Curves Ahead

[TinO]

[COLOR=DarkGreen]One more day til DBF comes home.. I have to admit that I've really enjoyed the time alone. Alot of things to work out in my head without the distractions. Our relationship hasnt been the smoothest. I suppose sometimes we get caught up in the moment and dont realize we are digging a hole.

I need to make some big decisions this year, him being one of them. He loves me because I am everything he is not. I am strong, outgoing, have a mind of my own, and am honest. He is the opposite, and the more time we spend together, the weaker he gets. Which makes me stronger...and thats not good. I need a rock, a partner, someone whom I can count on when I'm am most vunerable. When the tough gets tougher, he gets weaker. I am growing to really despise him because of that and because he isnt the one I can count on to help me up when I fall. He is so needy, and I am independent. I feel like there is a ball and chain attached! ARGH!

Wow, am I being totally honest here or what? Am I finally releasing the truth to myself? I know I cant live the rest of the life like I have been. Its been fun, but it also has been empty. Things look rosey on the outside, because you cant see the rot starting from the inside.

I guess I'm the one who always rescues the injured.. I always give the benefit of the doubt, at first. I see the positive in people and hope for the best. Sooner or later I see the truth as I cant deny it any longer. Will things work themselves out between us? I dont know. I am tired. He tries, but tried way too hard! He changed from the person I fell in love with in the beginning... he has dropped the facad! I hate fakes! I have talked about this with a few people.. he plagerizes me. What I say, what I like, what I do, where I go, my friends.. it's like he doesnt have his own personality or can do anything by himself. He is TOFU!

whew...I am feeling better! I thought you were supposed to miss someone when they are gone?!?! ..and no, PMS was last week This is the year for change for me!

Ok, rambling here. Just needed to get that out in the open so I can reread it.


Today:

B - eggs
L - tomatoe, cucumber, feta, walnuts, olive oil, spices
S - apple
D - ?

Exercise: 60 mins DWA tonite

Been doing at least 100 abs and 50 pushups when I dont DWA. Cant wait for my callenetic dvd to arrive!

*be honest with yourself*

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[Groovycadreamr]

"it's like he doesnt have his own personality or can do anything by himself. He is TOFU!"


That is so bad!! lol. but can be so true of people. I hate when i ask my dh for his opinion and all he says is "What ever you think/like" sometimes, I can strangle him.

[TinO]

OK, maybe I am bad, and maybe I was having a moment this afternoon... a friend came up with Tofu the other day, out of the blue and really got me thinking

PS...notice the new name. Had to change for personal reasons Same as before, just shorter.. TinO as in Teeinor clever, ey?

[TinO]

[COLOR=DarkSlateGray]Good Morning... and what a beautiful new me! (notice name change)

It's March 1st.. 181 this morning not great..but a loss I will take. Started CLA/GLA a week ago.. I hope it works and is worth it.

60 mins areobics last night. Am trying to get in at least 100 abs/50 pu for days I dont go to DWA.

I need to work on toning my turkey chin and flappin bat wings. Also I switched to using cocoa butter on my tummy, arms and thighes..hoping to help the elasticity of my skin and diminish the stretch marks from being so fat! I see a subtle change, so I think its working. Besides, I'm now soft as a babies butt!

today:
b- eggs
l- chicken, crack
s- apple
d - ?

water water water water water

*it's not the destination, it's the journey*

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[TinO]

[COLOR=darkblue]Ok, why fix sumpin if'n it isnt broke, right?

I am sending my CLA and GLA back to the vitamin company I use (sorry they wouldnt let me post the name here, and YES, they guarentee their vitamins and they're the cheapest I found).

I have lost over 8" on my belt since starting 10/3/05.. That's DAMN GOOD if'n you ask me

I dont think the CLA/GLA is for me right now. In the future, if I have trouble taking off the inches around my middle, I might try it again. But for now, I'm stickin' to what I've been doing!

Ok, 'nuff said about that!

*Keep on low carb'n, cardio'n, tone'n & rock'n out*

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[Groovycadreamr]

Yes, I noticed the name change right away.

