Operation PJ's

[KhRuNgY]

Welcome to "Operation PJ's" - where my goal is to either loose this weight and finally get pregnant, or look SLAMMIN' in a pair of jeans.

I have been back on the wagon now for 2 weeks, and I feel my will power is solidly in place, therefore I can rejoin the boards. I am going to try and make it here every day for accountablily. I am proud of the last 2 weeks, and the way that I have sailed through several "challenges" with traveling and picnics. I'll elaborate more later, of that I am sure.


So let Operation PJ's begin!

(Today's Weight - 251.4)

[KhRuNgY]

In January of 2003 I started low-carbing at around 275# (on a 5'7" frame). I went CHEAT FREE until August when I had the worst gall bladder attack of my life. I had made it to 205# - but while I was waiting for surgery for over 2 weeks (in constant pain), I could only stomach toast and mashed potatoes. I never made it back to full plan...but I kept bread, rice and pasta out of my diet and actually maintained my weight until April of 2004.

Late March of 04, I found out I was pregnant (I suffer from infertility). I didn't change the way I was eating, but during the month of April, I added 25# effortlessly. Then, a few days before Mother's Day, I miscarried. That began one of the worst years of my life. My brother's 16 year marriage ended on Father's Day (and he never saw it coming) he was in a severe depression and drinking for months, and soon after, my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. I helped her through the tests, masectomy and chemo. Needless to say, my low-carb lifestyle took a drastic hit. And no matter what I did to get back on plan, it always lead to disaster. My doctor tried to tell me that I was depressed, but I insisted that I was only having a bad day and left in tears. Looking back, it was the most blatant case of textbook denial. I was so worried about everyone else, that I wasn't able to deal with the devestation of my 2nd miscarriage.

2005/2006 brought some relief. My mother is now cancer/chemo free, and my brother has met someone who is making him happy once again (even if the rest of the family think she’s a nut). After many failed attempts to resurface the will power I once had, I am back, and committed, I have to be if I want to make the rest of 2006 right.

In my stops and starts throughout the past 2 years, I was weighing myself constantly. I know that during induction you lose the first week, and then you may hold steady for a couple, and then begin to lose again. While weighing myself, I would always get discouraged around the end of the 3rd week.

So here I am - it's on the table. I am calling it: OPERATION - PJ's (P - Pregnancy and J - for the size 14 jeans waiting for me in my closet)...

I have been cheat free for 14 days, and I feel great!

B - 2 HB Eggs
L - Hamburger and Spinach Quiche
D - ?
S - Deviled Eggs or CC Muffin

[KhRuNgY]

I am not sure that I can actually claim cheat free...I am addicted to Dunkin' Donuts Iced Coffee. I am using Sweet n' Low, but I was shocked to see that just their black coffee has carbs in it. What's with that. So to compensate for getting one, I walk to the store and back (and not just straight there). So I am getting excercise & a fix.

I am waiting for DDR to arrive for my PS2. I hope it's as fun as I've heard. I think the challenge of the game will keep me excercising.

Yesterday's menu

B - 2 CC Muffins
L - Hamburger & Spinach Quiche
D - Grilled Chicken Salad
S - 1 CC Muffin

Today

B - 2 CC Muffins
L - Hamburger & Spinach Quiche
D - ?

Today's Weight - 251

[KhRuNgY]

100 lbs to go. Who could be happy about that??? I guess me...because it's not 114 lbs to go...

Well the weekend is always the hardest part, but my resolve is strong - so I shouldn't have a problem. I had a couple of cream cheese muffins this morning for breakfast, but as of now - the rest of the day is up in the air.

I have been doing the callenetic "bat wing" excercise to firm up my arms recommended by Sandooch (I think)...and I have been taking "extra" walks. I have a motivational problem...but once I actully am doing it, I am fine.

Well, here's to a great weekend...

[KhRuNgY]

Back up to 252 today. But I know this will be short lived, and I will be back on the losing end soon. I know that I haven't cheated and everything has been on plan...the number is just one of the drawbacks of obsessive scale syndrome.

My DDR for PS2 came last night. I haven't hooked it up yet...but definitely will tonight. I am sure I will look like an uncontrollable dumbass...but it's better than sitting on the couch watching tv.

[KhRuNgY]

Back to 250...just what I thought. I took and extra long walk yesterday, and I played with the DDR for about a half hour...it is fun...and in the workout mode it estimates how many calories that you are burning. I am afraid my fat butt is going to get danced through the livingroom floor - but so far - the integrity of the house has stood.

[KhRuNgY]

I am definitely in my post-induction stall. I've been eating clean and excercising my lazy butt off. Just waiting for the whoosh!

