The Perilous Journey of PJ

[PJMS]

K so here goes, time to be accountable for what i put into this body.. the journal thing sounded interesting and it may help me in this perilous journey full of temptations and non atkinites!!.it worked a year ago then. ( there is alwys a then!!) I went on holidays and well I fell off the wagon....I always felt so great lowcarbing so why did I do it.?? who knows self sabotge. getting too much attention?? ah the baggage of ones life carried in layers of unwanted flesh..

Anyhow today is the first day of the rest of my life (what a cliche!!! ) but hey its appropriate...

Menu for today
Breakkie:
3 slices bacon
3 eggs
2 cups of green tea

Lunch
homemade burger between 2 iceburg lettuce leaves with mayo and bacon bits
1 cup of green tea

Dinner// oh i have to think about that one later.

Snackies hm perhaps boiked eggs depends if I feel snackie. I love yogurt but dont think i can have it on induction otherwise I would have this for all my snacks .sigh

k I have to get off these boards for a bit. they are addictive!!!

PJ

[PJMS]

Figured out dinner.. finally. doing sppj. for family with meat sauce, I am having the meat sauce with cabbage, kinda like a lazy version of cabbage rolls........

Waiting on soil for garden to come today, I have tons to do so I wont be obseesing about what to eat. I find that the hardest, to not obsess over what to eat, it does go away but for about a month I find its like alwys in the forefront of my mind. For example its our thanksgiving this weekend and I have already planned what I can an cant eat at my sisters, and am bringing the Green Bean casserole one that I can eat ..
Good thing I never miss the deserts since I wasnt much of a dessert person, but how i do miss my choclate!!! At Christmas I will make an LC version of Choc mousse, see already thinking that far ahead, damn thats so nuts!!!

This too shall pass.....

[PJMS]

Damn its hot here. about 30 celsius in October!!! Just nutty! I m currently moving 3 yrds of soil and I am sweating bullets!!!! If I dont lose at least one pound tomorrow I will be royally ticked!!!! DD will be home soon dont think she will be helping though, checked my penpall request.no takers......pouts........aw well I dont think that there is a whole lot of us canadians on this site not that Lc is any less popular people just dont talk about it they just say they are of white refined starches and sugars, pretty much what I say if asked,, well I have procastinated enuff . back to slogging soil......

[PJMS]

Well I dont know if it was what I was doing yesterday or what I ate but this morning I had a whoosh of 5 pds! Could be all the sweating so most could be water weight but what the heck I will take it, I guess the tell tale will be tomorrow.............

My DH came home last nite and told me of 3 upcoming functions that he would like me to go to for his work,argh! Fotunately the first is not until Nov 3 and the others are at the begiining of Dec. I am so hoping I can lose some more of this weight before then!!

I read on the boards yesterday about two great items that I would so love to find but being in Cnada makes it haed, coconut flour and Shiritke noodles,, I think with those I would miss nothing. I am already worried about Christmas, how dumb is that!! I always bake tons and give away to fam and friends, I sort of wanted to do some lowcarb things for here and coconut flour sounded great! Will do my calling around health food stores and bulk barns to see if I can find either of these items.

KIds came home yesterday and saw a huge plate of deviled eggs in the fridge and wondered who was coming over.lol .. I told them that these were healthy snacks, they said really!! and promptly ate two each...they are great when that hunger monster looms in mid morning or afternoon. Well willl post my menu to keep myself accountable............

Breakfast
2 mugs green tea
3 slices bacon
2 eggs

snack
deviled egg

Lunch
Cabbage roll pie ( leftovers from last nite) yum!
Tea /water

Snack
Devilled egg

Supper
Chicken leg with thigh Maybe two I will see how hungry i am
Brussel sprouts ( I love these I put butter and garlic on them Yummy)

Snack
making sf Jello today might have that!


I think I will aslo make some quiches and put them in the freezer tonite, I saw lots of great recipes would make great breakies or lunches..

Off to slog in the garden, only have about half a yard to move and then I can rummage around in my garden for plants that will grow in this spot,,,,oh the fun never stops!! Serves me right my occupation is my life. lol..love it though. My bizz partner and i do a grden consult on Friday, every garden is so different and you can alweys see the personlity of the person in it. just an observation......anybody who reads this, have a great LC day!! and keep smiling!!

