Ramblings of a fat git

[serenity_aus]

WARNING: If cynicism and a sick twisted sense of humour with a dash of bitterness thrown in is not to your liking, back out now!

[serenity_aus]

So here I am, 31 (actually 30 but I'm 31 in.. omg a couple of days) on the train coming home tonight lamenting about how I've been so good sticking to my diet and i'm still stalled. Then some ugly old man sits behind me and hells bells I CAN"T STAND STINKY SMELLY PEOPLE

Sure it's summer, sure it's been a long day at work, but have you heard of deodorant buddy? It's OK to re-apply!! And please, this is not a one off, I have spotted the stinker many a time. I suspect he's a pom. I mean please, even in summer, who in their right mind wears socks to their knees with ugly little side zip vinyl shoes, shorts, short sleeved shirt and a tie. The whole ensemble looks like something out of "that 70's show" or It's Kel from kath and Kim with the licked down long hair and the handlebar mo? Oh don't even get me started on the glasses.

So where was I.. Oh yeah.. So i'm lamenting on the train that I have no one to whinge and moan to, and then it hit me. I can create my own little blog of woe on here.

So here I go on Day 1 of crud about life...

I think in some small ways I'm subconsciously sabotaging myself. My biggest fear is after years and years of being overweight, even if I do get down to goal weight, all that excess skin will be hanging all over me. Why why why why why have I let it go to this? If I self diagnose, there are two types of people.. and I am the moronic type. I'm the one that says "oh look chocolate cake, I'm overweight.. but hey, if i'm overweight I might as well eat that because if i'm already fat, how much fatter can I get".. roll on a year later and HELLO yes you can get fatter. THE MADNESS MUST STOP!!

I'm sad that even if I get down to goal, I will still be the lump of lard inside. I've never been thin, I've never had men fall at my feet. I don't know how to talk to them.. besides they're all morons (but more of that whinging later). I don't know how to be a thin person. Maybe a part of that scares me? I've always been fat, I know how to be fat, I know how to be invisible. HA!

As for men.. gawd they suck. What don't they get? It's not that freaking difficult to communicate. If you're not going to turn up I don't care, but do you think you could have the decency to let me know? WHATEVER

So, onto what this blog should be about. Me and my fat a$$...

Meals today:
Cheesecake
Quiche and Salad
Mince Pizza (mince, pizza sauce, bacon & cheese)
Pepsi Max (drool)
Water (not enough )
Raspberry Ice Cream (double drool - xylitol, cream and frozen raspberries whipped together)

So technically I could leave out the cheesecake, pepsi max and raspberry ice cream, but ummm it is legal hmm and cheesecake is easy in the morning.. i am SO NOT a morning person. I really need to get more organised is the truth. I'm a lazy S.O.B

I feel so fat and ugly. My biggest problem is I'm soooo tired. I think having a week off work has made me feel worse than slogging away in the office. Heat has a lot to do with it. It's so hot and sluggish... but then considering I live most of my life in air con what sort of excuse is that? lol. whatever

A friend asked me to go to the gym with her as a NYR... Strange but true - I will not be seen dead in a gym until I'm down to a respectable size. There is no way I'm gonna "shake my booty" in a skimpy lycra clad with leg warmer look sweating like a pig, beside a woman nearly twice my age, half my size, and twice my energy. no thanks. I love how I pretend if I do all the exercise and sweating and panting in the comfort of my own home that just perhaps no one will realise I'm overweight outside? I'm a cuckoo.. it's official.

So with this first rambling (i'm good at it aren't i?) I'm gonna sign off. I promise to actually ramble about my food intake and what a good girl I am doing my exercise next time.. promise

[serenity_aus]

So it's been a little while but I figured I would post again.

I have been v.good and stuck to my woe and have been taking my vitamins. Had a few little slip-ups but it was my birthday so nerrrr.

At work we get a morning tea thrown for moi and whomever I choose to invite so I was a wee cheeky monkey. I ordered the richest cheesecake on the list full of antioxidants..hehehe.. it was a jamacian chocolate baked cheesecake. I figured if I had something really really rich I would feel ill after a sliver and it really worked! Then I invited as many people as I could drum up so I wouldn't have any left for seconds (and made so many friends in the process )

I've been out most nights in the last week for dinner with friends or family but have stuck pretty much to plan. Asian with my parents and I had a beef curry with like 1 tbl of rice just to get the "feel". My fav restaurant of all time with my "other" mother and then asian again last night. I just had meat and vege so I was pretty proud of myself for staying strong!