So, It does look like you have fabulouse results with the exercise. I started cla/gla but only used it about a week. I will probably finish out the bottle and that will be it.

[cdn_gal]

[COLOR=Black]Hey ya sexy babe.... Hows things with your DBF doing since he got back?......Looks to me like you got some serious soul searching to do in the next little bit....I'm going through the same thing right now, and as you know, have been for the past month.... I know how hard it is, I dont wanna say goodbye, but it's time to start thinking about ourselves for once... What do we want, not what you think someone else wants.... Its easier for me, cause we dont live together, and I have been slowly moving away... I guess I'm kinda hoping he will say it first, so I wont feel so bad doing it myself???..... I dunno, funny thing this WOE huh?.....Makes you start thinking about your whole life in general, not just what we are stuffing in our faces.... I wish you best in whatever decision you choose to make, only you know what is best for YOU.... to you T...... [/COLOR]

[TinO]

oops, forgot to post my March 1st results... here goes (will write more in the morning)

Weight ..by month

Oct 3 - 225
Nov 1 - 219
Dec 1 - 207
Jan 1 - 201
Feb 1 - 191
Mar 1 - 181

[TinO]

[COLOR=blue]Finally, finally, finally... the 170's are here! cool cool cool cool! Yeesh, it seems like it's been a long time since I showed a loss. Yeah baby, 179 yesterday!! :::dancing around in front of the window so the neighbors can see::::: It's a really groovy day in the neighborhood!

46# gone FOREVER!

Gotta run, doing yard work, company.. more later..
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[TinO]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Good Morning... still holding 179 today! I'll take it!! That's a -3 I am logging today

I'm trying to stay upbeat. My tofu man decided to send me emails on Friday instead of talking to me face to face... It's not looking good for our relationship, he created his own environment this time. I was blind sided and I disrespect anyone who cant come up to my face and tell me what they feel. Even over the weekend, he didnt respond to any of his fri emails..uh, we live together... WTH...whatever. I wont let this stop me from eating right, and why should it!? Obstacles get in our way all the time and I am learning that dealing with problems doesnt have to include food. Besides, if we call it quits I'll want to look as good as I can, if ya know what I mean

This week:
4+ days cardio
80+ water each day
100+ ab crunches each day
start exercising with my new Carmen Electra DVD, sounds like this is gonna come in handy too!
stay postive

*smile and the world smiles back*

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[TinO]

Went out for Prime Rib last night with the rally committee. I did good and said no to the taters, no to the bread (yikes, that was a hard one), and decided no alcohol (I know I know.. unlike me). I was stuffed with salad, veggie appetizers, coffee, and I ate ALL the prime rib <oink> it was sooooooo good!

Today I am hungry cuz there were'nt any eggs in the frig this morning. I ate some yocheese instead... deeeelish but not filling.

b-yocheese w/ cherry flavouring, 1 strawberry, coffee w/ hwc
L-1/2 cup chkn and onion, horsey-mayo sauce, 3 slices turkey, 3/4 cup peas and butter
s- yocheese w/ cherry flavouring, 1 strawberry (i'm also thinking of eating my apple)
d- I'm sticking with just meat tonite.. I feel like a pig.

todays exercise:
60 mins DWA

*oinkoinkoinkoink*

[TinO]

[COLOR=DarkSlateBlue]I'm teetering on the same numbers for the past couple weeks, it's either 179 or 181! I will study my food journal and find what has been causing the stall. ...hmmmm

That's about it... I posted on a couple other boards... so I'm out of things to say..

I've been doing my crunches faithfully (Thanks Lei for your inspiration on those, really!)
I've switched from creamer with carbs to creamer with no carbs as in heavy whipping cream (another thanks to Lei and to Alce for making me realize it is so much better! See, your journaling is a huge inspiration to the rest of us, I luv you, man!)
I've stopped the c la/ g la as really I didnt feel it necessary. Still need to return them and get my money back.
It's becoming more and more apparant summer is coming and I want to look sexy and hot in tanks and short!
I need to exercise more, I slowed down the last couple weeks since I got sick.
I need to stay postive and keep going. The scale can be depressing, I called it names this morning, twice!
I know I cant rely on the scale.
I know that stalls happen.
I know that menus need adjusted.
I know our body works on food, be it losing or gaining.
I forget to breathe so I've written reminders on my computer and in my drawer at work. Everytime I read it, I take a few deep breaths.
I know that I am in control of my environment, what happens is all because I made it happen.

