Dreaming of 14...still

Yankee Belle · 01-03-2006, 01:07 PM

It seems like I've been 'Dreaming of 14' for years now. I guess that's because I have been. I'm not sure if anyone here will even remember me. Frankly, I hope that no one does. I'm embarassed at how hard it's been for me to get on track and stay there. Now it's the New Year and I'm here, ready to try again. Again. Again. Again. Do you know how sick I am of that word? But the thing is, I refuse to quit TRYING, no matter how many times I may fall.

I promised myself never to do Atkin's again. I worry about the health risks and the lack of variety in the menu used to make me...just sick of the diet in general, I guess. Maybe there's not a lack in variety. Maybe I've just been lacking in creativity. Why did I come back to Atkin's? Because I know first hand that it works. I lost 70 pounds like a breeze my first go-around. Unfortunately when I moved down here to Alabama, I got off track and have never managed to get it right again.

The scale is approaching 300 again. It's very very difficult for me to admit that. I once weighed 320 and SWORE to myself that I would never allow the scale to see 300 again. Well, so far it hasn't but if I don't do something in a hurry, it will soon. I'm only 7 pounds away. OMG!! I could gain that in a WEEK if I'm not careful!

Nope, nope, nope...can't go there again. I won't. I promised myself and I am a woman of my word.

I'm now on day 2 of my WOL. So far, so easy. Let's hope it stays this way, at least for a while.

God, please grant me strength.
And God? When I'm weak, please grant me strong friends!

Missy's Journey · 01-03-2006, 03:04 PM

Hey Theresa--

you and I are in the same exact boat...I finally came back lurking this morning. I didn't even wake up planning to go back on LC. Just like you, I went off over a year ago and have tried anything and everything. I was bored/scared whatever (excuses) Fortunately, I lost a few pounds along the way while I was starving myself. But I have lost and gained the same 10 pounds for the last year--and felt like crap. I had one 3 week stretch last month where i had a headache every single day! When I looked in the fridge for breakfast and my Lean Cuisine for lunch (which I brought) I just knew from looking at that cardboard crap that I couldn't do it anymore. I hope and pray that I can do this again.

sorry I'm probably not the "strong" friend you are praying for, but your post about feeling limited by the food choices really struck a chord with me--cause I've always talked myself out of starting this WOE again for the same reason. But in reality, I think I just need to find tasty, simple recipes instead of the recipes that sound great but have 20 ingredients and take a long time to cook.

Hopefully, in a few months, we will both see some progress and send an electronic

to each other!

Best wishes to you---(and me

)

Missy

IM DENYSE · 01-04-2006, 07:20 PM

I thought "ark" was cuter than "boat" .... I'm in the same place you guys are! Two years ago I was 318 lbs and I lost 86 lbs in less than a year on Atkins. Well....... I got from a 26/28 to a size 16. I looked great, I felt great....I was attaining my dream! Then somehow, and I can't even tell you how, when, or why .... I fell off track and 18 came and 18 went and 20 came and 20 went and when I got to 22, I swore it was just a few pounds but now I'm a 24 ... I hate it. So January 1, I started again.

I WILL be your strong friend. Just call on me when ya need me!

DENYSE

Yankee Belle · 01-05-2006, 02:50 PM

Well, I'm glad to meet both of you! I think that we can do this. I really do. This is such a huge board. It might be fun for the 3 of us to support each other since we're all in the same "ark". LOL...

Yankee Belle · 01-05-2006, 03:05 PM

Here I am on day 4 of Atkin's. Not a single cheat yet. (Yay me) On the second day I had a whopper of a headache (carb withdrawl, I'm pretty sure) but I'm feeling a lot better now. Except this morning I threw up.

I'm pretty sure that was because of the vitamins I took. I've always had a bit of difficulty with them. That's ok. A minor hurdle.

I'm feeling my self-esteem slip back into place. I feel in control of myself again. Like you, Denyse, I have also recently started a new job and am loving it. My relationship is 3 years old (as of yesterday) but it still feels new. I'm so in love with him.

Right now I'm having ZERO cravings for carbs. That's a good thing.

I've promised myself to not even LOOK at tomorrow. This time I really *am* going to take this one day at a time. I've said this before but I don't think that I really understood the concept. One day at a time means just that. I will only look at today. I won't look back and I won't look ahead. What does looking ahead get me?

I feel the urge to go write a post about this topic...so maybe I will.

IM DENYSE · 01-07-2006, 11:11 AM

Keep posting girl ... it helps. I'm going through a rough time right now but still trying to check the boards. Stay strong!!!