My house is still trashed because I just can't be ***ged but I did the floors today because I wanted to play with my new bday pressie - a steam mop. Jury's still out as to whether it's good or not. But my floors look pretty good so I'm happy. Exercise was mowing the lawns... hmm no rain for months and it rains just one day and everything just springs to life. We still haven't had rain in so long... no wet season and our winter's are dry so that's pretty bad. I fear if it does rain properly everything's so dry that we'll flood

I'm pretty disappointed with a guy and myself because I was stupid enough to think that for once i'll do something spontaneous and NICE.. (I reiterate we are/were just friends) I felt sorry for him to lent him some money. I figured that whilst it was a decent amount of $$$, I would probably spend it on myself with no qualms (then again I am single so who am I going to spend it on?). Anyway, he promised to pay me back asap. That was nearly two months ago. I'm not sure what.. no hang on that's not true.. I know what really peeves me off. Not that he hasn't left a message or communicated with me for some time, but that I know he set up a shop on ebay and bought a *****load of dvd's to sell. 1. stupid because you can buy them these days so cheap in Big W etc why would you bother? but moreso... 2. I don't think he has ANY right to buy "wants" when he owes someone (supposedly a friend) money. yes ok, it's his money now, he can spend it on what he likes, but as far as I'm concerned, i gave him that money to pay for "needs" (petrol, food, rent) if he's been paid wages and can now afford to buy luxury items like dvd's then he should have paid me back first. I told him I didn't care if he paid me in instalments or whatever since it was a large sum. But now I'm just pi$$ed. He hasn't left me a msg and I fear he's not talking cuz he's played me and has no intention of paying me back. so now I'm disappointed because the next honest person who ever comes along won't get the benefit of the doubt from me. And originally if he had of continued to communicate with me (trust me there was no way i'd have a relationship with him) that I couldn't have cared less if he took a year to pay me back.. but now i'm just very disappointed.

I guess my warning statement at the top put people off.. i'm really a nice person I just wanted to pre-warn that I rant and rave a lot.. oh, you've noticed? lol. It's the downside of living alone, you have no one to vent too.

I just wish this weight would fall off. I have been good.. I have PCOS so it's oh so slow. My mother (the queen of low-fat) and my father I know are convinced I'm a) being unhealthy and b) will never be slim. as with the rest of my family. I so want to prove them wrong more than anything else. What is so unhealthy I ask with eating meat and veges.. -v- the entire cheesecake I could gobble down in an evening? (smallish one mind you).

So tomorrow as soon as I get home from work i'm jumping on the treadmill and walking before I sit down. I've decided that's my downfall. Get home from work, sit down to relax and never want to get up again until I drag myself to bed. I can't wait for the start of the Australian biggest loser to start in a week or so's time. I am so going to pretend i'm a part of that show. I would have loved to participate but there's no way this little black duck would EVER be seen with her big fat a$$ on national telly. I guess fundamentally i'm scared of failure, but in reality i'm terrified of other people seeing my failure.

[serenity_aus]

*sigh* feeling pretty dejected today. Came home to a $900 tax bill. woohoo

I'm now officially pi$$ed at my friend. I don't understand dishonest disloyal people and I am probably more pi$$ed at myself for being so stupid and expecting that other people have the same values as myself.

I'm also dejected because i do NOT get the scales. Can someone please explain to me how i can go to bed at one weight, and wake up 2.5kg heavier? (that's something like 5.5lbs in USA terms). That really got me down. Sure I understand fluctuation.. sure i would understand if i weighed myself in the morning and that was the weight at night. But I went to bed... I didn't eat... and i wake up heaver WTH!!!!!!!

So I got my TOM at about 10am. I normally drop right before TOM so that makes no sense either. Ok, so people bloat up for TOM.. but how do you GAIN weight overnight? I'm so FO.

My food for today was:

3 short cut rashers and 1 egg
chicken, proscuitto and spinach salad
chicken with a little bit of taco sauce and cheese

I just feel like curling up into a ball and crying. Actually I don't even need to curl up into a ball.. I'm welling as I type this.

[cdn_gal]

Hey sweety, it's probably just water retension, dont fret it, hang in there and it will come off...... KUTGW!!........Lei

[serenity_aus]

tks cdn .. but i still don't get it. If you weigh a glass of water at night, and weigh it again in the morning it doesn't increase in weight. So if I go to bed and don't "sleep" eat/drink.. how do I increase in weight.

Oh well ... spose there's nothing I can do so lets just move on.