[PJMS]

Well the 5 pounds held!!!!WOOHOO! At 243 this am.........finsihed the garden yesterday all 126 ft of it!!! Did some planting looks good so far....feeling a wee bit sore. especially around the shoulder area. but otherwise okay. I have been reading the boards and came acros one by a lady named Trina, she is really in a very bad way. She weighs about 600 pounds and is not gettingout of her house, It sounded terrible! I feltso badly for her. She had lots of wonderful people giving her much needed advice about social services etc. the people on this board are fantastic, theu make you realize everyday and we really are not all that different and all have caring hearts. The human race doesnt suckl that bad after all!!

Still loooking for those damn shiritake noodles and cconut flour! arrgh!!! Had a conversation with a guy form an Afro caribbean store on the phone yesterday hes say"" No man I never heard of such a ting"" You sure its flour!!"' He was nice about it and said he would check his suppliers. Thinking of either buying a food processer of borrowing my sistas and making my own. She never uses hers she doesnt cook!!

Mom and Dad are still in Florida, they will be back on the 15th I still worry about my Dad but his quad bypass surgery has given him a new lease on life. We all did Ireland this past summer and I have never seen him so happy! He keeps his white carbs down also but stays away from really high fat it works for him. I remeber him coming home form hospital and reading the diet the heart ascoiation gave him it was like 20 years behind schedule!! sad really!!


Today I have my pottery class yaeah i know sounds lame but I always wanted to take one and I just love Raku( type of glazed pottery) I have visons of grandeur oin my head. but hey why not dream a little.

Stuck to plan yesterday with the exception of the SFJello had whipped creme with tad of cocoa andsome Sf ornage jello granules so the carb content was the same. I am making this kewl pizza quiche that I found on the boards last nite for dinner I am hopin everyone likes it here not that they are overly fussy!!

Menu for today( not feeling real hungry yet but know i have to have Breakie)

scrambled eggs with cheese and real bacon bits ( eggs 2)
Green tea x2 mugs

Snack
deviled egg ( gonna turn into one soon)

Lunch
chicken from dinner and mixed green salad with blue cheese dressing

Snack

Turkey pepperoni x 2


Dinner

pizza quiche
salad with blue cheese dreesing

Snack

gonna have Jello this time!! I have to remeber to make it....


Everyone out there Have a safe and happy LC day!!

Oh BTW look for Trinas post and have a read it will really put your life into perspective.............

[PJMS]

Another day and a weekend looming in front of me and not just any weekend Thanks giving weekend!!!!argh! This is gonna be tuff!! sigh Feelling yucky today dont know why Its raining here and I have the blahs, I have a consult to do this aft and not really into it... sigh usually love going to peoples gardens but its one of those grey days where bed looks awfully inviting...

I am making a pumpkin mousse that i found on the LC boards for my sisters and a greenbean dish.....wont be able to eat her stuffing she makes it with breadcrumbs or the gravy or the potatoes but figure if I have good breakfast before goihg there i will be fine...wont have any wine either I will save that till Monday and have a glass with my DH........DH works for a US company here so he is away on Sat/Sun at some football game in Detroit so on Monday when we are all together I will be making another TG dinner ....LC style( at least for me) for kids and DH.........turkey leftovers are the best!!

I made that pizza quiche last night Yummy!!!!!! having it for breakfast since I probably will miss lunch.......the consult is at 1...........
This would be a good thing to make and freeze ah one day I will.

Stayed on plan yesterday. my call were a bit high but the carbs were at 20 guessing thats ok...
Weighed this a.m. same! but i guess thats okay. hell it took me years to get fat it isnt just going to disappear overnite ( would be nice though)


breakie
2 cups greentea
2 slices pizza quiche

Lunch
will eat devilled egg when i get home at 3
tea

Dinner
roast beef
broccoli

Snacks......
veggies look low maybe cucumber and dip



Dont really feel up to journalling much so gonna bail.

Have a great Thanksgiving all you Cannucks and have a great LC weekend everyone!

