NoMoreExcuses!

[NoMoreExcuses]

I am starting this journal to improve accountability to MYSELF....I have lived tooooo long under the influence and suppression of my weight. No clothes to wear! Embarrassed by my weight! Feeling older than I should! Sore, unmotivated to exercise! Afraid to see anyone that I haven't for awhile! No libido! The list goes on and on....
There are so many people on the is board that inspire me...Cartbabe, SugarDoll, JuliaL, Buzzybee. Yikes, I can't even begin to name everyone.

What are my excuses and reasons for still being heavy; for not staying with the low carb wol? Terrible self-talk....if I lose weight, I will still have terrible legs (spider veins), I will get wrinkly skin (no longer a spring chicken!) My breast will get even MORE saggy and I will have a paniculous.

But....what about the fact that I can FIND clothes to buy, nice clothes, not just t-shirts. I used to dress well! I have closet full of clothes that I can't wear. I DREAD getting dressed every day. What nonsense!
I make and sell jewelry.....being overweight has even hindered THAT, as I can't wear cute clothing to showcase it.

I used to be attractive, sexy. My poor husband is missing out.

Lifelong self esteem issues have taken it's toll, but can no longer be an excuse. I have grown past that, but bad habits remain.
I read an article in the paper this weekend....about a midwestern man who is going to be cutting lawns for free, as an effort to get more exercise and lose weight. What struck me was his statement that he
has a hard time keeping commitments to himself, but will keep commitments to others. THAT IS ME!
Why would I have so much less respect for myself than I do others?

I drink too much alcohol.....I tend to see it as being festive, making life a special occasion. How can it be a special occasion if I do it daily? Lately I have been waking up in a fog, my life IS affected by it.

I have been low-carbing for a couple of years. Off and on. I feel so much better when I do!
I know how to do it, I am not consistant.
My husband is supportive, but I feel like I am cheating him when I don't serve him carby food. I bet he'd choose regular sex over potatos.
This last five years have been so challenging, living overseas. I've used the stress as an excuse. Well, I am back now, time to look forward.

I want freedom from the bondage.

I have a doctors appointment scheduled for early August, I am actually scared!, Me, the nurse. I haven't had any good medical care for over five years (living overseas) I feel afraid that they are going to find problems. I am getting older and also haven't been taking care of myself.

Ok....deep breath.
Goals:
Postive attitude. I've done it before. My body won't be the same as it was when I was younger, but it wouldn't be anyway. HA!

Back to the rowing machine. Starting out with 10 minutes per day, Monday-Friday. "It's only 10 minutes!"

Following the Atkins/low glycemic load plans.

Weighing several times per week.

Reduce alcohol consumption. I am fun even without it.

Write here daily. Reread this first post. Refocus!

I am a good person, I deserve to be comfortable, proud of myself.

Time to break the carb addiction.

[NoMoreExcuses]

OK, did my 10.5 minutes on the rowing maching. I am physically able to do more, much more, but I need to work this into my daily lifestyle. So now, I can say to myself "It's only 10 minutes" and that seems very doable, not so intimidating. I will increase gradually. I have made the mistake in the past, to do too much too soon, and burned out.

[Angel5451]

Your story is so inspiring ((hugs))

I'm thinkin about starting one of my own.{a journal}
I was looking around on the site and saw your post on the mainboards.

You can do it!!

[sheryl0423]

I love my journal....I get to toot my own horn when I do good and I can ride my own butt when I mess up....
I have always talked to myself anyway
Best of Luck and I'll check back often.

[NoMoreExcuses]

Thanks Guys!

[NoMoreExcuses]

I am getting started early this morning; I am off to my volunteer job. I am down 4.5 pounds in three days, so it's a good start.
Yesterday's menu:
Late breakfast-leftover pork rib meat
D-large piece of salmon, grilled and fauxtato salad
7 16 oz glasses of water.

I will have leftover salmon for breakfast.
I won't row until I get home this afternoon. Now, generally, if i don't exercise first thing in the AM, I won't do it, but I am committing publically that I will.
It's only 10 minutes!!!!
I am seeing my parents in two weeks, my goal is that I am below 180.
6 pounds to go. I can do it! I haven't seen the 170's for quite a while.