Today was really fun in the city. A warship (Ronald Regan?) is docked in town. Woohoo so many americans walking the streets!! It's quite funny/exciting/enjoyable to see them. Funny we can pick them out a mile. Apart from the short back and sides, and roving in packs (and the good old black americans.. oh they're so hot), you can tell by the clothes. They're the same, but different. Can't quite put my finger on it.

Anyway, after lunch my friend and I just stood on the side of the queen street mall and watched them milling around lol.. how sad. On the way home there were a stack of boys waiting to get down to the Gold Coast (beach otherwise known as Surfers Paradise) and got to talking to them. Nice guys from North Carolina. OMG their accent lol. The guy was pretty well mullocked as he'd been sitting in the casino to get cool all day he told me. He would not however confirm or deny the rumours that there was a Maccas onboard. LOL No matter how much I assured him it was not a state secret, he just grinned lol.

so today's food:
chicken
quiche and salad
beef stroganoff and broccolli for dinner

Oh yeah.. i know i know stay off the scales, but this AFTERNOON i'm down nearly 2kg from yesterday morning. lol i give up

[tiggy_oz]

Chicky! why did you not tell me that you started posting your ever so humourous ramblings on here??? Its like sitting at your house listening to you, but in text.

So hairy legs is still being a knob. Ima gonna drive down there and slap him for my daily exercise .

yikes @ missing your birthday but heck i didnt know when it was so i spose i cant feel to crappy. Happy belated and great work on the cake.

Do you know when aussie loser starts? They keep saying feb and im yelling at the tv like a retard 'yes its almost feb so like WHEN in feb'! Im really looking forward to it. Its interesting the people they chose. I understand now why i didnt get in because i am much smaller than most of the women. Seems most of them are like 150kg's or so. I still wish i would have gotten on there and had a trainer to kick my arse into gear.

Your package of dvd's and games should arrive soon. Was able to copy the one you had trouble with but im not sure if it will run on your computer - youll have to test it - cos the protection on it is one that is a bit tricky at times. Have watched all the movies and they were great . Thanks again for xmas fun, was so coooool. Big appologies for the late sending of the lent things but things got silly busy here with 2 massive projects due and i couldnt get mark to do his copy magic.

Will be heading down your way sometime after the 6th of feb (exam is the 6th and im a study machine till then). Need to hit me some asian markets again. Oh, was going to make the orgasmic salad the other day *drool* but the damned store was outta mint, just my luck

I'm stalled too kinda - stuck at 261 for a couple weeks now but its cos im a lazy cow who likes to make bad food choices. LC pasta + latina carbonara sauce = 20 carbs.... doh (3 nights in a row)

Lucky you, geting to drool all over the hottie black americans. They are sexy stuff! Some of the southern accents are hillarious.

Keep on trucking, dont let stupid crap get ya down cos its only the moment that seems dark, the total picture is really bright. Keep looking forward, dont look back or to the side and you WILL get to the goal. And doesnt matter if you dont know how to be a skinny person, youve got the rest of your life to learn how to be one of them

[serenity_aus]

tiggy ma main man how you doin?

So you've been sniffing through my undie draw have you? lol

I decided that this might be a good way to look back a year on so i'm still not at the "oh look another year and I'm no where" scenario. I kinda feel if I make myself post here regularly then 1 year on hopefully I can look back and laugh as I'll then (fingers crossed) be a slim jim.

Oh those big black american men.. and all of their accents I need to move to USA lol. For any american's reading this it might seem strange to you seeing as they're just the "norm" but here in OZ, african americans are of course a rare species so are to be idolised LOL. Let alone the americans full stop.. oh la la.. those accents even the dumb sounding ones. Ok that was wrong of me, the sloooowwwww accents of the south lol. I call all americans yanks.. it's faster than typing americans for starters, but I understand to americans "yanks" are yankee's from the war? I dunno, it's like all pom come from england, all kiwi's from new zealand and all aussies from australia.. as are all yanks from america. I just don't wanna get my head knocked off lol.

It's a day off today (and I've got tomorrow off as well) and I briefly toyed with the idea of going into the city and just moping around trying to hear all the yanks talking lol. How fricken sad is that.. chasing americans around town just to hear them. Oh dear I need my head read LOL. Of course I came to my senses - especially when I heard that all of the brothels are booked out.. and in fact one in the gabba that no one would know about had them 3 deep and spilling out into the streets waiting LOL dirty tossers. Anyway, I didn't say I wanted to touch them, just listen and chat lol.