[PJMS]

Phew!!!! made it the long weekend is finally over, and I stayed cheat free!!! I ate legal!!!YES!! I did make two LC deserts one a pumpkin mousse for my sister and the crustless pumpkin pie for here, so I did not feel deprived at all!! Everyonbe loved the mousse my sister invited her very skinny friend over and she asked what was in it and nearly had a stroke when i told her there was 2 cps of heavy cream in it!! She is a low fatter........but I did tell here that there was absolutely no sugar in it..... Kids loved the pumpkin pie they never ask whats in it as long as it tastes good even Dh said it was yummy!!

Not weighing until TOM is over ..dont want to get in a fuss over TOM gaining!! I do feel my clothes looser I really have to get me a tape measure. I think I am one of those people that loses inches faster than pounds, Im quite muscular under this layer of fat!!

Today due to TOM I am craving biscuits so I found a recipe that is about 3 carbs per I will make that. I am also making, yeah you guessed it TURKEY soup!! That will also help with TOM cravings. Using up all leftover veggies in it and adding some pumpkin puree to help it hicken up a bit. My DS will love it he is my big soup eater.

Menu for today looks like

Cheesy biscut x2 for breakfast
2 scrambled eggs
slice of pork sausage
2 mugs of green tea

Lunch
Turkey soup
cheesey biscut

Supper
faux potatoes
broccoli
Turkey ( gotta eat the leftovers up!)

Snack
Leftover crustless pumpkin pie( if the kids dont get to it first!)

Lots of water today. this helps with TOM.........

I lost a pound on the weekend so thats ok slow and steady will win this.....still have my determination hat on!! Next big hurdle to go over is DS birhday and Halloweeny!!( chocolate is my ultimate weakness!)
Any suggestions for this??

Happy LCING everyone!

[tiggy_oz]

Pottery is not lame by the way. I think its heaps cool! I wanted a wheel for a birthday when i was younger. But then im rather tactile.

Awesome work on surviving thanksgiving!! Its so hard to pass on homemade stuffing sometimes. Your amazing! .

Halloweeen for a chocolate lover is rather hard. Tips i can suggest:
If you hand out candy ensure it is something you really dont like to eat yourself. Im sure out of all the bagged candies you'll find something that you hate . Get it out of your house asap after halloween. Also you might invest in some LC chocolates for the occasion for just in case. Dont buy a lot cos many (myself included!) have portion issues with it if they dont have potty issues with the sugar alcohols.

Have a great week

Christine

[PJMS]

Thanks for those great tips for Halloween Christine! I am buying only what is to be given out tna the rest will be to kids for lunches! I will be strong! I agree.. pottery is now one of my fav things to do I am really enjoying it and the instructor is great. I cant wait to learn how to use the wheel it looks like a hoot! My gf tells me that one day she cn she my DH setting up a room for me with a wheel etc she sais your just one of those people who always goes for it........lol

Anway..........today I take my MIL to hospital to get the lump on her thyroid biopsied hoping its nothing, we have already done the cancer thing dont wnat to have her go thru that again.crossing fingers and toes here.....
Its raing and cool here right now and the gardens are getting covered in leaves they are starting to fall its pretty but I know that winter is fast approcahing and its not my favorite time of year! I was thinking wouldnt it be cool to be like a butterfly be overweight going into the winter and emerging at goal in the spring. kinda poetic or pathethic.... thats the plan stan!!

I feel definitely bloaty today. had turkey too many times me thinks.........also TOM is a beast right now so not weighing. why should I just to make myself nuts! I can do that all by myself!

Menu for today.

Breakfast
2 cups green teas
2 scrambl;ed egss with real bacon bits and havarti cheese

Snack
2 slices sliced chicken breast with slice of cheese

Lunch
OMG>>>turkey soup! gott get rid of it...
green tea

Dinner
roast beef.
creamed cauliflower
broccoli

Snack

sf Jello


gotta get more water in.....I hate drinking it past eight pm but thats when i get the snackies and I drink water to stave them off then i have to wake up at 4 am to go pee and I hate that!!

Have a great LC day all and keep smiling!!

[PJMS]

Okay Okay ..........I missed a few post days!!! Im bad!!
I havent cheated or anything, just think I was fed up for a bit. you see the scale hasnt budged and i was getting very discouraged. I went into CCL today and posted for the first time and now I feel a bit better.