I have been walking more and playing the DDR - and my feet are KILLING me. Argh...but my lunchtime walks have been great. I have discovered places that have been practically under my nose for the last 7 years, but never really saw because I was planted at my desk all day. I just discovered this beautiful little cafe nestled between two buildings. It has a little english garden that you walk through to get the the actual building. I went in and ordered a salad during yesterday's walk because the place was so intriguing...and it was better that delicious. I am going to have to start walking downtown to see what is down there.

I have picnics this weekend, and I am wracking my brains as to what to take. I thought about bringing the Cream Cheese Muffins (that I eat for breakfast every morning) and dressing them up a bit with either jam or pie filling. Who knows. I may make some sort of mock potato salad too. I hate to cook ! I can, but just don't want to...

[KhRuNgY]

I am a little irritated with the scale this morning...I really should not use Mondays for my official weigh in days. I weighed in at 246 and 248 over the weekend, and now I am back at 249. I know that I've done everything within my limits to stay on plan. I went to a bar-b-q on Saturday (I brough taco dip - which I ate some with celery vg - and I brough some fauxtato salad and deviled eggs. So with the hot dogs/hamburgers/sausage - I had plenty to eat without delving into the 8 cakes that were brought to the gathering. I did have some fruit...but about a half cups worth.

Yesterday, I guess I was on plan until I had 2 scoops of no-sugar-added vanilla ice cream. ...with about a tablespoon of no-sugar-added hot fudge...

Back on track this morning. I've got to get my water in and get this system revamped.

[KhRuNgY]

Well, today is Day 35 of my diet, and I am down 17 lbs. I am happy with my progress so far. I have become much more active. I am walking at least 2 miles a day now with some hills - not as fast as I would like, but I am working my way up. My asthma is now a rare occurance - not that it was horrible prior to this, but there has been a marked improvement. I have been doing DDR (Dance Dance Revolution for PS2), which is a fun way to get in some excercise. I have also been doing ab crunches, and I can see some definition through all that fat . Woohoo.

I continue to stay motivated and pretty much cheat free (other than the iced coffee with real sugar incident last week).

[KhRuNgY]

I reitterate how I hate official weigh-in's on Monday mornings! Although I am not completely innocent when it comes to that slight gain. I had a few too many carby alcoholic beverages on Saturday night. I wouldn't say I did all that bad, because the party I was at had a HUGE table FULL of cookies, cakes and candies. Even in my drunken state, I didn't delve into the goodies. I continued to hit the veggies and cheese platter if I felt the need to eat.

I think some of my Monday morning weight gain has something to do with the fact that I have a hard time getting in all my water when I am not at work. I just can't seem to get myself in the habit at home. I've always been a chronic dehydrator, so getting in all this water is definitely a challenge for me. The prelude to TOM could be factoring in now...or it could be the fact that I got a pretty decent sunburn yesterday hanging out by the lake all day.

It is supposed to be 94 and humid here today. I am not sure if I am going to be able to handle my 2.6 mile walk at lunch. I have been doing it religiously every work day. That's a 180 turn from my sedatary lifestyle. 3 months ago I would have rather died than leave my desk and go for a WALK.

OH WELL - Here's to a better week!

[KhRuNgY]

This Monday's weigh-in was a little more encouraging. I am now an official member of the 20lb club. I still have a long way to go, but I am as committed as I was the first time I was on LC, and I am sure that I can keep this up forever.

On the Operation PJ front - no pregnancy this month. TOM arrived this morning putting a damper on my hopes for being a mother in March 2007. That just make my weight loss drive even higher. I purposely gave myself 2 goals so that if one wasn't successful, the other would be.

Even with the 20lbs, I haven't moved into a new pant size. I guess I didn't realize how tight the size I was in might have been. I have noticed some rolls shrinking out of sight though, and that makes me happy. I continue to walk at lunch time, and I am growing to enjoy it.

This weeks weights: Mon 7/17 248; Tue 249.4; Wed 250.2; Thu 248; Fri 247.2; Sat 245.2; Sun 243.4)

[KhRuNgY]

To say I am discouraged is an understatement. I don't remember ever yo-yoing like this. I have been eating on plan, getting my excercise, and drinking my water, but I feel like it is in vein. I continue to plug ahead, but it makes me sad.

I should be happy that I am down 17lbs, but I feel like I have worked so hard for the last 2 months, and have nothing to show for it. I haven't even gone down a size. At least something tangible like that would make me feel better.

The only thing for me that is different this go around is that I am not taking Glucophage for my PCOS. I am not sure if that has anything to do with the slow weight loss, but it peaks my suspicion.

I don't have the desire to eat off plan, but I wish I could just stop the yo-yoing that is going on!

This weeks weights: Mon 7/24 243.8; Tue 246.6; Wed 245; Thu 246.2; Fri 246.2; Sat 247.6; Sun 246.4)