Tigster - no worries about the games etc. I haven't seen you online for ages so figured you were busy so didn't wanna nag To be honest, I'm bored playing the sims2. Hmm I suspect that it's a combination of a) need a new graphics card as some of it gets really slow b) how much "wake up, eat, go to work, come home, sleep" can you find enjoyable? and c) maybe I'm just getting older?

Ohh that's given me an idea.. why don't I create hairy legs in a ****ty house with ****ty everything in the sims and then give him what for LOL

No worries re b'day.. I kept that one quiet too :P

As for aussie loser - nope that's sh*tting me too. Although I was excited to hear they were running it more like a big brother format than the american biggest loser that we get to see - that is, they will be having it on every night for 4 months!!! (i'm sure I heard right). That will be really good for us to watch and play along with. Whereas you can't keep up with the losses of the american version being so compacted in time frame. As for the size thing - funny because the US version had people that were the same weight or a couple were even less.. Maybe they wanted to make more of an impact?

You'd best be planting some mint.. even in this weather it grows like a weed after it dies off. Mine was completely dead but I saw yesterday after just that one day it's coming back to life. Although when I've been desperate I've used a concentrated mint - not quite as nice, but does the job.

Meanwhile, you know you have a bed here if you need it when you come to town I buy the shredded.. well.. thinly sliced beef from woolies and mix it with that satay powder and a bit of olive oil and cook up huge batches and freeze... it's great for quick mix into salads etc.. mmmm

Oh yeah and for food...

yesterday:
bacon & egg
big chicken salad (omg bikini red salads mmm mmmmm)
Steak w/ left over stroganoff sauce

today:
bacon & egg
chicken salad (omg my mum's chicken and mango salad.. mmmm)
dinner - dunno yet, I'm thinking of making broccolli au gratin because i've got loads and it will go off.. and maybe a little chicken breast

Oh yeah, and I'm down another 0.5kg... WTH LOL So that's jumping 2kg, and dropping 3kg.. so really 1kg down. WHATEVER

[tiggy_oz]

ya i should put some mint in a pot - that stuff does grow like nuts.

woo hoo on the kg loss. The bounce is a killer but thats great stuff! just keep smiling

Sims 2 on its own gets a bit boring but once i send you the 2 expansions you will lilke it heaps more. The uni one adds in the ability to play young adults through 3 years of uni - and then combine in the night life one where there are a billion new places to take the sims to do fun stuff - it really adds a LOT to the game.

hehe @ hairy legs shack and dodgy stuff. take out your frustration on the bum :P

Thats funny about the brothels but i spose to be expected. It would be a bit of a novelty to them as north america is heaps more prudish and the though of a brothel... still has a hard time getting through my head. I think on the whole they are good things for all involved though. I spose if you were a guy, and were stuck on a boat the chance to spend some of the big$$ you have on a lay might seem like a good idea lol. Men..

[serenity_aus]

Well my scale just keeps going down I would see bigger numbers if I stayed off it for a while but oh well! I don't register until Monday so the trick is to be at the low end of the bounce then!

Food yesterday:
bacon and egg
beef curry
spag bog

I snacked a bit yesterday I had a scoop of my raspberry ice cream But oh well i'm TOM and it's legal (just not induction) and it tasted so blimmen nice. To compensate I did do the front yard (though to be honest I went straight back inside instead of sorting out my back yard LOL) So now I'll have to wait till late this arvy to go back out as it's very hot and humid at the moment (though cooler than it has been!)

Tigster it's so sad you're so far away from the city or I would take you to one of my favourite shops PRICE FREEZE... man I love that shop. It's all bulk frozen food. Yesterday I bought 1.5kg bags of baby green beans, brocolli and cauli (easy for when I'm lazy late home from work - but I love the fresh stuff too) 1.5kg bag of boysenberries and blackberries (they didn't have raspberries in stock and big box of snapper. My freezer is packed yet again, but atleast apart from fresh veges, I don't have to go near the place! I really need to eat myself out of home... growing up in an earthquake zone my mother always had the pantry etc packed... I have to kind of calm down because I'm twice the stocker she was lol.

Can't wait to get the extension packs for the sims then I also have no artistic talent when it comes to houses i've discovered lol. Man some of the ones people build

I know what you mean about the brothels - but I guess it's a clean safe environment for both parties. Honestly they've always been around, just not legal. I remember even in NZ wondering why these strange men would wander into this house next door until I saw a couple of the females come out one day Apparently the owners were having the dirts though because they're only allowed 5 girls on at any one time. Man, with all those sailors, make a girl sore Apparently some "ladies" came down from up north and syd and mel to err.. "entertain" and I suppose with 6000 roaming the streets all cashed up....

