Amber's Journal

[amhouse36]

Hi Amber! I just wanted to pop in and say hello! I hope your calves feel better soon. Maybe you're doing to much for now? Maybe give yourself a break until they don't hurt and then go back to it but only start with 15-20 mins of walking. I noticed at one time you did 3 miles?! THat's great! I only do at the most 2mi on good days because if I did 3 miles I'd be dying.

You're doing great! Just keep going. You're gonna step on that scale one day and out of the blue you will be down another pound!
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Oh Valentine!

Hi Valentine- thanks for stopping in I haven't done 3 miles since that one day- but I'd like to make a 2mi walk an everyday thing. Thanks for your support and good luck with your weight loss

[chakwaina37]

You are going to make it thru this and soon the whoosh fairy will come.

[amhouse36]

Weight
234

Yes! Finally broke the curse of the 235's...I hope it doesn't pop back up there again. My scale was all over the place today...sometimes it said as low as 232! But I'm pretty sure I'm at 234- that was the most consistent. Hope to be back to my normal stomping grounds- which is the 220's (my average weight for several years) and then make my way to Onederland

Exercise
0 Mi

I'm not beating myself up over this because I think my feet/legs needed a rest, and it was rainy. I'm thinking about ordered an exercise video, like turbo jam...I don't think I'd stick to it though.

I guess my late night binge helped or something- weird. Need to get some groceries soon, running low on bottled water...I won't drink the tap water (city water) I would before Atkins, but since I'm drinking so much water and nothing but water- I might as well get some that tastes decent.

B- none
L- none
D- Steak, loaded brocolli w/ sour cream and cheese, salad w/ ranch dressing
S- veggies w/ ranch, s/f cherry snow cone, pepperoni and cheese, s/f bakers chocolate w/ splenda

So I didn't have a real breakfast or lunch but I made up for it in snacks, eh?

Maybe I'll be solidly at 233 tomorrow

[amhouse36]

Weight
233

Yes! I'm finally losing steadily again- sucks when you have a plateau! The scale once again said 232 today, but mainly 233...hopefully I'll drop another pound within the week

Exercise
0.5 mi

Yeah, still have the burning leg thing going on I'm not walking fast, don't really know whats going on... just gotta keep at it.

B-none
L-none
D- salad, loaded brocolli, BBQ chicken (low carb, sugar free sauce)
S- s/f passion fruit snow cone, s/f chocolate with splenda

I almost bought a box of Atkins chocolate Endulge bars today...walked away and then ran back to put them back...CANNOT have those in the house without eating the whole box! I'm doing so well on this reinduction- gonna keep at it for the minimum of two weeks, then we'll see if it's worth adding in more carbs.

Don't have much to say today except I'm happy about the lose and looking forward to losing more

[Valentine Baby]

Yay on the loss! Good for you! Putting those Atkins bars back. They are bad new for me and a lot of other people have said the same thing.

Where's your Breakfast & Lunch?

[chakwaina37]

WTG on your loss kutgw

[amhouse36]

Thanks Alene and Valentine for the encouragement- very much appreciated

[amhouse36]

Weight
233

So very close to 232...I could say I'm 232.5, but lets not tempt the wooshie fairy, right? I think I'll make my goal of being solidly in the 220's by July- woohoo!

Exercise
0 mi

Nope didn't exercise today- oopsi-daisy!

B-Eggs, cheese
L-None
D- Pork chops, salad, deep fried green beans
S- s/f snow cone, s/f jello

Loving the s/f snow cones!

Not much to say tonight except COME ON 230!!!!

[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Need I say more? Back to my old friend 235- thought I'd never see the likes of you again- but no, I'm back I think I know what caused it...I ate super late last night..had a bunch of cream cheese, tuna salad and crystal light...I don't think crystal light can cause you to gain, but cream cheese would, right?

Exercise
0 MI

No good excuse today, just didn't wanna walk. I was thinking of joining the YMCA but I don't think I'm ready yet...meaning I don't want to spend $45 a month for something I'm not sure I'll use...not ready to make the commitment yet.