*be true to yourself*

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[Alcestis]

T, you're just great. You always remind me of the things that matter I love your good sense!

[TinO]

[COLOR=Navy]Hey Alce, thanks girl Just trying to help make myself believe I can do it.

Today was a beautiful day, chilly but the sun was out. and... drum role for reaching mini-goal....178 today! -1! hotdamn!

This is also the same weight I was when I lost my focus and began eating senselessly in Jun 04... Took me longer to get there this time as I started at way more..

Today A good friend of mine (and he's lucky I like him) commented right after someone else said to me- "are you losing weight?" -I said.. "not really, I'm at the same weight I was in 04". My friend pulls up the back of my coat and says..."yes you are, your butt was way bigger" ..OMG! WTH?!! He didnt realize at that moment, the impact this could or could not have caused! After I got over the initial shock and looked at him, he just stood there frozen hahahahahaha!!!!!! OMG! It was actually histarical! Ahole is on my hit "list"!

OK, so this weight was the last number I logged previously. I feel good finally getting back to it.. whew!!

[COLOR=DarkRed]Mini-goal 178# COMPLETED! 3/11/06[/COLOR][/COLOR]

[cdn_gal]

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Just trying to help make myself believe I can do it

Make yourself believe?..... Geesh girl, take a look at yourself, you ARE doing it!!! WTG on the mini-goal reached, since Pootalicious isn't around to tell you, I will..... WOOT, your a rockstar!!!..... [/COLOR]

[TinO]

Hey thanks buddy Believing in myself is a full time job

Not much to write (yeah I know, i always say that then ramble on for a 1/2 a page)

I ate alot this weekend it seems. Low carb good stuff, just seems I had my hand in my face the entire weekend.

Learned some callentic moves. The vhs tape is old so the fashions are a bit outdated, but I can get past that, haha! I will burn it to DVD tonite to make it a little easier to move around.

Other than that.. its sunny outside Have a groovy day!

[Alcestis]

The DVD is the same...very, very 80s-tastic.

T, I'm going to state the obvious...you only have 28lbs to go to reach goal Less than 30lbs! Not much more than 25lbs! Umm, how else can I put it? You're getting so close to goal!!!

Keep plodding in the right direction, you inspiring little chicky, you.

[cdn_gal]

Bumptity bump bump bump.......

[cdn_gal]

[COLOR=Black]Okay, where the hell are you?.... Hope everything is going okay and you've just been busy out enjoying the sunshine and riding your bike.... Come back soon, I miss you...... [/COLOR]

[COLOR=Sienna]Bumpity bump bump[/COLOR]

[Groovycadreamr]

T~~~

Come out, Come out from where ever you are!! Where are you hiding girl?

[brige]

I have not been here in sometime due to falling off the wagon. It is good to see you doing so well and you are still kepp on keeping on. You go girl!!!

[TinO]

[COLOR=Blue]I'mmmmmmmmmm BAAAAAAAAACK!!!! Whew, where in the hell have I been??!?!?! Sometimes I'd come in and take a peek but too occupied to spend time writing. (that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it)

I'm happy to say I didnt forget about LC'ing and all my LC friends! You kept me going in spirit and in thoughts. I didnt lose, but I didnt gain. I've been eating the same... Mom was here for a few days I was too stressed to lose. I'm still at 178. Looks like March is going out without any loss.. but without any gain, so it's all good!

I've slacked on the exercising and have only been going to DWA twice a week. I started on Saturday to get back to my 4-5 days a week. This will help shed those pounds for sure.

This weekend we are going to Tampa...woohoo!! 4 fun & sun filled days! I didnt get to 170 like I wanted but I am still positive and happy that I have maintained and my new lifestyle has been easy.

That's about it for now.. I'll be back daily again (less vacation days).