Went out for supper on Sat nite with my gf and her hubby and my DH and drank soda water. they all wondered if i was sick!! said i was feeling under the weathere. which i actually was . am! must be the fact that winter is fast approaching... hate winter.

Saw a great post today on here where she lost 106 pds! I thought that was truly amazing she looked so totally different.....I want to be that some day.......an after picture. way too grossed out with this before right now.sigh.....

Menu for today is and was...

Breakfast
2 eggs
4 strips bacon
2 cups green tea

Lunch
taco salad . ( it was yummy)
tea

Supper
pork loin roast
cauliflower

Snacks
maybe a handful of walnuts
strawberrys

need to lower my sodium levels, that will be hard, i love salt.....this could be why i am not losing.

Well i am just gonna keep at it and get er done!!

gonna finish folding laundry then i think I will tke dog out for a run! it looks nice out today!
























































Anyway gonna keep on track. had my taco salad for lunch and feel full. thats a good thing...

[PJMS]

sooooooooooooooooo!!! back again to me journal. its bveen absolutely crazy here. i ususally have time to post on the non-cheaters theread at the Loungue but thats it. today i thought i would get on and just weite about whats been going on here lately.

For number one I fell so tired and should go back to sleep for a bit.its just stress and thats how it works on me.... I have been good with no cheats with one exception when i had nothing else to eat but a wholwheat wrap at the hospital....the weight is slowly deciding to leave but ever so sloiwly this time. I have put myself on the M/E diet for three days. due to the fact that I really dont want to think about planning menus and i also need to give my metabolism a good kick in the rump!!

For the past few weeks we have been running around to different docters with my MIL she had a lump on her thyroid. had it aspirated, it was inconclusive. went tothe surgeon he said if it wasnt bothering her we could leave it for six months, she said nop take it out.....she has ben thru cancer before and didnt want to leave it just in case. well she was right not to leave it. she went in on Monday. the operation took 2 hours longer and yes it was cancer. it had already started to trvel down to her esophagus!! so we cught it!! Thank GOD! she is 76 and quite the spunky chicky and my kids love her to pieces.....now she stays in hospital till Sat. due to the fact that she is not allowed to eat till Thursday. the surgeon said he had to scrap quite a bit on her esophagus.........soooooo now.......we wait. till she has her radioactive therapy in six weks. then she has a body scan to see if those nasty cancer cells decided to move house. we are hoping that they are all gone!! .......the great thing about all of this is that i didnt turn to food to get me through. i just forgot to eat. or missed a meal or two or ate later than ususual.....thats ok. no cheats..

I know she will be fine and I know that this too will pass......and I will try to not get too discouraged about the slowness of my weight coming off...I read so many great posts in here that it really helps me stay focused and some of them give me a giggle.......

I am going to try to stick with this journal and write down more of what I am feeling cause it really does help.......
and be happy one and all!!

[PJMS]

Thursday already!! damn where does the time go!! Visited MIL from 2-6 yesterday. shes bored and we got to catch up on some gossipy stuff. she looks great and is on puddings only. today she gets mashed potatoes!! she is all excited about that............today I am sticking to the M/E fast. did well with it yesterday. i have to knock my big butt into ketosis...

I am eating basically sausages eggs shrimp beef chicken . did i say eggs!
Not overly hungry and i hope to see some weight loss by Friday.....

Not seeing MIL until tonite I have pottery today I made a fantastic orgnic vase, my instructor said i was able to listen to the clay// what a hoot
here i am just thinking this hey this is looking kinda funky!!
Gonna see if they fired it okay and not knocked off any bits. I made it a little high...maybe when i glaze it ai will take a pic of it and post it on here...see my genius at work

This weekend my DD goes on her survival trip with cadets and my DS has a big football game. so it will be quiet and busy at the same time. MIL gets out on Saturday so things need to be co-ordinated big time.. Halloweeny is here on Monday and yup I am stuck doling out the treats. unfortunately i wanted to be in the 230s by then didnt happen.. Not going to eat any treats!!nope nope nope, a minute on the lips means a lifetime on me hips!!
I am losing so slowly. the inches are dropping but the pounds just arent moving!! oh well i cant give up. its just not an option this time!!!