Yes, I do want to lose this weight- but I always feel so defeated when it's taken me this long to lose just 5 pounds....I did technically start a month ago today....although I've been cheat-free since May 30th. I am trying to look on the bright side...I haven't had ice cream, chips, regular soda, french fries, milkshake, pizza, bread- in over 15 days....I should be proud (that doesn't sound like much of an accomplishment for most people, but for me it is because I'm usually a cheat demon!) I did go off induction, but did not cheat...and I did go off MY induction rules (no crystal light, no diet soda- had a diet coke today) but yes, technically, I'm still on plan. Nothing else to do but keep going...

B- my super late night snacking
L-None
D-Hamburgers, salad, deep fried green beans with mayo
S-diet coke

See what happens tomorrow

[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Need I say more? Back to my old friend 235- thought I'd never see the likes of you again- but no, I'm back I think I know what caused it...I ate super late last night..had a bunch of cream cheese, tuna salad and crystal light...I don't think crystal light can cause you to gain, but cream cheese would, right?

Exercise
0 MI

No good excuse today, just didn't wanna walk. I was thinking of joining the YMCA but I don't think I'm ready yet...meaning I don't want to spend $45 a month for something I'm not sure I'll use...not ready to make the commitment yet.

Yes, I do want to lose this weight- but I always feel so defeated when it's taken me this long to lose just 5 pounds....I did technically start a month ago today....although I've been cheat-free since May 30th. I am trying to look on the bright side...I haven't had ice cream, chips, regular soda, french fries, milkshake, pizza, bread- in over 15 days....I should be proud (that doesn't sound like much of an accomplishment for most people, but for me it is because I'm usually a cheat demon!) I did go off induction, but did not cheat...and I did go off MY induction rules (no crystal light, no diet soda- had a diet coke today) but yes, technically, I'm still on plan. Nothing else to do but keep going...

B- my super late night snacking
L-None
D-Hamburgers, salad, deep fried green beans with mayo
S-diet coke

See what happens tomorrow
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[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Exercise
0 Mi

I'm in a 'don't give a damn' mood today...and yesterday I didn't actually cheat but I did push the boundaries...did a 'Level 2 cheat' again...berries, diet soda, lc icecream & yogurt, Atkins endulge bar, lc cheesecake from a restaurant. I'm lucky I didn't gain- but I know I'd certainly wouldn't lose! I don't actually feel deprived of food- not having a terrible time with cravings (except chocolate!) but I feel like I have put in the time and energy and haven't seen the expected results. I know obviously, if I was exercising like a maniac and measuring every teaspoon, I would have more of a right to complain...but this is my journal and I'm allowed to vent- right Nothing to do except press on- what other optional do I have? I'm definitely not going to go gain more weight...I refuse to buy a bigger size of clothing- I'm on the edge of being a size 24...I have some hand me down capris that are 24's...they're baggy on me, but the 22's are tight. Anyhoo...I won't buy more clothes until I'm a 20 or less!
Trying to stay on plan- but getting very angry with my body for not cooperating!

[chakwaina37]

Girl Im so with you on this we just have to push on and not give up our dream and our health. We are so alike in this. I read your journal and its like im reading about myself.

Im so proud of you for keeping on and pushing to get there. give yourself a big pat on the back for that. You are my insperation, Im struggling and I see you struggling and you have such positive words at the same time , to keep on going and not give up. . We are going to make it and look back on these days and say wow we did it and fought for our life.

[amhouse36]

Alene I know we'll get there someday...just feels so....uugh!

Weight
235

Exercise
0 Mi

Can I count cleaning and taking out the trash exercise? Yeah, I know I haven't walked on the track lately...I'm not sure if my legs are feeling any better (they don't burn until I get on the track for half a mile) I know I need to get my butt in gear, I guess I'm going through a mini depression and don't feel like getting out there.

I didn't cheat today...back on level one except I had a Diet Pepsi. I was grumpy today...went to Arby's with my brother today...he got a 'normal' meal, sandwich with fries...I got to eat a not so good piece of chicken (taken out of a grilled sandwich) and I had to dump my drink because it wasn't diet...so I thought I'd go get a snow cone...closed (didn't know they were closed on Sundays) I'm going to eat a late pork chop dinner in a few.

No, didn't gain- probably should think thats an accomplishment- right? Not in the greatest of moods today...just keep plucking along....

[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Exercise
Whats that?

I don't feel like I have much to post today...still the same...although, (I hope you don't mind I post this Alene) Chakwainia and I have started our own mini challange that I'm happy about....10 situps and 8 cups of water....doable-lol. So hold up a minute.....
Okay-

Exercise
10 situps!

