Melodye's " I Wanna Live" Journal

[Melodye]

I have decided that I will journal and see if it helps me on my journey to lose this weight that I have let myself gain over the years. I feel that it will hold me accountable for my actions. I am a mother to 3 children, 2 girls and 1 boy. Their ages are 8,7, and 5. I work in healthcare part-time and take care of my kids and my dad , that has Multiple schlerosis and lives with us. My weight has caused me many problems, I am diabetic(3 insulin shots a day), I have degenerative disc disease(already had back surgery), sleep aphnea, hiatel hernia, and just overall feeling crappy. I let my weight keep me from enjoying my life, I feel I set back on the sidelines and watch my children rather than participating in things with them. My husband and I are doing this together so I think it will help. I have so much weight to lose , but I am gonna try not to think about it, and just take it day by day and pound by pound. I did Atkins about 4 years ago and lost 75 pounds and felt great, so I know this WOE works. I strayed away from my plan when I had back surgery and allowed myself to gain the weight back plus more.
I had considered having gastric bypass, but I want to try doing it without surgery(afraid of all the risk). I know I have to lose the weight or else I wil die . I was in the hospital 7 times last year due to complications from my diabetes.
I weighed in today at 324.2 . Thats not the most I have ever weighed but why have I let myself get to this weight. I am not sure what I would like to weigh. I know I would like to be below 200 someday. I think 145 ponds would a good weight for my height of 5"7". But right now, my first goal is to get below 300 pounds, so that means I have to lose 24.2 pounds.
So far today , I have ate a 3 egg cheese omelet and 2 slices of bacon and of course lots of water. I ate that at lunch , due to I slept in since I gotta work 3rd shift tonight. Well, I will journal again later. I just gotta remember to take it day by day and no cheats. This is literally " a do or die situation", and I WANNA LIVE!!!!

[Melodye]

Well, I just finished dinner. I had 2 hamburger patties with half a slice of melted cheese ,mayo, slice tomatoe, and dill pickles. I also ate a half a cup of summer squash and onions sauteed in butter. I have drank so much water , I will probally be running to the bathroom all night at work.
I made a big bowl of tuna fish salad earlier to have this week. I probally will take me some of it to work for a snack with some pork skins or I maty just take some string cheese and pepperoni slices, not sure yet.
Do you all feel that journaling is helping you on this WOE ? I sure hope it will help me. Well, I am gonna go take my shower and lay down for a little before work time.

[Melodye]

Well, its day two and I have the worst headache, which I know will go away in the next couple days , but gawd it hurts. I stayed on plan last night at work, which could be hard to do as everyone on third seems to eat all night long,lol. I came home this am and had some tuna fish salad and pork skins for breakfast (it was what I was craving), then at lunch I has a hamburger patty with mayo, tomatoe, dill pickle chips, and a small salad.So far I have been satisfied. I plan to grill ribeye steaks for dinner and probally sautee some squash with a little onion in butter,and probally add a salad.As, I am typing now , I am drinking my water. I plan to only weigh once a week and that will be on Saturdays. I have found in the past , if I weigh everyday , I get aggravated if the scales havent moved. I need to measure, so I can see when I lose inches, maybe I will do that later today. I need to start exercising, probally will start walking on the treadmill downstairs as all it has done recently is gather dust. Well, I will check in later to let you know how I have done the rest of the day.

[wisnowbird]

Originally Posted by Melodye

Do you all feel that journaling is helping you on this WOE ?

Yes, yes, yes, yes. Did I say yes? I think two of the things that have really helped this time around have been using Fitday religiously & keeping my journal here. Knowing that people read it (even if it isn't that many people) & knowing that I will have to confess if I cheat & gain weight helps me stay in line sometimes. I also promised myself that I would never lie to myself about what I was eating - thus everything I eat goes into Fitday. There have been times where I was going to eat a cookie or bread, went to the computer & entered it in, saw the numbers & decided not to eat it.

Anyways, just wanted to say Looks like you're off to a great start

[Melodye]

Thanks Wisnowbird for the welcome!!! I am also entering my food into fitday.
Well, I made it through my 2nd day of induction. My headache is easing up some. I am also getting ketosis breath, so I think I must be in ketosis. I wish I had some sticks to check. But, I never used them before, so I think my breath is my sign that I am here. I can already see a difference in my blood sugars, just gotta make sure I don't go to low. I am sure that with this woe my insulin needs will decrease as they did when I low carbed years ago. But , this time I am gonna do it for life. I wanna be healthy , so I will not only look better but feel better and live to see my children grow up. Well, I will be back tomorrow. Gonna see if I can get a little sleep. The kids get up bright and early.