I went into Alliecats website and then bookmarked it. she is a fantastic inspiration for me.. her website is so motivational......I owe her a big thankyou.... I keep thinking i want to know what its like to be healthy and thin in this world.and I want others to see me do this so they know that they can too....I so want to be an after picture.....

Be happy everyone...........life is for the living . so go out and live!!!

[PJMS]

TGIF!!!!! It has been a whirlwind of a week here.....Halloweeny is just around the corner and I found out yesterday that my MIL will be staying with us for a couple of days after she gets out of the hospital. no biggy, but puts a cramp in my days. she really is no trouble and just lets me get on with whatever i need doing.......and I need to get in some grocerys for just her she is still on soft foods.

Still on M/e and I have lost 2 pds. not putting it in siggy until tomorrow want to make sure its right!! I just want to get the hell out of the 240s looking at that number is so depressing. I think I will stay on M/E for a bit longer not finding it hard at all and actually losing!!! I will see what the weekend brings, if we have company I dont want them looking at me like your just having meat for supper??? Not thats its any of their business anyway. I know I have a pumpkin craving party on Sunday so will have to be careful . its potluck. I am thinking of bringing quiche the crust being grated cheese that should go over nicely

I havent bought any Hallowe'en candy yet i usually go to Costco and just buy two boxes of reg size choc bars hate giving out those lil thangs you end up giving out 3 or 4 per child anyway! I will pick these up Sunday nite. keeping it out of the house for as long as possible. the true test will be the days following hallowe'en my DS will have tons of bad stuff around...so if i lurk more on the boards its just to keep me away form all that crap.. methinks vanilla hazelnut tea will be my saviour !!!

Today its finally sunny here its been so gloomy for about a week now so heading outside later to winterize the garden and clean of the deck. DH has almost finished our huge fence so dog is out all the time now. I should take the dog out for a run. we are so lucky here we are surrounded by conservation lands so we have great walking trails. might be nice to look at the changing leaves and get some excercise as well....can only help..

Keep Smiling one and all!!

[PJMS]

Just had a couple of very busy days!! MIL stayed with us and after she got out of hospital and of course Halloween! Made it hru Halloween with no choclate. thats a real biggy for me I am a choclate addict extrodinaire!!

MIL has just gone home and I just decided to measure my self. inches are definitely falling off. even MIL asked me if I have lost weight!! Hmmm I wonder if my damn scale is not working properly??? Wouldnt that be cool it it was actually way lower than I thought!! but hey not going to get caught up in the mnumbers I am going by clothing and how I feel... I feel good so thats okay..........

I am eating clean with the exception of a glass of wine now and again....I feel clearer headed and even thought i am tired in the am after my tea I have tons of energy and dont have the drowsy s during the day. soo this shows me that there are many benefirs to this WOE..........

I have made myself a promise that thru thei weight loss period of my life that I am not going to get humg up on what others are able to accomplish in short time periods. these boards are great but somtimes and its only human nature I get jealous of those that make it seem effortless fot weight to come off...I dont crave sweets and stay clean yet it just doesnt fall off me at the same rate....we are all different

Well its a beautiful day here and I think I am going out to plant my bulbs and take dog out for a run in the woods. it will do us both good!!

Keep smiling one and all:

[tiggy_oz]

wow thats totally awesome you didnt cave at halloween! I salute ya! Glad to hear your MIL went on her gut instinct and had that lump removed *hugs*, hope she's back to her spunky self soon.

Go with the inches . Scale numbers are nice to see em drop but really - the inches is where it counts. Your rocking this thing! I to get that jealous thing with fast losers cos i am slow and molasses normally but, yup, no point getting discouraged, - ty for reminding me of this .

You will have to post a pic of your pottery when you've got it all glazed up. Listen to the clay hehe

[PJMS]

K I am back!! I havent journaled in a while....I think I have been depressed about the slowness of my weight loss I have just been reading the boards and getting myself inspired. I am still on plan I am watching my sodium intake a lot more and I have started taking Cq10........with the hopes that it will break me out of this slow metabolism and also to protect my body from all the crap that I once gave it. It is a great antioxidant and protector for the immune system...and has heart benefits and that cant hurt!!