Goofy to some..but hey, its something! I didn't drink 8 cups of water today...start that tomorrow.

[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Exercise
Whats that?

I don't feel like I have much to post today...still the same...although, (I hope you don't mind I post this Alene) Chakwainia and I have started our own mini challange that I'm happy about....10 situps and 8 cups of water....doable-lol. So hold up a minute.....
Okay-

Exercise
10 situps!

Goofy to some..but hey, its something! I didn't drink 8 cups of water today...start that tomorrow.
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[amhouse36]

Weight
Can't ya guess? 235!

Exercise
Nothing today.

On Wednesday and Thursday I went swimming at the local pool and I did morning aerobics and walked for 20 min on Wednesday. I go to the 'not so uptight' pool...I live on kind of the rough side of town and I was at first scared to go the city pool cuz I thought it would be dirty and loud...but actually it's nice ; ) and well looked after...and not that many skinny uptight women-lol...they and their kids swim in their private pools or pools that you have to pay memberships too. My pool is kinda the 'fat person with multiple tatoos' pool-lol...No tatoo's here, but there is definitely fat....I've had my grandma bathing suit for a few years, and it was comfy, this year it's tight it's a size 22.

I splurged today and bought an ice cream maker that you don't need rock salt for I looked at the ingredients that you use to make basic ice cream...and I'm pretty sure I can make a low carb, no sugar substitute..the only things that I'd need to change for vanilla and sub. splenda for sugar, and use just the heavy cream minus milk. I guess I could do half and half- but I'm trying to do a completely sugar free version...if it doesn't work- I'll do half and half...milk has too many carbs and sugar. I also got a lettuce keeper, a container to keep my ranch dressing in with a pour spount, and a popcicle maker...I don't have room in the freezer for everything, so I'm holding off on making popcicles for now....I have to freeze the bowl for the ice cream...so i gotta wait like 6 to 20 hours for that sucker to freeze...you know I'm going to be up at 3 in the morning trying it out
I'm basically sticking to plan, although I could be doing better. I just drank up my diet cherry coke, which has caffine in it....got diet 7 up with splenda in it. I have been getting sugar free chocolate candy, and I need to stop doing that cuz I'm sure that's not helping my situation- but I am a chocolate addict! I have sugar free chocolate pudding-that helps some. Today I used Carbquick for the first time, to make biscuits- they aren't that tasty...the consistency is a lot like bread...but it tastes bland...it would be okay if you put a ton of jelly on it! but of course, no can do.

Thats all for now- just wanted to check in and say that yeah, I'm still on Atkins, and no, I haven't lost a dang pound!

[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Exercise
30 min aerobics

I did some of Richard Simmons- Sweating to the Oldies...but I thought it was too goofy so I turned it off....I tried to do some of Tae Bo, but even the stupid stretches were too advanced for me (using a lot of balance in awkward positions for a fat person) so I turned that off...ultimately I went to my 20 minute exercise low impact video which is an easy workout but I can definitely feel the burn in my legs when I do it...I got it when I ordered a 'weight loss patch'-like a nicotine patch except it's suppose to help you lose weight...uh, yeah, so didn't work! But I found the video that went along with the package, so I've done that a couple of times...and its a good start to relearning my body to exercise.

Yep, weight is at a stand still, so I'm going back on induction starting today...no more caffine...try to cut out the crystal light and diet soda....going back to the basics. TOM is coming soon so I know I probably won't lose until July...geesh this is tough for me...not losing...it tough for morale.

Something that I have noticed though is that I've stopped getting my daily headaches...I use to get a headache everyday from, I guess, sugar withdrawl. I'm more alert during the day, and have more interest in life...so i could say this no sugar thing has really helped me. I know some of the stuff I've had has some sugar in it- the low carb ketchup, the Atkins candy bars, fruit, but basically I've been sugar/starch free for a month and thats incredible for me! Now if I could get the other problems I have under wraps- like eating when I'm not truly hungry. I do somewhat buy into calorie counting...in the essence that I should stop eating when I'm full; Atkins gives you such free reign as to 'comfortably full'...a lot of obese people don't know what 'full' is...I've lost that feeling a long time ago....when most people think they can't have another bite, I can always stuff a little more- or come back in an hour and have another serving. I think I'm going to try to have 'meal time' again. I basically have been having meals on Atkins...but they've been all over the board...dinner at midnight- that sort of thing. so I'm going to try to train my body to eat at certain times...more or less. Today I got up early for me 5:30 am....had bacon and eggs at 6am...right now its 9:30, so I might have a little snack- then eat at noon. Right now I could actually just skip to the noon mean actually...my body likes to be fed every 2 hours it seems, and maybe thats part of the problem? I'm going to experiement with this and see...
Okay, thats all for now! Baby steps to 230....

