Starting over and a new Journal!

titilayo_houseton · 06-03-2006, 12:35 PM

I started this WOE October 1st, 2005, a few days after my hubby left for Iraq. A couple of months ago I begin cheating! Big mistake becasue it lead to the yoyo effect. I would gain from eating whatever, go back to atkins lose, and then gain it back. If I had stuck to it all this time I would have reached goal by now..But Now that is over. I am back on atkins for life. I see that is the only way to live life. I would eat, but food was never as good as the foods I eat on atkins, so why was I eating? Well, whatever the reson was it is over. I begin trying to re-focus and eat right June 1st, 2006, and I am going to reach goal, remain eating right, and continue to work out. No matter how bad I was eating I stuck to drinking water and exercising. At least two good habits. Hopefully I can come here every day and write in my journal. I think this website helped me a lot becasue it gave me something to do other than eating food out of boardom..But I am back and loving it...
Breakfast - steak and mayo
Lunch - steak and mayo...I am really craving mayo?
Dinner chicken wings and mayo LOL>>>>I guess it is ok for now, just until I get back into ketosis...
well..tomorrow will be another intresting day. I hope that I can get through it..TOday I even went to a b-day party and I didn't touch anything..my will power is slowly but surely returning. I pray that GOD give me the strength to make it these next three months...six monts...1 year....many years....Amen...

titilayo_houseton · 06-04-2006, 12:05 PM

well, today is another successful day so far. I hope that I can continue to keep up the good work. I pray that I will make it to my goal weight healthy. I have not been starving like usual, but I do keep eating...for no reason. I want to control eating. I know it has a lot to do with being bored, tired, and lonely. Maybe when my hubby comes home I will be ok. I love my husband so much and I can not wait until he makes it home. It is going to be wonderful. Well..I have to get of the computer now and go study..
Breakfast - steak and mayo
lunch - steak and mayo
snack - cheese(string)
dinner - chicken wings
hopefully that will be it for the day. I am tired so that might be the end of my eating, plus I need to spend some time with the baby...lil man...

titilayo_houseton · 06-07-2006, 03:07 PM

why do people even get married or have relationships? To go through the madness of what love is suppose to be. I can not stand being married to my husband some days and then other days I love him..Why is this. why every day can not be a good day? I guess there is no such thing. So why do we stay married? Even when the bad out weighs the good right now. Maybe we are just afraid to be lonely. or the other person will find someone else they love more. I am not really sure what the true reason is, but I think I could be just as happy dating. At least there is no drama..you know what I mean. I can not stand the drama that goes on between the two of us..But in all Iam going to stick with my diet..Today I added a few vegetables, but that is cool because I can not just eat for the rest of my life..Even though it did put me back in a place where I am no always hungry. I am going to do just meat every other week...this next 7 days I will include some veggies...But I will not go overboard with them like i did before. I was losing, but I don't know what happen..it was them darn sweets and fast food that made me gain..I know..and it made my appitite increase. Now i fee much better..Food is not the only thing on my mind anymore..I am very happy about that. i have a steak almost every day now because it is so good and filling. I can eat one steak for the whole day come home and have dinner and be great..some days are harder than others, but today seem pretty good. I am not starved and if I feel hunger I will have some water because i am pretty dehydrated. Well...
breakfast - steak and mayo
lunch - same
dinner - some type of wondeful dish that was filling and tasty...shrimp/chicken..cheese and mayo...LOL>>>it was really good though..
I really want to stick to this WOE..Everyday I think about illegal foods that i can not wait to try once I have loss the weight, but that is not going to happen. I will not indulge in tha bad eating. once A month has passed and I have been able to control my urges I will work on just adding back healty foods following the atkins pyramid...I will make sure my proteins are the highest in stead of my breads.. I am going to stick to low carb breads and pastas too...I will eat fruit in moderation, but mainly the friuts with the lowest carb content. Like strarwberries..I will also drink fat free non dairy milk..I actually like it. i like mostly everything now I think,. I have not tried cottage cheese in a long time, but I am sure I will like it too..I love yogurt too..man..I really like fat free stuff, but yogurt has way too many carbs for me..I am not really sure what to do..I will figure it out when the time has come...RIght now I just want to learn how to eat only when hungry and not when bored, stressed, or emotionally frustrated. I just want to learn to eat just to survive. not wake up in the moring thinking about what is for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I hate that food is what gets me out of bed some days. well not recently. I have been to tired and really don't care for food in the morning because I choose sleep instead...Now I be warn out..Popeyes has me working almost every day..I am tired of working, but I never get tired of the people that come in..It is fun to talk to everyone, but other than that...LOL>>>Well it is time for me to get some rest..Yes!!!!!!!! I need some, so until tomorrow...