Well i'm off to have breaky, clean my hovel, and I dunno after that.. hehehe yeah I do.. a dvd perhaps

[serenity_aus]

Ok so food today:

bacon and eggs (getting a bit sick of this)
chicken and cheese (throwing that frozen chicken out.. GROSS)
Steak w/leftover stroganoff sauce

Been keeping my veges pretty low but gonna have to rip into them tomorrow before they go bad.

FINALLY got out and did the backyard. My geisha girl looks NUDE the way i hacked that sucker back. House is still a bit trashed but oh well! Tomorrow's job!

[serenity_aus]

Food today:

Bacon and Eggs (do you sense a theme here?)
Meatballs & LC tomato sauce
Curry Beef and Broccoli

I also had an Atkins endulge only 2g carbs so not so bad. I munched away whilst watching a dvd and slugging back the PM. hmm oh well, not bad, and technically onplan, but I'm trying to stay as clean as possible atm.

I had the most disgusting horrible experience today. I woke up early and always go to my front bay window to check if the paper's there before I go out and pick it up. Anyway, I'm standing there and I feel something under my foot. I look down and OMG they were maggots!!! I have no idea how they got there etc. It's hard to explain, but my bay window is like 5-6 metres away from my kitchen and I never use the room so it's not like anything was left there. It's tiled and I vacuumed and mopped just the other day (and I repeat, I never use this room) The strange thing was there were a few near the bin (but not as many as near the window) and there were some in my study which is off the kitchen I am going to have nightmares tonight I just know it. I know I had some meat packaging in the bin and it's been hot, but I don't get it. I didn't see any flies or anything the day before.. OMG ITS SO GROSS. I quickly got the fly spray but that didn't kill the suckers (found out later from my mum that boiling water kills them.. gawd i'm gagging as I write this) anyway... I vacummed the suckers up and instantly disposed the bag in the bin and put a heavy object on the bin so they couldn't get out.. OH IT WAS GROSS.

The only way I can think why they were there and where they were in my study is they go to the light?? My kitchen is pretty dark and in the morning the sun streams in through the study window and of course the bay window is full of light (they were actually climbing the wall to get to the window).

I was going to post a query about them going towards the light on the PG, but then I figured everyone would be so grossed out (as I am) so I'm keeping it hidden away in here . My mother reckons I must have had a blow-fly which decided to curl up and die near the window.. GROSSSSSS

There is NOTHING to watch on telly tonight so I'm tossing up watching another DVD (watched about 3 the last 4 days lol) or playing sims2 which is honestly boring me atm.

The biggest loser (Australia) is starting in "february" and apparently "february" isn't the "february" this week, so perhaps next week! i'm going to tape it and watch it over and over if it's any good to motivate me.

[tiggy_oz]

ew ew ew. I had something like that happen as well - they do seem to travel, not sure if its to the light but they do wander about. I also had a meat wrapper in there overnight and then the next day i recall the buggers in strange places. GROSS is right .

I want to get a dvdr for my tv and a digital set box so i can record the big loser stuff - but i dont see it happening. I wonder if id get good enough reception if i got a tv recording card for my laptop instead ($600 vs $100).

Ya there was nothing on tv last night other than stupid cricket and then after that nothing still. I spent it reading books and chilling out.

Thats gonna work out really well with big loser on every day cos then you can get on that tready and walk for a half hour every weekday. Very cool motivation i think!

[serenity_aus]

so food today:

steak and egg
quiche and salad
chicken breast stuffed with herbed cream cheese and wrapped in proscuitto
baby cheesecake muffin

you're such a nerd tiggy lol

[serenity_aus]

Not much happening - v.tired after 4 days off work. Something about taking time off work and lazing makes you feel worse lol

Food:
½ left over chicken breast
cheesecake muffin
chicken salad
beef curry and green beans

[serenity_aus]

food:
cheesecake muffins
quiche and salad
beef stroganoff and green beans

My so called "friend" msg me to say "oh sorry i've been offline for a while, but my computer blew up, but don't worry $200 later and I'm back"

Ok... again.. if you have a spare $200 to buy a computer part, then you bl00dy well have $150 to pay me back!!! What don't people get about priorities these days??? To me, you pay your bills and necessities first, then you buy cr@p like stuff for your computer. Like I said, obviously I have morals and values. :end of rant:

[serenity_aus]

food

cheesecake muffins
chicken salad
mince & broccolli stirfry

Hmm those cheesecake muffins are soo good in the morning because I"m such a lazy mole. Think this weekend I will knuckle down and make a quiche thing for breaky though.