*Don't worry, be happy*

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[cdn_gal]

[COLOR=Black]YEAH!! She's backkkkkkkkkkk..... Glad to see you back and everything is okay.... Going to Tampa are ya?..... Got a suitcase big enough to stick me in?.... Sounds like an awesome time, were planning a Washington, Oregon, California Pub crawl on the bikes in June.... There's about 10 of us going down just to get away and hopefully see some sun... You guys have sun there don't you?..... [/COLOR]

[TinO]

Originally Posted by cdn_gal

[COLOR=Black]YEAH!! She's backkkkkkkkkkk..... Glad to see you back and everything is okay.... Going to Tampa are ya?..... Got a suitcase big enough to stick me in?.... Sounds like an awesome time, were planning a Washington, Oregon, California Pub crawl on the bikes in June.... There's about 10 of us going down just to get away and hopefully see some sun... You guys have sun there don't you?..... [/COLOR]

I think your skinny tooshy can fit into anything!!

Uhhhh....sun? Sure, there's always sun.. just sometimes the clouds hide it In June you have a 50/50 chance! You let me know exactly when you be in this area, since you have to come through here to get to California! We'll for sure hook up, I know lots of pubs!!!!! Yippee, you coming to Oregon!!

[TinO]

Wow! Check out the date I last logged on! HOLY MOLY, where has the time gone!?!?!?!?! It's spring, and it's busy! I stayed the same weight pre-mom, during-mom, and now after-mom I'm back to focusing and losing again. Gotta get a couple more pounds gone before the trip (without the dbf) to vegas. Yep, what happens in vegas, stays in vegas! if'n ya know what I mean... hehe

Had a nice mini-vacay in Florida. Hit the roller coasters at Busch gardens then a day and a half in my swimsuit (thank god noone knew me) at the water park having a blast! I'm all relaxed but ready for summer to get here and stay a while!! Its been a long winter, too long. Lots going on with the club, riding, work.. the rally, the list goes on.. dammit, am I getting paid for any of this? oh hell no! LOL

*Life is good, enjoy the ride!*

[cdn_gal]

[COLOR=Black] Happy Easter my lil sexy biker babe.... Hope your having a great day T.... [/COLOR]

[TinO]

[COLOR=Blue]Happy Spring! I'm back in the swing of my diary again, and it's about time! I've managed to maintain, which is something I've never done before so it looks like I'm still on track. I need to focus on losing and working out harder. I've had some medical issues holding me back, so its been hard.. I've tried to keep 2-3 days a week DWA. If it's not one thing it's another!! That's how life is and thats what life deals us. We have to be ready to jump those hurdles. I mean face it, the road isnt smooth and it will always test our ability to ride the dips and bumps. I am a survivor! oh, and I'm a damn good rider!!

I think I have a bit too much fat in my daily diet. It has stalled me so I will cut that out first. I havent eaten sugarcarbs as it makes me ill, so that's all good. I have eaten a little more than normal, damn vacation.. but I didnt really over do it. I'm still consciously aware of what I need. I know any little overage with me will pack the weight back on before the normal person. Damn insulin resistance is my life long obstacle!

Ok damn it, I'm back OK??!!?! I know when I dont post daily, I dont do as well. This board is my saviour (where is the dictionary?)! I am back to writing in my little notebook, logging my weight, egads.. I havent hit the 50 gone yet, but still very close!

Have a groovy day!

*When the obstacles get bigger, jump higher*

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[TinO]

Originally Posted by cdn_gal

[COLOR=Black]Happy Easter my lil sexy biker babe.... Hope your having a great day T.... [/COLOR]

Thank you Lei, you're the swellest gal ever!!!! Happy Easter to you too!!!!!!!!! you make my day brighter

[Groovycadreamr]

Where are you girl? We miss you

[cdn_gal]

~~~~Do The Bumpity Bump Bump!!!~~~~
I saved you!!!! You were on page 2 and I saved you!!!

Where are you?
Whatcha been doing?
Its been almost 3 weeks since you posted
I miss you
That is all.......

~~ETA:~ I know where you live....