titilayo_houseton · 06-08-2006, 09:38 AM

today has been okay so far. i gained some weight, but i am suspecting tom so i am not going to trip anf give up because I feel much better now than I have in the past few months. i can do this anf live this WOL..So, affter another week or so then I will weigh myself and see where i am at. I hope that I am under 190.

titilayo_houseton · 06-11-2006, 09:19 AM

Day 11 and I am doing alright. YEsterday I messed up completely, but I bounced right back. I am trying to keep it together for ever. I just saw a size that I don't id being, and so that is inspiration for me to not eat ice cream even though everybody around me is eating. It is motivation to keep me eating a peice of steak and veggies with out anything else. I am going to beat this obesity problem one way or another. I guess starting over has given some really bad mood swings. I have been tripping lately. BUt that might just be normal. Well...I am off work for a couple of days and those are the days I tend to eat more, so I am going to make sure I get out of the house...I need to also get some study time in also...Yes...I really really really do...Other than that I am feeling ok..I can not wait to talk to my hubby. I really miss him.

titilayo_houseton · 07-15-2006, 12:29 PM

Right now I am so so hungry. I am not starting over with induction. I am trying to begin with 50 carbs a day and also trying to be a vegetarian at the same time. I have two months before my husband come home and I need to lose a lot of weight. I want to lose 30 to 40 more pounds before he gets home. Plus I am going home, so I really want to go back looking excellent..Like hair done, clothes looking extra cute, nails done. THe last time people saw me I was looking crazy. My hair was horrible, and I weighed almost 300 pounds. So really, I was looking worst than ever. I didn't even realize how bad I was looking. I guess I am happy about the weight that I have loss already, but I want to look even better soon. I want to reach the goal that I set out to reach. I want to be sexy again. I want to tone my body and look better than ever. I know that I can do it. I just have to control my urges to eat and eat. I am really really trying today. It is very hard. I can not even concentrate on anything else. I need to study for my test, exercise, and study for my class. My class is almost over though..I have already done most of the work for the class, so now i just need to study for my test that i need to pass..Plus I am stressd about my financial aid. I am not sure if i am going to have time for the finacial aid to go through. I hate when this happens. I am not tripping though..I am sure I will have time to get it together..even If i have to save for it myself. I am not tripping..I rather not eve get financial aid to be honest..

06-03-2006, 12:35 PM	#1
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	Starting over and a new Journal! I started this WOE October 1st, 2005, a few days after my hubby left for Iraq. A couple of months ago I begin cheating! Big mistake becasue it lead to the yoyo effect. I would gain from eating whatever, go back to atkins lose, and then gain it back. If I had stuck to it all this time I would have reached goal by now..But Now that is over. I am back on atkins for life. I see that is the only way to live life. I would eat, but food was never as good as the foods I eat on atkins, so why was I eating? Well, whatever the reson was it is over. I begin trying to re-focus and eat right June 1st, 2006, and I am going to reach goal, remain eating right, and continue to work out. No matter how bad I was eating I stuck to drinking water and exercising. At least two good habits. Hopefully I can come here every day and write in my journal. I think this website helped me a lot becasue it gave me something to do other than eating food out of boardom..But I am back and loving it... Breakfast - steak and mayo Lunch - steak and mayo...I am really craving mayo? Dinner chicken wings and mayo LOL>>>>I guess it is ok for now, just until I get back into ketosis... well..tomorrow will be another intresting day. I hope that I can get through it..TOday I even went to a b-day party and I didn't touch anything..my will power is slowly but surely returning. I pray that GOD give me the strength to make it these next three months...six monts...1 year....many years....Amen... __________________ Eating is an addiction for me, but one day at I time I will train myself to eat in-order to live and not live to eat!!!!!!

07-15-2006, 12:29 PM	#6
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	Today I am starting over! Right now I am so so hungry. I am not starting over with induction. I am trying to begin with 50 carbs a day and also trying to be a vegetarian at the same time. I have two months before my husband come home and I need to lose a lot of weight. I want to lose 30 to 40 more pounds before he gets home. Plus I am going home, so I really want to go back looking excellent..Like hair done, clothes looking extra cute, nails done. THe last time people saw me I was looking crazy. My hair was horrible, and I weighed almost 300 pounds. So really, I was looking worst than ever. I didn't even realize how bad I was looking. I guess I am happy about the weight that I have loss already, but I want to look even better soon. I want to reach the goal that I set out to reach. I want to be sexy again. I want to tone my body and look better than ever. I know that I can do it. I just have to control my urges to eat and eat. I am really really trying today. It is very hard. I can not even concentrate on anything else. I need to study for my test, exercise, and study for my class. My class is almost over though..I have already done most of the work for the class, so now i just need to study for my test that i need to pass..Plus I am stressd about my financial aid. I am not sure if i am going to have time for the finacial aid to go through. I hate when this happens. I am not tripping though..I am sure I will have time to get it together..even If i have to save for it myself. I am not tripping..I rather not eve get financial aid to be honest..

