Mmam5's Journal

[mmam5]

Here we go!!! The past few years my body and way of dealing with my body have changed drastically. Gone are the days of just LC'ing or Atkins and dropping the weight quickly. Mid-life is closing in way too fast.

I've always yo-yo'd with weight - but it usually stayed under 120, so who really cared if it was 108 or 117?? Was almost in the same size clothes.

Then I met David, Friday night date nights. Out to dinner, drinking laying around... By the time we got married I was up to 130... not so bad, but I did have to buy new bigger clothes! YUCK... I started working out, lots... walking, machines at the Gym - think it was called Stayin' Alive. David used to think it was just a meat market when I first started going! He's never been one to complain about my ever increasing and decreasing size... He married me for me . . . How awesome is that!?

Anyhooo - I did lose weight - back down to 118-120. Was very fit and toned... could walk around in bike shorts and crop top and not be self-conscious at all! Was awesome. And oh sooooo many years ago.

We just celebrated our 15th wedding anniversary. I'm 43, flabby, flabby flabby. I spent all of last October "testing" candy for Halloween. I've only had 5 outfits that really fit to wear to work EVERY week . . . I WILL NOT BUY BIGGER CLOTHES!!! My weight before Christmas was closing in on 150. My measurements were the same as when I was pregnant with Joey and I'm NOT pregnant now! WTH!???!

For our anniversary this year we're going to Peru - 10 days. Meeting Eric in ATL and going from there. Tracey/Dean/Eric/DAVID and I.... We will be Hiking for 5 days over 2 14,000 foot passes to end up in Machu Picchu....

One of my goals I've been working on since January is to NOT BE THE LAST one to Machu Picchu!!!

The rest of my goals will come along as I get my thoughts in order. Figured I'd better get a journal going as I'm kind of long winded on the Make-It Fast thread! Live and learn . . .

Cio for now!

[mmam5]

Ok - Yesterday was awesome - -the scale hit 127!!!!
I haven't seen that number since Tracey talked me into Atkins back in 2003!!! WOW... That's when I first signed up with LCFriends... unfortunately, I was pretty busy back then and didn't get around to really using the boards.... We had sold our home, lived in 2 crappy apartments for a year and a half, while looking for land to build a new house. Finallly found that land and then worked hard to get the house built. You'd think the stress of all that, plus the work of learning to build a house - pull wires, hang insulation, etc. etc. would help a girl lose a pound or two???

NOPE - just the opposite... all that stress, being over 40, driving an extra hour a day... I gained and gained. DH on other hand was hot Hot HOT He was so hot I could hardly keep my eyes or hands off of him!!! LOL Still wasn't enough to get me to lose weight.

I was still basically eating LC -
B-eggs/cheese
L- tuna/may
S- nuts or 4 chips or whatever anyone brought into the office
d - whatever DH cooked
dessert - whatever the kids had

OH - I suppose that would be the problem! LOL

2 years of eating whatever whenever... I love to eat... there is no reason that I shouldn't weigh 2x what I do now - except that I won't wear double digit clothing. That's been my only saving grace.

Unfortunately - last summer was the summer for shapeless sundresses to be in style - so I probably was in a 10/12 - but could get away with an 8 sundress. Amazing what we can trick our minds into believing. ..

Wasn't till we went to Las Vegas to meet up with a friend that I realized HOW FAT I have become... Our Dgirlfriend has put on a ton (for her) of weight and while she's still beautiful and fun... she's not the sexy size 5 or 7 she used to be... Having my picture taken next to her, and me looking as big as her was a HUGE Eye opening. . . WHAT A PIG!! No offense to anyone , but just b/c I live in Wisconsin, am over 40, do I have to LOOK like a WI Farm Raised Girl?????

I'll post the picture in a little bit... has to be scanned.

Ok - It's Mother's Day, I'm going to make it good... We had sad news yesterday - but I already posted a "prayer needed" post in the playground... so not going to depress myself anymore for now.

[mmam5]

Ok - I posted a picture of me and my flabby wabbies from September in my Public Profile . . I'm almost down 20 lbs since then. . . all due to FASTING!! See the Make-It-Fast - April and May links . . . http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/sh...65#post6896865

Of course the main thing I've learned since March 30th is that I cannot lose weight no matter what I eat unless I stick to 1000 calories or less each and every day.