Yahh it's friday tmw!!

[tiggy_oz]

mmm cheesecake... *drool*

Hmm hairly legs shouldnt have said he spent money although i do understand where he is coming from a bit on the repair of it. For a non nerd person a computer is not essential but for some of us it is. Not sticking up for him or whatever cos i think he is acting like a loser here, but just pllaying devils advocate a bit cos whenever ive had to replace parts on my computer its like a NOW sorta thing - grocery money can wait.

yay for friday - well every day is a friday for me so i spose its not a big deal. Ahh the life of a lazy student :P

[serenity_aus]

So I thought it's high time I posted again Been a busy little bee lately.

First bit of business... food for the day:

Steak & egg
quiche and salad
beef strips & neopolitana sauce

Have been a busy little bee lately. Had a huge install at work fun fun fun...

Had two dates for valentines.. i'm such a tart lol. Well not really dates I suppose, met up with one for a couple of drinks at lunchtime. Then another for coffee after work.

What is it about me that attracts weirdos?

And more to the point, why can't I be as ruthless as some of the men. i.e they don't give me a second chance, so why do I feel like I have to give men a second chance? Why can't I just say "I'm just not that into you".. instead I try and give them a second go hoping someting will happen.. mainly cuz i'm just so lonely.. but hmm.. I don't want to hurt them and tell them to sod off. lol. Guess I'm used to being the dumpee not the dumper (although I've never really been dumped, didn't get that far lol)

[dr4g0nfly]

Hey !

I laughed my head off reading your Journal, especially the top part.

I your sense of humour and cant wait to read more from you.

KUTGW !!

Btw, being Asian and all, I can tell you for a fact that I too tend to go for darker skin men. Yummm.. Only requirement is that they are taller than me. :P

My friend told me I have an Animal Magnatism towards black men. LOL.. Maybe thats why I got my bf. He's half Tanzanian and half Omani.

Oh, and another thing, honey, besides s3x I'm pretty sure you don't need a man. Your a strong an independant woman and I wish I was more like you.

[serenity_aus]

Hey Petrina welcome to my blog of woe lol

Hmm posting is so intermitent.. naughty

Food:
Chocolate cake (4 carbs!)
chicken salad
chicken curry and brocolli

Ok well choccy cake isn't technically legal on induction, but I'm still way under 20 carbs a day.

Not really much to tell.. or should I say there's plenty to rant about, not much to tell lol.

I wish I didn't work so many hours and had the time to do loads of exercise, let alone the efforts the biggest loser contestants put in lol. Ahh well.

Loss is very slow.. bl00dy PCOS! Especially when my friend is supposedly low carbing (if you can call eating 6 sandwich and 2 caramel slices one day and then half heartedly doing it the next by having kfc and no chips) and still loses weight

[serenity_aus]

must..... keep..... posting.... more..... often......

I re-committed myself yesterday to cutting the carp and whilst I've been low-carbing, I've been having way too many legal treats so cut the carp!

Yesterday:
quiche
chicken curry
chorizo salsa (this was divine, chopped tomato, basil, avocado, chorizo and crumbled cream cheese (can't really crumble cream cheese but you get the gist)
Water - 2.5ltr (must keep up water intake!)

So far today:
Bacon and eggs
water - 1.25 ltr

hmm lunch might have to be that chorizo salsa again that stuff was bloomen beautiful and very filling. Think I'm gonna have fish for dinner.. hmmmm

Drama surrounds me.. why can't life be easy. Everything happens to me lol. Today it was the kitchen sink not draining, put two lots of draino down and it went through, but a bit slow.. so of course i couldn' thelp myself i put the water through it at full and blocked it so i had water sitting in the sink... just about to remove the s-bend decided to go out and buy a plunger... still didn't work.. emptied out the water a bit and then "dry" plunged it and now the thing is working fine... so dunno what that was about, but yahh for chick power lol.

Went to hair dresser yesterday and got loads of hair cut off. Wasn't so sure about it to begin with but looking at it again last night I really like it - the other lot was so long and drab made me look like a fat frump.. well i'm still a fat frump but atleast my hair doesn't drag me down lol.

Off to drown some more water, watch medium and then onto the treadmill and watching the biggest loser!


must..... keep..... posting.... more..... often......