01-03-2006, 01:07 PM	#1
Yankee Belle Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Mobile, AL Posts: 619 Gallery: Yankee Belle Stats: 293/275/170 Height 5'10" WOE: My Way Start Date: January 2, 2006	Dreaming of 14...still It seems like I've been 'Dreaming of 14' for years now. I guess that's because I have been. I'm not sure if anyone here will even remember me. Frankly, I hope that no one does. I'm embarassed at how hard it's been for me to get on track and stay there. Now it's the New Year and I'm here, ready to try again. Again. Again. Again. Do you know how sick I am of that word? But the thing is, I refuse to quit TRYING, no matter how many times I may fall. I promised myself never to do Atkin's again. I worry about the health risks and the lack of variety in the menu used to make me...just sick of the diet in general, I guess. Maybe there's not a lack in variety. Maybe I've just been lacking in creativity. Why did I come back to Atkin's? Because I know first hand that it works. I lost 70 pounds like a breeze my first go-around. Unfortunately when I moved down here to Alabama, I got off track and have never managed to get it right again. The scale is approaching 300 again. It's very very difficult for me to admit that. I once weighed 320 and SWORE to myself that I would never allow the scale to see 300 again. Well, so far it hasn't but if I don't do something in a hurry, it will soon. I'm only 7 pounds away. OMG!! I could gain that in a WEEK if I'm not careful! Nope, nope, nope...can't go there again. I won't. I promised myself and I am a woman of my word. I'm now on day 2 of my WOL. So far, so easy. Let's hope it stays this way, at least for a while. God, please grant me strength. And God? When I'm weak, please grant me strong friends! __________________ Theresa 1/2/06---293 1/24/06--280 1/7/06---285 2/2/06---275 1/13/06--283 Honesty with myself will be the key to my success!! Miles walked since January 23, 2006: 25.8

01-03-2006, 03:04 PM	#2
Missy's Journey Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Tucson, AZ Posts: 566 Gallery: Missy's Journey WOE: 70% Fat--20 carbs or less Start Date: 7/1/2003	Hey Theresa-- you and I are in the same exact boat...I finally came back lurking this morning. I didn't even wake up planning to go back on LC. Just like you, I went off over a year ago and have tried anything and everything. I was bored/scared whatever (excuses) Fortunately, I lost a few pounds along the way while I was starving myself. But I have lost and gained the same 10 pounds for the last year--and felt like crap. I had one 3 week stretch last month where i had a headache every single day! When I looked in the fridge for breakfast and my Lean Cuisine for lunch (which I brought) I just knew from looking at that cardboard crap that I couldn't do it anymore. I hope and pray that I can do this again. sorry I'm probably not the "strong" friend you are praying for, but your post about feeling limited by the food choices really struck a chord with me--cause I've always talked myself out of starting this WOE again for the same reason. But in reality, I think I just need to find tasty, simple recipes instead of the recipes that sound great but have 20 ingredients and take a long time to cook. Hopefully, in a few months, we will both see some progress and send an electronic to each other! Best wishes to you---(and me ) Missy __________________ Melissa Highest weight ever: 318 Lowest weight ever: 214 (in 2006) restarting 11/13/07--258 pounds 12/15/07---241 pounds measurements: 11/13 chest 48.5/waist 48.5/hips 58.0 11/27 chest 47.5/waist 45.5/hips 55.5 12/15 chest 45.5/waist 44/hips 53.5

01-04-2006, 07:20 PM	#3
IM DENYSE Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Skokie, IL Posts: 83 Gallery: IM DENYSE Stats: 318/297/Size 12 WOE: Atkins Start Date: January 2006	IN THE "ARK" TOGETHER I thought "ark" was cuter than "boat" .... I'm in the same place you guys are! Two years ago I was 318 lbs and I lost 86 lbs in less than a year on Atkins. Well....... I got from a 26/28 to a size 16. I looked great, I felt great....I was attaining my dream! Then somehow, and I can't even tell you how, when, or why .... I fell off track and 18 came and 18 went and 20 came and 20 went and when I got to 22, I swore it was just a few pounds but now I'm a 24 ... I hate it. So January 1, I started again. I WILL be your strong friend. Just call on me when ya need me! DENYSE

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01-05-2006, 02:50 PM	#4
Yankee Belle Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Mobile, AL Posts: 619 Gallery: Yankee Belle Stats: 293/275/170 Height 5'10" WOE: My Way Start Date: January 2, 2006	Well, I'm glad to meet both of you! I think that we can do this. I really do. This is such a huge board. It might be fun for the 3 of us to support each other since we're all in the same "ark". LOL...

01-05-2006, 03:05 PM	#5
Yankee Belle Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Mobile, AL Posts: 619 Gallery: Yankee Belle Stats: 293/275/170 Height 5'10" WOE: My Way Start Date: January 2, 2006	Here I am on day 4 of Atkin's. Not a single cheat yet. (Yay me) On the second day I had a whopper of a headache (carb withdrawl, I'm pretty sure) but I'm feeling a lot better now. Except this morning I threw up. I'm pretty sure that was because of the vitamins I took. I've always had a bit of difficulty with them. That's ok. A minor hurdle. I'm feeling my self-esteem slip back into place. I feel in control of myself again. Like you, Denyse, I have also recently started a new job and am loving it. My relationship is 3 years old (as of yesterday) but it still feels new. I'm so in love with him. Right now I'm having ZERO cravings for carbs. That's a good thing. I've promised myself to not even LOOK at tomorrow. This time I really am going to take this one day at a time. I've said this before but I don't think that I really understood the concept. One day at a time means just that. I will only look at today. I won't look back and I won't look ahead. What does looking ahead get me? I feel the urge to go write a post about this topic...so maybe I will.

01-07-2006, 11:11 AM	#6
IM DENYSE Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Skokie, IL Posts: 83 Gallery: IM DENYSE Stats: 318/297/Size 12 WOE: Atkins Start Date: January 2006	Keep posting girl ... it helps. I'm going through a rough time right now but still trying to check the boards. Stay strong!!!