I'm the one on the left in the picture . . . .I'd post it here - but I havent' figure out how to get it into my posts! I'll work on that!

[mmam5]

What an awful weekend it has been. GFederwitz's kid lost control of his car and flipped it into the Kewaunee river. After 2 days, they still have not found his body. What a horrific thing to happen to such a young kid - 16, just got his car, etc. Can't even imagine what Gary/Mary are going thru.

To work off my emotions I had gotten lots of staining /varnishing done. Hugged my kids over and over. Made up a pot of chili for mother's day dinner.

Sunday came and Tracey called - Todd (BIL) had passed away around 6:30 am. It's not a happy thing either. They were married for 20 years, just bought the house, etc. Now he's gone... Wish I could get all my friends to QUIT SMOKING and start taking better care of themselves. For Todd personally - it's a blessing... he put up such a courageous fight....

I spent the rest of Sunday BAKING... cookies with Sarah, Beer bread for the chili, pancakes for breakfast and pecan filled mini-tarts for dessert! YUM I'm calling Mother's day my Crazy Carb overload day! Got in a nice 1 mile run/walk when the rain quit raining for a bit in late afternoon. Boys both sat on my lap for tv watching after dinner. Slept like crap b/c of course my innards were p/o from eating all the carbs!

Sooooo, today we're back to fasting during the day, low-to-no carb dinner - salad or maybe Green smoothie with Blackberries/banana/romaine/field greens. Checking into the whey protein powder... maybe that would help out a bit too. I had forgotten about my blackberries until Phibi mentioned mixing them into a smoothie... great idea!

Going to go tanning again tonight, the meditation will be good. Also need to do the run/walk again... almost up to half mile of running.

Tomorrow night I'm going to the wake in Sheboygan for Todd. Once gary finds his son we'll know more about how they'll be handling that situation.

[mmam5]

Now- to get back on track for why I'm doing a journal!!!

Tracey has talked about Fasting on/off for the last year or two... never really any follow thru - at least not with me. This time she must have been perusing the boards and found "Make-it-fast" with Nady and the girls. So she sent me a link and I too became Sucked in.... We actually made a bet with each other - to be accoutable - that whomever caved first - had to buy our "Party-night" out!!!! Of course being as competitive as we are - neither of us was going to totally pay for the other one!

We both read up on Fasting - benefits, how-to's, what will happen, etc. Read thru all the posts, and set a date for beginning - ending... Then April 2nd came and off we went!

The first day wasn't too hard - it was Sunday, so ran around, cleaned house .. lots of questions, lots of water... I bought tea, didn't have any coffee or soda, and did NOT tell anyone what I was doing. Especially not DH - (everything in moderation) I did tell him that I was trying out 1 main meal a day and that I was having that at lunchtime. So my not eating at dinner was not that big of a deal.

It's not a diet... but really a cleansing/awakening to your body and soul! While the effects are more long term, in the short term you learn so much about your habits, body, feelings for things, how you react and handle situations, etc.

I'd been having problems in the past year (or more) with my bladder - Am I just getting older, too many kids? Peri-menopausal? Had to pee all the time, but sometimes almost didn't make it... lay down at night to sleep and 20 min later had to get up and go again - just to make it thru the night.

Once I started drinking MORE water - 60-100 oz in a day... that actually ceased to be a problem! WEIRD Sure I was urinating more, but not having near misses and when I went to bed there were no "sudden urges". My body seemed to be in more control!

Monday was a bit harder - think I drank too much water, bought more teas to have for breakfast, and mixed 1/4 apple juice to 3/4 water for lunch or dinner... And making it thru dinner! Ugggh... I am so totally a nibbler .. . while making dinner, serving and during dinner and cleaning up After dinner . . . and I wasn't even eating dinner!!! Had to stop myself repeatedly. But I made it and actually slept great - not all stuffed from over eating, etc.

Tuesday/Wed/Thur all went well as the week went on - I hit ketosis by Tuesday a.m. and it stayed deep pink until tues/wed of the next week! Wooo hoooo Wed/Thurs/Frid nights I also did nibble on either a carrot stick or celery - more just for something to do than anything else.