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06-04-2006, 12:05 PM	#2
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	well, today is another successful day so far. I hope that I can continue to keep up the good work. I pray that I will make it to my goal weight healthy. I have not been starving like usual, but I do keep eating...for no reason. I want to control eating. I know it has a lot to do with being bored, tired, and lonely. Maybe when my hubby comes home I will be ok. I love my husband so much and I can not wait until he makes it home. It is going to be wonderful. Well..I have to get of the computer now and go study.. Breakfast - steak and mayo lunch - steak and mayo snack - cheese(string) dinner - chicken wings hopefully that will be it for the day. I am tired so that might be the end of my eating, plus I need to spend some time with the baby...lil man...

06-07-2006, 03:07 PM	#3
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	why do people even get married or have relationships? To go through the madness of what love is suppose to be. I can not stand being married to my husband some days and then other days I love him..Why is this. why every day can not be a good day? I guess there is no such thing. So why do we stay married? Even when the bad out weighs the good right now. Maybe we are just afraid to be lonely. or the other person will find someone else they love more. I am not really sure what the true reason is, but I think I could be just as happy dating. At least there is no drama..you know what I mean. I can not stand the drama that goes on between the two of us..But in all Iam going to stick with my diet..Today I added a few vegetables, but that is cool because I can not just eat for the rest of my life..Even though it did put me back in a place where I am no always hungry. I am going to do just meat every other week...this next 7 days I will include some veggies...But I will not go overboard with them like i did before. I was losing, but I don't know what happen..it was them darn sweets and fast food that made me gain..I know..and it made my appitite increase. Now i fee much better..Food is not the only thing on my mind anymore..I am very happy about that. i have a steak almost every day now because it is so good and filling. I can eat one steak for the whole day come home and have dinner and be great..some days are harder than others, but today seem pretty good. I am not starved and if I feel hunger I will have some water because i am pretty dehydrated. Well... breakfast - steak and mayo lunch - same dinner - some type of wondeful dish that was filling and tasty...shrimp/chicken..cheese and mayo...LOL>>>it was really good though.. I really want to stick to this WOE..Everyday I think about illegal foods that i can not wait to try once I have loss the weight, but that is not going to happen. I will not indulge in tha bad eating. once A month has passed and I have been able to control my urges I will work on just adding back healty foods following the atkins pyramid...I will make sure my proteins are the highest in stead of my breads.. I am going to stick to low carb breads and pastas too...I will eat fruit in moderation, but mainly the friuts with the lowest carb content. Like strarwberries..I will also drink fat free non dairy milk..I actually like it. i like mostly everything now I think,. I have not tried cottage cheese in a long time, but I am sure I will like it too..I love yogurt too..man..I really like fat free stuff, but yogurt has way too many carbs for me..I am not really sure what to do..I will figure it out when the time has come...RIght now I just want to learn how to eat only when hungry and not when bored, stressed, or emotionally frustrated. I just want to learn to eat just to survive. not wake up in the moring thinking about what is for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I hate that food is what gets me out of bed some days. well not recently. I have been to tired and really don't care for food in the morning because I choose sleep instead...Now I be warn out..Popeyes has me working almost every day..I am tired of working, but I never get tired of the people that come in..It is fun to talk to everyone, but other than that...LOL>>>Well it is time for me to get some rest..Yes!!!!!!!! I need some, so until tomorrow...

06-08-2006, 09:38 AM	#4
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	today has been okay so far. i gained some weight, but i am suspecting tom so i am not going to trip anf give up because I feel much better now than I have in the past few months. i can do this anf live this WOL..So, affter another week or so then I will weigh myself and see where i am at. I hope that I am under 190.

06-11-2006, 09:19 AM	#5
titilayo_houseton Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Germany Posts: 221 Gallery: titilayo_houseton Stats: Starting over again!@ 272/ goal 160 WOE: Atkins/Low carbs...less eating Start Date: October 2004	Day 11 and I am doing alright. YEsterday I messed up completely, but I bounced right back. I am trying to keep it together for ever. I just saw a size that I don't id being, and so that is inspiration for me to not eat ice cream even though everybody around me is eating. It is motivation to keep me eating a peice of steak and veggies with out anything else. I am going to beat this obesity problem one way or another. I guess starting over has given some really bad mood swings. I have been tripping lately. BUt that might just be normal. Well...I am off work for a couple of days and those are the days I tend to eat more, so I am going to make sure I get out of the house...I need to also get some study time in also...Yes...I really really really do...Other than that I am feeling ok..I can not wait to talk to my hubby. I really miss him.