MIL is sicker than what was currently thought...another reason I havent posted in my journal. I guess I had to come to grips with it before I wrote it down. She has Anapalastic Throid Cancer and is starting radiation treatments Dec 1 for 6 weeks....due to her age prognosis sucks!!! I am hoping that the radiation slows this Ca Demon down it apparently is very aggressive... sigh.........She is like my second mom..

Well all i can do is be there to support her I will be going to the radiation treatments with her.. she has 3 sons one being my DH. who is having a hard time with this too....... and I am the only Daughter in law that she trusts implicitly..........so moaning about my slow weight loss is somewhat miniscule in the grand scheme of things....

Anyway I will post more often here because I think this will be a great sounding board for me in all of this....

Tiggy Oz ......I will post a pic of some pottery soon. waiting with bated breath for this vase to be fired it was such a pain in the behind to glaze i think my instructor was ready to kill me Well she should have instructed me to not make it so gosh darn big!!

BTW I hope you all Had a great thanksgiving...( ours was in October)whats with that!

[PJMS]

Posting todays Menu,,,,,, keeping it real!

Brekfast was 2 eggs scrambled and 3 slices bacon
coffee with splenda

Lunch Salad with bacon bits and cheese with ranch dressing
Soda water almost have drank the litre....it has no soium in it so no extra salt

Supper
Leftover pork roast and snashed up cauliflower with butter...

Made a promise to myself not to drink any alcohol till DH big Christmas shin dig on Dec 9th..........I drink wine way too often. he makes it so it is way too available.........I would love to lose at least 2 more pounds before it.....Also was reading some journals in here and wow they are so inspiring!!!One actually has made me want to start an excercise program. I have this state of the art treadmill gathering dust in the family room that screams at me every time i look at the damn thing!! Time to get a wee bit more serious here methinks...... also might be a great way to destress.....keep my mind of that big Mac that lurks in my head. its really the only thing that I miss! weird . not like I ate many of them anyway.....Its freezing cold here today but the sun is shining..gonna do the lunch thang now..

[cdn_gal]

keep my mind of that big Mac that lurks in my head. its really the only thing that I miss! weird . not like I ate many of them anyway...

If you want one, then have one... Make it yourself though, with a low carb hamberger bun, found in the recipe section, and put your own goodies on it <lettuce, cheese, whatever LC thing you can think of>.... I found this satisfies my cravings, and it's almost like the real thing... Even have the juices running down your arms... And if you want fries with it, cut up some turnips like fries, and deep fry them, or bake them with some seasoning salt...Yummyyy... Think I'll go have one now.... KUTGW!!!.....Lei

[PJMS]

Hi Lei

TY for the suggestion, turnip fries, hmmmm they sound good I love turnip,do you think i could do them in the deep fryer on the frie cycle?......I noticed in Pooticus' journal a recipe for Thousand Island dressing just like mcky ds only LC.... might try that too!!!

[cdn_gal]

do you think i could do them in the deep fryer on the frie cycle?....

You sure can, thats how I cook them....And they are so yummy!!.... Some bake them in the oven, to avoid all the extra fat, but I dont worry bout things like that, as I dont have much fat in my daily diet.... Happy testing!!....

[PJMS]

What a total dufus!!! am I!!!!!! I forgot today was my sisters moving day and Dh went to work this am unusual for him. damn!!!!! and I have no way of getting to her. going to sound the nieghbour alarm...... How could I forget this!!!so angry with myself. she has only the guys from the truck! Now I know I am stressed I never forget things like this!!!

I f i take my son and his friend that should help they are the size and strength of men. damn!!!

Oh well gotta fix this some how......

Todays menu looks like this.

2 eggs
4 srips bacon
4 mini sizzlers
black coffee with splenda

Lunch probably nothing due to sisters
Diet coke

Dinner
Dh is making Steak and we will have salad

I was good last nite and didnt imbibe in alchohol at the club, had two diet pepsi instead.......on Sat andTuesday i think i will just do soda water with lime, cut back on the aspartame.....tomorrow I am out all day at a Winterlude Spiel. I will be good and stick to plan and start the soda water thang .....

Gotta run...gotta a mess to fix!!