Saturday a.m. I had chix broth for breakfast... it was very yummy. That evening David and I went out to a Benefit for Wayne Buhk... I wore my LV jeans with a fitted sweater - with NO MUFFIN TOP!!! Woooo hoooo.... I did have 2 drinks and 1.5 peanut butter/choco rice krispy bars... but otherwise was good. I had lost 7.5 pounds in a week! And felt great!

About mid-week I figured out that I really didn't like tea - so I gave my tea bags away and picked up the Iced Tea w/lemon To-Go and the Crystal Lite- Raspberry Ice To-Go packs... As long as my tongue has something to do - my belly doesn't really care.

I've learned so much from these message boards it's just amazing. We spend so much time centered on food. And as we learn from fasting - eating in itself takes so much time away from our energy levels and cell rejuvination. There are other things we can be doing!

Now my plan is to fast during the day... unless I have a high energy activity that I"ll be doing... and either have salad/ raw veggies / small meat at night.

I've done the week long fasts 3x . . .the 2nd two times not as stringent as the first time. I allowed small salad, etc. at night during the week.

Trying the QOD was ok - but the week I did it - we went to Dal Santos - 2500 calories, and had extra snacks / dinner on another day - so my daily average was still on the "too high" side of things. Think it will be much easier for me to just fast in the day - lite dinner at night.

Now to try to utilize what I've learned and keep myself on the straight and narrow!

This past weekend was very hard emotionally . Saturday I did great - green smoothie / wild rice soup on Saturday - but Sunday was crazy carb overload day - and that is just me letting my "habit" have it's way!

Sooo - On to brighter days - healthy ways

[mmam5]

Ok - It's Tuesday wooo hooo . . .

Much better day - supposedly the rescue teams "saw" a body in the river - but being that it's already 3:45 pm, I'm thinking it wasn't what they thought. Dam* those TV People... taking one rumor and giving false hope to people! Hugs to Gary/Mary...

Anyhooo - on a personal note- cuze that's what I'm supposed to be doing. Was back to 129!! Had coffee, water, FUZE for lunch and made up a Green Smoothie - romaine/field greens/blackberries/banana for dinner. I started eating it now... had to add more water as it was thick!

Have the munchies today - but maybe that's due to Gary's life... I just feel helpless and can't imagine going thru that... Wish I could do more... Also going to my GF's BIL's wake tonight... Will be nice to see the family... but hate that it's for this... would rather it be for a bday instead!

Hoping to stay on my plan thru tonight... maybe go out for one drink later.. but we'll see - long drive home afterwards.

Tomorrow Relaty For Life team is having an Ice Cream social... Nancy coming over for dinner later - planning Pork Tenderloin and Broccoli... so if I indulge in ice cream for one day shouldn't hurt me too bad...

Ok - have to do a bit more work today - then it will be time to go! At least it's bright and sunshinie out . . .

[mmam5]

This last week went fairly well, After Ice Cream Social on Wednesday, fasted on Thurs -Friday daytime, Ate Fish all-you-can-eat on Friday, fries and 1 drink, Saturday - good all day till the wedding with nancy... we drank WAAAY too much - but had a great time - and after the last two weeks - that felt good. Sunday I was half way good, had fish for dinner, but hershey bar on the way home...

I didn't weigh myself on Monday, but This a.m. was only at 129.5! That's pretty good! Think the fasting before/after indulging is going to work for me - kind of modified QOD. Yesterday I fasted with water and Fuze... but went to a Tastefully simple party and had samples and samples... came home and coooked up a steak... no carbs there, but still calories... today I'm having water and Fuze again.

Going to the "Y" for a walk/run while Sarah has swimming, that will be good... Going to do the stairs for 10-15 minutes also.

Gary's boy was found yesterday, for Gar&Mar it was like reliving the horror over again, but wake will be Friday night with Funeral on Saturday. I'll go on Friday. Have Mary S's wedding on Sat aft and Todd's benefit on Sat night. We'll probably drink again, but shouldn't be the drunk fest last weekend was! uggh

Ma/Pa show up sometime between Sun/Mon, so best get my packing going -- only 9 days to travel day!!!! Woooo hoooo

Ok - back to work - SBYC newsletter time! and I'm feeling like a slacker!!!!