[Melodye]

It's day 3 and I am still doing well, the headache is gone today, . I actually feel pretty good today. I think this evening I am gonna walk on the treadmill while the kids are at vacation bible school. Not sure how long I will walk, gonna start out slow, don't wanna over do it. So far today I have eaten a ribeye steak and 3 egg chesse omelet and lots of water. I think for dinner I may fix some boiled shrimp with hot garlic butter sauce and a salad. I can already tell a difference in the way I feel. When you eat lots of carbs it makes you sluggish and like you have a brain fog, but since low carbing only 3 days I can already feel a little more energy. I can't wait til saturday to see if I lose any weight this first week. Well, gonna go surf around the site a little . BBl this evening.

[seriouschick]

Hi Melodye,

Just wanted to say ! Journaling here has helped me stay on track in such a big way!

It seems like you're doing really well. KUTGW!

[Mysty]

Here is my Journal for today , which is my first day in induction. Please let me know how I did, this does not include dinner yet...seems I dont have room for it?????

http://www.fitday.com/WebFit/PublicJ...l?Owner=Mysty1

Any help in how I should tweak or change what iI eat will be more than welcome, I need all the help I can get, this is all so new to me.

Thanks

[Melodye]

Thanks seriouschick for making me feel welcome. I look forward to hopefully making some friends here on the board also to have to help support and motivate me.

Mysty- as for your question about your menu so far today, I personally would try and eat something besides the south beach bar, which used 15 of your 20 induction carbs. You have 2 carbs left for the rest of the day , maybe for dinner fix you a big steak or some kind of protein and maybe a 1/2 cup green beans. I know the bars and shakes are convenient but I try to stick to all natural foods. You will be ok, though.

[Melodye]

Well, I just finished dinner and my tummy is satisfied. I fixed boiled shrimp and hot garlic butter sauce to dip them in, I had a salad, and about 1/2 cup of the squash I fixed last night. Hubby is gone to take the kids to bible school, so they will be gone 2 hours. When he gets back we are going to go gather the squash and cucumbers and I plan to walk on the treadmill before bedtime tonight. I also need to color my hair and cover my gray. I have been running to the bathroom all day to pee, must be all this water I am drinking(just about peed in my pants in Food Lion). I have been doing good so far, no cravings. I did eat a boiled egg for snack this afternoon, not sure what I will have if I need a snack this evening, maybe so sf jello, just hope it wont get me to craving sweets, if so I wont eat it anymore. May check back in later if not see you tomorrow.

[Melodye]

Finally got a chance to check in for the day. Everything is still going great. For lunch I ate a pork chop seasoned with salt,pepper, and Essence, some green beans seasoned with bacon bits and a piece of hard cheese. It was very good. Not sure as to what I am having for supper yet, may fix some chicken with alfredo sauce over spaghetti squash or may just eat leftovers.
I did walk on the treadmill last night, only 10 minutes. I know thats not much but for me , who hasnt been doing any exercise its a start. Thought I would start out slow and build up each time. It got my heart rate up though and I was sweating.
So far, I havent told anyone in my family except my dad that I am trying to lose weight . Of course hubby knows, as he is doing it with me. I thought I would just lose it and see when anyone notices that I am losing. In the past , I have found sometimes when people know you are trying to lose weight , they sabbatoge you .
Well, I need to get a shower, been so busy this am , haven't had a chance. I will check in later.

[Melodye]

Well, I didn't check in yesterday. It was just a really busy , crazy day. Anyways, I stayed on plan , even though yesterday I seemed hungrier than usual. I may have been getting ready to lose some weight, sometimes I notice when the scales are getting ready to move, my body get very hungry, like its not wanting to let me lose this weight. (trying to hold on to it).
Today I have done good, I do need to try and get my 2-3 cups of salad in though. For lunch I had a sausage and cheese omelet and then for dinner I had broiled salmon with greenbeans and sauteed squash .
I will weigh Saturday, I hope to see some weight loss. Hubby and I did do measurements the other night, we plan to check those monthly.
I need to go walk on the treadmill , as I made a goal to exercise at least 3 times a week for now. I need to go to the grocery store . I am out of salad stuff and I wanna get some steaks and stuff. Steaks seem to satisfy me better than other meats, even though I know I need my chicken and fish and shouldn't eat red meats all the time.
I go back to work tomorrow night on 3rd. So, I definatley wanna take me something low carb to eat. Well, check in tomorrow.