up, if that's even an expression

Has anyone gotten into ketosis that quickly? Does it say something about my metabolism, insulin, etc? Is this a good thing or a bad thing? Just wondering about the physiology of it all...

Not to be the bearer of bad news, but it could be the excess fat of what you ate that is registering on the sticks. Do you eat lean meats on M/E? I know some who do, and some who dont. If you are eating bacon and red meat, im sure that might register on the sticks right away. On the other hand, I too have noticed that if I am in the dark purple area consistently, and then I happen to fall off the wagon and cheat, that night ill be out of the dark purple area. BUT, when I go back to low carb, I quickly get back into the purple area within 1 or 2 days. So I guess I can't be 100% on what causes it actually! Just wanted to give you me experiences to help you out!

[Potaty]

It all depends on how much glycogen you had stored up in your liver. If you were as carbed up as you think you were, maybe shoelatte is right and it's excess dietary fat. But you did mention the weird taste in your mouth so it sounds promising!

I am usually back in ketosis in about 48 hours or so.

By the way, I totally meant to say the other day but just plain forgot . I'm sorry!

[Samantha42]

Thanks for the responses guys!

Ok... the whole ketosis, dietary fat, glycogen thing, here's my take:

If you register ANY ketones in urine, you are in ketosis. Period. You may not lose weight if your fat is too high. Then the ketones are resulting from your eaten fat being too high for your body to start using your stored fat. Either way, you're burning fat. You only burn fat when you aren't burning sugar, since sugar is easier to breakdown for energy. If you have all of your glycogen reserves intact, you will NOT burn your dietary fat before using those reserves. You would STORE that fat, and burn the sugar you ate, or the glycogen you had reserved.

When people say "your ketone strips could be registering dietary fat", that's true, but misleading. Any normal person that eats a lot of dietary fat and a lot of carbs will NEVER register in ketosis! Unless they're diabetic, and using the fat reserves even though there is sugar present...... Just an fyi Kinda confusing, I know... but I taste it and I feel it and I just wanted to clarify, hope it helps.

Another good day, I feel SO much better... I know I'm losing so much water weight, I can't stop peeing!

[Samantha42]

And thanks for the bday wishes Kate! I hope you're doing well... and ya know, if you need to talk or need a kick in the booty, you can always email me! I hope you're feeling better and doing well.

[GRAN4]

Hi Sam, Been away for a few days and I'm soooo glad to see how well you're doing and, even better, how fantastic your attitude is!!!! Keep this up and everyone will be jealous of how great you look at reunion!!!

[Potaty]

How's it goin' girl? We need an update!!!!

[Samantha42]

I know, where I have been, right?! It's like, if I don't see my journal on my "user control panel" for recently posted on, I don't think to write in it !

Well, I'm doing great! I did a water fast a few days ago, for 3 days. I've eaten the past few days, and doing well. I know how against fasting people are, but it really got me over a hurdle. I was in ketosis after ONE day (like I posted before), and I've been in ketosis ever since. It renews my motivation to this WOL, and makes me crave meat as opposed to giant salads, or nuts, or cheese (i.e. low carb foods that can get very high carb, so I keep eating high carb pretending I'm on a low carb diet )

I'm around 181 now, maybe 180, if I'm a very lucky girl

Like you, Kate, I know I need to modify my goals to make them seem less daunting. I had originally put 125 as my goal, and in all honesty, I haven't weighed that much since before puberty (I think). I was 125 when I was about 15, so does that count as a good weight for me? At 16-17 I was 145, and at 18 I got down to 130. I think 130/140 is my personal best, that's why I changed my goal... I don't need to be super skinny... yet

So I still want to lose 20-25 lbs in the next 5 weeks before I start school... am I nuts ? I've been really ontop of what I eat and I need to start working out. Why is it so hard for me to start working out?!

[mmam5]

Same reason as it is for me! It's hot and it's summer let's go Play!!!

[GRAN4]

Glad you're still on plan, Sam and going down.....you're going to make it!

[Potaty]

How are you doing? We need an update again!

[Samantha42]

Originally Posted by Kate78526

How are you doing? We need an update again!

My goodness... I'm HORRIBLE with the updates!!!!

Well, since I got back on track July 26th I have been SO good. I had lost about 9 lbs in the first week of induction. Lately, I haven't gone this long (about 2 weeks) without having a breakdown, so I feel so great. I have been in ketosis the whole time, medium to deep. One problem, I weigh more than I did last week... TOM is coming in a few days (my chest is super sore, TMI?) and I am like a puffy balloon.

I have been gaining weight since Friday and I was in deep ketosis and NOT overeating at all.... now I'm at 184/185!!! How much of this weight could really just be water weight, AND does this mean I haven't been losing weight the whole time I was in ketosis (180.6 was the lowest before I started gaining). Do you know what I mean? Is it possible to have a 10 pounds WOOSH b/c that's really where I think I SHOULD be at now.

Aw okay, I'm just bumming out since I wanted to lose weight before I move (2 weeks) and start school (4 weeks) and I'm working my a$s off and instead I'm gaining weight. Like c'mon, throw me a frickin' bone here!



Wow I really went crazy with the BOLDS there...

[Potaty]

If you feel puffy then you are definitely retaining water. That should go away once TOM comes and goes. Have you been watching your sodium and drinking extra water? Are you "backed up?"

Post a typical menu, sometimes we don't see "stallers" like someone who can be objective.

[Samantha42]

Oy! I haven't been recording the past few days... but I'll start tomorrow so I can better correlate my weight/food. I guess I just figured, how could you gain 5 pounds when in deep ketosis, period... but that's a great idea, Kate. I can't believe tomorrow is the More Fabulous Me 1 month weigh in and I'm going to be hardly down anything! How are yoooooooou doin? I should post that in your journal, but really, feel free to reply here! So funny about your dog being pregnant, you better post pics!