[chakwaina37]

Amber Im so very proud of you , you keep on trying to figure out whats going to work for you thats awesome girl keep up the gr8 work, Im like you losing very very slowly but hey slow will also win the game girl. I total agree on the tae bo, it is very hard to start out on. Thats why i choice to do pilates much easier to start out. As long as your doing something to keep moving you will get better and fit and one day be able to do the tae bo. Just starting out on this excersize thing is such a challenge, I have to push and keep saying I can and i will do this, isnt it amazing how good you feel when you get it done? Your doing what you need to do so keep up the fight you are going to win it

[amhouse36]

Originally Posted by chakwaina37

Amber Im so very proud of you , you keep on trying to figure out whats going to work for you thats awesome girl keep up the gr8 work, :

Thanks Alene I ALWAYS appreciate your support- you're doing awesome!

[amhouse36]

Weight
Too scared to look

Yeah, you guessed it- I fell off the wagon! The first cheat food was a roll at a restaurant...3 days later, that was the best tasting thing about the whole cheat....everything else was just a carb coma....I felt sick most of the time. I did weigh myself today after I ate breakfast and with my clothes on- I was 239. I don't regret the cheat really...I'm just mad that it takes a month to lose 5 pounds....3 days to gain it back- doesn't seem metabolically fair- does it? TOM was the culprit of this cheat....he makes me depressed, and when I'm sad I want comfort foods! Just want to lock myself away and eat junk....which of course makes me feel worse. So I have a carb hangover and my house is a mess (why is it when you go off a diet, you house gets wrecked?) So I'm cleaning today and back on plan.
Still looking into getting a discounted YMCA membership...takes 2 weeks for them to make up their mind. I have visions of me doing a 9am aerobic swim class. I haven't tried walking the track in a while cuz of my legs problems...probably should try this evening when it gets cooler.

So I'm back on the wagon again.....

[chakwaina37]

You are going to make it , keep working on it. Give yourself gredit for trying and trying to do this it is hard and your still working to do it, Im proud of you

[amhouse36]

Weight
238

Yep...did a 4th of July cheat...but instead of a day, it was a week! The food tasted good, but my body hated it and I actually got kinda depressed from all of the junk I ate. But I knew what I was doing and knew I was gonna probably gonna gain everything back, so I can't complain...just wish I had an awesome metobolism that made it impossible to gain weight.

Measurements
Bust- 47 inches
Waist-46
Hips- 54
Right Arm-14
Left Arm-14
Right Leg-28
Left Leg-28

The only thing that has changed my the last time I measured was my hips, which is down half an inch. I did lose more inches that that when I was on plan, but I didn't record them, I was waiting until the end of the month. I bloat when I eat junk food.

Okay, so I'm a cheater and I know it! This time on this induction I'm going to try something new...no cream cheese, cream, or sour cream...I'm pretty sure that stuff caused me to slow down weight loss.

[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Yep, I hit 235 yesterday...so I recovered from the cheat pretty quickly...still nothing to be proud of.

I won't know if I can get the discounted YMCA membership until the end of this month...so I'm waiting on that....I could just pay the $5 a visit and start working out...maybe I should start doing that next week (too busy on the weekends and I'm busy tomorrow).

Not much to report today...stayed on plan (yay!) and hoping to lose lots soon

[amhouse36]

Weight
235

Yep, I hit 235 yesterday...so I recovered from the cheat pretty quickly...still nothing to be proud of.

I won't know if I can get the discounted YMCA membership until the end of this month...so I'm waiting on that....I could just pay the $5 a visit and start working out...maybe I should start doing that next week (too busy on the weekends and I'm busy tomorrow).

Not much to report today...stayed on plan (yay!) and hoping to lose lots soon
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Amber