[Valentine Baby]

I ran across your post in the ML where you said you were going to journal from now on and I ran right over here to give you support!

I'm here for ya Baby!

[NoMoreExcuses]

I had time to do my 11 minutes before I left (that sounds so stupid!)
If I wait to do it later, there is WAYYY to much time to talk myself out of it.
I used to row 40 minutes a day, or do a fast walk on an inclined treadmill for one hour. It is so hard to get started again!
Chicken fajitas for dinner, only one low carb tortilla for me.

It feels so good to have a plan! Puts me in a better mood.

[NoMoreExcuses]

I didn't weigh myself this AM.....I stayed on plan yesterday, but probably ate past satiety at dinner last night. I had my low carb tortilla with fajitta fillings, then had salad topped with more fillings. If I had just slowed down, had a glass of water, or waited a few minutes, I wouldn't have needed it.
I will weigh tomorrow. I get very discouraged if I don't see a loss, but have to weigh frequently to keep myself accountable. Sort of a viscious circle.....
I am going out to lunch today and will have salad bar. Tonight is grilled pork steak or fish and leftover fauxtato salad.
Off to row!

Represents shaking hands (a contract)with myself.

[NoMoreExcuses]

Wow, exhausting day. I had a doctor's appointment at 8:30 which ran until 10:00, then I 've been running errands until now, 2pm. I hadn't eaten a thing, so I was famished. Had leftover lettuce toped with fajita toppings. Now I just want a nap, and I haven't rowed.
My weight was the same as two days ago, but I must not let that get me down. It's still been 4.5 pounds in 5 days!
Hoping for a clean bill of health from the doctor. After over five years with little "good" medical care, it will be a relief.
Stopped at the mall to check out sales on clothes.....Most "large" sizes won't fit; how annoying! I need to use that energy to be successful!
Beef ribs tonight with the last of the fauxtato salad. I think that stuff is incredible, but when DH sees the little flowerets, he knows it's fake. Too bad; he can eat real 'tato salad at a resturant if he wants!

[NoMoreExcuses]

Weight is still the same.....hmmmm. This is where I start getting weird. What is it they said on Field of Dreams?

STAY THE COURSE

I will shop today for the weekend. If I am not prepared, it is too easy to order pizza.
Last night's dinner was great....boneless beef ribs braised in the oven (350 for 2.5 hours) then removed from the pan, reduce drippings until thick, add sugar free BBQ sauce and return to the oven for 45 minutes. Very tender and tasty. Forgot to add....use tons of garlic and chili powder.
Today I will row 15 minutes, since I didn't yesterday. Finally got a fan to help keep cool.
Should probably try to lower cals a bit. I am not keeping track, but haven't attempted to lower yet. Maybe I'd better start using Fitday again.

Here's to another good day!!!

[NoMoreExcuses]

Yesterday, I rowed 15 minutes, to make up for not rowing the day before. Whoops, now I have a new daily goal! Stayed on plan with my food, until late at night when I mindlessly ate sunflower seed in the shell while I watched TV. They are on plan, but mindless eating is not.
One week, no alcohol. I had just gotten into a bad habit.
Today....DH got free tickets to the baseball game. I would like to eat at home first, but he wants a dog at the park. Can I eat the dog and no bun?
He may have colleagues there, so i don't want to embarrass him buy bringing a tortilla for it. Supposedly, we are not to bring our own food into the park, or I would.
I will ponder this today.

[Valentine Baby]

There's nothing wrong with eating your dog without the bun. Hope you have a great time!

[NoMoreExcuses]

Well, I'm pretty embarrassed to say that I was NOT on plan Saturday....big time. So, my weight is up. I WILL not change my profile weight, because I WILL GET IT BACK OFF.

I will not beat myself up over it, just start fresh.
I will start using Fitday today.
I will row 15 minutes.

Even if I do poorly, I will write in my journal.

[SugarDoll]

stay positive you deserve it